jsangye

Just need an outlet to express a little emotions.

Just went for a primary school gathering. I knew I didn't want to be in a situation where I did not feel comfortable. So I intentionally told the rest that I was gay, and that they would have to expect that at the gathering. Little did I know that I would end up sitting right next to the primary sch teacher. Very very very wrong move.

It was an uncomfortable situation since apparently the primary school teacher was obviously not told about my status.

Questions flew about from him and that directed the tone of the gathering as far as it was concerned.

"Are you having any girlfriend yet? Still single? Ask your friends to introduce one to you la. Aiyoh, last time left with him and him so now please introduce more. Blah blah blah........aiyoh, how many children you have already? 4 ah. You see la, other people 4 already you still don't want to get married ah. Don't get to know people from the internet ah. That is the worst!.......aiyoh, primary school balloting is the worst. Poor thing."

I was so close to getting really pissed. Started to shut off.

I mean what do you expect me to say?

Oh, I can't get married because the government that you voted in has decided to deny my mere existence and still constitute me as a criminal? Or do you expect me to say that I am single, and you can't get the rest to introduce any of their girlfriends to me, cos it isn't applicable at all? And how do you expect me to have children if I can't even get myself a registered spouse to start a bloody family with? Do you think I want this?

What the fuck you expect me to say?

And do you think I will go back another time? You think that I am insane is it? Being single is bad enough, And having to undergo all the discrimination once again is just ridiculous. Why would I want to do so? Why am I single? I am single because I had to gone through so much shit because of the attitude of people like you in the society, including my own parents, who deny my existence and continue to discriminate against me, causing me to be so mentally distraught that I considered suicide so many times? And continue to go for therapy now because of all the culmilative effect that you have done to me causing me so much suppression and pain that I do not know how to handle?

WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT?