This Is Personal Beware

I usually do not express my emotions or feelings on this blog for I feel it to be too risky in some ways, or too personal in others. I am not sure what to do, but out of desperation I am pleaing for help. I thought if someone reads my blog they might know of something, or atleast can point me in the right direction to find answers.

Most people don't know, but I have been sick for almost a month and a half now. It started out as a bacterial infection( Which I had 2 different antibiotics for that one), Strep Throat (2 antibiotics for that one, because the first one did not work). Pneumonia( 1 antibiotic for that one). Yeast infection, because of all the antibiotics( antibiotic for that one). Today I learned the antibiotics for the pneumonia did not work and can I say another antibiotic was added. ( It is given out like candy. LOL I am J/K. And then they added a inhaler on top of that. They think it might be more of a underlining problem, but no answers only guesses. Out of desperation I am willing to try more holistic medicine(even though it costs a grundle) I don't know if this is smart by posting about it, but I am looking for help for I need my life back.:) The reasons I keep getting infection after infection is because my immune system is surpressed by the medicine I take for my Rheumatoid Arthritis. I have gone off some of my RA meds for a few weeks, but in doing so I take the chance of my arthritis coming back full force.

My worst symptom is EXTREME FATIGUE( when I get up I want to run back to bed), I also a little gurrgling or wheezing in lungs, shortness of breath, back and chest pain, fever, and I am having touble sleeping( oh they added a sleeping pill on top of that too. )

I am sorry if this sounds depressing, that is not my intention. I just want to be better and get my life back so I can take care of my family again. If you have any advice please share. Please! The Dr. is setting up a echocardiogram and if this round of antibiotics does not work a CAT scan. She never mentioned a Pulmonary Specialist. I wonder if that is the next step I should take. I am even so desperate that I might try and go some place warm(Arizona, San Diego). :) It kinda feels like flashbacks of trying to figure out what I had when I was diagnosed with RA.

Who knows this round of antibiotics might work.( I pray and hope so). I am not asking for help around my house. My wonderful husband has been great in helping me. Even on his birthday he took care of me. So I am good in that area. I am just asking for inspiration, knowledge, thoughts, advice, or anything.

Thank You,

Em & Em

My Brother's Wedding

My youngest brother is married. I can't believe it! :)




Jesse and Missy



My family and Missy's family.




My Family




Hadley Girls




My brothers and I.





Karlie caught the bouquet. Who knew! LOL



Ethan Lookin' Sharp






Emma's face I thought looked like a Marilyn Monroe to the side look. LOL