perks;

too soon;

I still remember the first day I met you, there was nothing special that happened, no words passed that I can remember but for some reason I glanced your way and noticed you. You know that moment when you're in a room of new people, new peers, you look around and try and guess who you'd end up connecting with. I may not have known you very well. But we co-existed, and sometimes that's enough.

For some reason I feel the need to say this (or rather type this) in some way, shape or form. Not for me, but for you, for your family and for your friends who knew and love you dearly. You left us too soon. In such a small class of students as our own, your presence will be missed dearly. I guess I just want you to know, you've made such a big impact in our community that will resonate with many generations of students to come. You were one of the few who saw an opportunity to make a difference and did all in your power to make it happen.

A short three years and three months ago, we started university unknowing of the friends we had yet to meet and the challenges we had yet to face. Now with graduation just months away and all of us making plans to go our separate ways, it's just not fair that the world and its people are left without you. You were the one who was going to be someone and do something special. I guess this is something we'll never really understand, it took us all by surprise, this isn't something anyone expects to have to deal with, ever. I pray for those loved ones who are trying to make sense of this all and that you have found the peace that you deserve.

RIP Devin.

#selfmotivation

It's so frustrating when you know you can do something. I mean you've done it before. And yet you can't. Something is holding you back. You can't/ or don't want to for some reason, give your all. It's my last year. Lets make it count. Lets not regret putting in those extra hours or making the ones you've already put in count. No more coasting. It's work time. Everything is lined up, just don't throw it away.

debunking YOLO;

From the Wellesley High School Commencement Speech;

"Let me point out the illogic of that statement as you can and should live not merely once but everyday of your life. Rather than "You Only Live Once" it should be "You Live Only Once". But because YLOO doesn't have the same ring you shrug and decide it doesn't matter. None of the day seizing - this YLOO should be interpreted for self indulgence. Like accolades ought to be a fulfilled life as a consequence, gratifying byproduct, it's what happens when you're thinking about more important things in life."

I've never in my life thought that I'd be able to spend this much time alone. Spending hours reading, laying in the sun, watching people. Sure I miss company, and having people to share these little moments with. But maybe this is my chance to get to know myself better. This year has been filled with a lot of growing up.

West Coast, Best Coast;

when the going gets tough, the tough gets going;

Because I think that I don't talk enough about these people who have been so instrumental in making my school life pretty darn great. (apart from grades and job prospects of course! :p) theres more people I swear! I just don't have pictures on my phone.

press refresh;

It's interesting. I've spent three years now, getting to know a great bunch of people. We've had tons of laughs, tons of love and a never ending supply of smiles. It's been a roller coaster ride that I am so thankful for everyday.

Yet, every time something bugs me or doesn't go my way, I always end up retreating, pulling away from others and criticizing every aspect of everything, thinking how much they don't fit into what I imagined my world to be. However, instead it's been an uphill battle of coming to a realization that maybe it's me who doesn't fit into their world. It wasn't them, it was me, and that's okay too. Maybe, it's time to step back, and to start moving at my own pace again.

I'm ready for a new adventure, and this time I'm not going to wait for 'Game Over' to start a 'New Game'.

young, wild and free;

I miss this. Nao please. :)

It's funny yet unfortunate how you can spend so much time with people and just wake up one day feeling like you don't know them at all.