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ONE MORE PAPER TO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I kinda just screwed up my family paper but I wasn't really sad which kinda shocked me! Of course I'm affected cause' I kinda answered the whole of the question wrongly but I'm not as sad as Cynthia and I wonder why. But if I were in her shoes it would have mattered more cause' there's a possibility of dropping to the next class of honors but I think she won't do that badly laaaaa cause' she's with the zai group for the group paper HAA! Anyway silly girl, I don't think you'll be reading this but I'm so sorry I called you. I thought you might want to know the correct answer yea? Hmm, at least now we know what's the family reconstruction proces?? Not too late right since it might be useful in the future? HUGS!

My heck care attitude may be because a 3.5 and a 3.99 make no difference; or maybe other modules don't matter anymore since I only wanted to do well for my ISM (which is like impossible already)? Baa who cares! Just freaking graduate!

PS: Ben I know your cognitive appraisals la just like to make fun of you can anot! Per per per per per to you and ^5 to Lily!

One strike and you're out. Sucks how life is like that! Hmm but I felt better after talking to Wee, and I always feel this way. And I'm so glad I'm meeting the musketeers tomorrow and other crazy SW people! (:

0 and I'll still get 3.5! Whee bejeweled bejeweled bejeweled!

Ahmad's choreo is really nice but I kinda stoned towards the end cause' I was too tired! Learning his choreo after 2 classes is no joke especially since Sheila's was also challenging with her usual 'taktaktaktaktak' stuff!

My classmates are really sweet! The turtles who kept nagging me to stop doing the comm essay and study for my reprohealth exams, plice who kept me in his prayers, ben who always accompany me to school, sam who will go to the doctor with me if I fall sick yadayada.. ya get the picta yo 'ssup (sam I suck at this!)

Reprohealth was ok! I just need to get a pass and I think I should be able pass it! Hais, if my essay wasn't B I would have worked harder cause' I am confident that I can get a good grade for the exams! Too bad! Life don't always go the way you want it! And I'm already lucky that I'm able to do majority of the questions since I was playing bejeweled half of my revision time and I was left with 5 freaking sets of notes at 10am in the morning! Gee lucky me!

Anyway I'm peeling and Terence said I'm gonna get permanent marks so I should hurry apply moisturiser (womaniser, maximiser, organiser)to hydrate my skin. If you're reading this, YOU'RE SUPER VAIN AND GAY CAN, but I'm scared so I'll do what you say ): Willie calls me black face when he's so tanned himself, life sucks!

I've been really slacking/dancing/playing/rotting my life away since it's the last semester. It's bad but it's the FREAKING LAST SEMESTER AND WE WILL NEVER GET TO DO ALL THESE CRAZY STUFF WHEN WE GO TO WORK!If I go to school tomorrow, it's to play, watch the special areas videos, chitchat and stuff! Judge all you want Williestongs!

Super random post with no coherence at all! And I've decided I want Laguna Redang Resort instead of Redang Beach Resort even though the price is steeper!

I am now in school. Rushing like crazy with Cher and Bav for our ISM. Even though I have to make like super alot of changes after the demoralising comments I got from Ivan, I decided to really try my best and just do it. He even told me there's no time for major changes so it's fine if I just make the minor ones, but of course I won't get a good grade cause' the paper is too descriptive. I'm feeling better already since afternoon when I was all ready to go for Fong's match when I received Ivan's sms and it's really all thanks to my dear Lily,Ben,SNTM,Cher,SallyandWillie for the encouragement and help. It also helps that I'm in school now so I don't feel so helpless cause' I know Cher and Bav is just there should I need to ask anything.

Hais, why can't I be smarter? I wonder how different my life would be.. seriously..

And I know it's not about grades. But it really sucks to do badly for your ISM.

of course I'm demoralised.. and I feel like I can't inject anything new into my paper anymore. I'm really thankful for Lily's comments. It really helped alot. I'm really touched that she actually read through my paper and patiently told me what the problems are and helped me think of a way to modify my framework. But I know it is impossible for me to change my paper within 2 days and do my family paper as well.

Anyway Willie said it doesn't matter anyway and since there's nothing I can do I should just not do anything. As long as I tried my best. It's just sad and I hate to give up. I would do anything in my ability these 2 days to improve on my paper if not I can't hand in my paper telling myself I put in my best effort.

Jiayou! To me and to all my fellow ISM-ers!

My april fool joke. To ensure anonymity, personal identifiers are not revealed and pseudonyms are used!

My sms says:
Hey sorry i just need to tell someone.. I really cant take it anymore..I really am very stress over ISM n it's killing me. I mena i never ever felt this way.. Blame it on my poor coping but i feel really lousy.I cut myself n i feel better but it feels wrong..Help me..

"Oh gosh.. You okay? I know it's tough but just hang in there! How is it so far? Don't worry.. I can help!" - Ben

"eleen.stop whatever you're doing. go and sleep. your brain is not working already. let me see your ism k? i promise this will all turn out ok." - P.Lice

"Oh no.. how are things now? How's it coming along? I know it's damn useless saying this, but don't be stress okay? It's just a paper.. don't cut yourself over it.. it's not worth it! maybe if it gets really bad, you can maybe cut some vegetables instead? Anw..is there anything i can do to help you with your paper?" - SNTM

"Hey dear, i'm glad you told me because help-seeking is the first step to better coping :) i understand how you feel about the cutting part and i won't judge you so i hope you won't blame judge for doing so..there is no problem that cannot besolved, and if you allow me to, i can sit down with you to work thru your ism..there is still one more week, and you have written a 5000 word essay in one night before (geron) so you are capable of doing it..but maybe the stress could be giving you a mental block..okies i hope you don't see this as solely reframing but my zhong dian is i'm here to help!:)

(2nd sms) Anyway let me know when you're awake!i call you okay!" - Lily

I replied (immediately cause' I was afraid that they might be mad):
HAPPY APRIL FOOLS! Omg dont hate me! I love u ok? :)

"IM GOING TO KILL YOU. no wonder it totally doesn't sound like you.. but i also cant ask. Den i kept thinking since when you like tt. XIA SI WO CAN. And you gg school now ah? I totally cant sleep well man. Haha." - Ben

"freak. to think i jumped out of bed for you. my hear stopped. freak. i'm bloody disgusted with myself" - P.Lice

"Haha if i really believed you i'd go to your house and help you cut yourself man. Anw how's it coming along?!" - SNTM

HAAAAA damn boliaolianbeng! Back to my discussion section!! ARGH! JIAYOU EVERYBODY!!!!!!!!!!!!! DONT GIVE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!