In a relationship again! ♥

Oops!! Sorry im in a relationship again!!
Shouted Yes!! Yes I do!! ♥ 
I'm damn happy now.... 
Promise will love you with all my heart.
Nothing is forever. 
But hope it'll be long lasting... 
Will do All my best for you. 
Will appreciate and cherish this relationship.. 
Will take it very seriously...
Woohoo.. Miracles really happen..
Words cant describe my feelings now!!
♥ over heels in love with you Mr. J...

CRUSHED (copied from my fb notes 29 march 2011)

Sometimes I just hope that I won't had a crush On any guys and I dun wanna love anyone.. This insecure feeling that i'm having now is coming back.. Feelin damn confuse.. I totally understand our situation. Oh gosh complicated to the max! What are we now? Oops. A fling? Sounds so wrong.. =( Yea maybe time is really needed. Need to ensure that we're suitable for each other.. Our mentality, character, thinking and all.. But the longer the period of time will make me fall even deeper. I dun wanna be trapped in this love.. Sometimes just feel that relationships are super annoying. Just wasted the last relationship I had months ago. Made a totally wrong decision.. Ended up with nothing.. Yes you can have all the loving and sweet moments you want.. But how long can it last and how will you end up? Maybe a Big mess? Oh gosh. Super confusing now.. Well. Just stay what we are now and enjoy all the fun and happy moments we have now. No guarantee what it'll take us to be... What to do? Am so unwilling to pull myself out of this and off you.. Cos you honestly captured my heart. Whatever it is. Just let everything to be natural and follow the flow with No regrets.. Yes! Cos i'm a happy go lucky girl! Woots! ♥ nothing nothing can bring me down and make me fall! XD

Oops! long time din update my bloggie ady.. Sowie!!
Hmm just got my spm results..
Overall is still okay..
Not too disappointing and not to satisfying..
But i know i can do better!!

Really enjoy the life and days now..
It might seemed meaningless or lifeless to some people..
Yes cause i'm not working or studying..
But i really love it!
I won't know what's the meaning of tired!! Teehee.. =)
Sleep all i want..
Partayy every weekend! Drinking everyday
Imma ALCOHOLIC!!
Need to party hard before college days starts..

LML ♥

All alone

Chinese new year is coming soon.. This year's new year will not be a happy chinese new year for me.. Things had changed alot compared to the past few years.. Used to have a really happy family. I used to think that dad & mum were very loving. Unexpectedly all of this was just a dream.. I got to make a decision who to follow.. I got to learn how to be independent from now on and surviving on my own. LOL! People who really know me will think that this is a joke man!! and yesshh i'm talking.. I'm a STUBBORN, FUSSY, PICKY and CHOOSY PAMPERED PRINCESS~ a girl like me i really can't imagine how am i gonna live on my own without my parents around.. Damn emo... Moody this few days in my hometown.. Mummy scolded me. Yes! I'm useless.. she can't stand my attitude and the way i am now anymore . What does this means? Oh this really made my heart bleed.. Looking at the mask on their faces acting around and speaking sarcastically.. I really can't take it no more.. Tears can't cure the pain in my heart.. How i wish i could wake up from this nightmare.. I never ever thought that all this dramatic issues will happen on me.. What's next in my life? Who's gonna support me in my studies and education? I feel my life is so lifeless now.. Partying every night doesn't really give me any satisfaction of anything at all.. Everything i do is so meaningless now.. I have no target at all now. Who to depend on? Who will show me the way? Who will guide me this little 18
year old girl? Well.. I'm all on my own now.. All thanks to you BIITTCCHH!!! 

Went to heero cafe and library last night with two dudes. I was effin drunk! because of a stupid bastard. Do you really think my life can be easily ruined by you? keep your skin la~ Continue calling me a bitch..=) Seriously i won't mind anymore.. Because i'm not. xD 

To all my dear friends.. i trust that you guys are really my true friends.. We have been through so much together.. happy times.. all the hardships.. always there for me when i'm down~ all the fun we had,  i will never ever forget it~ I love you guys so much.. Trust me for this time. Don't worry bro's~ I will not let you all down.. Your support is so important to me.. I just want everything to be in the right place. Sorry if i ever let you guys down or disappoint you. I promise I'll really change..   




I will prove everyone wrong.. Teehee =D ..Oh Yes I Can..!! So blessed to have my darling joey ♥..  Teaches me so many things.. Will be there everytime when i'm facing problems.. ILY DARLING ♥♥ Gonna interview a job with her tmrw.. xDD Gan jiong ar... Once i start work.. i swear i will seldom partayy and clubbing already.. Give me a break man! I got my lovely Dear that's enough for me ady!!

Sorry i'm gonna leave my blog dead..

So not free to update it..

My life now??

Partayy every single night..

Sleeping at 5am in the morning and waking up at 5pm..

Like a vampire..
Seriously no time for me to blog......

Arthur is the one that reminded me that my blog is dead..

LOLS!

Will try my best to update it whenever i'm free... =)
Ciaoz~

bye bye

Thanks for letting me know more about him.

Seems like im really an idiot to fall for you.

Hahaha*

Oh my gosh...

So sorry i'm not that kind of girl.

I don't belong to that kind of world.

Although i look like one~

But you haven't know me well enough

Honestly you're so not worth for me..

Felt better after listening the stories bout you

How long can you protect your image?

How long can the mask stays on your face?

I'll not hate you but hate myself~

For falling into your trap..

A lesson learned~

DO NOT JUDGE A BOOK BY IT'S COVER

HE ROCKS!!

Hey guys.. Bored in class?? Check my lovely classmate out!! Playing pool in class!!

' HOME-MADE POOL'

            Just feel like sharing this picture~

nothing better else to do~~ = =  

He's the lovable ' IVAN '..  Awww......

Try this out when u're bored in class!!

HAHAHA xD

 ♥ Had a crush on....... Awww..

 Never had this feeling for so long.. 

Hey dude! You melted my heart.

with an insecure feeling..

The exact same feeling as him..

You dangerous bad boy!

Frankly speaking.. 

Only this type of guys attracts me

Don't ask why..

For i don't know the reason too..

You really stole my heart away~

Starting to fall for you.....♥

Shhhh!!!

That's her role~ ngam ngam ngam ngam.. Tell you what.. I HAD GAVE UP! I can't stand you anymore.. I've done my best to bare with you and Respecting you treating that you're just singing and kept quiet.. Just can't you give me a peaceful day? Just one day??  Ohh Gosh.. i don't know how in the world i'm gonna achieve it..Your expectation is too high for me! Don't ever dream that i'll do it.. There's no more time for me to catch up..I'm not coping up at all..  I'll just do what i can do and do my best! I know my strength. Don't ever force me please... Too much distraction~ How am i gonna survive without going out and without online? You should know me well.. That's so impossible man! Admit that i got low self-control. I've already sacrifice so much for this time of period.. I've change so much.For the past time. Won't even see me at home at all..  I't doesn't mean that i can be what i am (good) now forever.. No way!! I know my priority also la please!! Ergh!! Don't need you to tell me! You're just irritating me. If you and your bossy character carries on.. Sooner or later u gonna force me into failure! You gonna ruined me! Get it?? You have already ruined my whole day!! Forget about it. I'll just do whatever that i'm happy with and without you permission..

Take it easy girl....

Just don't get it.

Is there anything to be jealous about?

Why take it so serious?

Don't understand why i always get into trouble?

Turn back

Went to CHCKL last Sunday~ 

The worship was so Awwsomme!!
i'm always on and off. 

i mean with God.. 

I felt his presence twice last week.. 

He's calling me to go back 

But why i'm still not turning back?

I'm stuck... 

I'm always lost and feeling empty inside my heart. 

How sinful am i to.... 

All that i've done was so wrong

Sigh..

I really need to get back to Him.

I know it's never too late to turn back 

right?

PISSED OFF!

Last weekend was a super duper fun week for me. Went to alif's hari raya open house party. Lepak at ABC with the dudes.. Our satu Malaysia gang.. hahaha! I'm not racist!! Went to party with my beloved 'family'. Such a great weekend! enjoyed to the fullest! Woots! Had extreme fun!!


But this weekend was a disaster to me! The dudes again delayed the plan and kinda didn't turn up in the end. Guess what. Telling me to get ready by 10 pm. But till 1 am i don't even see any shadow of them. Make me waited again.. HAHA! this is the 2nd time you guys ffk me!! But never mind.. at least an explanation and apology was given to me. I'm fine with that cause i understand that i stayed super far like the end of the world so it's inconvenient for you guys to come all the way here to pick me up.. Never mind dudes! I'm totally ok with it! Just wait for my license! And i'll drive all the way to anyway to meet you guys! hahaha!

Saturday

Early in the morning called babe Jeevana asking what time is she coming down to setapak. Her replied was 12.. Whoa! So damn early. I arranged my tuition schedule asking my teacher to come a bit later at around 3pm so that i can meet up with her before my tuition starts. Darling joey called me in the afternoon said she wanted to come find me too.. WOW! That sounds kinda great right?? Meeting up with my 2 darlings!! But in the end.... Waited and waited with silence. Uh huh... Jee you came at evening when i'm having my tuition, and Joey i called a 100 times and u didn't picked up my bloody phone call. You said you fell asleep.. too tired.. Hmm.. REASONABLE =) It's acceptable.

Night. i finished my dinner with my parents.. Called darling Joey again wanting to know where were you guys.. Same again i kept calling and my phone bill keep bleeding.. Again you didn't answer my phone call. Excuse: You kept your phone in his bag = =. Well, I'm okay with that too cause it was not on purpose.. And luckily i'm with my beloved Stephanie having our beer session at Heero! 1st time Steph drive me out.. =) Steady huh... xD. ILY  Went to stevens to take something from darling Joey.. Finally manage to meet Jeevana there! So damn happy! But someone is there bothering.. Awww... Both of you planed to go NZ and shisha.. it's your idea not mine. Anyway i'm not suppose to go out late either cause i'm not allowed to! But eventually i stayed up just to meet you babes. But in the end when me and lulu reached there. You babes disappeared, didn't turn up. Not even a call informing that you're not coming? Not even a message huh?? Well done la. Whole day's mood was ruined! But darl Joey...  I still love you much and the most. Just my emotions controlled my mind set and made me throw those words out. SORRY... And the ddly XXX! Who gave you the permission to bark inma wall? Shut the tut up if you don't know what's going on. OKAY? UNDERSTAND?

It's a lesson learned. I've learned the most from the the worst circumstances. For not obeying mum.. Wasted two days.. Not studying, when my trials is starting tomorrow... And it's history test where i have all the tips but didn't even make use of it.. What a good girl am i.. SoO damn regret for nothing doing nothing wasting ma precious time.  For this time, i think it's my consequences to wait for others for i had made people waited for me like hours too. xD SoO DAMN PISSED OFF la! Jowelyn! Listen up here! You gotta set your mind right! Manage your time wisely! Because you can't save time for the future use, you'd better make use of its full potential now! Ground myself until the spm ends!! I guess i can do it!! GO GO GO~

Things doesn't seem going right

Many unhappy things happened recently. Remaining SILENCE. Our whole family is so fk'ed up with her. She deserves it?? I don't know. It's kinda heart pain seeing her like this. I really have no idea what am i doing now. LOVE YOUR ENEMIES AS YOURSELF? Sigh! Time proves everything. She irritated us. Not our fault to feel that way. SORRY. Learn from your mistakes and from your failures, move forward! But i do know her feelings now. I was in her shoe last time. feeling left out isn't nice. Disliked by girls. Well, I just don't care. What can i do more? It's just me. Accept the fact. It's happening again to me now. It all depends on how others looked at me. I understand the fact where people may not remember exactly what you did or said, but remember how you made them feel. But well. I think there's a misunderstanding.. IGNORED! 

Yang is leaving. Imma gonna miss you badly Yang. Thx for takin care of me! Love ya much!!

Finally.. 'Move move shake shake drop drop' Partayy last night! Woots! It's been so long i didn't party! 3 months if i'm not mistaken. Went there without making up! Awww.. Looked so...indescribable.= = Out of a sudden everyone said on! Oh gosh... Spent a night With my beloved ♥ Lulu Joey Justin Ray ♥ It wasn't that fun. cause some things annoyed me. It wasn't as fun as last time. I still cant smile from my deepest heart.

 

IT's Reunion

Reached home from school at 6pm. Darling Joey came to my house for dinner after her work. Had our favorite TOMYAM! Teehee~ Baby came too.. Overcome the misunderstanding between us. You MAD JUSTIN!! So unpredictable! Lols... the 3J's. We're always united! Including Lulu! If Rex and Keith wanna join in... You're soO welcome =)  Hahaha!! Don't know why we will come out with this decision.. It'S  quite cruel.. But i think she deserves it? She'll never see where's her problem and mistakes are. Baby was so mad just now~ We find out the real truth when Little Lulu came. Analyzed and solve the problem with a really mean method. Whatever it is.. As long as we have no more arguments and misunderstanding anymore! The lesson is learned! APPRECIATE & CHERISH one another every minute~ 

♥ Joey, Lulu, Justin ♥ I love you peeps much!!

 Rex thanks for the red wine you've left behind. I'm gonna have a sweet sleep tonight =)

Keith you like your make up?? Hahahaha! I'm gonna upload your pictures soon! Just stay tuned ^^

Sigh! Spent my whole day with you peeps. Didn't study anything today. Don't even have the time to take my book out! All my precious time as given to you all! But i guess it is really worth it! Cause i love you all much!!