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i feel like an a-hole.

oh nevermind, let me laugh it off.

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i asked dad on how to switch the viewing mode to HD but he said it's already in HD mode. i think my eyes are playing tricks on me, it doesn't look clear enough. i need coke, a good meal at Newton and probably just some time alone outside. i need to get a new mouse because touchpads are a bitch and i feel lazy trying to navigate my cursor using my fingers. it stalls as and when it likes and i don't fancy dealing with such stuffs that will make me feel frustrated. i feel like eating chocolate cake, a good fudge cake i saw at some cooking magazine my mom just bought. i can eat fried fish soup again tomorrow, just as what i like it to be. if my cats were ever to go missing forever or die, i'll cry my eyes out and probably not eat for a few days. i hate fashion whores. just shut the fuck up.

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am i that horrible?

i want effy's hair, looks so luscious and girly too. the condition of my hair seems to be like a broom with my awkward looking hair colour destroying what i used to be obsessed about at one point.

fuckers. i should cut down on my gibberish expletives. what with the people that i'm mixing around who are so much into gossip girl, 90210 and skins makes it more distracting and difficult for me to even stop. to think the ones watching are boys... hahaha!

i honestly do not know what to do for my holidays. 3 months worth of burning...i'd probably kill myself. for now, i should really stop listening to pat benatar for bloody mary's sake.

it's been momentarily nice to know that i spent my second semester with a bunch of people that i'll never fail to feel right at home. i'm not going to lament further but it's the end of my year one already. if you're familiar with my school's system, we change classes every semester in order to experience the whole concept of working with different kinds of people. i'm sad to leave E35C, wouldn't lie about it but i sincerely hope that we would still meet up with one another in the future.

anyway, my sister bought jelly beans and i'm amazed at how much the flavours have been improvised. i could really feel the buttery taste of the popcorn! i had my dad to guess the flavour and he just smirked because he couldn't point his finger at what it tasted like although it seem familiar to him.

i feel good at home. :)

i vehemently hate the internet. the internet fucks you up, you see things that you don't want to see.

but then again, what are we when we don't have the internet? what world would we be walking on if we don't check e-mails, don't have an account for social networking, don't have the search engine to look up for information at your fingertips or even to satisfy your sexual needs... we're losers. dead end, no objective, just nothing.

i am bored. i hate the internet. i'm so fucking dependent on it that a few hours without it kills. sometimes i wish i can enter a room with white washed walls, glass doors and bright lights with a grinned face surgeon looking at me and ask, "now there, look what we have here? what is it that you don't like about yourself?" and i'd go, "i want my palms to be fixed with a mini gadget that owns a qwerty pad and an internet device for me surf all day long. make sure i don't get electrocuted, that's all".

har har har i amused myself. this is lame. whhhy the fuck am i typing all this out anyway?

... if you still can't figure what this is all about, well, i just want a smart phone. no iPhone please.