My laparoscopy was in October, 4 months ago. In the time between then and now I had miraculously pain-free periods. Then this weekend happened. We were out of town with my in-laws for a wedding shower. I woke up in the middle of the night with some horrible cramps. Luckily I found some advil in the bathroom medicine cabinet and was able to go back to sleep.
When I woke up the next morning the cramps were back. Took some more ibuprofen and after about two hours they calmed down enough for me to feel kind of normal. I had one lor.tab left from an old prescription in my purse and I took it that night so that I could sleep. The next morning I was still crampy, although not as bad as the day before.
This blows. Maybe it was just a fluke and next month will be fine. Either way I have a follow-up with my doctor next week and I'll talk to him about it.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Wednesday, February 15, 2012
I'm waffling on the going private thing. I know it's so much easier for people when a blog is public. I know it is for me since I rely on my google reader so much. I just forget to check the ones where I actually have to go to the blog link. Maybe I'll keep this one public, but just edit it to make it more anonymous. I love that this is my space to lay it all out there where family and "real life" friends don't know. That sounds awful, but a lot of the stuff I'm feeling would just hurt their feelings because in the end, they don't get it.
So where are we on adoption stuff? We've turned in our application and are working on the rest of the paperwork. I've been working on an autobiography for over a week now. That shit is hard. I have all of these questions to answer and it's tough. DH and I both went today for our physicals. Our doctor was really happy for us and said he thought it was great that we are adopting. Then he said something that sat kind of funny with me. He said that we're getting a baby, but we're also saving a life. I'm not really sure in what context he meant that, like a pro-life thing, or that the baby would have a better lifestyle with us or what. But it still just felt weird and I didn't quite know how to respond to it. We want a baby. We're not doing this to "save a life" as selfish as that sounds. I'm probably just reading too much into it. I do that a lot.
We've got fundraising ideas going on the other blog (www.newsonnix.blogspot.com). I met a friend today and got a carful of stuff for our yard sale. And she said she has more!!! So that's all good.
I have lots of other things rolling around in my head, but not quite sure that I'm ready to post about yet. All of this adoption stuff is so new to us. It's still kind of sinking in.
I can say that DH has been awesome about this process. Once we decided that this is what we were doing and we picked our agency, he kind of took over. He's been organizing all of the paperwork, getting stuff mailed, etc. He's way more organized than I am, so it's probably a good thing that he's handling all of that.
We're heading down to a wedding shower for one of DH's cousins this weekend. Who wants to bet that they're going to have a kid before us??? :)
So where are we on adoption stuff? We've turned in our application and are working on the rest of the paperwork. I've been working on an autobiography for over a week now. That shit is hard. I have all of these questions to answer and it's tough. DH and I both went today for our physicals. Our doctor was really happy for us and said he thought it was great that we are adopting. Then he said something that sat kind of funny with me. He said that we're getting a baby, but we're also saving a life. I'm not really sure in what context he meant that, like a pro-life thing, or that the baby would have a better lifestyle with us or what. But it still just felt weird and I didn't quite know how to respond to it. We want a baby. We're not doing this to "save a life" as selfish as that sounds. I'm probably just reading too much into it. I do that a lot.
We've got fundraising ideas going on the other blog (www.newsonnix.blogspot.com). I met a friend today and got a carful of stuff for our yard sale. And she said she has more!!! So that's all good.
I have lots of other things rolling around in my head, but not quite sure that I'm ready to post about yet. All of this adoption stuff is so new to us. It's still kind of sinking in.
I can say that DH has been awesome about this process. Once we decided that this is what we were doing and we picked our agency, he kind of took over. He's been organizing all of the paperwork, getting stuff mailed, etc. He's way more organized than I am, so it's probably a good thing that he's handling all of that.
We're heading down to a wedding shower for one of DH's cousins this weekend. Who wants to bet that they're going to have a kid before us??? :)
Thursday, February 9, 2012
Did you miss me?
I'm thinking of making this blog private, as in invite only. We have started a new public blog for our adoption stuff and that one will be open for everyone. Here is the link: www.newsonnix.blogspot.com.
I'll keep this one open for a week or so and then will go private, so email me if you want in. brandyshea @ gmail. Let me know who you are, how you found this blog, blog address if you have one, etc.
I'll keep this one open for a week or so and then will go private, so email me if you want in. brandyshea @ gmail. Let me know who you are, how you found this blog, blog address if you have one, etc.
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
It's official
We have decided to go with the agency that we met with on Monday. That was quick, I know.
We had a great meeting and then at home after work we discussed some more and DH still didn't seem like he was all that committed even though he liked the agency.
On Tuesday I wrote him an email just laying it all out there. I told him that when he brought up the adoption plans he had given me hope that I haven't had in a while. Then, when he started hemming and hawing it started sending me in a downward spiral. I'm tired of being in limbo. I can't live like that anymore. We need to either take the plunge into adoption, do our embryo transfer, or move on. So I told him to shit or get off the pot. Not literally of course, but he got what I meant.
And here we are. We're working on our application to the agency. We've decided who we want to write our letters of reference (we need 6!!!!). We're coming up with fundraiser ideas. I even started an official blog (you know, where I have to be nice and not bitch about anyone).
I'm not sure how I'm going to move forward with the two different blogs. The "official" blog will have all of the detailed updates on how the process is going, mainly for family and friends to stay updated.
I'm sure I'll still have a use for this blog for the stupid shit people say.
For example today. We went to the police department to get our fingerprints done. The guy doing them was nice enough. DH mentioned that we're adopting and he asked where from. I told him domestic. He replied, "good". It wasn't a, "that's so great you're adopting 'good'", but more of a judgey, "good that you're adopting from this country because we need to take care of our own before providing charity to foreign countries 'good'". He didn't come out and say it though so I kept my mouth shut. It's entirely possible I was just reading too much into it. I'm just letting it roll off my back though. I'm sure everyone will have an opinion that they will feel the need to tell me. It's amazing how people think that their opinion matters and that our decisions, be it IVF, adoption, child-free or whatever are any of their business.
So that's our update. Let me know if you want the link to the blog. Or if you click on my blogger profile you can find it that way (this one is hidden).
We had a great meeting and then at home after work we discussed some more and DH still didn't seem like he was all that committed even though he liked the agency.
On Tuesday I wrote him an email just laying it all out there. I told him that when he brought up the adoption plans he had given me hope that I haven't had in a while. Then, when he started hemming and hawing it started sending me in a downward spiral. I'm tired of being in limbo. I can't live like that anymore. We need to either take the plunge into adoption, do our embryo transfer, or move on. So I told him to shit or get off the pot. Not literally of course, but he got what I meant.
And here we are. We're working on our application to the agency. We've decided who we want to write our letters of reference (we need 6!!!!). We're coming up with fundraiser ideas. I even started an official blog (you know, where I have to be nice and not bitch about anyone).
I'm not sure how I'm going to move forward with the two different blogs. The "official" blog will have all of the detailed updates on how the process is going, mainly for family and friends to stay updated.
I'm sure I'll still have a use for this blog for the stupid shit people say.
For example today. We went to the police department to get our fingerprints done. The guy doing them was nice enough. DH mentioned that we're adopting and he asked where from. I told him domestic. He replied, "good". It wasn't a, "that's so great you're adopting 'good'", but more of a judgey, "good that you're adopting from this country because we need to take care of our own before providing charity to foreign countries 'good'". He didn't come out and say it though so I kept my mouth shut. It's entirely possible I was just reading too much into it. I'm just letting it roll off my back though. I'm sure everyone will have an opinion that they will feel the need to tell me. It's amazing how people think that their opinion matters and that our decisions, be it IVF, adoption, child-free or whatever are any of their business.
So that's our update. Let me know if you want the link to the blog. Or if you click on my blogger profile you can find it that way (this one is hidden).
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