2019

Still feel impossible that today is the end of 2019. Who invented time? That guy should make it 48 months a year hahaha but wait..no increment? Forget about it :D

Again, highlight of the year...
1. We are engaged ! on 30 May 2019 at Paris.
2. Completed ACCA
3. Travel to London, Genting, Singapore, and Cameron. (he got more.. to Sabah, Vietnam and Philippines). He surprise visit me at Singapore which I feel soooooo happyyyy!
4. Still committed to each other, visit twice a month.
5. Paid all the wedding deposits before 2019 (does this count?)
6. Dad fainted once, mom fainted once too. Super scary and i cried so badly
7. Learned ukulele this year and I am really like it.
9. Job still the same as auditor. Learning curve starts to
9. Organized charity event at the deaf school, a successful ones!
10. Bring parents to Alor Setar/KL/Genting, especially mom to her favorite Richie's concert.
11. Read some books this year. - Bad Blood, This is going to Hurt, Robert Kuok, 为你自己活一次, Elanoor is fine.

That's it in 365 days! It is definitely a smooth sailing year. A good and comfortable life :) I am thankful for it. <3

As for 2020, I am determined to accomplish more irregardless of the outcome. I wanted to explore my own self, both inside and outside.

My motto, living beyond me.

Till then, Happiest New Year <3

10月30号

今天10月30号。不可不承认时间是一个小偷。

时间偷走了年少无知的快乐，青春的天真，姣好的容颜，理想和梦想…然后将过去拍成一段回忆留给我们，证明我们曾经拥有，提醒我们再难拥有。

当青丝成了白发，才发现时间快的可怕，还有多少梦想没有开花？

生活大概就是这样，学会接受，学着面对。

不是不满足，总觉得自己做得不够好。 我知道我可以成就更多，

佛说：“命在呼吸间” ，因为尚能呼吸，就有生命尚在，愿在有生命的日子里，以珍惜的态度，实现生命与之俱来的承诺，让爱人幸福，让亲人安暖，让自己的存在有价值。

30.05.2019

This is a special day.

While actually I still cannot decide to make it on 30th or 31st?

So, ladies and gentlemen...

I am engaged!

I am overjoyed, touched, surprised and full of greatness and thankfulness.

Just to make sure I will not forget this special date, I am gonna write down the story and how I feel all the way...

It was on the last day of our trip to Europe, our last stop, Paris on Thursday. We were both extremely exhausted for the past hop on and hop off cities. A lot of "interesting" things happened- for example, I forgot my passport and we missed a very expensive train and got to book another flight (which is also very expensive), we meet 2 thieves in one week, Netherlands strike...lol

So, around 10 pm, we were both lying down on the bed, he was on my right and we were watching a movie. Then, he came and asked if he can ask me a question. I said sure.

Then he said " 你要嫁给我吗?"

I thought he was joking because he is a guy who loves to joke a lot.

I said... are you serious ahh?

he said...yes I am serious. He continues his story about our relationships and he wants to take another step further, he said he will never be ready one (*Sagittarius*) but he wants to commit in a lifelong relationship. He said he will try his best to be a good husband. He said marriage is not a 2 person's thing but 2 family and both our family love both of us. He then said, he already called my parents and they "approve" his marriage proposal with NO objection. He even called my brother to ask if my brother has anything to say. *respect*

Words can't describe my feeling and I cried non stop...

I said again...are you serious ahhh?  got weed?

He said, yes serious and then he brings the ring out and asks again "你要跟我一起过很boring的life吗？"

I said, are you gonna be with me even I have lots of weaknesses and stickiness? *Disclaimer is important*

He said YES!

I said YES!

hahahaah

the whole proposal lasts about an hour! and I was tearing non-stop...

So here we are...

HAPPILY AND READILY ENGAGED <3

Talk What

I feel, the older I am the lesser I want to have kids.

I see kids nowadays are very demanding, lack of kindness, awareness, politeness, unappreciative, think about easy money and the list goes on....

I wonder what's the point of having kids and I have to suffer my life and time to teach them about morale and they still turn out to be a disaster.

Every now and then, I see people listening to their earphones while eating, video-gaming while walking, no eyes contact, avoid conversations... 

I can understand the tiredness of continuing a good & healthy conversation face to face. It is getting more challenging nowadays especially people have their "own mindset", or people rejected our ideas/thoughts instantly and we hardly agree with them or whatsoever...

I know I am a good listener but I am terrible in giving good small talk. I understand how people feel, be it angry, sad or disappointment. I empathize them, but I don't know how to comfort them effectively, rather, I will follow their emotions! When he is angry, I talk angrily too. When he is sad, I feel sad too.

Good communication skill is my #1 life long learning skill. It is so crucial in everyday's life. We wake up and we see people, each and every seconds we are surrounded by people from different age range/background.

So, today, I shall continue to speakkkk...

2018 Wrapped

Time flies like crazyyyyyy man!

That's the end of 365 days and the earth is back on day-1. 

Was 2018 a fulfilling year?

Yes,  2018 was definitely a year I don't want to let it go so fast. 

Let me write down what I have done "good" here:

1) I traveled to Beijing alone - for work and for personal. 

2) I traveled to Bangkok with 2 girlfriends.

3) I traveled to Japan with my most loved, LX. 

4) I make road trips to Ipoh with family.

5) I continually commit my trip to KL.

6) I led a CSR project 

7) I passed one ACCA P7 paper

8) I am confident to say that I am with my parent for 80% of their check up. 

9) I got promoted

10) I learned Japanese but stopped after I am back from Japan hahaha

11) I got lucky draw during company annual dinner! 

There were a little bit of everything which makes me a very happy girl today. 

Let me list what went wrong too

1) My saving sucks this year..

2) Police caught me using the phone while driving. I wasn't really using my phone, I was about to put my phone down when I want to start driving. It was a red light and I was switching my Spotify song. -.-

3) I lost my patience many times with my parents,  I am still a bad communicator when they rejected my idea of "health". 

4) Relationship- there were times I felt left out when he was so busy doing his works. I am clueless and no idea whether is he still cares? or is he a cold-blooded human being? or he is just unintentionally forget how to care. :o 

5) (can't think of any now LOL)

Therefore, 2018 was really the best year. I am happier and I felt that I am living life. 

There are still a lot of things to handle, like my current long distance relationship, it is still an LDR. I am grateful we can take it that far, it took a lot of effort, and money of course to make this works. I am also thankful for him being the most understanding boyfriend ever. 

Another question I have been thinking for the past week. 

AM I LIVING UP TO MY FULL POTENTIAL? or am I just satisfy with what life brought me?

This is a question, I guess will create "me" in my 30th. 

Till then.

Happy New Year my friends <3