I'm moving :) This time it'll be private.

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Ok seriously stop asking me for my new lj -.-
trickortreaat.lj THERE YOU GO. Gosh it was supposed to be private haha!

4 more chapters of biology to go (:
I DREAD GEOG I DREAD GEOG I DREAD GEOG I get so nervous and horrified every single time I think about it :( I definitely dont have enough time to study for everything and I know I have my chinese as my h1 but still.. I WANT TO PASS EVERYTHING :(

Talking to denisey and eunice gave me this warm tingly feeling. OOOOOO I LIKE :D

I think like the only thing I ask for in a friend is trust. If I trust you enough to tell you stuff, please dont make me regret my decision. Thank you :)

Morningggg :)
Haha, I made the previous post FO, I think it was a teeny weeny too depressing. I seriously dont want to be reminded of how I felt last night. The feeling wasnt good at alllll :(

Joel's such an ass he keeps nagging at me! Hahaha kidding. I dont care if you taught me how to play minesweeper flags or not, you still sound like a duck! And anyways I still got owned by zach after that so YOU'RE A LOUSY TEACHER. I think if I were them I would have annoyed myself because I was being such an irritating person, constantly asking about how to play the freaking game. But at least now I have a game that I hate the most :) IT'S SO HARD and stressful, I tried so hard to visualise where the flags are like really really hard before each move but then.. I still sucked. Zach's an ass he got like so many more flags than me :( HIS CHINESE IS FUNNY THOUGH HAHAHAHAH ok I wont be mean I wont be mean I wont be mean :)

I'll try really hard not to think about other stuff when I'm amidst this promos shit, thats what everyone keeps telling me and I will do just that :) At least I'll try really really reaaallllyyyyy hard! Denisey told me to trust myself yesterday. I will. Thank you, that was just the confirmation I needed to hear. You still know me best <3

EUNICE MY PARENTS ARE BACK, I think like no more late night chats no more :( Its ok we wont distance, right? What we have is so much more than that :) My parents bought back so much stuff! Haha :D I know I probably wont get to stay up late to study/chat anymore but on a happier note, I dont have to do any more chores! YAYYYYY :D I'll pray really hard that despite the lack of the usual chats, I wont distance from a couple of my friends.

Cant wait for post-promos. Flunking or not, I'll be glad when everything is over. THEN I'LL GET TO MEET UP WITH ALL MY FRIENDS TO GO TO THE ZOO (HAHAHA), WATCH MOVIES, SLEEPOVERS AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, SHOPPINGGGGGG! Although seriously I havent stopped online shopping but.. Its different!

Its bio time. I'm gonna freaking try to memorise EVERY SINGLE DETAIL of photosynthesis and evolution. I'll just go easy on the rest :)

You used to talk to me like I was the only one around

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I feel so insecure about many many things now. I dont know why, I think I should stop letting minor things affect me so much.

Hi * I miss you and I need to talk to you so I'm gonna take a chance.


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Hello everybody GOOD LUCK FOR PROMOS :)

Miss Yu called my parents this morning -.- HELLO THEY'RE ON VACATION but anyways my dad called me for like what, an insane 5 times, which obviously woke me up and asked me about it. Gosh I swear I have such kuku parents HAHA I told them that I'm not going to school on tues when they called and they comprehended it as I have no school. LOL seriouslyyyy, so I told my dad school was useless and anyways, I was and STILL AM sniffing/coughing like some mad person so I went to see the doctor. Now I have my mc and doctor's memo :) My form teacher can be so annoying at times, she said I didnt tell her that I was sick -.- I TEXTED HER YESTERDAY and told her that I had a fever (zomg) and she even replied me. She called shuqi's parents too (LOL) and the two of us were complaining about her on the phone afters. It was quite funny actually HAHA :D Shuqi said miss yu told her mum that we would get some warning letter from the dm or something but seriously, get a warning letter for being sick? Sniff snifffff I'm so horrified.

HAHAH ok I'll shut up.

I think I'm really stupid I didnt realise that chem was my last paper till yesterday. I was wondering how come no one was mugging for it except for me! AHHH annoying. But anyways went out to study alone at some macs nearby, finished like 9 chapters of chem. Joy!! There was a whole lot of sec school ah bengs and ah lians though, annoying!! They just kept blasting their cheena music. There was this bunch of them who talked to me -.- They have to be really stupid because the first thing one of them asked was: What are you doing? Studying? NO STUPID I AM NOT STUDYING MY NOTES ARE LAID OUT INFRONT OF ME BECAUSE THEY ARE SO NICE TO LOOK AT, ALL THOSE NICE AND LONG SENTENCES. I refused to reply them so they just kept talking and I just kept staring at them with an irritated face haha! In the end they said something like ok time for us to go and I just went like, ok, and continued to do my work. HAHA yay I'm so sociable.

I have to finish at least 5 of bio today. Which means no more neopets :( SIGH I lead such a depressing life. Haha! :) I know I dont show it but I am seriously really worried about my geography. I know I have chinese as my h1 but still.. I know nothing about all the rocks mountains shit. Shouldnt have taken geog, I am how stupid to think that I can handle it when I only took elec geog in sec school. HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT. Should have taken lit since I'm so good at composing poems HAHAHAHA kidding I'll probably flunk that subject too so I'LL JUST DO MY BEST FOR GEOG.

GP tomorrow, in case you guys didnt know, I hate gp and I cant do gp essays for nuts. I'm gonna read like all the gp essay revision notes later. I hope they help because my essays totally suck. They lack analysis and my mind isnt broad enough to think of all the different points linked to my question. Chinese chinese chinese I hope I dont fall asleep halfway through it cause I can totally foresee me snoring away HAHA :D

I'm so used to late night chats recently. I think its gonna feel really empty when my parents come back home (THIS SAT) and they refuse to let me go online late at night anymore because they are strangely old-fashioned and they think that going online at such a late time will lead to me falling sick. Ok whatever you say man. Hahah but seriouslyyyy, I dont really look forward to the stop of all these late night chats because they have really pulled me closer to some of my friends.

I'm really afraid that I'll start to distance myself from these two people I always talk to at night recently. Best friends or not, it almost seems wrong to not talk to them at night :( :(

For now, time to continue with bio.
HAVE FAITHHHHHH.

I just did something bad. I mean at least to me its really really bad AND I FEEL SO HORRIBLE BOUT IT NOW! :( I hope it doesnt change anything, I dont want it to change anything.

Man I hate myself so much at times. I totally give in to persuasion all of the time.
AHHHH I FEEL LIKE AS IF I'M SUCH A BAD FRIEND.

/edit, 5.45am.

No, I am not online because I've been playing. I've been doing math for the whole night and I'm having a headache now :( I know its time for me to catch up on my sleep but I cant bring myself to stop studying. I gotta promote I gotta promote I HAVE GOT TO PROMOTEEEEEEEEEE and frankly speaking although I dont see much of a chance there, I refuse to give in!! I'll mug my ass off :) EVERYBODY HANG IN THERE!!! If you're really stressed, its time to go out there for a run people (yes despite the hot hot sun) :)

Please give me strength to get through the promos.

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I saw fishy yesterday afternoon. Turned out that he took the wrong side of the train, haha! But I'll say its fate. I missed him so much <3

Last night was the best. At bukit timah shuqi and me went mad. We were on a mission but we failed again BY A BORDERLINE MARGIN. That makes two failures!! Never mind our third attempt (HAHA) will succeed! We missed yanxun's bus stop cause we were too busy laughing :) Dropped at the one after, ran across the road screaming, took a bus back only to realise that yanxun's house was on the other side of the road HAHAHAH and since there was a fence thingy in the middle of the road, US, BEING SMART, DECIDED TO CLIMB ACROSS THE FENCE LOL! It was a horrifying/fun experience and while we were climbing, we got honked by this driver who stared really fiercely at us :( Sorrryyyyyy the both of us were really too high :D Shuqi lost her balance, HOPE YOUR LEG SERIOUSLY ISNT SPRAINED!! Headed to yanxun's house (who was laughing like mad at us) and I swear HE IS FREAKING MUSICALLY TALENTED!! No sarcasm intended, I mean it! Headed home and reached home around 12. Watched videos, laughed like mad, slept at 3.30am, woke up late this morning, cabbed to school, was supposed to be late but it rained so we weren't considered late, skipped a couple of lectures to catch up on our sleep, stoned for the rest of the day, came home, slept, did chinese zuowen (MY STORYLINE IS DAMN NICE OK) and here I am :) I'll go finish up my math revision paper 3 later before sleeping!

Laoshi told us LAST MINUTE there's a test tomorrow on cheng yu and stuff. So far, I dont think the class cares cause many people planned to skip school beforehand HAHAH :D

Last words I have to say? Don't ever sleep after 3am, you'll probably be half-dead in school like shuqi and me :)
STUDY HARD!

EVERYBODY I AM GOING TO TELL YOU GUYS ABOUT THE CHRONICLES OF THE FREAKING COCKROACH!!!!!!! It was like the scariest incident I've ever had in ages!!!! :( :( :( My entry title is like HOW APPROPRIATE the encounter with the cockroach IS a quarter life crisis!!! Hahahaha omg I am so overreacting ;D

Ok last night when hardowrking me was doing my maths in the wee hours of the morning, I looked down and ZOMG THERE WAS THIS HUGE HUGE HUGEEEEE COCKROACH CRAWLING AROUND LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS. OMGZX YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW AFRAID I WAS I IMMEDIATELY TUCKED IN MY LEGS AND THEN I DECIDED TO STAND ON MY CHAIR. WOW I MUST HAVE REALLY LOOKED DAMN STUPIDDDDDDDDD AND THEN AFTER THAT WHEN THE FREAKING COCKROACH REAPPEARED I HOPPED ONTO MY STUDY TABLE! DITTO HERE, I MUST HAVE LOOKED LIKE SOME CRAZY GIRL. I TRIED TO CAPTURE THE UGLY THING WITH A BOX (WTF?!??!) BUT APPARENTLY MY AIMING SUCKS TO THE EXTENT THAT I TOTALLY DIDNT MANAGE TO ACCOMPLISH MY MISSION BECAUSE WHEN I THREW THE BOX ON THE COCKROACH, IT DIDNT COVER IT, THE ANNOYING BOX HIT THE COCKROACH AND THE COCKROACH STARTED TO RUN AWAY LIKE REALLY QUICKLY. IN THE BLINK OF AN EYE IT WAS GONE, LEAVING ME STANDING ON MY TABLE STILL LOOKING LIKE AN IDIOT.

SO I CALLED NAT AND HE DIDNT HELP AT ALL HE JUST KEPT LAUGHING TO HIMSELF ABOUT HIS STUPID DOTA GAME AND SERIOUSLY I WAS SO TERRIFIED I RAN TO MY ROOM AND WORE MY COMFY SLIPPERS AND STARTED TO WALK AROUND THE HOUSE TO PREPARE FOR BEDTIME. YOU SHOULD HAVE SEEN THE WAY I WAS WALKING HAHAH SERIOUSLY LIKE SOME THIEF OR SOMETHING!! SORRY I WAS IN A TERRIBLE STATE OF PARANOIA I KEPT HAVING IMAGES OF THE COCKROACH FLYING AFTER ME, AFTER WHICH ITS WHOLE FAMILY WILL FLY OUT OF NOWHERE TO ATTACK ME!! HOW SCARY HOW SCARY :( AFTER EVERYTHING I RAN ALL THE WAY TO MY ROOM, SWITCHED OFF THE LIGHTS AND HOPPED ONTO MY BED, SAFE AND SOUND :D:D:D:D:D:D

You know whaaaaat, I GOTTA BE BRAVE I GOTTA BE BRAVE!! So the next time I see the freaking cockroach,

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I WILL ASK LIFFY TO COME TO MY HOUSE TO HELP ME CATCH IT WHILE I CONTINUE STANDING ON MY CHAIR. HAHAHAH :)

Oh did I mention that the only reason why I was doing maths at 2am in the morning was because from 7pm to 1am, I only managed to finish one question hahahaha sorryyyyy, once again I succumbed to distractions :) But I'm a happy beanie because I managed to make one angry soccer person laugh YAY :D

Btw Sherwood is an awesome indie rock band you guys gotta listen to them! :)
Aunt's coming over to bring us out for dinner later hahaha AND SHUQI'S COMING OVER :D So I'll drag her to go for dinner with my cool family :D Eh seriously freaking cool I can go to school tmr with shuqi hahahaha maybe we can cab to school LOL :D

Bye people I'm really really happy now so I'm gonna do some chores after doing abit of maths :):):):):)

HAHAHA I came up with these on msn on impulse they're so nice :D AND NOW I'M COMPOSING LAME POEMS FOR ALL MY FRIENDS HAHAHAHAH

It's 12.25
I see a big knife
I use it to cut my pie
Which made my brother cry

It's 12.41
I see a floss bun
I want to buy a gun
For my favourite son

Its 12.52
I love my new shoe
To cook my super stew
For a handsome jew

OMG AHAHAHAHAHAHA ZACH JUST COMPOSED ONE

Its 12.53
And im a lill free
So let me go on a killin spree

Then there's this final two by Zach HAHAHAHA but the last lines are by me :D

Its 12.55
I dont lie
I'm just about to fry
A little fat guy

It's 1.02
I'm feeling kinda blue
But after talking to you
I want to get a tattoo

Seriously HAHAHAHA omg I should have taken lit! LOL

nat loves hansel and gretel
screams when he sees a petal
simply adores pink kettles
and dislikes heavy metal

zachary is so cool
he makes the others drool
he loves to sit on stools
watching liverpool

theresa is my love
she's just like my right glove
as friendly as a dove
this must be true love

joel is unoriginal
he gets too personal
he has a big abdominal
who cares he likes arsenal

when zach is on the road
he loves to come up with codes
and when the lawn is mowed
he buys a load of toads

eunice loves the loo
in the shape of a giant pooh
she is full of goo
and loves bus 302

daniel has big bowls
likes to eat black coal
he owns pink poles
with a big fat mole

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

Hello :) Oh man I dont feel really awesome but.. SCRATCH THAT EVERYTHING'S FINE NOW :)

Guess what, today during maths lesson, yanxun self-hired himself to be my psychiatrist. Hahaha he evaluated one of my friends and it was like freaking funny! What it all comes down to is that one of my friends have this inferiority complex, which of course explains the lack of decent photos of himself in his friendster :) Hahaha yanxun is so annoyingly funny. I cant stand him!!! & that is why I'm sitting down now ;D HAHAHAH gosh that was overly lame.

Shuqi and me embarked on our mission after school :D Apparently it didnt work out and now we're sad little kids :( I was so tired (2-3 hours of sleep hellooo sorry I need like 12 hours of sleep daily hahaha kiddddingggg) that I fell asleep at macs while shuqi was helping me solve some stupid summation problems. Can you believe it!! Sighhh I'll be really glad when promos are over. I seriously am going to try my best to mug really really hard.

I think like.. The two best friends I've talked to the most recently are like shuqi and eunice. And I'm glad <3

Say it like you mean it.

Talked on the phone for abit with Nat on the way home :)
Hi Nat I dont know if you'll see this but anyways I'll tell you about this later on hahaha you so have to read this. Thank you for being such a good friend and seriously you're like my best guy friend around. No matter what I say or do you're always there for me and even when I make mistakes, you always make a joke out of it and maybe you dont know it but talking to you always makes me feel a whole lot better. I dont know but its like I know that you'll always have my back no matter what. Its like I know your opinion of me will never falter because although people cant see it but I really do think that the both of us trust each other a whole lot. I think like I really tell you alot of stuff hahaha :) The weird thing is that the words flow naturally, there wasnt any plan or whatsoever to tell you about my stuff. The best thing? You never ever get angry at me despite the fact that every single time exams are around the corner, I almost always brush you off online because I have to study. Thank you so much, I never ever want the friendship we have to experience even the slightest problem because its not worth it :) And no matter how long your hair gets, I'll always always be your best friend :)

Lutfi I miss you so much. I need to talk to you about emo stuff because you always make me feel better about my problems :( And I want to listen to the problems you have because you never seem to tell me anything about yourself. You always sound sad and all on your blog and I really want to know why. & I want to help make you feel better just like the way you always make me feel happier!

Its so hard to verbalise thoughts. If you use the wrong words, it makes you seem like a total bitch. If you use hurtful words, you might lose a friend. Even if you used the correct words, no one seems to get your point.

Its a state of confusion, everyone's telling me different things, everybody's having different opinions. I need a non-biased third party view. I need someone to be completely frank, honest but yet careful with their words.

I need to start forgiving.

I have so many people I want to thank but if I list them all out, it'll probably be as long as the bible :) So I'll just end here. Thank you to everyone who cared. In other words, a big thank you to everyone who have been true. You know how people say that there can be a billion souls in the world and all you need is one?

Its true.

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road