should have known.

nah, not alrdy.
okay i wasnt even bawling to start w.
but i am still quite sad, though its nthg and its uh, nthg to be really sad abt for long.
like what they always say, its a THAT MOMENT kinda thing.

i cry at every slightest thing, i think my friends would have known.
i cry cos i am upset/sad/angry/vhappy/furious/emo/whatever.
i even cried during a team talk though idk wth am i crying abt i felt so silly after tt.
AIYO.
but yea lah after thinking abt it i feel tt mayb its cos its a 21st present heavily sponsored by my teammates plus me forking mayb abit less than half the actual amt.
i am just upset. 
its a no wonder my daddy used to call me crybaby v frequently.

but still,
pls come back to me if you can ): 

okay just reached home not long ago from trng, and have to leave house at 7am for trng again tmrw.
why bedok D:
okay its time to stop complaining actually i just have to get used to it.
and guess what i took bus 30 from bl interchange to bedok today! 
it was alright..i guess.

SUXIAN IS BACK FROM MONTREAL! 
cant wait to see her. 

bring back, oh bring back, oh bring back my darling to me, to me...

of : 
sleeping in.
tuition.
time w b <3.
time w crazy friends.

i really appreciate ppl ard me, cos i feel tt i get irritated/angsty/unreasonable damn easily nowadays.
i think only my closer friends can handle this ( not tt i will treat ppl i am not really close to like tt ) but yea, they just ignore my angst and continue behaving stupidly and continue irritating me.
how to not laugh and smile when i am supposed to be angry?



esp the boy, who had to put up w the nonsensical things i get irritated about.
RIGHT?! 
and no one skips gym session for kokocrunch w chocomilk one pls. 
stop irritating me and stop calling me irritating! 

the most ridiculous person you've ever seen. 

 trngs are gonna be more intensive than they are now.
but i'm gonna survive.
everyone is gg to survive. 

goodie bag packing yday was tiring.
but times spent w friends is <3! 

anybody got job lobang w timings tt are super damn flexible.
w trngs i will not be able to work and earn some extras during the long holidays for my remaining years in uni D:
okay except mayb if i do PA end of year 3.

and walau eh my gpa dropped D:
but yes i am in year 3!

i think its really time for me to learn.
to not desperately need things/people or have any unreachable expectations.
cos when i dun get them, i will be the one who's gonna suffer/be upset/feel loserish, not you, not anyone else.

 finally a rest day tmrw! :D

trngs are like what, uh, trngs.
yea its to make us better.
no complains, no complains.
but i'm still tired.

okay alot happened the past few weeks.
db camp, recce for sports camp, and trngs.
met up w friends, out w people i likey (:
okay tts almost everyday because i love my teammates :D
hehehehe.

okay, so my sis went for a dive trip the week before.
my bro is gg to taiwan tmrw for 10 days.
my sis is gg to US after my bro comes back.
WHEN IS IT MY TURN D:
i wanna go on a holiday tooooooooo! D:

and why is it like everyone is gg to only taiwan for holiday?!
okay cos its fun i know.
i miss 2/3 years back when i went to taiwan w bear and seymin.
):

I WANNA HOLIDAY LAH.
no money no money no money.

okay i wanna go slp alrdy.
today's trng is quite terrible cos i ls-ed like 2 times and my stomach felt damn uncomfortable during row.
urgh.