*Originality*

I write this post knowing the few people i am commenting about would truly know its them that i am writing about and well i write this as an experience and not as a finger pointing expedition...As for those who end up thinking it's them and are not very sure, do not flatter yourself, you are not that important to me....

I have recently been looking a lot at the people around me and myself especially, am yet again at another cross-road at life where decisions are screaming at me to make a choice.. One particular decision i made is to leave my company, the number of grievances i had at that place borders on the ridiculous...I wanted to quit the minute i joined but yet i worked there for 2 years and it was really nice to leave that place but i would leave with a lot of nice colleagues and SOMe good experiences...

Love, i have to admit that recently i have been a shadow of myself, my negativity is not usual to me and maybe to those who stuck through with me... And to those who know me i have always been an advocate of love in its purest self, recently someone told me that the love i show is not pure and this came from someone i loved despite never going out once as a date, with her only once telling me she liked me and that too she retracted a few hours ago, a girl who told me everything about her even though i knew it before she did tell me, when she told me she liked someone else, with a broken heart i talked to her about him, when she broke up with him, i cajoled her to go back with him because i knew she isn't used to heartache.. I am not painting a pretty picture of myself, i am an asshole when i am mean and sometimes i push too many buttons and do not know when to let things lie.. all said and done i may be guilty on many charges but to be given a charge of impure love by my first love is well a major eye opener.. I have never replied to these accusations on me and i do not believe they merit a reply because i am shell-shocked.. :) i told my first love to go back to a guy she broke up with because i could not bear her tears and she says to me you only helped me to get a chance with me in the future.. touche..

I will not justify a reply to her and i have not started on this to publicly shame her or in actual fact myself, in fact i am grateful she did tell me this cause sometimes you see the world in your view and you do not see how the world views you.. i always for one thought she knew i always had her best interests whenever we talked or even when i advised her, i never ever thought for one single second that she would think i would exploit whatever situations we had to my own.... it was almost like a revelation to how much love can bite u in the ass... but the main reason i wrote this down is simply because my unshakable trust in Love, God died and i stopped believing.. after fighting for most of my life to help anyone around me with love and to tell everyone true love is present i guess wen my own died i stopped believing...

But today someone showed me there is true love in this world, someone made me believe again, she showed me how much her love for her bf despite the things he did to hurt her, she defined for me how much you can love someone with no scant regard for yourself, she showed me how a heart will forgive betrayal simply because it loves someone and love is pure and love can heal anything... he might not know it but he has gotten a girl who is priceless.. He is one lucky son of a gun and i really sometimes i guess envy him.. I know you know who you are.. You are someone who helped me find myself again without even realizing it and i guess i have you to thank when one day i finally smile again truly and not with a fake smile..You are a special lady and you remind me and the world that true love exists in this god-forsaken world...

So i guess this post is actually about you, is your love true? when you tell someone you love them do you really mean it?

*SANE*

*Dreams*

*directions*

*I love You Mummy*

Many people come and go in our lives but the one that moulds us into who we are and the one who loves us no matter what we do can only be our mothers.. Mothers are God's way of saying there is unconditional love in this world. I Love You Mummy


Thanks for being the one person who could take the various changes in me. I love you loads, hope you're enjoying your holiday in Bali... God Bless You.

Iris Music Video - City Of Angels

*its too late to apologise*

I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say..

That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the Angel Heaven let me think was you,
But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
Woahooo woah

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah

I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground...

*I Love Me*

Many a times i always come in here to rant and to scream out because i rather not add these kinda posts to my personal blog and i guess reading this blog has come to a shock to many as they see many sides of me that they would not have come to expect, these explosions on my blog are the many one bad days that we all have in our weeks or for the lucky some weeks...

One common thing i have always chastised is love. either i have gone all sappy and written mushy lovey-dovey words or gone on the offensive and dissed love for all it is standing for.. but one thing i guess i have learnt after all this is that i am someone who truly believes in love.. I have always loved with all my heart and never been afraid to give more than i receive...

I for a few years now have been saying that i do not believe in love anymore and how much love is a pain and so forth but i guess what really has been bothering me has been not love but people and the experiences i have faced in them, it is such a relief to finally be able to be free and to embrace the fact that i am nowhere without love... From simple things like watching an on-screen couple embrace or the shy admiration and the nervousness towards telling another love are joys all humans should face...

I watched a rom-com today, it was a no-brainer laugh along movie but the couple in it was sweet and you could feel the mood the director was trying to create... It was worth the time and it helped me appreciate the peace i have in my life now as i do not find anger and hate in everything i do or each time i am down..instead i have become slightly more positive in all that i do...

So to one and all. Smile. Life is too important to be taken seriously...