呃~现在不知要写什么咯~只是随便spam spam。。
我现在刚出门回来~本来的gathering也取消了~
有一样很重要的东西我要讲，就是，我没有动到功课！！ 这样就有点严重了~
我不知道到怎样好，在家就是很很很不能专心读书！
好了，今晚就这样过了，好不错，我并没有clumsy as always>
所以在此，我要讲 “arigatou gozaimasu ang oyasumi kudasai”
***虽然我以忘了那些路~~xP
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Friday, July 30, 2010
家～
今天，今晚，我可以睡在家里的床。。。开心！！
而且，ｆａｃｅｂｏｏｋ没有ｂｌｏｃｋｅｄ了的东西︿︿
太好了，明天去找朋友。。。
太好了，明天可以跟妈妈去吃早餐。。。
太好了，不用在太阳下行走。。。
太好了，不用烦功课。。。虽然有很多功课。。。
太好了，可以吃好吃的。。。青菜。。。
太好了，可以看ｎａｒｕｔｏ．．．虽然还是很慢。。。
太好了，可以写ｂｌｏｇ．．．
太好了太好了太好了太好了太好了太好了太好了太好了太好了太好了太好了！！！
其实在学校也没什么不好啦～～哈哈～～很累，昨天太迟睡，今天超累。。。是时候睡了！眼睛都出水了～～严重！！
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Japanese...so sadT.T
I'm super duper happy to know i got this course days before when i go and check my name at pusat bahasa...I thought it may hav too many ppl take it so i may not get the chance to take it...so when i saw my names there, i feel like flying us the sky and kiss it~^^~I thought i got it d and i am like clear all the worried in me lo~~
Today, we hav to gather with the teacher then choose our timetable. i m not sure how they choose but i m still happy that i can get this course...very happy. Then when i reach lecture hall 8, we go in and sit down, and still we choose a suitable place coz we thought we hav to rebut for our time and need to move ourselve up. When the teacher come in, she rearrange our seats and all the others school has been called down to sit close to teacher but we aren't. Teacher call us to wait for a while and she wanted to settle them first. For that moments, i dunno wat happen so jz sitting at my own place and wait...Then teacher tick our attendance. We must saiy"hi!" when teacher read out our name.
Then teacher said a very bad news, it should not be a news as i thought i can get in the japanese class after i saw my name there. But only now teacher told us that we, chemical student cant may not be able to fit in the timetable as she got too many students. and yet she dun wan to hav night class or class after 5. so, we can just wait there...wait wait wait...wait for the others group to decide which time they wan. and at last, all the group's time we cant fix in...T.T
I'm super sad and down at that time, i feel like so unfair...so so so unfair for us to not get the course as we dun get the priority to choose the time. we can easily giv out our time if we get the priority...I feel like wanna cry so loudly as i m desperate to learn japanese long time ago and this is a very good chance for me to do so. And another things is that i wanted to finish off as soon as possible so that i can continue higher level if possible. Yet, this is the first sem which is the most free sem and i should manage my time wisely lo~~ but now, it distract all my plans in the first semester...haiz...
But, thanksss... at last, i accept it...because mayb it is my yuan fen... so i should not make myself suffer because of this!! I dunno why, after all our chemical students know this, only me who are so sad and down and no mood... others can accept it easily and even wanna to change to another language~~ but I WONT!! i wan only japanese, so that i can understand wat naruto said lo~ haha
Really THANKS...that you said"learning new language should be fun and not like this^^" yeah, this is super correct~~!! There are always a better oppurtunity when you didt get the chance this time^^ so I'm now happy back d and dun wan let myself suffer in this kind of this^^
TOE CUI YING~~ GAMBATEH!! japanese is waiting you next semester, now i must study well and prepare a bit for it before i attend a formal class^^
Today, we hav to gather with the teacher then choose our timetable. i m not sure how they choose but i m still happy that i can get this course...very happy. Then when i reach lecture hall 8, we go in and sit down, and still we choose a suitable place coz we thought we hav to rebut for our time and need to move ourselve up. When the teacher come in, she rearrange our seats and all the others school has been called down to sit close to teacher but we aren't. Teacher call us to wait for a while and she wanted to settle them first. For that moments, i dunno wat happen so jz sitting at my own place and wait...Then teacher tick our attendance. We must saiy"hi!" when teacher read out our name.
Then teacher said a very bad news, it should not be a news as i thought i can get in the japanese class after i saw my name there. But only now teacher told us that we, chemical student cant may not be able to fit in the timetable as she got too many students. and yet she dun wan to hav night class or class after 5. so, we can just wait there...wait wait wait...wait for the others group to decide which time they wan. and at last, all the group's time we cant fix in...T.T
I'm super sad and down at that time, i feel like so unfair...so so so unfair for us to not get the course as we dun get the priority to choose the time. we can easily giv out our time if we get the priority...I feel like wanna cry so loudly as i m desperate to learn japanese long time ago and this is a very good chance for me to do so. And another things is that i wanted to finish off as soon as possible so that i can continue higher level if possible. Yet, this is the first sem which is the most free sem and i should manage my time wisely lo~~ but now, it distract all my plans in the first semester...haiz...
But, thanksss... at last, i accept it...because mayb it is my yuan fen... so i should not make myself suffer because of this!! I dunno why, after all our chemical students know this, only me who are so sad and down and no mood... others can accept it easily and even wanna to change to another language~~ but I WONT!! i wan only japanese, so that i can understand wat naruto said lo~ haha
Really THANKS...that you said"learning new language should be fun and not like this^^" yeah, this is super correct~~!! There are always a better oppurtunity when you didt get the chance this time^^ so I'm now happy back d and dun wan let myself suffer in this kind of this^^
TOE CUI YING~~ GAMBATEH!! japanese is waiting you next semester, now i must study well and prepare a bit for it before i attend a formal class^^
Monday, July 12, 2010
Miss~
Morning when i wake up and going to brush and bath, I miss Hui Ru, who i always meet on the way to the bathroom or in the bathroom. Then I'll say "hi~" to you in a blur blur condition and you wil reply in the same condition...your face there flow into my mind, which your eyes were not open widely yet and you hair was still a bit messy...sometimes we need to wait there for somebody else to finish their bath, so we just stand there mayb quietly as we are still blur blur after a night of sleep...>< but i really miss it now... Sometimes, when we buy bread, we share and eat together in 411...I like this, eat breakfast together as now, before meeting you two, Kah chiin and hui ru,i m eating breakfast alone in my room...I love our sharing method which do not count much and share whatever we have together. sometimes you buy bread, sometimes i buy jam, sometimes you buy vege...this kind of sharing was caring and surely we could not find between normal friends...This kind of sharing makes me feel very happy and again it could not find between normal friends oso. I miss you two, kah chiin and hui ru...and 411...number of ours^^
After i have prepare to go for my class, i miss you, zhi chin, which always wait me downstair to go for our class together. Sorry, i always feel very sorry to you as i m alway the on to be late and most of the time when i walk down from my room, you are already standing there waiting for me. Thanks, you are really a very patience friend of mine...I miss you...cute cartoon, zhi chin. Being in the same group with you, i feel pround and no worries. You know, you are always the best teammates among others^^
When i saw everyone is owning two phones, you know who i think off?? LOW SUE HAN!!! Haha, she owe three phones at the same time with three different company's number, you want mcontact her with digi, she has, celcome also can, hotlink or maxis, no need to say, sure you know la~ and when my phone nearly out off credits, two person is in my mind. One of these two is YOU, who call we can chat in the phone for so so so long till out of credits...haha though most of the time is you call me la~ i know it that, it not our phone our of credit or out of batteries, we wont stop chating in the phone, how to control har?? Everytime, sure i can feel the heat given out from my phone when we are chating...you are the only person that i chat so long in the phone before, even i dun chat so long with my mom in phone...XD And yet, not only this that makes me think off you...there are still many more...
After i m in my class, i miss you guys which is my classmate before in matric, zhi chin, yine, hanjune,jane...and sin yee(but now i m in the same school with you lo) We always stay together in class and when it is time for us to spread into groups, we are always in the same group!! Especially for english...In my matric life, i dun even experience to be in the same group with any malay...Remember our MV, the climb?? That time, we always scold together how lousy is this acivity that takes our limited time to complete it. But at last we done it, though we are not the best group but this is our lambang, it shows our cooperation and teamwork. Everytime i repeat this vedio I will still laugh or smile myself as I think it is special and we didt squeeze our mind to do it...This vedio makes me miss you guys...
Talking of vedio, another vedio regarding matric is the aerodance. which it is quite meaningful when i watch back. We are AWESOME!!!! All the aerodance members, i miss you all~~ I really hope to dance back that together once again!! We really practice hard that time though we dun not mean to win but at last we WON for the second price~~ this was were one of the most meaningful and memorable moment in matric...In that practice period, we didt share moon cake together and kah chiin's "mua ji" ^^ We did work hard for it, we practice almost everyday immediately after our class for one week>< And when I look back the vedio, we have done our best in that competition^^ How nice!!!~~~
Eating dinner was also a wonderful time before, when you eat only bihun cook by ownselve and jz come with a small dishes, you will feel you are much more healthier than others which eat in the cafe with whole layer of oil on top...><><
Xinyi, I remembered that I did go and stay in your room someday in semester one. Though we are not that close after that because of some reasons (the most obvious one is that we are not staying in the same block yet not the same class) but i really appreciate to have friends like you^^ I can say here that you are the one who leads me to matric, if I didt get the same matric with you then i wont have the confident to go there. Thanks to you so so so much for your cares...For the truth, you are really a friend that cares people around you~~
Memories flow through my mind one by one...period by period, time by time. Maybe some of them have already disappear from my mind but for those amazing and awesome time i had with all of you, I will always keep them. Thanks for all of you being such a good friends to me and I m here to apologize for anything that mayb hurt you or trouble you...Now, i cant actually do anythings but missing all these and write them down. There are much more things in my mind which i do not have the ability to bla all of them here...Be sure to be happy always and that is the main point all along in our life...Cheers!!~
After i have prepare to go for my class, i miss you, zhi chin, which always wait me downstair to go for our class together. Sorry, i always feel very sorry to you as i m alway the on to be late and most of the time when i walk down from my room, you are already standing there waiting for me. Thanks, you are really a very patience friend of mine...I miss you...cute cartoon, zhi chin. Being in the same group with you, i feel pround and no worries. You know, you are always the best teammates among others^^
When i saw everyone is owning two phones, you know who i think off?? LOW SUE HAN!!! Haha, she owe three phones at the same time with three different company's number, you want mcontact her with digi, she has, celcome also can, hotlink or maxis, no need to say, sure you know la~ and when my phone nearly out off credits, two person is in my mind. One of these two is YOU, who call we can chat in the phone for so so so long till out of credits...haha though most of the time is you call me la~ i know it that, it not our phone our of credit or out of batteries, we wont stop chating in the phone, how to control har?? Everytime, sure i can feel the heat given out from my phone when we are chating...you are the only person that i chat so long in the phone before, even i dun chat so long with my mom in phone...XD And yet, not only this that makes me think off you...there are still many more...
After i m in my class, i miss you guys which is my classmate before in matric, zhi chin, yine, hanjune,jane...and sin yee(but now i m in the same school with you lo) We always stay together in class and when it is time for us to spread into groups, we are always in the same group!! Especially for english...In my matric life, i dun even experience to be in the same group with any malay...Remember our MV, the climb?? That time, we always scold together how lousy is this acivity that takes our limited time to complete it. But at last we done it, though we are not the best group but this is our lambang, it shows our cooperation and teamwork. Everytime i repeat this vedio I will still laugh or smile myself as I think it is special and we didt squeeze our mind to do it...This vedio makes me miss you guys...
Talking of vedio, another vedio regarding matric is the aerodance. which it is quite meaningful when i watch back. We are AWESOME!!!! All the aerodance members, i miss you all~~ I really hope to dance back that together once again!! We really practice hard that time though we dun not mean to win but at last we WON for the second price~~ this was were one of the most meaningful and memorable moment in matric...In that practice period, we didt share moon cake together and kah chiin's "mua ji" ^^ We did work hard for it, we practice almost everyday immediately after our class for one week>< And when I look back the vedio, we have done our best in that competition^^ How nice!!!~~~
Eating dinner was also a wonderful time before, when you eat only bihun cook by ownselve and jz come with a small dishes, you will feel you are much more healthier than others which eat in the cafe with whole layer of oil on top...><><
Xinyi, I remembered that I did go and stay in your room someday in semester one. Though we are not that close after that because of some reasons (the most obvious one is that we are not staying in the same block yet not the same class) but i really appreciate to have friends like you^^ I can say here that you are the one who leads me to matric, if I didt get the same matric with you then i wont have the confident to go there. Thanks to you so so so much for your cares...For the truth, you are really a friend that cares people around you~~
Memories flow through my mind one by one...period by period, time by time. Maybe some of them have already disappear from my mind but for those amazing and awesome time i had with all of you, I will always keep them. Thanks for all of you being such a good friends to me and I m here to apologize for anything that mayb hurt you or trouble you...Now, i cant actually do anythings but missing all these and write them down. There are much more things in my mind which i do not have the ability to bla all of them here...Be sure to be happy always and that is the main point all along in our life...Cheers!!~
First day of class
Still, now i m very "not busy" as today we only go for two class, one is 8am to 12 pm(lab, safety precaution) and another one is 2pm to 4 pm(engineering material)...and the 4 hours session is so long and so hard for us to go through. SUPER HARD...Actually i dun really know wat the lecturer talk about in front for the whole four hours. i can see him clearly and look at his mouth moving open and close continuously. But his words was totally blur and I cant hear him though i m not sitting at the last row...haha, first day first period i m already fishing and this was pretty serious it think. Next time if somebody ask about my uni, i can jz tell them for my very first class in uni, i m sleeping and fishing or maybe jz staring at the lecturer.
The only parts that i actaully understand was those cases happened before in the lab, like our hair or tudung will stuck into the machine if we are not careful enough.........and those scary things happen before, someone need to sew for twenty something needles bacause of this and because of that. this was all i know in the first four hours of my first uni lesson. So, is it i'm lucky or not?? XD
For the afternoon session, hmm...how to say?? not bore, the lecturer talk quite fast in english so i quite like it lo^^
That is all for my first day lesson in uni
The only parts that i actaully understand was those cases happened before in the lab, like our hair or tudung will stuck into the machine if we are not careful enough.........and those scary things happen before, someone need to sew for twenty something needles bacause of this and because of that. this was all i know in the first four hours of my first uni lesson. So, is it i'm lucky or not?? XD
For the afternoon session, hmm...how to say?? not bore, the lecturer talk quite fast in english so i quite like it lo^^
That is all for my first day lesson in uni
Sunday, July 11, 2010
New life...about friends
How would my life be after this?? Will it similar with wat i hav gone through in matric?? Will i have a friends or two as close as kah chiin and huiru?? or zhi chin?? or even suehan?? I know i should not think off these at this time but it really worried me when i think off this, everyone seems has their own group of friends and I'm like very have to mix in. Maybe is my own problem in not opening my mouth and talk more. But i feel weird to stay in a group of friend which all of them is so close and i m not that close with them...But we cant predict this on this time, because friendship take times to build, i'm quite clear with this statement.
Now, when i m thinking off FRIENDS, my mind keep coming out those image with all my friends, suehan, kahchiin, huiru.........these three very important people in my life...I MISS YOU ALL~~~ and all those friends that are close to me, zhi chin, jj, yuet yang, yun yin, shock hong, phiak kim, ming hui, chenm ming, yilin....and many many more(dun blame me if i forget you><)...which i wil constantly think off them and start to rethink what we have done together before...I really miss you guys...i dunno how to descride out my feelind when i miss you all, but it is not a kind of nice and confortable feeling...I really hope that we can still stay together, move on our future life together but it is almost impossible...everytime this statement pop out in my mind, i cant control myself to be sad...T.T
Tomorrow, my new schooling day starts, this would be totally different from what i had experience before. I am quite worried of the syllabus and ways of lecturer teaching here. But, you always wan me to have confident, i know it, so i m actually trying to calm myself down and try to get rid of this kind of feeling, but it just stay tightly with me which makes me feel like a bit suffering. NO WAY~~ i must really get rid of it.Haiz...still no point telling myself this as it do not really reduce my fear. Thanks to you that always give me energy and confident!! I dun want to dissapoint you too~ so i will really try my best to do well no matter in what.
What i m writing here, i dun think anyone wil come and read it...so mayb months or years later, you will see this. Sorry... though cannot said this word, but i have to type it here because i really feel so sorry to you sometimes, which i cant tell you to prevent myself from any punishment but i m writing here"sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry" for making you worry, making you confuse, trouble you, hurt you and al kinds of reasons................then when you see my post, you can punish me d.~~~ OH NO......RUN~~~
Now, when i m thinking off FRIENDS, my mind keep coming out those image with all my friends, suehan, kahchiin, huiru.........these three very important people in my life...I MISS YOU ALL~~~ and all those friends that are close to me, zhi chin, jj, yuet yang, yun yin, shock hong, phiak kim, ming hui, chenm ming, yilin....and many many more(dun blame me if i forget you><)...which i wil constantly think off them and start to rethink what we have done together before...I really miss you guys...i dunno how to descride out my feelind when i miss you all, but it is not a kind of nice and confortable feeling...I really hope that we can still stay together, move on our future life together but it is almost impossible...everytime this statement pop out in my mind, i cant control myself to be sad...T.T
Tomorrow, my new schooling day starts, this would be totally different from what i had experience before. I am quite worried of the syllabus and ways of lecturer teaching here. But, you always wan me to have confident, i know it, so i m actually trying to calm myself down and try to get rid of this kind of feeling, but it just stay tightly with me which makes me feel like a bit suffering. NO WAY~~ i must really get rid of it.Haiz...still no point telling myself this as it do not really reduce my fear. Thanks to you that always give me energy and confident!! I dun want to dissapoint you too~ so i will really try my best to do well no matter in what.
What i m writing here, i dun think anyone wil come and read it...so mayb months or years later, you will see this. Sorry... though cannot said this word, but i have to type it here because i really feel so sorry to you sometimes, which i cant tell you to prevent myself from any punishment but i m writing here"sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry" for making you worry, making you confuse, trouble you, hurt you and al kinds of reasons................then when you see my post, you can punish me d.~~~ OH NO......RUN~~~
Chemical Engineering
Is this the course I wanted to take and I am interesting in?? Maybe not but maybe yes. So this is me, Toe Cui Ying, which do not own my own 100% decision every single moments for my entire life. Due to this reasons, my family members gave me a nick name call "sui bian ying" though it sounds a bit weird to have this kind of name, still I think they are right~
Now no matter what and how my feeling is to this course, I has to accept and try my best to love this course. This is the toughest things for me to do if at last, I really do not have any interest towards this course.
Today, I'm again going back to my engineering campus usm in nibong tebal, two more hours to go. This is not to worst things for me as I had use to coming home and going back in matric, but things that worry me the most now is tomorrow, class is going to start and we are going to face all those challenging subjects which when i look through the syllabus i realise that all those subjects name are pretty complicated and scary.
Still I hope I can bare and cop with it, without obstacles......though this is actually impossible. Degree level in university is totally different from what we use to learn in school or matric.
Actually before I start my studies, there is already one big obstacle in front of me, that is my daddy. He do not really like the course I am taking now and keep on asking why do I choose this course in the beginning. I am quiet because I do not know how to answer this question and how to explain. In his mind, being a teacher is the best and he always want us to study and become a teacher. He comments a lot to my course even when I am not home. But how to solve and turn back, no, there is no way back!!!!! I can just continue to proceed with what I am doing now and study hard to get my degree four years later. Daddy, please do not keep on asking the same question as after ten or twenty years, I may not have a real and correct answer for you. Sorry if I really disappoint you but I will try my best to complete my studies. I love you, Mummy and Daddy. Muacksssssssssssssssssss~~~~~~~
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Not easy.
Today, I'm like usual, clicking here and there in facebook aimlessly...and i found out some friends link to their blogs...So through there i thought off having my own blog as well...It looks quite fun to have my own one and i can really write whatever I like here. And first things first, here, it is not so "public".
But maybe because i'm a computer and internet dumb, so I did use up to hours to create a blog. Now, i don't think i finish creating and decorating it, but at least now i slightly know how to use it. Hope my thinking now is correct. To create this blog, i click here and there, creating a few empty blog and dunno what to do le~~ but luckily at last, i found it out that i do not need to create so many blog at the same time...^^Anyway, creating a blog is not that easy...=)
Still, i m happy that i have done it. and mayb wont be opening it for sometime as i m having a busy life now... But, just to say here that, actually my mood is super fine this morning and afternoon. But again suddenly moody again...haiz...why i m like this recently?? No no~~ CUIYING...cant be like this anymore.
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