pengakuan paling jujur

me : have you ever been shopping with girls?
him : my mom counts tak?
him : haha
him : grocery shopping penah la
me : lol
me : grocery shopping senang
me : clothes / shoes
him : emm.. tak kot..
him : i dont have good sense for fashion in d first place..
him : so.. maybe sbb tu kot tak diajak
him : huahaha

jujur gile. salut!

b00k summary

i just finished reading eclips3, the third installment in the famous vampire love story twi|ight. i've been having the book for so long, i wonder why i didn't manage to finish this book earlier.

one word. despair.

the book might be monotonous. even during the fight scenes, i didn't feel a slight adventurous mode. maybe it was meant that way.

a few lines that i like:

jake's : "she loves me you know, but she doesn't know it yet"

"it's just too late. he's like a drug to you. i will be much healthier for you; i'll be the air, the sun"

edw4rd's lines are always poetic and easily loved. :P

the author made me feel that i wanted jake to be with b3lla instead of edw4rd. because jake was portrayed as being so selfishly human. while edw4rd, being the most unselfish, kind ..... the list goes on for a perfect being. sighs.

and yeah, though it may baffle some, it is possible to be in love with 2 people at the same time.

i like this book, though the love scenes might make some people to throw-up. it is a love story afterall.

b3lla's: i love jake, but it is nowhere near enough. while edw4rd, i've known how was it like to not be with him.

it was a correct decision, since jake will definitely have an imprint in the future.

that's another thing in another book.

toodles. i love but i also hate fridays. dang!

cuti skola

as a kid, i looked forward to skool holidays. as an adult, i'm not so sure, since:

* the less traffic congestion during skool holiday. -i am not driving to work, so i don't feel it made any difference to me.

* skool holidays don't mean work holidays. - i wish!

* skool holidays is the peak season, where airlines and hotels charge exorbitantly. - i don't go for holidays on skool holidays, so no problem with this.

* malls and cinemas, packed with skool kids. - i lepak at the quietest mall in kl, i don't have the privilege to go watch movies that often.

* skool holidays = solemnization season. - ARGH!

it's not that i don't like weddings. i adore weddings, so many things to look at and learn from. but 3 weddings in a day? would definitely drive anyone sane, crazy. plus if the bride is your best-friend, you'll definitely be the pengapit. and the wedding gift as well, a headache.

you'll be wanting to buy something that the couple will remember. definitely not another rice cooker, or toaster or iron. haha!

(reminder to the guests of my future wedding: please do not buy me household items like the ones i mentioned just now. i'd be happy with your blessings and do not fret, i'll provide you with the list of things that i want. first come, get to buy me cheap items. you know what happens to the ones late. *muahahaha* )

i've long settled the issue of the wedding gifts. easy pick and the couple would definitely not mind it if they have more than one of this item. no, it's not c0nd0ms, you pervert. :P

i'm fully booked for weddings starting this week. there goes my precious weekends. hehehe.

best wishes to the brides and grooms to be. =)

Loop forever

I never thought that I was so blind
I can finally see the truth
It’s me for you

Tonight you can’t imagine that I’m by your side
Cuz it’s never gonna be the truth
Too far for you

But can you hear me say?
Don’t throw me away
And there’s no way out
I gotta hold you somehow

I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Everyday but all I have is time
Our love's the perfect crime

I wanna I wanna I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Every way and when they set me free
Just put your hands on me

Take everything that I know you’ll break
And I give my life away
So far for you
But can you hear me say
Don’t throw me away
There’s no way out
I gotta hold you somehow

Tonight I’m weak
It’s just another day without you
That I can’t sleep
I gave the world away for you to

Hear me say
Don’t throw me away
There’s no way out
I gotta hold you somehow

A.A.Rejects - I Wanna

i am so so sorry. seeing white just shatters it all. damnit!

hippiely happy!!

i got some good stuffs with this picture:

and some stupid vouchers that will allow me to go bakar duit. again. people please, give me real friggin' money stuffs, not vouchers, not anything that serves money purpose that will allow me to go spree and bakar duit. damnit!

but i am very thankful that my hasty picture effort got me the stuffs i like. also my attempt on something that i thought might not be so lucky, was fruitful, hence the bakar duit chance. adoi.

and i am very happy. =)

wicked week.

minggu yang gila.

minggu kene marah dengan encik lemon.

minggu yang hari-hari aku rase marah gila.

aku tak stress, tapi aku marah.

bila aku marah, aku jadi stress, walaupun aku tak nak stress.

bila aku marah dan jadi stress, aku susah nak tido.

bila aku susah nak tido, aku akan memulakan hari dengan bad day.

dah la hari-hari rase hangin, bad day lak tu.

dan aku menjahanamkan kesihatan diri sendiri dengan tidak sempat memakan sayur.

selsema, hangin, marah, stress, bad day, banyak kerja bertimbun-timbun
= aku pada minggu ini.

sekian.


p/s: happy birthday untuk orang yang selalu buat aku ketawa, yang selalu ajak aku kumpul duit buat modal bukak bisnes. yang selalu bising sebab nak jumpa aku kene wat appointment sebulan awal. aku message panjang2 wish kat ko, leh plak reply tq je? cheh, belanje aku nanti wey.

feelings and physical unfitness

one:

i am technically liking someone i can't possibly have. not even in my wildest dream. yea, i guess that is what i'm into these days, infatuated with the impossible.


two:

since i've been putting lack of effort into my eating habits which leads to eating disorder catching up flu and physically drained. i guess my immune system plummeted and having a hard time to catch up with the happily partying inhabiting bacilus and virus.


three:

i reached midveli at 11 in the morning. yea, in record time. i wanted to beat the crowds since i was going to buy some stuffs that can't be bought and brought on the bus during the weekdays.

it took a lot of effort since i'm not used to the sun these days. yes people, i'm puteri lilin by nature. afternoon sun makes me dizzy and sick.

went to the flea market too, but i couldn't stand the weird smells. after finishing the tid-bits shopping, arriving at the lrt only to find out that i forgot the detergent! never mind, i still have to use the food coupon.


four:

i'm going crazy at werk! woooohooooo!!!!

starstruck, lagi!

the weekend started with something sober.

the middle was joyous, meeting up 2 friends. i had so much fun. like serious fun!!

then, i met the drummer. the highest point of my weekend.

i met the drummer at the j0b fair at p w t c. he was with friends. and no andy. gile andy nak datang tempat ramai gile tu, sure kene serbu punya. dan aku pun dengan aman bahagia pergi tegur dino yang tiada siapa perasan. aku amik gambar pun, orang ingat amik gambar dengan kawan lama. hahaha.

kepada orang yang tengah gilakan awek hartamas, thanks for the company. really appreciate it, man.

to my bff, thanks for the rock. i gave you paper in exchange. the only stuff left is the scissors. =P

toodles, nak tido.

the 300th post!

yea, i know it's nothing to brag or celebrate about since a long-time blogger like me should've reached that number waaaaaaayyy long before. but what the heck? who cares anyway? so, this is to my 300th post. may i have the sanity to write frequently here. adios.

my favourite foodstuff. other people may scoff or even scream yuck at my weird taste for some kind of food. for instance, during the prosper1ty burger promo at mekdi, the set was served with jasmine tea. while others hate the weird smell, i adore its thirst-quenching fab.

natto is a gooey, weird japanese fermented soy-beans eaten stirred forcefully with rice. i admit i might not have the ability to turn a blind eye over the goo, but the dried version offered a relief. it's salty, like eating very the bacin tempe. i hope you get the idea of it. tasty though it is.

granola, muesli. baked combination of rolled oats, wheatgerm, and all other sorts of grain kept together with maple syrup or honey. great for quick lunches when sleep is more important than everything else during lunchbreaks. yum.

wheatgrass drink. another weird green colour drink that screams chlorophyll. 'nuff said.

i love baked beans. i can eat it straight from the can. that's how grossly i love it. i also eat anything with wheat on it. but no, i don't eat tempoyak or anything that utilizes it in. even anything with durian in it. but pulut with kuah durian is HEAVEN!

people sometimes frown at my choice of food. i pile-up veggies on my rice. i just can't live without veggies. if i had to choose between mister depp and mister jackman or veggies, i'd still choose the misters. you think i'd be choosing them veggies? i'll have the misters and ask them to buy tons of veggies for me. so, 2 birds and loads of veggies with one stone. geddit?

in other words, i eat healthy stuffs as much as i eat the unhealthy ones. so, i guess that's why my diet plan has gone nowhere.

Simply stunning!

Tell me where else can i get this breathtaking view?

Gorgeously mahal cam haram sewa stunning.

p/s: gambar tak cantik, amik dr kamera fon buruk.

of love affairs, farewells and such...

One:

i'm very much in love. it amused me that i've been for so long. so much that i'm laughing at myself for not realizing it sooner.

of how lovebirds express emselves. if without, i won't even be able to do what i'm doing right now.

i'm just hopelessly head over heels,


in love.


Two:

I haven't properly said my farewell to u. i discover i've never been serious coz i know i'd have u for support. that's why i never stopped fooling around, even now. That's why i couldn't keep u for all that i wanted u to be.

i'm glad we're starting anew. i know u want me to be happy, despite what u call my ridiculous demands, i learnt from the best :P

so, pray for my happiness as i do yours, my goatee santa.


three:

i'm on twilight fever. the vamp heartthrob. AGAIN. coz someone just watched it and been bugging me for spoilers and flooding me with movie lines and fave scenes.

yes, edward is fictitious, but who cares? i adore my books hereos, end of story.


four:

i'm now a hardcore nerd, officially. i sleep with a thesaurus. okthxbye!

Tak faham

Ini gambar bege m0zza. Fastf0od ni dah tuka k0tak jadi camni - wrapper yang ada burger holder. Sepatutnye k0yak tepi dan makan sambil pegang holder. Tapi ramai jugak yg tarik holder dan koyak cam ape je dan pegang bege tanpa halangan. So, idea asal yang bernas terus jadi cam tak berguna.

Aku tengah suka gabungkan perkara yang takde kaitan dalam satu entri. Harap maap kalo ade yang pening.

Sorang kawan aku ni, ada bf. Tak hensem, tak berduit, takde manners, tapi dah kapel bertaun2. Bukan kawan aku tu tak cantik, cume aku fikir dia berhak dapat yang lebih baik. Bahagian masing2. Tak kaco aku sudah.

Aku mahu lelaki yang sedap mata aku pandang, paham english aku dan aku paham english die, bleh jadi imam dan tau bace tahlil, kaye, berjawatan tinggi dan hensem gile beautiful hands and beady eyes.

Aku tak mintak banyak pun. Yang paling penting, die tak tinggal solat. Macam dah jumpe, tapi boleh tak aku cakap,

"mahukah kamu menikahi daku?"

Mesti die kate aku gile.
Hehe.
Biarla, aku suka bila aku menyukai.

Lupa kejap pada perasaan tak tahu.

retail therapy day 1 : warehouse sale

i went to mattel's around 1pm. when i arrived, grabbed a box and browsing around. the small area was packed with people queueing to checkout and people browsing around too.

i was taking my time when i arrived at the fisher-pricey section.

i was STUNNED. events in chronogical order:

• parents were hovering at the table, demanding that more boxes be opened.
• the staff said no more stocks for today
• the staff gave in after a nod by the big boss
• there were screams and a lot of pushings
• the table gave way and dropped to the ground after severe pushes by the angry mob
• the staffs were surrounded by the mob, demanding that those boxes be opened
• the staffs opened the boxes and handing them out; resulting in more pushings and screams
• during the last boxes, the staffs had to order everyone to back off because the terrible mob just won't listen
• one woman and a man siap main tarik-tarik the particular last box, i got it first, no, i got it first, kind of argument. didn't manage to see who got it in the end though
• the staffs declared 'habis'
• the angry mob then proceed to open other unopened boxes

after all these commotions, i sat down in a spot, mused myself watching these:

VERY long queue to checkout, only 4 counters to cater to those angry mob

every single person had at least 2 big boxes filled with toys

pregnant ladies yang turut sama berebut dan tak sayang diri

ignorant parents who dragged their kids along. another pushed her baby in a pram in that crammed space. bodoh ke ape?

people guarding their hasil rampasan and shooting daggers if other people peeked at theirs

people exchanging their unwanted toys with complete strangers

me? i took a few hot wheels, some barbies and polly pockets clothings in a very small box. why? coz that's the only toy people ignored and don't give a bat of an eye.

why the prim proper professionals (3p's) became uncivilized angry mob?

fisher-pricey which retail for 100+ - 200+ gone for 45 - 150. barbies retail at 60 gone for 10 - 15, same goes for hot wheels. uno cards retail at 25, gone for 5.


in the end:

i decide that i must work harder so that i don't have to go to warehouse sales and watch the 3p's turn into angry mob

3p's fought for toys like the famished fought for food

do malaysians' have that much to spend in this hard times? coz even the toys are cheap, they're not that cheap. and again, the same people came to this sale every year, that's not thrifty spending even though the toy lasts a lifetime.

i left my small box and walked peacefully out. not a single regret of not taking all those toys. they don't have express counters for less than 10 items like me. to declutter my head from the angry mob's antics i went to the warehouse bookshop the floor below. complete peace of mind and ultimate bliss!

gumbira.

hari ni dapat buku yang aku tunggu-tunggu (2 hari je pun). kene kutuk lagi tu, adoi.

me : ingat tak buku ....... (isilah sendiri name buku ni)?
her: igt lg...
me : naper???
me : saya terjumpa ade satu website publisher ni
me : die offer buku tu rm18 je, siap dgn delivery
me : kalo kt kedai rm22
me : trus sampai kat ofis pagi tadi
her: owh...
her: awk nk beli ker??
me : dah depan mate ni pun ha
me : tengah belek2
her: awk beli???
her: awk minat ker???
me : itu lah
me : spur of the moment,trus bayar
me : padahal kat umah tu berlambak lagi buku lom bace
her: hahahahhahaaha....
her: minat jgak awk kt buku camtue ek...
her: sy mmg x brapa mnt..
me : novel malay saya memang malas beli
me : mahal dan kadang2 tah pape

yes. i have a knack of buying on impulse. but at least i'll make sure the book is worth it. and i never sometimes buy malay novels compared to english ones.

the other reason i'm gumbira is that another postcard arrived today. i'm already infecting my aunts with this postcrossing virus. HAHAHA!

unguilty leisure-surfing

the job is getting quite boring these days. therefore i kept finding excuses to spend more and more time to fall asleep go online.

i've always been the nerd, getting twisted with words, always finding word-games as FUN but i never really liked scrabbles though. i'm so addicted to bookworm deluxe (explains my word-nature, haha), i'd spent hours playing. those days.

while browsing through timedotcom 50 best websites for the year 2008, i stumbled upon the freerice website. i used to do thehungsersite longtime ago, but it was boring since you get to click only once a day for a cup of rice.

my latest addiction combines play with donation. you get to play guess the meaning of a word. for every word you guessed correctly, you get 10 grains of rice. yea, only 10 grains is not enough to feed a famished person. but the aim of the project is to have more people playing since a lot of people are playing at the same time, therefore the goal to feed the hungry is reaching out.

for every gram, there are 48 grains. a balanced diet calculates 400grams for a person, therefore if i were to feed a person, i should get 19200 rice grains, which is equal of 1920 words guessed correct.

oh, why do i even typing this entry? i should be guessing words, now.

p/s: the green banner is for the site. it is VERY addictive, i'm becoming a junkie.

ahmad leaves

too bad. you're smart, you're cute, you speak 4 languages, you've got the looks, but you're short. too bad.

yep this guy is leaving for the greener pasture. a sense of loss though we don't know each other personally. less one reason of why i should come to work.

i was being patronized of being picky.

..... of which i answered:

• i'm being delusioned into believing i'm picky after very serious drilling by you.
• i'm a pessimist when it comes to relationships
• i'm VERY obsessed with my ideals

and again i was accused of being cruel. to myself. it just doesn't make sense.

very independent wuman

her: ko nih mmg indepednt kan
her: sorang2 jerk
her: rilex jerk
me : dalam kubur pun sorang
me : haha
her: pedih btol ayt ko nih
me : aku dah get over the thinking yang aku perlu berada dengan orang2 lain utk rasa happy

yes, that is very true. but i am not that independent. i just chose the ones i'd like to be gedik with depend on.

i don't have any excuse

.... for not writing. for writing. for both of them. the days had been tiring. and somehow i just couldn't find my ways around words anymore. blame it on the lack of enthusiasm.

these days i found myself indulging more and more into books while commuting as i forced myself to read than spending it with watching the k-dramas (kapel who can't get enough of each other yeech!). by reading, my imaginations had been running wilder than ever and it exhausts me because imaginations demand a high price: sensible afterthoughts.

after all these years, picturing the ideals was the most obvious mistake. but i'm obliged to say that i learnt a lot. so much that i felt no remorse. there's no point in regret, there are a lot of lessons to ponder.

why settle for second best when you have other possiblities lined up?

said sadly part ii

sambung balik pasal cite aku gi jonker walk tuh..

baru-baru ni kan ada gempa bumi yang melanda china dengan myanmar tu. dekat melaka ni, ade satu persatuan buddhist mainstream yang besar. so, mereka organize satu jenis kutipan derma untuk mangsa-mangsa gempa bumi ni kat jonker walk tu.

apa yang membuatkan aku tersentuh hati ni, selain dari keadaan mangsa-mangsa tu adalah beberapa perkara yang aku rasa, kenapa kita tak boleh buat macam tu?

semua yang terlibat kutip derma pakai satu pakaian seragam: t-shirt, cap biru dengan seluar biru. tabung besar yang state apa tujuan kutipan derma tu. siap ada tag card jenis mahal yang ade hologram stiker tu.

semua yang kutip derma walaupun dah agak berumur, masih gagah lagi, tak segan plak tu. ringan mulut mintak derma walaupun bukan dari kalangan diorang.

ok, kontra nye:

secara organisasi nya, sangat sangat teratur. orang tau diorang berdaftar dan kutip derma secara sah.

tak payah pancing simpati nangis2 macam dalam program bersama kome nak dapat derma, tak payah berlagak cacat pun, ramai je kaum2 diorang derma even teenagers yang dok pakai hotpants dengan sleeveless tuh. yang mintak sedekah tepi jalan yang takde kaki la, tangan bengkok la, buat muka sedih la, itu pun orang tak de kelip mata pun nak kasi sedekah.

well, untuk kes yang sama time tsunami dulu, orang kita ramai jugak yang derma tapi masing-masing berebut nak present mock-cheque depan press, bleh masuk tibi atau surat-kabar. nakkan nama je. kan sepatutnya kalau kita memberi dengan tangan kanan, biar tangan kiri tak tahu. ini tak, mau kasi kecoh satu malaya.


objektif penulisan karangan ini:


- aku dah mengantuk, sebab tu aku merapik.

said sadly..

baru tadi aku gi jonker street. sepanjang umur aku yang bermastautin kat melaka sepanjang2 ni, aku baru jejak sane 2 kali. biasa la, tumpuan pelancong kat negeri sendiri tu yang tak heran, lagi banyak kali aku ukur petaling street tu dari gi pasar malam yang faymes kat melaka.

memang nak ikutkan, jonker street tiru style petaling street, cume belum nampak gengstarz berleluasa kat situ.

beza jonker dengan petaling:

- banyak port

port bermaksud, satu tempat yang best, so kalo satu tempat tu disebut satu port lepak, ia
bermakna, tempat itu adalah satu tempat lepak yang best.

jalan kat situ je dah best, sebab jalan dia sangat la spacious, maybe sebab peniaga2 tu pakai meja2 yg comel2 dan x makan jalan. kalo kat petaling, kalo salah lawan arus orang-orangan, sure lemas, hehe.

port makan : makan nasik lemak, abc dengan teh o lemon, masyuk gileee.

kat sini bukan setakat strawberi celup coklat, buah2an lain pun bleh celup coklat siap letak chocolate rice lagi. tapi yang ni, tanggung sendri la halal nye. hehe.

ade gula ketuk, yer sebelum di jual kepada pelanggan, acara mengetuk2 gula di demo kan. aku nengok selamba aje budak cha 6 taun tu dok ketuk2 gula, cekap plak tu, tolong bapak die.

nak makan laksa, amoi aku cakap nyonya laksa sini not bad, pun korang tanggung sendri la halalnye. termasukle hawker food yang lain, almaklum le cha ni kan suke makan, aku pun dah terjah je kedai2 yg sedap2 ni, kalo x fikir halal nye, haha.

port souvenir and crafts: kalo rase nak beli yang handmade, kat sini bleh tahan gak la dari segi harga dan kepelbagaian pilihan. macam-macam sampai aku pun naik berpinar mate dah jadi macam pelancong jakun tengok souvenir cecantik, at least aku tau, made in melaka, malaysia dari sesetengah souvenir yang konon2 songket atau batik, tapi terang2an label tulih made in filipins or even thailand.

terompah hand-made pun ade, buatan halus, nak bayo harga nye ketar hand aku, hahaha.

banyak benda yang korang tak tersangka bleh jumpa ade kat sini.


port aksesori: khas untuk mereka yang suke bergaya. nak apa? nak subang bentuk ikan? yang buat dari play-doh? nak kaler yg biru2 tak biru sangat? nak mintak custom-made pun boleh. sedia aje lah duitnye.

port mainan: action figure, magic kit, dan yang sewaktu dengannya, ade. aku pun penat nak list.


senang cite, kalo datang melaka time weekend, datangla jonker street time malam. happening beb, apek2 tua rajin karaoke sekuat2 hati kat situ. jangan la expect nak tgk awek2 cun kat sane, tapi amoi yang hot, dan sangat seksi, bersepah2, sampai kan aku pun sakit mata teruja, kah kah kah.

tapi, aku still nak gi petaling street beli jam yang cute2.