I'm once again being use. After all this time, i'm being used again. Life have being hard, i have drift away from what i used to think as "best" friends. I make new friends though but they have their own life to spend. My family matter are getting worse and worse. I'm getting again, Bad habits are coming back. i got to stop this before i turn into something i dun like or something that scare my frenz away.

I was nv close to my classmate, onli a few of them. But after this attachment i realised that even those i though are to me or i was close to was not as close as it seem to be. Always asking to kill myself is being stupid. Killing myself is not going to solve anything i know that, but at time when i really needed support i was alone. i cannot blame anyone but myself for being helpless and useless. School i'm not very good at it. Making myself sound like good is one thing, showing it is aby other thing. trying hard for something, others always say i nv jus because they nv see it with their own bloody eyes.

Earning money nw is what i need to. i need to clear my debets. but time does not allow me to do so. and my f***ing dad is getting on my argh.... i dun wan to say any more.

WOOOOOOOOOOOOO

ok i'm not crazy that for sure. i'm jus being real high here.

last fri n sat i went to Hwa Chong JC for a drama

performance n dance night. How The Other Half Love and Shake. They were both great.

The drama tell a story of how this 2 couple having an affair with each other while not letting their other half knows abt it by draging a poor soul that work with them into the picture.

It really funny how they hide and drag one another into this trouble.

Cast by Melissa, Sheng Da, Jingwei, Jian Yang, Darrell and Oliva(sry if i spell your name wrongly).

It really a darn good drama, if you have missed it then that too bad.

That was on fri. On sat, we went to dance night - Shake.

O MAN THEY R GREAT I TELL YOU THEY R GREAT.

You have no idea how much i had enjoyed myself there. At the same i make some new friends. Ezra n Glenn of coz not forgetting Niclo (i'm really bad with names sry) They r great dancer. That night different dances rangging from Hip Hop to Modern all came on stage it so cool. They have salsa too ha ha.

It was a great night. However, we did not get to finish the performance coz we need to "fly" to high school side to give the drama cast flowers. Sound weird i know. lol. After giving away the flowers we went to Pualine's house *thinking that that how you spell her name* till we missed our bus so we have to wait for sali's mother to fetch us. hmmmmm clever us.

that pretty much everything i guess nth more to add on i hope. if there is any i will update again.

After reading my passed entries, i realise something that very irritating. I SOUND LIKE A BLOODY KID! As in i sound like some small boy doing up his diary. MY GOD.

O well, what more can i do but to sign over it and forget abt it. Anyway, i'm going to malaysia with salima this coming thus after work, it been a while that i last go to malaysia. She wants to go and get her mother cheese cake from SR.(Go find out yourself what it stands for)

It like a present for mother's day. How sweet of her. Think should get some for my mother too.

She have been sick for sometime and it really worries me. She got to quit her job soon. The working is not making her any better. sign.

Something seem to be lingering in my mind, however i have no idea what that is. hmmmm, whatever forget it that i mention.

I'm jus feeling really irritated nw. Have the urge to sream and shout n cry. Jus treat me as spoil brat.

YKLS short for The young KL singer from Malaysia. They are a group of singers that came to tapac ytd for an exchange programme. They were really cool, the songs they sang were so nice, man they rock. I can't really remember what were the title of the songs they sang as the title was in Malay and i didn't catch the name of the other song either CRAP.

In any case they sounded really really good. Omg I'm so happy to have met them. We had dinner together and i was their tour guide of the night, lol. Didn't bring them to too many place, actually we onli brought them to Bugis and that all LOL. However not all were there, i remember they were Wei Jian, Reuben, Justin, Boon Dat, Rachel, Xiangling, Huey Sing, Daniel and Buffred. Sry guys if i miss out any of you and also if i get your name wrongly. Wahaha i enjoyed myself so much. If i'm not wrong we will get to see them again in malaysia during dec, can't wait till then.

Next, I met up with Alfred for the first time after knowing him for can't really remember how long, but it was great meeting him. a real nice guy and funny too, was really having a tired day and feeling moody but somehow he make my day. Thank you very much. This actually happened before i met up with the KL guys.

Now there is today, was supposed to be at tapac early in the morning but i was late lol.

I had a dance session with Alphonso, Sali, Jo and Jingwei. Eliesue was suppose to come but nv turn up due to studies. we started off dancing in the corridor then follow to the room that important anyway, the dance did went well once we entre the room coz there were music. LOL dancing without music jus cannot make it. Ty guy n gals you guy n gals really did a great job we will continue this next sun ok?

After dance, sali me n al go BK and maken then stayed inside tapac to study with Alphonso, was helping him with his POA, didn't do much though, we both nv bring our textbook ha ha, he brough his FYS and notes only. left at around 4 plus reach home 5 plus then start blogging. o well. feeling really sleepy nw. gd night

Alright, i'm been feeling real moody this few days, not sure y really jus that i dun feel like myself. I'm easily affected by what people say or do again. YES AGAIN.

I'm not very sure why or maybe i'm jus having PMS -_-", which ever case it is it have to go real soon. I cannot think right when this happen, as in i will do lots of wrong thing while working or in any other things(not thinking the wrong way pls)

It really irriting when you can't get things right when things like mood swing kicks in. . . . . . . .It sucks. BIG TIME.

Take today for example, i was really damn pissed off while doing my make up. In this case make up mean making up lost time that i miss during attachment. As i was saying, i was really pissed off, for some reason which i still do not know what it is. JUS pissed.

I almost got into a quarrel with my captain for asking me n onli me to do things when you have got 2 i repeat TWO waiter/waitress for him to boos around.

Y is it that he jus wan to boss me around while the other waiter can jus slack around. SLACKER. ok she did her part as a waitress but come on i did my part too and y is it that he is still picking on me. ROAR. It not like he is all so smart and clever and very well like. FAINTS.

Lets jus drop this subject shall we.

I'm really tired and wan to sleep, am still feeling moody though, o what the hell jus sleep it out and get over it.