wedding post

Ya Allah,
Andai Kau berkenan, limpahkanlah rasa cinta kepada kami,
Yang Kau jadikan pengikat rindu Rasulullah dan Khadijah Al-Kubra
Yang Kau jadikan mata air kasih sayang
Ali bin Abi Thalib dan Fatimah Az Zahra
Yang Kau jadikan penghias keluarga Nabi-Mu yang suci.

Ya Allah,
Andai semua itu tak layak bagi kami,
Maka cukupkanlah permohonan kami dengan redha-Mu
Jadikanlah kami Suami & Istri yang saling mencintai di kala dekat,
Saling menjaga kehormatan dikala jauh,
Saling menghibur dikala duka,
Saling mengingatkan dikala bahagia,
Saling mendoakan dalam kebaikan dan ketaqwaan,
Serta saling menyempurnakan dalam peribadatan.

Ya Allah,
Sempurnakanlah kebahagiaan kami
Dengan menjadikan perkawinan kami ini sebagai ibadah kepada-Mu
Dan bukti ketaatan kami kepada sunnah Rasul-Mu. Amin..


alfu mabrouk to my sis and suaminya ...smuga dapat mengharungi alam rumahtangga dgn sbaik2nya..bahgia dunia akhirat.he's ur imam ..ur syurga is with him now.. =)

syukur ya Allah...despite i'm c-sect again

assalamualaikum..

alhmdulillah...penantian sudah berakhir..hari yg dtunggu2 sudahpn berlalu..saya selamat melahirkan baby boy melalui pembedahan ( lagi! dan seterusnya jika dkurniakan rezeki )hari Isnin 16/4/2012 jam 7.58am
Now baby boy baru 18hari...kami sepakat menamakan Ahmad Bukhari.
So,kaka yayah dah ada adik skrg..alhmdulillah..indalah sunyi sgt rmah kmi nnti..walau sbnarnya kaka yayah dah smngat nak adik Girl..insyallah kalo ada rezeki lag..nanti kita cuba lg =)

just want to jot down..what i felt regarding my post c-sect..msti tulis..sal ada sdikit trkilan dan kecewa jugak..
* dlm kad bsar ( monthly appoinment ) dh tulis sebab my prvious c-sect kn...(ala...tulang punggung sya kecik ) and the nurses already told inform me dat nnti kalo branak grenti caesar lg..ikut pnglman diorang la..sal dulu my doter c-sect ( beratnya 3.046kg )
*den jmpa pkar gynae she TOLD me i can trial branak biasa though i dah tnya dia tak papa ker sebab dlm kad dh trtulis CPD ( my problem tue..) dia jwab .."not CPD..but ur baby is not in the right position for the birth..so cannot pass thru the canal" catuelerrr..
* bila DR dah assure cakap mcmatu...i felt relieved..atleast i can try on VBAC..( sal we're planning in having MORE babies in the house..heee... )
* in the end...after going thru active phase ( dh 6cm buka..dan takde progress n tak bertmbah ) with a strong cntraction and trying hard spya tdak meneran..sya mnunggu dri pkul 2am hngga 7am ( still...6cm ) ahernya saya masuk OT for another Csect...
*reason - I'm a CPD..tulang punggung kecik so, kpala baby takkan dapat turun masuk lorong kelahiran...
udh atue.....dah puas kena duga..ahernya itu jugak bahagian sya..
saya bkn mnolak takdir tpi trkilan kenapa Dr tak xplain + inform betul2 kalo betul sya tak boleh branak normal (pdahal saya dah tnya) so..let me kena bedah sja..abis cetaaaa...tak pyah bgi sya trial sgala mcm.. tak la sya seksa sgt nak mnanggung menahan rasa spya tak termeneran..it's the most excruciating feeling..tak trcntrol rasanya..
 * another note- sedih jugak ...i was labelled ' inda tahan sakit..'  i tried..if there's any other words to soothe me dat i can branak normal ofcourse i tried...but I CANT...kdg2 trpikir jugak kalo saya berada pada zman masa sgala kmudahan prubatan belum ada or tdk ckup..just imagine..mcmana sya nak lalui branak wif my baby couldnt pass thru me.. dgn alasan pnggung kecik itu..can u imagine..i could be one of those Mummies yg couldnt MAKE it...Nauzubillah..apa2pun syukur ya Allah...Engkau kurniakan kami zuriat setelah 4 tahun kami mnunggu kehadirannya..

-------alfu syukran kpd mereka yg mndoakan saya---------

just around the corner....

assalamualaikum...

dis week mark 39weeks of my pregnancy journey...ya Allah Engkau permudahknlah segala urusan dalam melahirkan..
dalam kegembiraan dan keterujaan untuk menyambut baby baru yg bakal lahir..terselit jua rasa risau dan gelisah...hmm...can i deliver naturally?or cant i ? sal tym kaka yayah i was having emergncy caesar..wif a diagnosed case "CPD" - tulang pelvik kecik..so , the nurse yg sya jmpa stiap bulan keep on saying..kalo udh ur case catu..smpai bila2 u tetap caesar..how it makes u feel?down rite?but syukur alhmdulillah dalam sedih mngnang bahagian nasib yg udh dtentukan bgitu..husband keep on bgi undivided support n tazkirah yg mengingatkn aku btapa dluar sna msih rmai lg yg msih brharap utk mprolehi rzki bgini....thnkz zauj ! luv u ...

so , sya pn fully prepared dgn sgala kmungkinan yg trjdi..until i was referred to my gynae specialist for weekly appoinment due to my previous case ( caesar ) ...skali apa? dey asked me whether i want to have a trial for natural birth??i was like mcm...errksss,bolehkh? u wrote in my report wif my case mcmatu,den u give me chance to branak normal..i was like confused! so, i asked back..how about my case CPD itu?? dey said,my lastym prvious caesar bkn dsebabkn small pelvic but it's bcos my baby position yg tak betul tym dliver..dey dun xplained me well plg jua..hmmm..it's still vivid in my mind how dey told me masa i was about to have emrgncy caesar tym branakkn kaka yayah.. ur shoes size 4..n u have small pelvic ..( didgr sndiri by my zauj =/ ) now mcm lainth lg alasan drg..watever plg..doaku cuma satu..mdhn sja allah prmudahkn urusanku kali ane..

tym kaka yayah..i delivered week 39weeks 22/12/07 ..my EDD was supposed on 28/12/07 ... n tym 2nd one ane my EDD on 21/4/2012 ..so ariane 14/4/2012..i'm still waiting for the tanda...perut malar udh mengeras2..baby pn x brapa aktif sgt..sempit sgt dh kali my perut ane..discharge pn makin byk but stil no bloody show...so tgh menanti dlm kgelisahan th ne..doakan saya murah beranak yerrr...amin ya rabb...

dugaan...

assalamualaikum...

mcm lama tak mnulis kat blog ne...i'm in my week 34 atm ,alhamdulillah.~~~

but nak share satu cerita yg buat fikiran saya jdi sdikit kacau..( ya Allah..mohon dtenangkn hati hambaMu ini..) saya baru dapat maid baru (utk jaga baby bakal lahir ) kelmarin genap 10 haroi tinggal kat rumah.. n dlm 2-3 hari tnggal kat rumah..ksihatan dia merudum..dia rupanya ada asthma (lelah) just cant believe how the medical dpartment kat ngri seberang bleh approved dia pnya report..n alasan maid dia nak cari rezeki ( ok..saya tak marah cuma kesal takut perkara tak diingini berlaku..nauzubillah) n my maid siap ada ubat inhaler sgala, tak dpt makan bermnyak bertumis kecuali yg berebus...

until last monday..keadaannya a bit worst..dia batuk berdarah..i rushed her to emergency room..kena xray..bloodtest..siruk oxygen (watever u called it..) bygkn kmi sfamily blik rumah dlm 5.30pm..den dia mngadu sakit..n bergegas khospital..wev stayed smpai pkul 12..
and lg skali a bit kesal dia tak called kami ( hndphone kitorang sdiakn incase ada apa2..) dgn alasannya..takut merepotkan..alahaiiii..she was prescribed wif antibiotic/panadol n another inhaler..nothing serious..

den tuesday getting better ( she said..) but on wednesday ( march 7th) she having her ampus n insisted mau balik kenegerinya..she said she couldnt stand the pain anymore..feels want to die..( atue yg dbgtau kat my doter ) so ..we already late..saya ada kelas 7.30am..so , suruh dia packed brg dia..n husband hntar dia balik kat agent maid tue..i think masalah dah selesai la kan..pasal i dh inform dat agency..n she said if she still sakit..they'll be preparing to prepare new maid new biodata for us..kira okeyla kan..

but..

lastnyt on wednesday too...( husband tgh aqsyik liat semi final HBT 2012 @ tv ) saya pun asyik dbuai mimpi dgn anak..suddenly this Ibu S____ the agency called and informed dat my maid had passed away..ya Rabbi..mana saya tak terkezuts..astghfirullah...sungguh saya tak dapat tidur selepas menerima panggilan itu..i was in total shock..semuanya trlalu cepat..

benarlah sessungguhnya ajal itu apabila ia datang takkan terlambat walau sesaat pun..nasib baik kami dh hntar my maid pgi..bygkn kalo we asked her to rest kat rumah sja..mungkin ajalnya kat rumah kitorang..lg la saya terkejuts...mungkin ada hikmahnya jua...

n now dri pgi husband kat spital tnggu hasil bedah siasat..n dat Ibu S___ the agency asking about the insurance..hmmm,how on earth kmikn mbuat sdgkn passport / kad pngenalan/visa/mdical check is not with us..smuanya dia yg uruskan..n it seems dia nak lepas tgn n nak kita uruskn pnghntran sndiri..so, my maid died because of paru2 berkuman..innalillah wa inna ilaih rojiun..smuga dringankan sgala sakitnya..

mohon doakan..smoga sgala urusan dprmudahkn...

so tired...

assalamualaikum....

alhamdulillah.. i'm in my 27weeks sane..
so tired..so exhausted wif schoolworks..maklum awal tahun..everything must be settle asap..
housework jan sebut..bju memang dh bertimbun..hrapkn weekend baru nak buat laundry..
nw waiting for a new maid..mudahanlah dia seorang yang tak byk masalah senang dibentuk amin ya rabb..

barang2 utk coming baby pn lngsung belum beli...byk tgk online clothes tp belinya belum...
hmm..tpksa buat target dis coming salary mesti beli sikit-sikit..zauj pn dh soundkn bwa pergi miri dis ujung bln / awl feb..so , shopping brg adik kaka yayah is a MUST..

tq my hubby....

assalamualaikum....

last week Dec,2nd marked my 31st besdei..uhuk~uhuk~...
alhmdulillah..Allah masih memnjangkan umurku..dan smoga terus dkurniakan ksihatan yang berpanjang..amin ya rabb..

and since mid Nov til Dec..we've been very very BUSY dlm proses memindah2 brg krumah baru...hmm,mcm nda mau abis pn ada jua...and dlm packing2 brg zauj selitkn present =) tp bplastikkn plastik hitam besar (trbygkn?) i just dun realise it's a present..dkpala ofcourse pkirkn brg2 yg udh dpnyap n sya pn nda lg tpkir kn mruah watsoever those plastik..tau2 he asked me to open it..suspen nda jua sal memang nda tpikirkn hdiah..

anda yes it's a birthday gift..it's a handbag..alhmdulillah..thankz dear...if u happen to read dis I lurve u much...it's been such a long tym nda mbali hndbag ane..lastym i bought tym @miri sma inlaw..so , its must been last year la tue.. lurve the handbag..hmmm,nak pkai bsahan syag..pkai urg kawin la sja..hehehe

busy november....

salam...

bulan ane bulan yg teramatla sibuk to us and our fmily..psal we are busy packing sdikit brg2 dri rmah kmi utk brpndah krmah sbnar kmi..our home sweet home..syurga dunia tmpat brlindung kmi skeluarga..n dlm masa yg sama my fmily pn bz jua packing utk brpindah to other rental house tp brdkatan dgn our soon newly developed house....trsgtla ngalehnya...saya yg bkemas sikit2 pn mcm ndakn trlarat pdahal packing brg yg ringan2 sja tue..kdg2 trasa mngeras my tummy tnda ngaleh..apalg my hubby my ayahnda..my mummy and adinda2 yg lain..cian..lgth ngaleh berabis..

sane tgh packing bju2 lama ( alum lg msuk bju baru tue..hehe)..panyap2 buku drmah utk diangkut krmah baru sana...pinggan mngkuk pn packing ckit2 sal grenti mun dpanyap smua..brat mun hubby mngangkat..mdhn dbgi kekuatan dan ksihatan yg maksima aminnn..

last few days,i was down with cough..batuk yg a bit kering n mnyakitkn leher dan worst part..mnyakitkan my lower abdomen..it really hurtsSss...mcm kalo perut atue trbntuk dri tali..rasanya batuk atu bleh mbgi putus my perut...mana lg kalo brjln sakit..sgtla sakit..apalg kalo naik tngga..ya Allah..prmdhknlah urusanku..

so,kmarin went to ripas OPD..the Dr said..there's nothing we could do..cure the batuk den bruth sakit parut ok..maybe it's due to stress/tired/angkat brg berat kali katanya..*gulpss..* nda th saya brani komen tu..yess..it's a Busy november..tolong packing ckit2..so,she advised me to bedrest byk2..pas mkn pandaol n mlimpang/duduk..bruth kureng ckit sakitnya..mdhnth batuk ane sembuh ya Allah...

dan smoga diberi ksihatan yang baik spnjang mlalui kehamilan kedua ane..aminn..