more Dillan pics

A friend of mine enjoys photography for a hobby. She came and did a 'shoot' with Dillan the other day. Here is a sample of some of the pics she took. Way to go Angie, they are great!! (In the picture with the bear, that's a birth mark, fyi.)

Random pics - dillan

Sorry, for some reason the last pic uploaded incorrectly.

My Good Lookin' Hubby

Random pics - spencer

the Old days...

This is a picture of the house I grew up in. It was taken after the hurricane. There are a few changes, but for the most part, it's the same. So many memories come back to me when I see this picture. Playing bball on the driveway, trying to angle the car in the shade and actually hitting the wood part between the garage doors (lmao), sneaking out my window, hanging from the brick arch and the bricks actually breaking off....

but when I see this house, the one thing that sticks out in my mind is my mother. I miss her so much. If given the opportunity to see her today, I would first say how sorry I am for all the things I put her through. I understand now being a parent, just how much she only wanted me to be happy and safe. She made so many sacrifices for me that I never understood or realized.

I would then share with her how proud I am of her, who she was and the life she led. She was always so dedicated in everything she did.

Next I would share with her my beautiful daughter. She always encouraged me to have another baby, lol. As stubborn as I am, I told her it would never happen. My sis-in-law pointed out to me that Dillan most likely already has met her grandmother. That my mother was probably there when Dillan left the presence of her Heavenly Father to come into our lives. I have to think that my mother pobably gave Dillan a list of things to do to get retribution, lol.

Life is short. Enjoy the ones you love while you have the time.

Sleeping Beauty

4 weeks old, I can't believe how fast it's gone. Dillan is such a great baby. When she is awake, she is alert and wide eyed. She sleeps, for the most part, in 4 hour chunks. I have gotten lots of different views on who she looks like. Some say she looks like Spencer, some say she's a Rigby. She looks like I did from some of my baby pictures. I think she looks just like Ryan. She has some slight curl to the baby hair, not much though. Maybe she will have straight hair like her father. Inevitably it will be thick. She will do lots of changing and I'm anxious to see what the future brings.

Spencer is filling the roll of big brother to the fullest. He constantly wants to feed her and hold her. He rushes to tell me she is fussing and tries to calm her crying.

Ryan has stepped in and has been quite helpful. He calls her Little D, which has now become her nickname around our house. He takes his turn getting up with her on the weekends (although I am consulted a few times on what to do) and he usually offers a couple times a week to help out.

We have had such great support from family, friends and neighbors. We probably had 2 weeks of meals brought in from friends and neighbors. (I think it kind of spoiled Ryan, we are back to grilled cheese and frozen pizzas! :))

I am back to work and back to my sports. Dillan just goes along with me. It's still surreal to think I have a little one after so many years. I almost feel too old to be doing it again!