ReNew

My Apology for the readers of my blog.... Haven't updated this since the first half of this year. Busy busy on work.... Sorry...

I'll drop by more often now...
Thanks for visiting....

MySpace: World Visitor Map

In my blog hopping, I stumbled across this very cool tool in MySpace, My World Visitor Map. The description said and I quote "Has your MySpace Profile touched all the corners of the world? This tool will provide you and your profile visitors with a map of just that! Your surfers do not have to enter any information what so ever, using the power of the Internet it's possible to get the general location of someone based on there IP address, which is like your digital phone numbers, but only computers can call it."

Cool right? A world map that shows all your visitors from all sides of the globe. It's like the Recent Readers Widget but this time it's in a World Map feature. Plus, the users don't have to supply any information. They just have to visit your MySpace and the Map is automatically updated. Brilliant and Cool!

So I thought, if it is possible in MySpace, it could work in Blogger. So I copied the code and put it here in my blog... And look, look... According to my Map, I already have a visitor in the South-West Side Ocean of Africa...What? Does anyone live there? Hehehehehe... Maybe the visitor is in a boat.... Ohhh, I got a seaman visitor... Hehehehe...

Try this tool guys cool... I already saw some maps that has millions of marks.

make your own map at: www.modmyprofile.com

Making Both Ends Meet

It’s really hurting to just live life as it is. It’s even more depressing when you’re happy now but someone dear to you has no comment about your love, or “deadma” Knowing you; you have a pretty good reason for that. It maybe because of what had transpired before, the fights and all. It maybe because you just don’t dig him, you said there something in him that you just don’t like. Or “hindi talaga kayo magJive” Or you don’t want him to be with me. Or something deep that even me can’t see. I really don’t know until you say it. I’m confused right now.

Am I contented with the fact that love and friendship can’t seem to find a way to get along? No, I’m not! I really feel weak and sad right now. This afternoon Love told me to have dinner on Friday and bring Friendship along. That makes me think if I can make the two of them in a dinner table at the same time, knowing the situation. That’s why I decided to inform Friendship and asked if we could have dinner together; Me, Friendship and Love. That’s when I felt sad on the replies. I got a “Hay…” reply, an obvious reply of nothing to say or react. In our case, it’s a NO. I know it’s not your fault but I can’t help to feel sad. I wanted Friendship and Love to be okay with each other. You both have something in common. You both love Me.


Why can’t things work out?

I don’t intend something out of this expression I just wanted to say what I am feeling at the moment.

I want you both to know that I LOVE the TWO of you. And I wish for things to get along.

Trinoma Mall

At last after reading the newly opened mall beside SM North EDSA in several blogs, I finally got the chance to actually be there. Yesterday, my officemates and I decided to go out for lunch. And of course the very curious me and seatmate Sonny, suggested the TRINOMA MALL.

It’s entrance is inviting and refreshing. Maganda sa mata tignan. Para kang nasa Rockwell, with the designs of the pillar, fountain and all. It’s cool for an entrance. But the inside of the mall you’ve got to see. It’s Huge, huge enough to host a Midnigt Madness Sale and a Street Party.

I would say that the size of it is as big as SM MegaMall but in a circular design. The walk way inside the mall is ok. The boutiques have bigger shops compared to other mall. Though, it is not yet 100% operational. It is good. Other stores are just about to open.

They also have an entertainment center like that of Glorietta, in the center of the mall. When we went there, there is a Badminton Tournament going on. But of course, we just ignored it. We went straight to the reason we got there, FOOD.

They have Food Choices there people and cute little private dinner tables to dine in. Just like those private dinner tables in Greenbelt. Cool ah!

Unfortunately, our lunch time is not that long to browse what the whole TRINOMA MALL could offer. There is only one fall back in TRINOMA MALL, commuting home. ANg hirap humanap ng taxi. You could walk though to MRT Station pero mainit eh…. Hehehe

We arrived back in the office around 2PM. Lakas ng loob namen noh. Ala kasi ang boss nmen, nakaSickLeave. When the cat is away, the mice will play! Hahaha. Oh, I forgot I bought Go Nuts Donuts Box of 6 – that I have been craving for almost 2 months now. S TRINOMA lang pala ako makakabili eh. Ala kasing Go Nuts Donuts anywherne near the office.

Till next malling….

Gumana ka! Gumana ka!

Dahil sa pagakaAdik ko sa pagpapaganda ng Blog ko every widget that I could get, na bagay sa blog, I’ll grabbed it.

New update - widgets of Top Links and Recent Readers.

Sinimulan ko ng gawen ang aking Top Links and Recent Readers widgets kahapon pa. I already pasted the code for tracking in the HTML code of my blog plus the code of the two widgets. But nothing happens. And since uwian ko na ginawa, pinagpabukas ko n lang ang pagtapos sa widgets ko. May kapaguran din ang pagUupdate ko blog ko ah( isn’t obvious, I haven’s updated my post… Hehehehe)..

Kinabukasan, Gerumatori texted me. Kung panu ko daw napagana yung Recent Redears widget ko eh di ko p sya napapagana, nilagay ko pa lang yung code sa log ko…. Hehehehe… may karamay n ako sa sakit ng ulo para paganahin ang widget n ito… Hehehehe… “Two heads are better than one” nga… So ayun… We started fixing our blogs and texting kung anong ginawa nmen sa blog nmen…

And dilemma ko, lumalabas yung picture and name ko sa Recent Readers ng ibang blog but yung Recent Readers ng blog ko, hindi.

Gerumatori’s dilemma naman is the reverse. Nkikita nya ako sa Recent Reders ng blog nya pero sya di nya makita sa Recent Readers ng iba… Hehehe…

Tulungan lang ito at mapapagana din nmen ito… Konting copy paste, HTML Code editng and “There you go” Npagana n din… Hahaha… AT LAST…

After consuming half day of office hours to fix that widget, Gerumatori and I finally got it… The trick… Paste mo then, sign out ka sa blog. Then log in again, at least that’s what I did. Ayun makikita mo n sya. MyBlogLog never said to log in again to see the widget working. Weird!… Hehehehe…

As long as it’s ok n that’s all that matters…

MyBlogLog - Top Links and Recent Readers widgets you better work.

Conclusion of The Great Escape

After our, Dida and me, great escape, we went and tell our historical story to the choir and of course Tina, the owner of the house where we came from that night. Unknowingly, they all responded “May camera kaya. Di nyo ba nakita” Stupid Us, answered No. Tanga lang namen noh….

Biruin nyo at nagkalat na pala ang video naming parang presong tumatakaas sa ilalim ng gate ng Bel Air… What-the- Fuck!....

Plus, we found out that the fine for the said offense is almost 2 thousand pesos. It’s a good thing there is no security guard around when we are doing the escape… Hehehe. Or else, it will cost us 2K. And to think that Dida has no work… Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah :-(

Well, after all that! One thing is for sure. I would rather walk the Paseo De Roxas gate of Bel Air than be caught in the same camera again… We will never know what will cost us the second offense…

Things we foolishly do from time to time.

New Template New Attitude...... Sana

I have just created a new template and design of my blog… Hehehehe :-D

Check it out Peepz… Nothing special I just wanted my blog to look better.

I’ve been trying to modify my existing template to this template right now for about a wek now. Finally, I’ve decided to go for the present template right now… Happy posting! :-D

The Great Escape

Have you tried getting out of a village by going under the gate that was close?

I did. I mean we did, me and Dida.

It was an ordinary tambay hanggang umaga. Masyadong nagumon sa pagTotongIt. Tong it bad for your record. Until din amen namalayang 2Am na.Sa kagustuhang maTwo Hits ang kabuuang pera ayun, di umalis ng di naTwoTwoHits. We’re adik, we know. Hehehe… Kaya nga kami nagkakasundo eh. But eventually, ako din ang nagpasira. I made the wrong move that gave Tina the chance to get the Two Hits. Ayun lungkot, kasi di ako ang nakaTwo Hits, but at last uwian na….

We thought that makakaabot pa kami dun sa gate that suppose to close on 1:30AM. Unfortunately, we didn’t. But Dida, being a resourceful teacher she is, suggested that we just went under the not so tiny space below the gate. So we did!

Why Great Escape? All villages have their security camera that we neglected to consider. So, we look like robbers na tumatakas galling sa isang nakawan. Waaaaaaaahhh :-(

So if anyone saw my pic as wanted, you already know the story. And please do telll them we are INNOCENT… MUkhang lang hinde…. Hehehehehe

**** If there are children reading this post, Parental Guidance is Recommended. Kung ayaw nyong matulad samen... : D ****

Mists

Why is it that in a relationship there are always issues that we just don’t want to face head on. We just let it passed until it bites us again in the future…

Some questions not answered. Some issues not resolve. Compromise is the answer.

Talk the issues out. Resolve them.

Is it hard to trust your love one? If he is going out with his new found friends or old buddies, will you let him go alone? Or because you’re his BF you should go both. Or just don’t allow him to go…

Trust? Jealousy? What’s the reason?

Isn’t it healthy for a relationship that both of you should have your separate set of friends. He has his friends and you have yours. He could go out with his friends and you could with yours. Let’s be frank with each other, there are things that you are doing with your friends and things that you do with your “hubby”. It’s normal for a person to do things that he usually does with his friends and not worrying if his BF will allow him or get mad. In the first place, why does he need permission? He has been doing that even before his BF came…

Why get jealous with his friends just because you don’t know them? Does this mean that he needs to acquaint you with all his friends for you to trust him?

The point is, BF got angry and mad because he wanted to go out with his new found friends. Does the BF reaction’s normal? Or he’s reaction / jealousy (if we may call it) out of place? Or because you are committed to him you don’t get to do things like this anymore?

When will the paranoia stop? Won’t your BF feel claustrophobic? That he is just bound to do things with you or when you agreed on it.

If you stop going out or seeing your set of friends that you’re BF is not acquainted to, it’s your choice. Don’t blame. It’s what you called “your sacrifice” Why do you need to sacrifice? Did your BF ask for this sacrifice? If your way of loving is “your world revolve around your BF”, that’s you. But don’t be mad because he wanted to do things without you. He just wanted to bond and have fun with his friends. That’s normal, right?

Fun and bonding with friends is different from the passion and joy you have when you’re with your “hubby”

He loves and cares for you very much. He wanted things to work out. He wanted to resolve this… But please be open minded and understanding just like what you wanted him to be.

Help me guys. What’s do I need to do?

SPPYC Photo Album

Heyah guys! I have created an account for SPPYC in www.flickr.com, an image hosting site. This for uploading all our pictures/moments like that of in Multiply. This is even faster than multiply and can host 200MB per month.

Just want to inform you guys.

Our photo album address is: http://www.flickr.com/photos/sppyc/

Started My Birthday with Surprise!! Surprise!!

Today, I am officially 24 y/o. It’s mahh birthday… Hehehe.. Happy Birthday to me! Greetings already started since 12 midnight until now.

I am truly happy today beacuse for once I am feeling the real meaning of the word "happy". I have someone who loves very much, misunderstandings with friends are now fixed, I have a great family, good job and the choir. What more can I ask for? Thank you Lord for the wonderful experiences of me being 23 y/o and I am looking forward for another year ahead with your Love and Guidance.



Here's some surprises that I got today:


Bench Polo Shirt and Undies given by my officemate. Nice, di ba?


The whole group contributed for that gift… Thank you LN Group.


Another is, my friend Ron, made this slide show.

His gift for me.. Thankz yah


Yung iba ipapaDeliver sana kaso nabulilyaso. Hehehe. When he comes back na lang daw nya ibibgay… Love you Baby Bear : D

A Day Before I turn 24

2AM this morning I spent quality and intimate time with my Baby Bear before he went to Bacolod. That was the last time we were together because he will return to Manila on Monday, March 26, 2007. I will be single for 6 days… Hehehe.. Joke lang Baby Bear :-D

I was late in the office but it’s ok because I got to spend the morning with my Baby. Then came work. Today is the orientation and familiarization of my new project. It’s ok and simple but will be hard to test.

This day will be the last day of me being 23. And the first person to greet me is my High School Choir Master, Maam Myrna Parakikay. Thank you. Second is my friend and ate in FedEx, Chanel… Talamat Ate! Then followed by my Baby, he called and was expecting that he will be the first to greet me. Sorry Baby to disappoint you, naunahan ka ni Maam Myrna. Hehehehe. Fourth was Ate Reg, my officemate, before she went home… Lastly, Francis greeted me in the Forum. Thank yah : )

That’s it so far for the list of persons that greeted me in advance for my birthday. I am still expecting others… Specially tomorrow the day itself.

Bye. Go home na ako.

Music Ministry – Symphony of Music

***pictures courtesy of http://sppyc.multiply.com/



Saints Peter and Paul Youth Choir. My dear group. I never thought that joining this group will not just keep me closer to God. And improve my relationship to him but will also find a new home. A home that I am longing before…

We joined the SPP Youth Choir last February 26, 2006. Woah! Last February 26, Mondays was officially our first year anniversary. Wow! Time passed so quickly. I love this group so much, more than they ever know. SPPYC have been a very good influence to me. Spiritual, financial, admin, events…. ay mali mali. Committee pala nmen yun… Hahaha

But seriously, they have been helping me in a lot of things. They give directions and a new view in life. They gave me love khet na baguhan pa lang kami I already felt love. They are so warm when it comes to newcomers.

Don’t be deceived by the jokes and kakulitan of this group. They are more to that. I love this Group. They’ve been there for me in happy and lonely times… Mas nanaiisin ko pang tumambay kasama ang choir kesa sa magstay sa bahay because of their company.

I thank GOD and Dida for introducing me to SPPYC. May GOD always protect, guide and direct our path.

Easter is fast approaching… Let’s give our best in praising HIM… Love you all. No matter what happen, you are now in the chamber of my heart and will forever be there…

Reconciliation

“In the sweetness of friendship let there be sorrow, for in the dew of little things the heart finds its morning and is refreshed” – Unknown







That’s a perfect quote that I could find that best describes what happened to me and my two best friends. A little dispute, it is just like ate jhie said. Why does fight always there in a good friendship? Maybe, it is true that friendships needs quarrel to make it strong through the years.

I never thought that things will go out of hand by issues intermixed.

Distrust, too much involvement, hurt, care, apology and love. All of those things made things worstand also made the patch up between parties. The worst part is, don’t argue with anyone over “Text Messaging”.

I guess the love that we have for each other really binds us three and is more precious that any other issues. I could say that this is the biggest, deepest and hardest misunderstanding we three had. Come to think of it, Ate Ellay and Ate Jhie needed to force us three to talk just to bring this dispute to an end. Love you Ate Ellay and Ate Jhie...



I never regret having this squabble. Cause this may hurt us but it will make our bond stronger. But I do regret hurting the people involved. You know who you are and I am sorry. You all know that I love you all.


I hope you do understand why things happen and why each of us did what we did.

I love you always Borgie and Tina… God knows how much.

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Turning a Pink Older

March 8 marks another year of happiness, sentiments, laughter, knowledge, friendship and most importantly discovery for my friend Mikey.

He has shown a lot of changes since last year. He is certainly felt much lighter now, releasing all those baggage he has been carrying for years. Thanks to our choir. Compare to the previous Mikey before; a so serious person, lagging nakasimangot, never nikikisabay in our jokes, masungit and he always have a distance with the choir especially in sharing his thoughts, now; he is very jolly, and I mean jolly talaga as in bouncing jolly, he can now share all his feelings and thoughts to us, he now found friends that he can really depend on, he now smiles, and you can definitely see a happy AURA in him (minsan nga lang pagBadTrip busangot ulet).

What a big change. Let’s give him a big round of applause and hug in all the efforts he gave for the choir and the strength he has for all the things he had been through… We are always here Mikey.

I wish you all the best on pursuing your career (ngayon pa at naghahanap ka ng tranbaho).

Keep up the good aura you have. And sana we can put everything in the past. I hope you find your happiness.

A Very Happy Happy Birthday

khet late na ang pagpost… hehehe

No Pain No Gain

Being fit and slim is no joke. It is really hard and painful. I bow to those people who are so discipline in working out.

I had my first gym experience last night. My friend / co-member in the choir invited me to try working out with him. It alright. The gym was fine and gym goers are friendly. But for first timers like me, who wouldn’t know a bit on how to use the equipments or even the equipment itself, it kindah a jungle with predators around. Waaaaah… The routine I now understand because as you lift they are explaining the reason behind the sets and routines you are doing.

I am telling you working out is not a 1-2-3 steps. It takes discipline, effort and a lot of protein and water. Grabe, uhaw na uhaw ako after.

Speaking of after, when I got home, Oh My God! All the pain and aches sink in. My arms hurt, my back sore, my chest is painful and so on… Now really, getting fit and slim really hurts. But I am not complaining. I was just sharing my first time working out. They say the pain will mellow down after my second work out. According to my friend, this should be followed by another work out or the pain will continue. Mas masarap ibuhat da ito ulet!

So, I hope on our next work out, less pain… Hehehe :-D

EK: Disconnecting People

In my experience on my first work after College studies, I found a good job and a great group that I could never explain how happy I am to belong to this group. Surely an unforgettable experience I have with them. All the laughter, office jokes, bonding and closeness we have, problems we share to each other (mostly still related to work) and our issues, concerns and sentiments to our bosses and job functions…. Hehehehe… :-D

Though we have different job description, we have one spirit “sa pagKako Moment namen sa mga himutok ng buhay sa aming miting place veranda by the Manila Bay… Hehehe”

Here are my pals:

This picture was taken last January 13, 2006 “Friday the 13^th” From left to right…

Chanel – the ever manas ng group. He can always be so “mean”. Uy mean daw. Hehehe. Memories! At syempre very bouncy. “Yes madam”… Mentor ko sa first work ko. Magkapatid kami sa grupo, saken sya hahanpen at ako sa kanya… Hehehe :D

Maam Beth – my favorite PM of all. Di ba? Hehe. She gave me all my knowledge in warehousing system. The Advocacy of the group. Di nga namen alam kung sang team talaga sya eh… Labyah maam beth…

Andoy(middle front) – Pesnge ng grupo. He can be very naughty and playful all the time. Mas enjoy nga pag sya ang pinaglalaruan sa kanyang herpes… Hehehe

Sonny(middle back) – Paleh ng group at kumare ko ay este kumpare pala… sorry Sonya… Hehehe. He may be my half devil sister pero take him seriously kasi dami n nyang alam sa buhay... Eh tinandatanda ba naman nyan eh… Hehehe. Labyah pare!

Ate Alma – the Ate of all. “Ate busy ka ba tonight?” Hehehe. But don’t be deceive by her virgin smile and innocent looks. (yes biglang bawi.. hehehe) Guru yan. Sex Guru.. Hehehe. Labyah ate…

Queen (VUM) – a.k.a Bestfriend. Di ko nga lang alam kung taga IT o CS. Hehehe. Ito naman ang kambal ko “Can Ihave your name pls? VUM !!!” Jolly din parang ako at bouncy din parang si BEMBEM… :D

Not in the picture:

Mike - a.k.a Kako. Ito namang isang ito ang tinuruan ko. But he can stand on his own. Pati nga hardware at network problems ginagwa nyan eh. Kaya npapagalitan. Hehehe

PeeJay - My Number 1. Bwahaha. Pasok ka dun pare.. Hehehe. BoyToy ng taon. Pinakamakulet sa grupo. Andami ng sumusuko sa kakulitan nito. Pero happily married na yan. Di nga lang nagpapaalam pag may lakad kami.. Peace out pare!

Tet - a.k.a Rosario. She is the smile in the group. This girl have a great smile. Kaya daming naiinlove eh.. Hehehe. But she is a fast learner. Grabe ilang araw pa lang sa group namen. Adopt na agad. Miss you girl. : D

Miss yah all guys… Hope we could hang out still even though we are not under one company anymore. Labas tau ulet bago mawala ang AMI. Andoy kaw na lang ang tao sa AMI. Hahahaha = )

Shadows of Negligence

Here goes another post way back due. This happened on the last day of February.


It’s hard when you have let someone down. And it is even hard if the fault is on your shoulder. You have no alibi, no excuses and it is 100% your irresponsibility. I borrowed my officemates computer because I am copying something from it. She reminded me through pop (a local area network chat room here at my work), words and even before she left to turn off her computer. But then, when I went home, I still forgot to shut it down. First day in the morning I received a text message from her in a serious-mad note “di mo pinatay ang pc ko”. Then I realized I forgot it. So I apologize many times through text. I even beg sorry in person and all she did was to pin point the importance of shutting down the computer especially in our case, we are just consultant in this company. Haaaay, I felt ashamed because of what I have done. Then I realized, this is not the first time that this happen. It happen twice already and also to my other officemates. Haaay again. There’s the answer. ME. I am the one who have the problem. I am the one who neglected to turn off their computers. What a shame! I know I should not be posting this. That I am just shitting on my own name… But I still want to because I wanted this out of my system. I wanted the sadness that I felt because of what I have done, gone in my heart. :-(


But don’t worry my officemates and I were Ok now. I promise them that this will never happen again in the future to any of my officemates.

Mania

I don’t usually became addict to TV Series and the like but Heroes, Prison Break and Grey’s Anatomy caught my attention. Their plot, twist of stories, cinematography and the characters are a WoW. Those three did really hook me.

Heroes, I heard this from my officemate and got me interested. It’s a good thing that I work in IT. All the episodes just roam around everybody’s PC. It is a story of ordinary people with extra ordinary powers. It’s just like X-Men. But there is no Xavier Institute for the Gifted. The characters are your average neighbor, cheer leader, painter, etc.. The twist in the story is there is a character that absorbs all powers. So he thinks that he is the savior. And there is also normal human being in the cast. That investigates about them. Unfortunately the origin or the answer why they have such powers is not yet revealed… I haven’t watched the whole Ep1 yet. So baka in the future chapter, ipakita.

Prison Break, this I got from my best friend Tinacute. She brought home the whole Episode 1 one Saturday night and we decided to have a peek. The peek turns into a marathon. We even stayed until morning just to finish the whole Ep1, para di nakakabitin. Hehehe. Prison Break is about Brotherly Love and the scams and conspiracy going on in a maximum prison establishment. I really like how the main character thinks here. He is gifted. And a jaw-dropping looks. Grrrrr….. Our next marathon will be soon, Epispde 2 is still not yet in my hands.

Lastly, Grey’ Anantomy. I got this from no one except my good old TV. I’ve watched it in Star World every episode. Nagamamadali pa akong umuwi para maabutan ang airing time. It is a story about doctors working in a hospital. Then the main character falls in love with one of the resident doctor who happens to be married. Shit! Very Me! Ouch! The cutest thing is, in the first episode the two already had sex not knowing that they will be co-workers and one of them is the boss… Hehehe. What I like the most is his pet name

“Dr. McDreamy” Haaaayy, sana may ganun din ako. Khit di na doctor…

Hehehe :-D

Muddled Emotions

Why do I always feel like this when I am starting to get too involve to someone. All the confusions, the what ifs, the baka hindi nya ako magustuhan. I know these feelings are very high school. But don’t you feel it when you are starting to fall in love.

I don’t know really what I am feeling right now. Mixed emotions. Very blurred mind-set… Hay, I hate this feeling. I’m an Aries for God’s sake. And now I feel so weak and vulnerable. Why?

I don’t know!

I just told someone that is starting to get serious with me that “etoh ako, ayan ako. Ganito ako” And he just said that “yoko sa ganito at ganyan” Just so happen that his ganyan and ganito, that he dislikes, is ME. Hay, what a gumble…

Oh, the thing we called LOVE, why do you always makes us twist and feel uncertain. Then burn us to PAIN. Before giving us the right one…

******

Just want to share a text msg from my friend: “You will never know how Sweet Life is, until you have tasted the Bitterness of it!”

Let the Blog Begin

Now, this is officially the start of my blog… Pardon me for the boredom my bog has cause… I haven’t updated it since... Here goes:

I started the day with a miracle. What’s the miracle? I wake Early. Hahaha. That’s a miracle for a lazy and always late ME. I was the second person in our team in the office. I started the day with a smile as always but snob in MRT. Ayoko ngang makipagngitian sa mga PLU ngaun, ala ako sa mood.Sorry!

I did my usual routine, smoke first before signing in the building. That’s my breakfast. Have you tried sleeping during brown out? I just did. I only had 6 hrs of sleep. Damn that Meralco Post in JP Rizal! It exploded because of the rain, brown out tuloy. Minsan ka lang matulog ng maaga, brown out p!

At my desk, the first thing I did is to prepare my Timesheet and Billing. Today is my cut-off. Unfortunately, my boss was on leave. Oh My God! No one will sign my papers; I will not get paid. This is not happening. *worries*

In my panic of me not getting my paid, I kinda made a nakakaawa face in front of our Admin, for her to have pity on me… It worked! Hehehe. She will do something about it daw for me to get my money on payday *fingers crossed* Hope so! Minsan advantage maging dramatic, acting lang!

12 noon strikes and I had my lunch and my second smoke. Then back to work “kuno” Hehehe

Then, at my thirst, I went to the pantry to refill my tumbler. There I saw my cutie crush entering the office. God! I swear, I saw him staring at me and me looking / smiling at him. It seems he like it… Hay, don’t assume… But he is really cute and kinda Chinese looking. He looks smart pa with his reading glasses on. And from a distance, naamoy ko sya. Ambango nya. Shit, kaadikan na ito, pigilan nyo ko!

I would gladly accept him as a Present for my Birthday. Hihihi *kilig*

Nga pala, announcement, my birthday is fast approaching so gift ko mga friends. Hehehe. Ang kapal lang ng mukha ko no.. Hehehe

It's Been So Long....

It has been a month before I could follow my last post... Been very busy lately... Sorry...

Well, enough of that sorrow and painful post... I have already moved on... I'll post my past happenings and events starting from moving on to now...

Hehehe

AM I REALLY IN LOVE?

I saw this post in Pinoy Exchange. I find it so meaningful. Just want to share it. It is a beautiful dictionary of LOVE. This post was made by user Beyonder... link to the post ( http://www.pinoyexchange.com/forums/showthread.php?t=104929&page=3 then find Beyonder)

“IF YOU LOSE LOVE, THAT DOESN’T MEAN THAT YOU HAVE FAILED IN LOVE. CRY IF YOU HAVE TO, BUT MAKE SURE THAT TEARS WASH AWAY THE HURT AND THE BITTERNESS THAT THE PAST LEFT YOU WITH. LET GO OF YESTERDAY AND LOVE WILL FIND ITS WAY BACK TO YOU”.

for all you people who say “I love you” when you have no clue what love exactly is!!! Something to ponder upon...


Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught
withing your chest??
-It isn’t love, it’s LIKE.

You can’t keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right??
-It isn’t love, it’s LUST.

Are you proud, and eager to show them off??
-It isn’t love, it’s LUCK.

Do you want them because you know they’re there??
-It isn’t love, it’s LONELINESS.

Are you there because it’s what everyone wants??
-It isn’t love, it’s LOYALTY.

Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hands??
-It isn’t love, it’s LOW CONFIDENCE.

Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don’t want to
hurt them??
-It isn’t love, it’s PITY.

Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a
beat??
-it isn’t love, it’s INFATUATION.

Do you pardon their faults because you care about them??
-It isn’t love, it’s FRIENDSHIP.

Do you tell them every day they are the only one you think of???
-It isn’t love, it’s a LIE.

Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake??
-It isn’t love, it’s CHARITY.

Does your heart ache and break when they’re sad??
-Then it’s L0VE.

Do you cry for their pain, even when they’re strong??
-Then it’s L0VE.

Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it
hurts??
-Then it’s L0VE.

Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensive mix of pain and relation pulls you close and hold you there??
-Then it’s L0VE.

Do you accept their faults because they’re a part of who they are??
-Then it’s L0VE.

Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without
regret??
-Then it’s L0VE.

Would you give them your heart, your life, your death??
-Then it’s L0VE.


When we meet the right person to love, at the right
place and at the right time. That’s chance.

When you meet someone you’re attracted to, that’s not
a choice. That’s chance.

Being caught up in a moment (and there’s a lot of
couples who get together because of this) is not a
choice, that’s also chance.

The difference is, what happens afterwards? When will
you take that infatuation, that crush, that
mind-blowing attraction to the next level?

That’s when all sanity goes back, you sit down and
then contemplate whether you want to make this into a
concrete relationship or just a fling.

If you decide to love the person, even with his
faults, that’s not chance. That’s choice.

When you choose to be with a person no matter what,
that’s choice.

Even if you know there are many people out there who
are more attractive, smarter, and richer than your
mate, and yet, you decide to love your mate just the
same, that’s choice.

Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by
chance.

But true love that lasts is truly a choice.

Regarding soulmates, there’s a beautiful movie quote
that I believe is so true about this--”Fate brings you
together, but it’s still up to you to make it happen.”

I believe that soulmates exist and that there is truly
someone made for you.

But it’s still up to you to make the choice if you’re
going to do something about it or not.

We may meet our soulmates by chance, but loving and
staying with our soulmate is still a choice we have to make.

...”Imagination is the highest kite one can fly.”

Next please.... ( " , )

If you will notice, my previous entries in this blog are all about pain, heartaches and trying to let go. It is because that is what I felt during those times. Now, I am pretty confident that I am moving on. God knows I should have done this long before.


My friends in our community have always been giving me a slap in the face for me to wake up. (“Sayang naman ang effort nila kung di ako magmomove on – Hehehe”) Especially my ever dearest SSP Youth Choir. I love you all guys. They already know me for almost a year membership in the group. I don’t have to tell them anything; they will instantly read me and know what I am feeling…


Love you all ^ _ ^


So forgive for not spending time with you guys because of “you know what”. I know you understand me. I just needed time then. Now, it’s ME TIME!


To bid farewell to that past… Hope you like it. In his loving memory (Hehehe–joke J

Letting Go

How do you walk away from someone you love And take the road of a friend; Can you reroute the course you have taken And start over once again? I don't really want to let you go But inside me I know I must; The times we've shared . . . the times you've left My heart says stay . . . but it's my mind I must trust. I tought we've shared something great together Laughter . . . sweet times . . . fears; Yet sometimes I can't turn back time I must walk away, and allow myself to heal. I know one day I will be happy And my soulmate I will find; I know I have one out there Even if for now . . . only in my mind. May life be gentle with you May God's best come your way; And on some quiet tomorrow I will realize things were better this way.

Confessions Of A Broken Heart

Pain... Tension... Fatigue... Depression... Anger, Aggression, Frustration. All these unwanted sensations - Burning, hurting, tearing. My heart alone, cold and fearing. Why won't you let me sleep, let me rest, Let me forget To eradicate, eliminate, destroy all my regrets? These memories inside, swirling, twirling, unwilling to reside in the corner of my mind. Repeating, resisting, insisting - Refusing to be denied its recognition Of its position in my Frustration, Confusion, Delusion. Ah, to close my eyes and let time fly by, Because there's so much to gain By forgetting these dreams driving me insane. Unfocused, unclear, out of control, My world spinning, spinning, spinning, My sanity flying through the door. My reason, my logic, oh, it's tragic, Like fine sands running through my hands, I'm losing my mind.

Why Do I?

Why do I smile at the sound of your voice? Why do I let you take over me as if I had no choice? Why do I let you touch me in places never touched? Why do I like to have you around so much? Why do I melt at the tenderness of your kiss? Why do I feel like I could live forever like this? Why do I put my heart in your hands? Why do I answer to your every demand? Why do I tell you leaving me is not your wrong? Why do I let you know with out you I'm not quite as strong? Why do I take you back even though I know it's not right? Why do I feel like I should please you by not putting up a fight? Why do I care about you even though you hurt me? Why do I turn my head from what's plain reality? Why do I try to hide from what is true? Why do I still have these feelings for you?