Tuesday, June 23, 2015
6/23/2015 03:41:00 AM
How time flies. I have read all of my blog posts since 2004. All my writings in 10 years...how i wish I can put them as a diary..and I will love to cherish them in rooms. .when I'm old..I will take it out to read..and reminisce what I did, dreamt and pray and wish for. Those were my yesteryear. Suddenly now I felt myself in tears. It is like 10 yrs...so much time..but I don't see myself getting what I wanted. I need to work harder. I read every promise I said to myself and those pictures I thought I will never see them again. Now I have..I will not look back..today is the day I reborn as the hunger for money hunger for shape and the hunger queen will comeback in a way you can't imagine...I can't describe what kind of relationship we have..It just seems so weird and screwed up. It is like a forbidden chain of yesteryear feelings. I can't even trust him with his words but I know...its gone. We couldn't never ever go back the same way. 10 years has taken its toil on this..even god can't reverse it. Sometimes I feel I'm like a total bitch. Feeling Karma has got him right when it hurts the most for him. And secretly teasing or jokes with it. But I know a very very special place in my heart will always belong to him..and no matter how far we have drifted..He sure know how to cheer me up or even make me smile when I'm actually angry..so far he has only been the one who could do for me...or maybe I should leave the option open ever since muscle man left. Ah muscleman was such great influence I forgot. A very very special someone too but I failed to charm him over...now everyday I snoop Facebook..its all him...I should stop lamenting how I lost love. Love will find me once again knowing I have walked down 10 years of heartbroken & fearful nights.
~ let it be! i need a breather anyway.
Wednesday, July 24, 2013
7/24/2013 02:38:00 PM
it's been really long time since I last blogged. I feel happy whenever I write; I can express myself with no secrets hidden. All this while, it has been crappy.
All I wanna do is jump in clear blue sea, float watching the sun set..and the next day continues...No one bothers me..no thing bothers me...
I really need a life back without you. Today, is the last day I will even think of sms-ing you again. I need happiness in my life, without feeling broken every night before I sleep. I need you to be out of my life for now...
~ let it be! i need a breather anyway.
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
1/07/2009 11:03:00 PM
I'm jobless and money-less. How i wish my worries could be lesser!
hehe!
2009 has finally rushed in, like a crazy bull! Jobs are getting lesser every day, and the society is getting messier. Heard the news from HK today that there was this baby boy who was unfortunately born dead when delivered. When i heard about it, i already felt so sad for the baby. But the DJ continued, saying that when the parents wanted to collect the body, it went missing, and the whole hospital searched for it high and low, still unable to find it at the end...God knows what happened to the dead baby's body..! so scary..
Bird flu is on the headlines again! Avoid those high-risk places like HK, China and those around the Mainlands.. I am being bored again, but then again, I need to nourish my mind before I can hit the right job!
U see it's important, if my interviewer asks me about current affairs and all i know is Zhang Ziyi and her fiance flirting on the beach, I could just go back and eat my shoes.
Have been doing nothing, shaking legs over the festive period. Now i realise if i sleep at normal night time, i can only sleep up to 5 hrs max. eg, 3am sleep, I will wake up 8am. Should I not sleep at night so my sleep quantity could be extended? Sometimes it's just so bored doing nothing during the day..
Received so much for Christmas!
List:
A bagful of manicure must-have, flown from Korea --Y
A cardholder and a precious thoughts fridge magnet --M
A ebi tempura wristrest cum screencleaner - XY
A apple-flavour lip balm - XX-WH--complicated story..
A Hello Kitty mirror - JW
A key holder - Sis
A body lotion that cures my sleepless nights - JN
A silver eyeliner - CL!!
yummy log cakes, warm hugs, laughter, cheers and jokes were unlimited though =P
I was so happy to see MZ that day while shopping for presents, gave her a big big hug. must had scared the hell of her when i AHEMed at her over the shoulder...hehe..so long never see, see liao never see me..i will be mad..
As usual, I would spend my festive occasions with my favourite hobby, mahjong. Mahjong is my second life, without her company, I am shallow and bored to tears =)
Xmas -- I played from 24th to 25th, with XY,XX and WH. It was very fun~~ We went to fetch XX from T3 cos she came back from a student exchange from TW. Had our dinner at her place, had 3 large home-packed po piah, I was too hungry and busy so I never had any photos taken. Watched little nonya then headed to my place. JW was busy partying with her fren, drinking red wine so I ruled the room for that night, hehehe. I remembered I played until quite late and lost one dollar, ha!
26, 27, 28,29 and 30 --- Viwawa!!! hehe I am such a regular...Find me on Channel C/D! almondie. okie ppl have been telling me that it's a bad-luck name cos how can u have 'die' when u gamble!?! but mahjong is not gambling and my nick is special =D Viwawa let u change nickname for $1. Bite me first.
31st -- This is the first time I went for Rong yee's uncle's house for countdown party~~~ It was at Lentor Place, somewhere close to AMK. Nice and comfy landed property, mainly I felt the host and hostess were very friendly, warm and interesting characters. We ate, laughed and played with kids before my buttock was stuck infront of the TV for little Nonya. It was mahjong time till 12am~ I was figdeting with the sparkling wine b4 12am and my butterfly fingers gave way and the whole bottle dropped to the grass patch. There go the Pop! The boys were very spontaneous and exclaimed Happy New Year in fear of my humililation! All thanks to them~~
We said byebye at about 2am and continued to play at Rong yee's place until 1pm. Yes 1pm in the afternoon, only toilet breaks ok! We played for 4 rounds, 1 round being 16 times. I reached home and slept from 3pm to 8pm. JW came back and said JN and L wanna play mahjong...so i said yes..let's play..and we played 2 rounds..and lost $60 over. ..=( So in total I played 6 rounds..you do the maths! more than 100 rounds...
that's quite summed up my holidays!
~ let it be! i need a breather anyway.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
11/26/2008 04:15:00 PM
Everything is out of shape. But i hope it's just temporary. I keep telling myself, this is only temporary, temporary.. See the news also reported that economy may be able to pick itself up in 18 months time..so I am trying very hard to convince myself. But the fact is cruel, especially when it's close to the end of the month. Trying to chill at home with all my bills facing down or near the stove.
Nothing seems to work for me. I don't seem to be myself lately.
I have lost my way.
~ let it be! i need a breather anyway.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
11/11/2008 04:07:00 AM
~ let it be! i need a breather anyway.
