Good morning! 

We are getting back on track with life again. It's pretty slow going for me due to my legs and my lower back not being used to walking around. They are pretty sore so I have to take it easy until I get strength built back up. 

I also have the pain of my milk coming in now and trying to let it dry up. Bobble headed snuggly boys make it a bit of a struggle . The struggle is REAL! Lol. Pray it happens quickly! 

I sincerely want to thank you all for your prayers, love and support for our family! It's been a journey that I didn't know the outcome to but wouldn't have traded my time, though very short, with Joshua for anything! 

I know Gods plans are higher than our own and this side of Heaven we will never know why things happen the way they do. But trusting God with my heart will forever allow me to heal and I know one day I will have my sweet babies surrounding me when I enter into eternity. And here on Earth I am blessed to have my precious boys to sustain me and fill my arms and my heart!

Joshua Bears

We sat the boys down the day I came home from the hospital and shared with them the loss we all endured. I can't tell you how hard that was but I can tell you that there was a LOT of heart wrenching sobbing. 

We showed them the box that they gave us for Joshua's blanket, hat and diaper they had on him. There was also a plush lamb that they gave us to hold when we need him near. Ben snatched the lamb up and just held tight and sobbed! 

At that point we thought if they all have their own "Joshua bear" they can hold it tight when they are hurting as they grieve this season. 

So tonight we took the boys to get them their own "Joshua" bears at Build A Bear. 

As they were "bringing the hearts to life" with a wish the lady asked them did you make a wish they all three said, in unison, we just want our baby brother to come back. 

The lady just sat there for a minute before carrying on with stitching the hearts in the bears. 

I, however, was a mess. We
Will get through this. One day at a time, together. 

We are going to take them back soon to get a recording of Joshua's heartbeat put inside their Bears.

A Life that Touched Many

The little hands and feet sent here for such a short time to change so many.