To do or not to do

Honestly when I started blogging, I needed the release of being able to write anonymously from my heart, every single thing I wanted to say or everything I do, I wanted to be free to write without fear of censure from those who know me in real life. Or that was what I thought was my reason for blogging from an anonymous platform.

However…this morning, it just occurred to me that I’m probably just hiding. Hiding from the wrong things I've done in the past, and thus hiding from the wrong things I think I’ll do in the future then blog about. Hiding my health status, hiding my private thoughts that i feel like sharing but still keep private…just hiding. And what hiding does to you is that you are in a safe and cozy prison, you are not free to know who loves you just as you are because they don’t really know you, and some of those who do know you are saddled with the burden of keeping things hush hush for you that they have no idea if they are okay with these things or not, thus you always have to be explaining things and re-assuring them whilst still grateful that they are there anyway even with their faulted opinion about you. 

And then you find out you are more focused on the past, either explaining it, or apologizing for it, or regretting it… and the devil begins to play chess in your head saying ‘what’s the guaranty that you won’t do it again, why do you think you deserve better etc’…and you begin to believe these and then you mess up some more because you believe its the story of your life, you cannot rise above what was…or what used to be.

So now I’m thinking of going public with the blog. Make every body know abeg. And so I need to hear from you, just how bad an idea is that? How bad can it be? What’s the worst that could happen? Because the alternative in my head right now is to just shut this one down and start afresh, because blogging anonymously is just now working for me anymore.

When We Celebrate.....

...we dey pop champagne...we dey pop champagne...we dey pop champagne.

See me oooo...I didnt even remember to remember NUTTY J's BLOG anniversary. That's bad. Na so I for forget if not for Menaukodoisready

For those who dont know...NUTTY J's BLOG which started as 'Diary Of Nutty Jennifer' was birthed in December 2009. The blog owner (my humble self) was so lost and a tad confused as to how exactly to go about blogging in blogspot, having opened an account in word press earlier (which was later deleted) that it took her another two months, of snooping around other blogs in blogsville, laying a comment here and there (to make her presence known) to start blogging. So the first blog post (which was deleted too) was actually in February 2010.

The reason I joined this great family of ours was due to some unrest I was getting on facebook. My friends had a way of inboxing me, after I publish a note, to say 'hmmm...na wa oooo, shey u know you are single, saying things like this or that wont get you a good man oooo' or ''Jay why do you talk like this, dont say things like this in a public forum''

So where exactly can I get a place where freedom of speech thrives? Where I can express my fears, worries, religious beliefs, find trouble, share happy times, without feeling like I just commited a crime. It wasnt long before a still small voice said:

'my daughter open your eyes....what do you see?'
' I see a place... with Brilliant Loving Organised Girls & Guys where self Expression can be Real'
'my daughter that is the....wait where are you going you silly child?!?!?'

I didnt wait for that voice to complete its sentence...I had packed my bags and properties to a land called 'wordpress' it didnt take long for me to come back with head bows and tails tucked in crying:

'oh...thou hath misled me, had I known oooo'
'Dear Child....that is not the land which I had promised thee''
'no....I no do again'
'You are being emotional....once again what do you want'
'A place with Brilliant, Loving, Organised Girls & Guys where self-Expressions can be Real'
'Open your eyes'
'oh...men....I see now...B-L-O-G-G-E-R'



Na so oooo....somehow I stumbled on Ex-school Nerd's blog and Mamuje's blog and that sealed it....and since then my life has never remained the same. The doors were opened unto me and I was accepted into this family and now I have online peace. So in theory 'Nutty J's Blog' blogday is December 2009... but since she was in the incubator till February, we can safely say her practical blogday is "FEB 2010"





We say thank you for your support and opinions this past year...and for not 'blocking' or 'defriending' me when I get controversial on your blogs sometimes. Nutty J's Blog appreciates and loves all her followers and secret admirers.

Una Wado ooooooooooo

Oya tell her Happy blogday in arraers.


To live is to battle with trolls in the vaults of heart and brain. To write; this is to sit in judgment over one's Self. Henrik Ibsen

Introducing Myself

…okay, so I’ve been here for a while talking about some stuff and reading plenty stuffs and I really didn’t do any proper introduction. Actually I was kind of avoiding that part, trying to dodge it…but someone called my attention to it and was like ‘’…you just dey talk long thing, don’t u know you have to introduce yourself?’ And I was like ‘’…oh oooo…witch how did you even know I was the one, and Introduce myself as how now?’ anyways long story short…lemme do that now real quick. Here we go:

1. My name is Jennifer…some friends call me Jay…others call me Naughty Jennifer…which later changed to Nutty Jennifer cos they can’t figure out if some nuts actually are loose in my head. I’m a correct Delta chick…Uhrobo babe from Warri, as in nothing do us. We don’t need black belts like some of them karate kids…all we need is a black bottle. Be warned…lol

2. I can talk about my age now ya? After all its blogsville and here we say as we like, no be so? I was born June 4th 1985…ish babe don de old oooo

3. I can’t really say much about myself because I came here at a time where I no longer know myself…if it were some months back I'd have said I’m a good person, strong willed, no-nonsense etc, but my dears If u know the amount of nonsense I’m eating nowadays eh…u will shake your head, so I guess I’m going thru a phase, and when I’m done, I’ll be able to say I’m still this girl I used to know…or not

4. I’m the only girl in between two guys..so I can conveniently say I like attention

5. I like chocolates, I like cake, I’m not a fan of all that 8 glasses of water a day, but now momzilla and dokitor are on my case to drink drink drink…I don tire. Favorite food is Rice…

6. I can conveniently call myself a working class girl…I have been working since 2008, which was my service yr. And now the pay is paying all my payables and leaving me with enuff to throw here and there

7. I like being alone..I don’t know it’s kinda weird, almost demonic…but I like myself, I sometimes go out there and buy myself presents to make myself know I love myself…I stand in front of the mirror sometimes looking at myself and re-affirming my love for myself and call myself from work sometimes to just check up on myself to see how myself is doing….LMAO…don’t mind me, I’m no sicko, just tryna say I love myself and believe in flying alone…solo…I think better that way.

8. I like guys…I grew up being a guy’s girl…so I’m not very used to girls, I’m learning how to go out of my way to make girl friends, but how do u teach an old dog new tricks…so the few I have who love me with all my wackiness, I tend to hold the friendship dearly. But my friends are mostly made up of guys

9. *clears throat* I’ve done some crazy things in the past…(some things that I’m sure as time goes on, I’ll talk about cos this place has that effect on me)… that I’m not very proud of, but if asked to change them, I wont because those things/experiences have made me the lady I love today….wouldnt change it for anything.

10. I am a freak about honesty…its almost a curse. I'd rather have honesty, truthfulness, trustworthiness and everything that is not a lie in my life…I speak the truth and I appreciate it when people do so in return….guess that is why I have few friends.

11. I Like Money and Power.

12. Why I joined blogsville? Huh lemme see…facebook became too crowded….I write a ‘note’ and next thing I’m being inboxed on how respectable ladies don’t talk like that…how I’m ‘showing’ myself…I then get calls sometimes saying ‘That is too much info, you don’t know if your future husband is there’…or ‘’stop all tis your *I don’t send attitude* it doesn’t pay’…so I chanced upon bloggsville and I saw how babes were open about their thoughts and feelings…and everyone was a stranger to everyone until u decide to open up…and I was like ‘Halle-lu-ya….ha-lle-lu-ya’…. And I joined, foolishy I used some of my fb write-ups here but later deleted it, and I hope..oh I pray no one from FB, xcept that witch noticed.

I love it here, and I’m hoping I get to re-discover myself all over again…my journals at home must hate me now, thinking I have abandoned them, cos this place is just so addictive. Okay that is the basic on me…

So please forgive me for just doing this now...and I hope you all can help me in the whole 're-discovery of self' journey that I have embarked on



N'J