reflection
别人结婚，我也结婚。但，我好像结得很痛苦。有苦难言，说或做什么都是错的。好像。。。不配被宠,爱。。。 我的人生其实过得好痛苦。
Grown up
It has been a long time since I last posted. I have not forgotten the blog. But probably the rest did. With that, this will become my private little world where I can trash alittle. Facebook has too little privacy with too much concern.
Lots of struggle recently.. process of growing up hurts. Whatever that one used to dream about would suddenly become so difficult to achieve. Adult world is so complicated. Sometimes.. wish I were the teenager that could talk in the most straight forward manner.
Sometimes.. just wished to that I were able to tell u some things without breaking the surprise. Sometimes.. I ended up getting hurt knowing how unwilling you are to give up something for me. Sometimes.. it hurt so badly but I had to pretend it did not exist.. sometimes... I felt like dying but didn't know how to get across. And.. you never notice too.. you probably... don't know me as well.. to know that I do many things for reasons. And the least I want to see it happen is that you regret your decision made. Despite all the methods.. you hang on with what you have decided. Will you regret the choice you made today? Hope not..
I am shattered. Cos I was never really someone you will die for...
If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.
If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
Would you be there..
If I am away, would you still think of me,
And wished that you could hold me now.
Would you die for me,
would you run with me,
All the way ...
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,
Would you be there ..... for me ...
Lyriczz.com, Redwan Ali
容祖儿 - 这就是爱吗
作词：王雅君 林秋离 作曲：林俊杰
你确定这就是爱吗 真的爱我吗
手牵着手漫步斜阳 就当作浪漫
两个人眺望远方 以为爱的晴朗
当我回头望 却已泪湿了眼眶
当夕阳变成星光 当爱情换了方向
你一如过往 对爱太紧张
但未来又会怎样
未知的明天总让我旁徨
谁给我力量
我不怕你 爱不爱我
只害怕你 以为爱我
抓紧我 不算拥有 你总学不会放手
我不怕你 不懂爱我
只怕你 把习惯 当作爱你猜不透 我要什麽
两个人眺望远方 以为爱的晴朗
当我回头望 却已泪湿了眼眶
当夕阳变成星光 当爱情换了方向
你一如过往 对爱太紧张
但未来又会怎样
未知的明天总让我旁徨
谁给我力量
many thanks -- www.yue365.com
feel like spamming here..
cos anyway. it kinda become a little space that i talk to myself.
feeling so tired.
too many things came at the same time.
and i kinda forgotten how to vent the shit out.
someone asked me if i am afraid of being lonely.
i said no immediately.
i thought thru it after that for quite some time..
i suppose reason being i am in the loneliness for so long that i forgot what is not.
not physically.
but i kinda shut myself out. from the rest of the world.
i am not the only factor. in fact ppl dun bother to find out too.. not all though.
looking thru some stuff and i found the msg that karthik sent to me when i was really really down. i still keep it. it meant a lot to me. i feel important too. thanks, bro.
i am really tired..
of things happening at home, work, on every corner of the earth, universe.
i feel like gg to the beach, letting the wave wash away all the tiredness. all the shit. all the thoughts. all the energy. and the whole of me.
i am tired of explaining myself, my actions, my thoughts..
that made me seem like i am trying so hard to be involved in sth.
omg. can i cry now? and not wait till the dark when everyone is aslp...
can i jus drink w/o lying that the weather is too cold or i cant slp. can i just say i drink cos i am feeling super upset and feel like shit.
can i just let myself loose and stop controlling myself for a day.
can i just love myself the way i want it.
can i just be the way i am for a day w/o having the aftermath and the shit that comes after that
can i just....
been thinking a lot recently..
found out i was stronger than before.
able to handle things calmer..
maybe i am too tired to bother with a lot of things. too tired to be happy. sad. angry. to waste energy.
see things in more angles.. but that kinda narrow a lot of things.
found out a lot of harsh realities.
many of times, i keep things to myself. but only upsetting ones. or too hurtful to brought up kinda.
i choose the ppl i talk to too.
like
mum = happy things
sis = brainless things
dad = general knowledge or news related things
bro = nth
jeeda = some things
.
.
.
i kinda dun like to keep things to myself..
but i kinda cant find someone to listen to those. or maybe i have... :)
its just too personal to bother others for such stupid things.
its just irritates me when ppl try to comment rather to listen n see it my way.
i am forgetting some emotions. true emotions.
feel like i am gg thru motions sometimes... like act happy. act kind. act understanding. act patient.
all kinda acting. except acting weak.
acting fragile.
i dun act fragile/ weak. cos they are real.
a opened book is kinda like a closed book.
am i trying too hard to make myself easy to understand? kinda wonder.
acting makes ppl happy.. i believe at least.
feel like shouting out loud. feel like telling how i really feel. but its gonna get fatal. wells. of cos, i shld sacrify myself.
cos i believe there will be someone like me, who would do it for me too..
i still believe.
till....
i discover the harsh truth abt reality again?
heard so much recently. shocks. surprises. craps. all sort.
wells..
life.
is a tough challenge.
meizhu loves songs.
they tell stories. her stories. her feelings.
习惯两个人
言承旭
像种感冒 爱情出现了忽冷忽热的挣扎
才刚坐下 有说有笑
一眨眼 又为小事争吵
往常一样花好几天的冷战把情绪冲缓
我坐立不安 怎么比分手还难
你是我的肩膀 我的信仰 是我的温暖
有时候我在想 留你身旁是爱你还是爱上陪伴
习惯两个人不见不散 习惯一整夜去寻找对方
习惯让我们懒散 不再坚强 对寂寞丧失抵抗
习惯两个人睡单人床 才能沉睡到天亮
如果你离开了 我束手无策怎么办
总是习惯若无其事的继续为爱而繁忙
究竟是装宽容大方 还是忍受房间空旷
我们总说时间到了就该懂得好聚好散
我坐立不安 陷入爱的拉锯战
你是我的肩膀 我的信仰 是我的温暖
有时候我在想 在你身旁时爱你还是爱上陪伴
习惯两个人不见不散 习惯两个人一睁眼就寻找对方
习惯让我们懒散 不再坚强 对寂寞丧失抵抗
习惯两个人睡单人床 才能沉睡到天亮
如果你离开了 我束手无策怎么办
习惯了圆满 怎能又重新习惯空出的另一半
习惯两个人不见不散 习惯两个人一睁眼就寻找对方
习惯让我们懒散 不再坚强 对寂寞丧失抵抗
习惯两个人睡单人床 才能沉睡到天亮
如果你离开了 我束手无策怎么办但愿我爱上的不是爱上你的习惯
孙燕姿
當冬夜漸暖
很多事情 不是誰說了就算
即使傷心 結果還是自己擔
多少次失望表示著多少次期盼
事實證明 幸福很難
我們之間 不是誰說了就算
拉扯的愛 徒增結局的難堪
一百次相愛只要有一次的絢爛
下一次 會更勇敢
當冬夜漸暖 當大海也不再那麼藍
當月色的純白變得陰暗
那只是代表快樂不再那麼簡單
當冬夜漸暖 當夏夜的樹上不再有蟬
當回憶老去的痕跡斑斑
那只是因為悲傷從來 都不會有答案
當冬夜漸暖 當青春也都煙消雲散
當美麗的故事都有遺憾
那只是習慣把愛當作喜歡
重要的是 我們曾愛過那一段
reflection
别人结婚，我也结婚。但，我好像结得很痛苦。有苦难言，说或做什么都是错的。好像。。。不配被宠,爱。。。 我的人生其实过得好痛苦。
Grown up
It has been a long time since I last posted. I have not forgotten the blog. But probably the rest did. With that, this will become my private little world where I can trash alittle. Facebook has too little privacy with too much concern.
Lots of struggle recently.. process of growing up hurts. Whatever that one used to dream about would suddenly become so difficult to achieve. Adult world is so complicated. Sometimes.. wish I were the teenager that could talk in the most straight forward manner.
Sometimes.. just wished to that I were able to tell u some things without breaking the surprise. Sometimes.. I ended up getting hurt knowing how unwilling you are to give up something for me. Sometimes.. it hurt so badly but I had to pretend it did not exist.. sometimes... I felt like dying but didn't know how to get across. And.. you never notice too.. you probably... don't know me as well.. to know that I do many things for reasons. And the least I want to see it happen is that you regret your decision made. Despite all the methods.. you hang on with what you have decided. Will you regret the choice you made today? Hope not..
I am shattered. Cos I was never really someone you will die for...
If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.
If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
Would you be there..
If I am away, would you still think of me,
And wished that you could hold me now.
Would you die for me,
would you run with me,
All the way ...
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,
Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?
Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,
Would you be there ..... for me ...
Lyriczz.com, Redwan Ali
容祖儿 - 这就是爱吗
作词：王雅君 林秋离 作曲：林俊杰
你确定这就是爱吗 真的爱我吗
手牵着手漫步斜阳 就当作浪漫
两个人眺望远方 以为爱的晴朗
当我回头望 却已泪湿了眼眶
当夕阳变成星光 当爱情换了方向
你一如过往 对爱太紧张
但未来又会怎样
未知的明天总让我旁徨
谁给我力量
我不怕你 爱不爱我
只害怕你 以为爱我
抓紧我 不算拥有 你总学不会放手
我不怕你 不懂爱我
只怕你 把习惯 当作爱你猜不透 我要什麽
两个人眺望远方 以为爱的晴朗
当我回头望 却已泪湿了眼眶
当夕阳变成星光 当爱情换了方向
你一如过往 对爱太紧张
但未来又会怎样
未知的明天总让我旁徨
谁给我力量
many thanks -- www.yue365.com
feel like spamming here..
cos anyway. it kinda become a little space that i talk to myself.
feeling so tired.
too many things came at the same time.
and i kinda forgotten how to vent the shit out.
someone asked me if i am afraid of being lonely.
i said no immediately.
i thought thru it after that for quite some time..
i suppose reason being i am in the loneliness for so long that i forgot what is not.
not physically.
but i kinda shut myself out. from the rest of the world.
i am not the only factor. in fact ppl dun bother to find out too.. not all though.
looking thru some stuff and i found the msg that karthik sent to me when i was really really down. i still keep it. it meant a lot to me. i feel important too. thanks, bro.
i am really tired..
of things happening at home, work, on every corner of the earth, universe.
i feel like gg to the beach, letting the wave wash away all the tiredness. all the shit. all the thoughts. all the energy. and the whole of me.
i am tired of explaining myself, my actions, my thoughts..
that made me seem like i am trying so hard to be involved in sth.
omg. can i cry now? and not wait till the dark when everyone is aslp...
can i jus drink w/o lying that the weather is too cold or i cant slp. can i just say i drink cos i am feeling super upset and feel like shit.
can i just let myself loose and stop controlling myself for a day.
can i just love myself the way i want it.
can i just be the way i am for a day w/o having the aftermath and the shit that comes after that
can i just....
been thinking a lot recently..
found out i was stronger than before.
able to handle things calmer..
maybe i am too tired to bother with a lot of things. too tired to be happy. sad. angry. to waste energy.
see things in more angles.. but that kinda narrow a lot of things.
found out a lot of harsh realities.
many of times, i keep things to myself. but only upsetting ones. or too hurtful to brought up kinda.
i choose the ppl i talk to too.
like
mum = happy things
sis = brainless things
dad = general knowledge or news related things
bro = nth
jeeda = some things
.
.
.
i kinda dun like to keep things to myself..
but i kinda cant find someone to listen to those. or maybe i have... :)
its just too personal to bother others for such stupid things.
its just irritates me when ppl try to comment rather to listen n see it my way.
i am forgetting some emotions. true emotions.
feel like i am gg thru motions sometimes... like act happy. act kind. act understanding. act patient.
all kinda acting. except acting weak.
acting fragile.
i dun act fragile/ weak. cos they are real.
a opened book is kinda like a closed book.
am i trying too hard to make myself easy to understand? kinda wonder.
acting makes ppl happy.. i believe at least.
feel like shouting out loud. feel like telling how i really feel. but its gonna get fatal. wells. of cos, i shld sacrify myself.
cos i believe there will be someone like me, who would do it for me too..
i still believe.
till....
i discover the harsh truth abt reality again?
heard so much recently. shocks. surprises. craps. all sort.
wells..
life.
is a tough challenge.
meizhu loves songs.
they tell stories. her stories. her feelings.
习惯两个人
言承旭
像种感冒 爱情出现了忽冷忽热的挣扎
才刚坐下 有说有笑
一眨眼 又为小事争吵
往常一样花好几天的冷战把情绪冲缓
我坐立不安 怎么比分手还难
你是我的肩膀 我的信仰 是我的温暖
有时候我在想 留你身旁是爱你还是爱上陪伴
习惯两个人不见不散 习惯一整夜去寻找对方
习惯让我们懒散 不再坚强 对寂寞丧失抵抗
习惯两个人睡单人床 才能沉睡到天亮
如果你离开了 我束手无策怎么办
总是习惯若无其事的继续为爱而繁忙
究竟是装宽容大方 还是忍受房间空旷
我们总说时间到了就该懂得好聚好散
我坐立不安 陷入爱的拉锯战
你是我的肩膀 我的信仰 是我的温暖
有时候我在想 在你身旁时爱你还是爱上陪伴
习惯两个人不见不散 习惯两个人一睁眼就寻找对方
习惯让我们懒散 不再坚强 对寂寞丧失抵抗
习惯两个人睡单人床 才能沉睡到天亮
如果你离开了 我束手无策怎么办
习惯了圆满 怎能又重新习惯空出的另一半
习惯两个人不见不散 习惯两个人一睁眼就寻找对方
习惯让我们懒散 不再坚强 对寂寞丧失抵抗
习惯两个人睡单人床 才能沉睡到天亮
如果你离开了 我束手无策怎么办但愿我爱上的不是爱上你的习惯
孙燕姿
當冬夜漸暖
很多事情 不是誰說了就算
即使傷心 結果還是自己擔
多少次失望表示著多少次期盼
事實證明 幸福很難
我們之間 不是誰說了就算
拉扯的愛 徒增結局的難堪
一百次相愛只要有一次的絢爛
下一次 會更勇敢
當冬夜漸暖 當大海也不再那麼藍
當月色的純白變得陰暗
那只是代表快樂不再那麼簡單
當冬夜漸暖 當夏夜的樹上不再有蟬
當回憶老去的痕跡斑斑
那只是因為悲傷從來 都不會有答案
當冬夜漸暖 當青春也都煙消雲散
當美麗的故事都有遺憾
那只是習慣把愛當作喜歡
重要的是 我們曾愛過那一段
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Name's meizhu.
Wants to be beautiful and smart. And, be appreciated and seen. is BEING herself.
