Miss Carryage and T.M.P.I.

Sooo.... I've been debating weather to blog this.......  and it's still probably too soon.... and TMPI but.........  WHAT THE HECK?  For those of you who are unaware, TMPI would be: Too Much Personal Information ;)   So there's your warning right there!  It's in the title people! ;)

   Yes.  Well.  My man and I have decided that it's time!  As I mentioned in my first blog entry, we are trying to have another one!  I am not trying extremely hard seeing as how I still haven't lost all of the baby weight that I gained from the last one, but trying none the less.  So this last time I was pretty sure that we hit the timing right on.  I would be surprised if it didn't work this time!  And low and behold!  I start getting unreasonably emotional!  Holding back tears in public over stupid little things (By the way Cora, this is probably why I had that little break down at your house!)!!!  Sooooo embarrassing!!!  I hate that!  And I begin to wonder what's wrong with me!  Oh wait!  Could I be pregnant?  So I wait a few days and take one of those early detector pregnancy test.  A very faint positive!  All right!  That explains it all.  I've got a valid excuse for irrational behavior for the next 9 months! ;)    Oh wait!  But then!  Then  I started my (TMPI)........... Aunt flow came into town a day early!  What the Heck????  That's never happened before!!!!  Out of 4 kids and who knows how many tests, I've never gotten a false positive!   So in my disbelief, I ran to the store and grabbed another one!  Nope.  Negative.  Hmm.  Guess it was just wrong.  But then....... the emotions didn't go away.  I still felt wrong.  What in the world is going on?!?!  So it was over the holiday weekend that after Aunt flow had gone...... well, she came back again for a day (unwelcome visitor!!!)!  So I called my trusty older brother who happens to be a Dr.  And I got a blood pregnancy test (which I haven't gotten results for yet).  But he said it was possible that I had a miscarriage.  :(   Ahhhh don't worry about me!  If this is the case, it was so quick, that I had hardly even begun all the work.  But these emotions are........ awful!  I just want to cry over everything!  And I have much less Stamina for taking care of children and husband and household.  I hope it goes away soon.  Who knows though?  Hopefully I will be able to figure it out soon!  I guess we'll see what happens!

What's Done is DONE!!!

    My Dear Brandi,

         I would like to inform you that we want to come and spend a few days with you before the end of the year (I will tell you more specifically in a less public setting! ;).  

    YAY!!!!!!!  

So after a lot of thought, and a little encouragement from my friend.... I have saved up pretty much everything to cover the cost of cruise and plane tickets, so we just need spending money.  I finally decided to stop vacillating and just DO it (I have such a big problem with commitment!)!!!  Before the money is squandered on miscellaneous things and our chances of a cruise slip away!  So it's all done!  I booked the cruise!  I booked the flight!  It's done!  We're going!  End (or should I say beginning?) of story!!!     Thank you all for your input!  Now I have several people to blame should this end up badly! ;)