My Digital World

This week I have almost finished with my exams. There are two essays left that I need to write. And there are two orals that I want to do. This Monday, I was really tired. At that day, I get up very early since I have exam in the morning. That exam was very tough. Again, I blame on myself that I need to study serious in stead of lazying all the day. People who are as lazy as I am, should know what I mean.

By the way, after that exam, JW sends me a sms in which he tells me that I must go to Leiden. This week, I start a medical course in Leiden as well. I am not allowed to skip more than 1 practical assignment. If I do that, then I am removed from the course. Since I have exam at Tuesday, I already miss one practical assigment. And if I don't show my face on Monday, then I am dismissed. Therefore JW sends me a sms.

I was so tired at Monday. I really don't have any mood to go to Leiden. The only thing I like to do is lying in my bed to take a nap. But I still go to Leiden. Arriving at the LUMC (Leidsche Universiteit Medische Centrum), stands for medical university of Leiden, JW and another person from Delft are waiting for me in front of the entrance. We go to the "cut room" together. In the cut room, you can find a human body or a part of a human body. Since I apply for the course "introduction into neuroscience", I have a brain and a skull of the human at my table. I thought that human's brain is a very 'soft' tissue, like a pudding. But it is more 'stable'/solid than a pudding. The cut lesson takes 4 hours! In those hours, a medicine students show us what the names of the parts of the brains, which bores me for hours. Those names are very horrible to keep in my mind. It is very long and hard to pronounce.

The practical assigment of the medical study differs alot from the practical assigment in Delft. In Leiden every thing is shown to you. And if you don't understand, the so called student-assistance will explain to you till you nod your head. In Delft, you have to survive for every assigment. Nothing is explianed to you and if you cannot answer the questions that the student-assistance asks you, then you have to make your bum clean for next schoolyear to come back to redo the practical assigment. But last years, the student-assistances are much more friendly and far less strict then the time when I did the practical assigments in my Bachelor.

The next day, at Tuesday, I have the exam of Bio-electricity. For that exam I need format my memory since I have to put all the stuff in my mind. I hate exams where I need to learn by heart since my memory-size is very limited. But the exam was so so. It is slightly more difficult than what I expect.

After that exam, I feel as free as a bird! Although my exams are not formally over. This week, I realise that I need to write 2 essays, which they take off my smiles. So, today I finally make a start with writing. I try to finish them by next next week then I can focus on my 2 orals.

The Wednesday, Yan was celebrating her birthday. I am luckily invited to attend at her birthday party. Although I don't know her friends, except Luna, I was present at her birthday party. I brought my camera with me to take pics. Here I have created a wallpaper of her birthday.



Although I took pics, I also helped her with preparing the dinner. I cook two very simple meals which are 1. eggs with tomato and 2. steamed brocolli.

The dinner starts pretty late. I don't have time for having a talk with everyone. But the birthday party was pretty nice. It was a long time ago that I attend a birthday party.

I did a very stupid mistake this week. I thought that Xiu Wen has her birthday too at the 24th of January. I called her at that day, but she said she has her birthday at the 27th! How stupid can I be to forget my little cousin's birthday! Let me blame on the exam of bio-electricity since my memory is overloaded with that course.
However, there is one more who has his birthday on the 24th. That is Sing, the brother of Bou. Congrat to him!!! I wish him having a girlfriend this year. hehehe...

Yesterday, I am invited by Luna to have a dinner at her place. I notice that people who come from China, really have other kind of food than what my mom cooks. I like to try food of different countries. Anyway, after the dinner, we have a talk. Luna takes my hand and read the lines in my hands. She said that she learned "hand-reading" before. But now she forgets many things. Although I don't believe in that kind of stuff, I won't refuse to let people read my hand and talking about "cows and chicken". Her conclusion is that I am a guy who takes love very seriously. And in my whole life, there is one moment that hurts me very much. I am very surprised by her conclusion that is drawn from my hand. Since I really have been hurted before. Although she is correct, it that doesn't make me to believe in fate and superstitious stuff.

This weekend, my mom has her birthday too! And the day after, my buddy Nancy has her birthday too! I didn't buy any present for my mom yet. I think about a retour ticket to Singapore will be nice. But I need to earn and save money first. Nancy asks me if I like to go to Amsterdam to have "dim-sum" with her and Airin. It is kind of celebration of her birthday among us only. But I cannot go since I want to stay at home with my mom. I feel sorry for Nancy but I am sure she understands that. My buddy is a very wise person. :)

This Thursday's morning when I go to the University and when I went out the bus, there was a very hard wind blowing in my face. At that moment I thought it was just the wind that always blew people away in front of mine faculty. Surprisely when I tried to walk to my building, I was also blown away (a bit) by the wind. When the wind was calm down, I immediately went to the entrance of my faculty.

I went to the canteen and some of my friends were sitting and asked me how I felt. They asked me if I know that today it would be very windy!!! The wind had a speed of 130km/h. hehehe...And looking through the window you can see people were blow away by the wind. The situation seemed worse and worse and finally people of the security-staff came along to block the roads for the cars and bikes. The whole road in the university was in the afternoon blocked. I should to take a camera with me to snap the moments.

Because of the storm, I could not go to Rotterdam since all kind of public transport was cancelled in the afternoon. Bou was leaving in the afternoon to his place. He told me to let him know if I could not go to home. Sherry (his girlfriend) offered me a place to zzz at their place.

First I thought I could go to Rotterdam by bus since I thought that the storm would not last for the whole day. In the evening the storm was indeed calm down alot. I also went to do buy some food to cook a dinner with Luna. Luna is a friend of Yan. I went to Luna's place to cook. And we did shopping to buy food to cook. While we were walking to the town to buy food, the wind was still very hard. But we were not blown away.

After the dinner, Yan joined us to talk and ate the food that I cooked. This time, my food was very terrible since I forgot what the receipt was. Next time, I will do it much better, I hope.

While, time flies when you have fun with talking. It was almost 10PM and I check information of the public. Only the bus could ride. When I check out more on the internet, I had no trust that the bus would ride. Therefore I was thinking what I should do. Luna offered me to stay at her dormitory. That was very nice of her. But I didn't want to stay at her dorm since we were not a very close friend and I didn't want to have gossips because at the place where she lived, many Chinese people live there. Chinese people are the well-known gossips-source. Therefore I decided to call Bou and to stay at his place with his girlfriend. At that night, I should be a "lamp" in their house (电灯泡) :P

Anyway, this Monday I had my first paper. It was not too difficult, but I don't know if my answers are sufficient/good enough to get the full credit. Time will tell later.

Next week, I have 3 papers. I gave up the exam on Wednesday (Analog IC Design) since I am running out of time. From the many years' experience, I know that it is better to focus on some papers. I need to start with the paper on Monday. I only look at the slides of one part of the course so far. I have the feeling that I will fail for that course since I didn't prepare at all. I will see what I can do tomorrow.

Today, I open msn space for fun only. I only put some pics on the space. I keep blogspot as my blog. And I still use multiply for my serious work of photography. I use my space for others. Go and check it out: my msn space

There are some moments which I can be really weird. How weird I can be, depends on how crazy I will be :P Well, people who know me, will have an idea what I am talking about.

This week, I study the whole week. I don't make any progress in the speed of studying. *Sigh* In the past, I only need 1-2 days to complete 1 (easy) course. Nowadays, for the easy courses, I need so many days to complete. Will it be that I become older and older? Therefore, I suffer some of the old people syndrome:P E.g. when I played badminton this Friday with my friends, my reaction was slow and it was very hard to see the shuttle flying in the air that was approaching to my direction. Do I become farsighted? hehehe...

It seems that I am still a weirdo while I am blogging. Well, I will calm down after this dot.

My week is nothing more than reading and looking at my lecture notes that I don't understand. Compare to the education at NUS, TU Delft's education system is (very) bad! I am comparing the Master of Micro-electronics. I am very disappointed in the way how our professors give lectures. Besides the organization of the course is also bad...Anyway, I have to live with it.

At the restaurant where I work, my boss wanna introduce a very pretty girl to me. I really don't understand why she is caring about my love-life so much. She always starts about talking girls. Today, she is seriously thinking to match a girl with me. I am glad that I can "escape" from this situation since that girl is one year older than me and that is why my boss retreat her thought :P

The last thing that I like to write is about my cousin Patsy. This evening she sends me an e-mail. In that e-mail she asks me to forgive me. In the last sms of that day she sent to me, she said that she will make everything good. That thing is just a link of where I can download a commedy-programme that I watch currently.

When I analyse the way of how my cousin thinks, I am really disappointed. I am really wondering whether she had taken that situation seriously. I was really mad of what she had done. Because she is my cousin, I want to her to learn the things of how to handle and how to think corretly. I don't say that my ways of handling are correct, but I want her to become a bit more mature.

By the way, this week, the sister of Henry adds me to her msn-list. Last weekend, I got a surprise call of Henry. He just wanted to check if my phonenumber is still valid. I was very surprised by his call. Well, his sister adds me to her list, because Henry asks me if I can bring her sister walking around when she will go to Holland. I am very happy that I can do him a favor. :)

A very long time ago, I installed skype because I thought that one day I will chat with Stephanie. But I never chatted with her so far. I have thought to uninstall skype from my computer since I don't see any use of keeping that programme. But it seems that Henry uses skype too! Therefore, I keep skype running on my computer and when I have time I really hope to chat with him or Stephanie.

The last few days, there are moments that I think about a friend who works extremely hard for her family. She wrote me an e-mail this week. In that e-mail she said that she didn't know when she did her last nap because she worked non-stop because of family matters. She apologized for not replying my sms for days. I really wanna know how she is doing now...

This week I go to Delft to study for my exams in January. All the exams are very important, especially Analog IC Design and Semiconductor and its Components. The first one is very tough for me since it is very to understand the way of how to build up a circuit. The second one is tough for me since in my Bachelor course, I had skipped this part of my Electronic profile because of I was running out of time at the exam week. In the Master, this course continues and it is 100% focus on the physics (quantanmechanics).
Although these courses are very tough, I like to study for it. But this week I haven't start with them since I have other courses to revise and next week I also want to handle my essay in. I notice that studying for the courses I like, can give me a very satisfy feeling. I prefer to study with other people since that person can push me to work or we can exchange our understanding. One big disadvantage of studying together, is that studying is very slow. But I prefer for study together.

Well, that is my life at University. On the way to Rotterdam in the evening, my cousin Patsy will come along to my place to sleep. During the weekend, we have agreed that we will meet at Rotterdam Station Central Station at 22:30h because she doesn't know the way to go to my place. It will be first time that my cousin will visit me and stay at my place.
My cousin was already in Rotterdam at that day because she get know a guy who lives there. After a few meetings this guy, they become boy- and girlfriend, which I think it is very ridiculous. They know each other very short! I also don't believe in "love at first sight". I also think having a steady relationship is much better than having uncountable relationships. People say that you will get experience of how to life with 'your other part'. I am not agreed with this. I still think that you will get know how to grow with your other part if both of you are really in relationship. Of course, sh*t things happens. But that is what everyone has to face to and solve alone or with your other part.

Anyway, the fact that my cousin and her boyfriend know each other very short, doesn't make me mad at her. It is because she is not fair to me and use me as an excuse. This is the whole story:
On my way to Rotterdam and when my cousin Patsy is in Rotterdam too, I get a call of her. She asks me where I am. I answer her that I am still on my way to Rotterdam. Then she asks me if she can come along to my place later without giving me any reason (she answers "gewoon", which I don't know how to translate this typical Dutch answer in English. But 'gewoon' is not a reason!). I feel something not behind this request. At the background, I hear her boyfriend yells and laughs which I don't really appreciate. Then I ask Pasty why she likes to make it so late again (to give her 1 more chance to be honest to me). She doesn't know how to reply me. Then, I agree that she comes later, which will be 23:30h! I can understand that she likes to stay with her boyfriend longer that is not the thing that I am mad about. But then she suddenly says that there is nothing to do at my place, so that is why she prefers to stay at her boyfriend's place. This make a bit mad because it seems that she uses my place for sleeping only, like a hotel.
Well, I accept that she comes later. We have agreed that I will pick her up at the underground station in the place where I live. She asks me how to go to my place, although I offer her to go meet her in the station one hour later. But she says that she knows the way and her boyfriend will be with her and bring her to the underground station. So, there is no need for me. I tell her in details how she goes to my place.
Before I arrive in Rotterdam, she sends me another sms. In that sms, she says that her boyfriend is sick, so she asks if she allows to come to my place the next morning. I really don't understand what the benefit is of going to my place so early. Maybe she wants to buy some cakes and that is why she likes to meet me since I agree with her to buy cakes with her before. I send a sms back in which I say I am very mad at her. That sms is about so: "I don't need to talk to you for a while. If you prefer to stay at your boyfriend's place then my place, tell me then. Think about why I am so mad at you!"
At that moment I am seriously very mad! My cousin asks me one month ago to stay at my place when she visited her boyfriend. Of course I let her stay at my place. It is much 'better' (more sensible) to stay at her boyfriend's place. Because Patsy's parents are very strict and traditional, she has to ask her parents first before she can go to Rotterdam to meet her boyfriend and stay at my place afterwards. Finally her parents let her go and stay at my place. She was glad and said "I prefer to stay at your place than his place." I answer "That is sensible!" Although she knows she is not allowed to do that...she finally doesn't listen.
My uncle and aunt will never let her stay at her boyfriend's place. If they get know, they will 'kill' her. And my cousin knows that very well. That is why she suggests to stay at my place and telling me in the next sms that keep that secret.
But at that day, she lies to me! I can really be very mad if someone is not honest to me. Lie is an example. My cousin knows me from her birth and so she should know me very well now. I really cannot accept her excuse of that her boyfriend is sick altough I him yelling and laughing at the background an hour ago. A very long plan of my cousin, which she always asks to stay at my place, is just a lie. I can be so mad about this!
The other thing that makes me so bad is that she 'uses' me as an excuse for their parents to be with her boyfriend and finally sleep at his place. What will happen if there is something happened to her at that night? Everyone will blame on me. That is not what I am mad of. I am mad because she uses me to do things what she is not allowed to do. She hasn't hold a second to think about me! That makes me also mad!

Until now, I don't know if I like to tell my uncle and aunt. I think I will leave it. But next time, when my cousin goes to Rotterdam again, she cannot count on me anymore. When she mentions that she will stay at my place, I will tell her parents that there is no place for her.

I personally think it is very stupid of her to get so far with him. The first thing is, is that they only know each other for just 2 months. Second, in these 2 months, it seems like that their relationship is not going well. Third, my cousin thinks she might be a player. The last, they don't know each other very well. How can my cousin so stupid to trust a guy who she doesn't know well? Many things can happen at his place and at night!

I hope she will know why I am mad of. But my feeling says that she doesn't know...

HaPpY NeWYeAr!!! Let all the ones who drop in my blog having a very nice plus unforgetable 2007!!!

This year my families and me didn't cook for a dinner, but we went all out for a dinner at the restaurant where I have my part-time job. Because since we took care of the two children of my bosses, they asked us every year to have a dinner at their place. And since this was the third time that they ask us, we thought we have to go.

To be quite honest, I didn't like to have a New Year dinner outside. I prefer to cook together and eat with my families only. Maybe my thought is a bit traditional...Anyway, maybe next year, we are with our own families only.

At the New Year evening, when it was almost 12AM, I gave a call to all my friends. I didn't succeed to get anyone on the phone. Before 12AM, I got a call of a friend who had a baby. She leaved the hosiptal at New Year's Eve and when she was at home she gave me a call to wish me happy New Year. I asked her whether the baby was born and it was. The baby is a girl. Oh, I forget to ask the name. Well, I will ask her later.

That call of my friend, was the ONLY call from so friends I have. *Sigh*, the number of calls decreases every year. Also the numbers of cards. I think the time when I received so many cards and phonecalls are now over. Today, poeple have their own life and another priorities. I have to get used of it.

By the way, apart from the less 'happy' things, I have something nice to share. This week, I mean yesterday, I gave a phonecall to a friend who lives very far away from me. I never called her before since we used to chat on msn or writing e-mails. Surprisely, she recognised who I am through the phone although I didn't gave her any hints. I think I am very bad in pulling someone's leg. Within a few words, she says, "hey, it is you!". In the future, when I am married, I think I cannot hide any things from my wife. That might ber bad for me..hehehe
Anyway the phonecall was short, but long enough for saying "happy New Year!". I hope that when she read this blog is getting better since she is sick.
There were times that she said that she wanted to call me. But because she mention that she is very shy on the phone, so that is why she doesn't call me every time she wanted to chat with me. When I yesterday called her, I didn't notice that she is shy on the phone. Maybe my senses were not sensitive enough to detect her embarrassment.
However, she said that she was very surprised by my call. That is positive mean. So, I am glad to can make someone happy with my surprise, altough my surprises are so limited.

Before I wanted to call that friend, I wanted to call my relatives in Malaysia first. I could talk to some of them only because the other ones were inaccessible. This might be the result of the earthquake that happened a few days ago in Taiwan which broke the phonelines to Asia and the internet. In Malaysia and in the part where my relatives live, there is water-flood. I have no idea how my relatives have been now. I think they are fine since sometimes I see my cousin's msn on- and offline. That is an indication that their house is safe and which might also means that the houses of other relatives are safe as well because they live quite nearby. But I do worry them because I haven't heard their voice so far.

Returning on the New Year's Eve, my brother Cheah was also present which makes me happy. He came with my uncle. It had been a while that I see him because he went seldom to home. Below this is my brother:


He was enjoying the icecream that my other brother (Kar Loong) prepared for him. Below the picture of Kar Loong and Patsy:


My other brother, Kar Wei, took icecream too. He spent most of his time with our cousin Kha Kit. Kha Kit is the one with the glasses:


After the dinner, we went back to our my cousin's home to play firework. The little kids gave me mainly the "BANG" fireworks to play, which I didn't like that much. But since they liked to play with other kind of firework, I had no choice. The most important was that they enjoyed the New Year's Eve.

Every year, my cousin from Lelystad visited us at New Year. Today, they were here! I like my cousin because he has a very good heart. His wife is also a very good person. They are perfect matched. They have two beautiful daughthers which you can see here:



The one above, is Xin Jie and the one below is Xin Lin. Xin Jie is one of the very very very few girls who is in my heart PRETTY. She has a bit like-look with my prettiest cousin in Malaysia who is a little sister of the father of these two daughters. Xin Lin is a very spontaneous girl with lots of smile and care for people. She is not so pretty as her sister but inside she has the beauty that many people don't have.

OK, so far my families. Yesterday I discovered the singer who I liked very much. It is not because of her look but her music. It was very very very long time ago that I downloaded her songs as many as possible. I am talking about the time when broadband was just introduced and I downloaded her songs with my phoneline which means it was very slow and needed lots of patience to get what you want.
How do I discover who her? Well, I surf on youtube for songs which I like to download. And by any chance I found a song that sounds so familar in my ears. I specified in searching for that singer and finally I know she is the singer that I liked.
The funny thing is, is that she comes from Singapore! Plus she is an actrice as well. When I watched Singapore dramas during the summer, she was playing in The Women Time as well! She is very mean to hide her ID or maybe I am so silly to 'forget her'. :P
OH MY GOD!!! When I google for her picture to put it on my blog, I find a picture of her when she played in a movie that I like very much as well! How increditable can't it be that I see her all the time although I don't know that she is the one who I like her music and acting in the movie calls "Zhen Xin Hua" ('true words', if I translate that and the English title of the movie is "The Truth About Jane and Sam"). I start liking her, hehehe...


I know very well that when the movie came out, I was attracted by it. It was not because Fann played in that movie, but because the trailer and the soundtrack hit my heart.
In that year, it was my first time that I went on holiday without my parents but with my two cousins. I was very disappointed and and fed up with of the fact I couldn't see that movie finally because I had to go back to Holland. At that time I didn't know the title of this movie. The only thing I thought was that it was a Singaporean movie.
Many years later, my cousin came to my home with that movie! I watched and enjoyed it very much! It has a very good story. I should buy this movie to show my support to the artits (Fann Wong and Peter Ho), director and the many crew behind the screen. :)