Lets Separate...SOMEWHERE...

Cant believe Im crying while im typing these...VIVIAN HO!! YOU MISSED OUT THIS LINE!lol
ok..the title and the first line are like some inside joke.

actually...i dont know what ta blog..cos it seems like..vivian have blogged our whole day's itinerary out..

Ok..sometg random..I LOVE coffee bean's BELGIUM CHOCOLATE LATTE!!! haha

and erm.....I WANNA SHEESHA SO BADLY! =(

alrights..tts bout it.

pictures!=)


exhausted from all the fabricated fairytale.

Will you be across the stream?

haha..Im still having the 'I HAVE A DREAM' song ringing in my head..Oh yah..didnt mention..watched MAMA MIA yesterday..hmmms..storyline is hmmms..a lil draggy?And its a musical movie..so if u cant stand movies tt uses singing ta convey the story out..best nt ta watch..cos it like ur watching a musical play=)

So today..I once agn entered the cinema..ta catch FLOWERS OVER BOY movie.caught the movie with darl qing.man...we had a great time talking didnt we?or was it I having the most excellent time of my life listening ta u my dear?LOL.alrights..kidding..im always here ta listen..= so...back ta the movie.The storyline is kinda stupid...but certain lines were really sweet..but well..so melty tt i have ta slap myself ta remind myself tt its just another fairytale movie.................i wud personally give this movie a 3.5 star..=)


So just now..I had a lil catch up session with zing on msn...althou it was just like..a few greetings exchanged..i do miss her loads man..shes like always there fer me..no matter wat.And i really mean...NO MATTER WAT CIRCUMSTANCES..gal..I LOVE U!

of cos nt fergetting viv and qing.one is my advisor..the other..the freebie queen.MUAHAHA..qing is sooooooooooooooooooo gonna kill me.i know it..alrights..i'll try ta get u more freebies kk? haha..

ohya!!! I saw stitch darling today!!!oh god..how i missed her man! and ta think tt we've always been sucha sweet frens..(and i mean..viv,qing and myself) but,,, tt stitchy lil thingy..FERGET MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!! she even whispered ta viv on the phone saying..'its 14th of oct rights? rights?' lmao.donno wat ta say la....lol



alrights..havent got anything else ta share.toodles peeps!

STANDING ON THE CROSSROADS

Im sorry.I didnt know you had so much problems ta handle within ur family. Im sorry tt I had ta paste all the nasty words over.TO BOTH OF YOU. im sorry. Im so done with this. yes..indeed..I understand ur not going thru a gd time.i didnt either.i hate ta be the one making things nasty.both of u are my bffs..none of u wud i wanna lose..or get hurt by each other's harsh and reckless remarks.I've tried my best ta minimise it.but it seems like it didnt turn out the way we all used ta be.


I don't wanna talk
About the things we've gone through
Though it's hurting me
Now it's history
I've played all my cards
And that's what you've done too
Nothing more to say
No more ace to play

Im like a manipulated killer.

Stairways to heaven

The reason fer the above title will be exposed at the end of my post..
God..I absolutely love the pic i took!!!
ok..theres no way am i ever gonna like blog bout my deepest feeling out anymore..see no point in sharing them all out here..cos it seems like this blog was kinda created fer ta rant and vent all my frustrations out here...so well..i'll be blogging more bout the 'happy' parts of my life..best ta leave out the emotional stuff..haha

ok..so...yest..viv,qing and I met up fer a swim..went all the way ta east coast area..long journey..but fortunately...i LOVE long journey rides...hahahaha..we were like eating dark chocs,sipping bubble tea..and happily chattering away..ok..the previous sentence is quite unnecessary..LOL.
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Shall not post the full details regarding the security guard encounter..(cheeky face*** ta qing and viv ) haha..and to my amazement...viv's swimming skills really improved...qing and i were like praising her..and she was like..too busy showing us how Dex swim.."LIKE A DYING FROG choking,gasping fer air all the time"..LOL..muahaha..shame on u dex!lmao

so..after the swim..qing took a cab home..viv and i loitered ard Parkway parade(PP). Its my first time shopping there..I always thought PP was just like J8..or Ang mo kio hub..but hey..there was like..Topshop..Diva..Esprit.haha..Im so in love with this diva bangle..but..hmmms..still considering if its worth the price..=/

yest was 10th sept..a month later wud be my 19th birthday..hmmmms...my yearly unchanged wish is ta spend my next birthday with someone special..but well..this wish have yet come true..Im losing faith in this wish..okok...i mentioned no more emo stuff righ? haha..there i went agn..but im glad tt viv and qing are like having some surprise fer me..especially happy as qing is like part of this..my 18th b'day was like celebrated with viv..at the esplanade..tt sweetheart..bought some candles from 7-eleven..commanded tt i shd keep my eyes shut..back facing her..while she prepared candles tt forms a heartshape on the grass..so sweet la!!!haha

Viv sweetheart..i'll nv ferget my 18th b'day..but actually..i knew u were preparing the candles..i felt the heat la dear gal!LOL..but still..i love u! and also..qing and juan..thanks fer the Clinique gloss..=)

ok..tts all fer today...im suppose ta be rushing my assignment!!lol..
Bye peeps=)

Tmrs' a BRAND NEW DAY!

I miss my LONG HAIR!

Ok..this is a really random post..Dont know why..just really really miss my long hair..Although its not exactly butt area long..the length was like..hmms..slightly over my boobs..whatever it is..I totally miss it la! So..I've decided ta keep my hair long once again!

Just realised that my blog have been pretty picture-less fer quite some time..shall post some of my old pictures! =)

So anyway..I skipped last thurs and fri classes fer the Comex IT show..haha..but it was quite worth it la..Gotta know a few awesome people such as Cynthia, Carlson, Shing..the commission wasn't like a 'WOW' ta me..cos I heard tt some colleagues who'r working under brands such as Acer were doing freaking well..Commission was like twice or thrice compared ta mine..But oh well..I really enjoyed myself fer the past 3 and a half day..lol

Met up with Sharifah this evening ta rush our assignment which was dued today..HAHA.
After some crazy hrs of typing session..I accompanied her ta LJS ta break fast..She was like eating as if the people around her were there ta snatch her food..lol..Practically swallowing without chewing!!! TSKTSK* But well...I can understand la gal..havent had anything since 4 plus in the morning..poor thing!

Alrights..gotta turn in soon..meeting sharifah in the morning ta do our 2nd assignment.
Nights peeps!


A walk to remember..2003- many more yrs...=)

14 august..A date ta remember.

The PERSONAL me.
this is a freaking wordy post..im warning u.

i never thought that friendship issues could affect me this much.And ta say the truth..i've backspaced many times fer the past few mins..cause well..this blog thingy aint private.and since I have decided ta make this blog public,i see no point in locking it at times..and unlocking it when things are 'settled'. I feel like this current situtaion tt we'r all in wont be fixed anytime soon. And it also seems tt I've dragged a fren into a matter.althou i know tt she dont mind a single bit.

cos of the things a fren said,i cudnt sleep well all night..my emotions ALWAYS control my senses..my perception.Like 'u' said..i always assume stuff.But u see..i cannot not assume stuff..its just me.If theres any camp or therapy tt cud make me stop being negative all the time..do lemme know..im sure ta sign myself up..but i've always been like tt..forever pessimistic over the smallest thing..I cant help it!But i also knw tt theres a saying like..'its all up to you.' yea..i knw..but im still doing it.

wats friendship?Im sure theres no exact meaning regrading tt question.answers varies ta diff ppl.i see it as one of my reason ta live.as always..its family,den friends..but over all these yrs..i've see u guys as family..not just friends.it takes quality time ta reach such a state in life..and of cos i wud cherish every lil effort u guys made/are making.and well..i just feel tt all this shouldnt have happened in the first place.I got so affected by this tt I cudnt concentrate on my work today.althou there were crowds..a part of me was just filled with far too much thoughts..'WHY?' 'kristine..ur useless!' yea..many more shit tt i didnt blog abt was all in my thick head..and also..as todays the last day of the COMEX IT show..competion was extremely intense..i cudnt take all the stress.I was the top sales yest..and today..i cudnt even close a proper bill.proper in a sense like..MP3..sold only 2 pathetic speakers.while many others were like too busy ta see me leaving the hectic scene.My supervisor was very disappointed with my decision..and revealed tt shes not gonna give me today's pay..and i was like..'oh fine.' how childish huh?i cud have just stayed and get my basic pay fer the day right?but i wasnt even thinking at all.only had tt 'leave this place..im goin crazy' thought in my mind..and during a split second.i thot im really mad.i shd just go ta a rehab or smtg..

i called my mum..but only heard waiting tones..wanted ta take cab home..but the queue was like fucking long..so i dragged my feet towards the train station.but i dont feel like being in the crowd at all.so i took train ta marina bay and alighted there.and tt was seriously the stupidest decision i've ever made in my entire life.when i walked out of the station..i felt like i seriously need a helmet..a construction helmet..i was at a construction district..not much cars at all..so..not ta even mention taxis. and ta add on..the scorching sun..bloody humid weather..and me..w/o any sun-shield was the saddest part.lol.so.i was walking aimlessly..walked pass several Bangladeshs ..and they were all lookin at me like freaks!althou it was only mid-day..i felt super scared..totally lost..unwanted..and dont know why..tears just started flowing..luckily..my makeup were all waterproof..otherwise..i wud realy look liek the woman version of Dracula..after spacing ard there..i walked back ta the train station..took train ta raffles place..alighted..and took a cab down ta my aunt's place.

the stupid driver took his fucking time ta drive me from raffles ta chua chu kang.i paid $18.60 fer the cab fare.like WTF?ok..i shall skip some lil detail..so..when i reached..my mum was waitin fer me under the block..i rushed towards her and broke down.mama hushed me..stoking my head and back..telling me shes there fer me and stuff..i really think im crazy.ta be so affected over this issue tt shdnt be brought up at all..

so shd i say alls fine now?guess so.i dont knw.love u mum.love u many.

it was really a wordy blog right?oh well..i've warned u.