ok im suppose to study but yet here i am blogging, surfing the net and stuff... i'm feeling guilty, yet baby is there to say it's ok. wth

and then ytd i went out wif baby for dinner and stuff.... ok mayb missing 9 days of school will not affect my understanding of the topics... mayb i can stil survive well...

at least im not as bad as last time where i can stil go out for shopping and do shit... but watever...

i tink i shld be more confident... i mean in sec i use to study on my own and do shit during lessons. i stil survive thru... i only study for the subj one day b4 the exam and im proud of myself. though bro bro is more lihai he took one day to study for his ten subjects... how i wish i can be him... havin such a great understanding of all his sub tat he dun even nid to memorise them at all. can i have his brain???

and tats the difference btw him and me.... where he has a bright future even though the economy is bad... able to provide for the family where mami and daddy can retire le, even though it's jus an internship.... where mine is a blurred one... no wonder so many girls took the initiative to ask him out and and like him. HAHAHs

economy is bad... will i be able to find a job aft i graudate? if i cant den shld i further my studies? perhaps i can consider australia =DDD agnes if i go, u go? HAHAHAHAHHA

i cant wait for 5 dec to come. baby will then pop and den yea we have so many plans ^ ^

and mayb i can exploit him, ask him help me wif my proj so my grp now has seven pple including my bro and him wahahahah.

ok wishful tinking to ask my bro do my proj he will kill me. mayb ask him edit =)) or ask him do my maths proj heh heh

and thanks baby... i went to calculate leh and hor i realised jus in less than 2 weeks u really spend alot. i tink all ur $$$ is spent on me =)) ok so i shall gif u a good xams gift ^ ^

but then i wld except a good one too =PPP

ps u noe wat i want ^ ^

guess wat?? i saw him today. it's been so many years later. i decided to face him. i didnt run away. i didnt turn ard. i didnt hide from him. i didnt pretend not to know him. i smiled. i looked straight into his eyes.

perhaps is bcos i noe, we two are really gg seperate ways. we will nv be able to turn back time anymore. we each have our own one. we each lead a happy life now. unlike the past.... where everything was blurred.......

i guess i shocked him. he was glad. he came over to say hi and chatted with me. like we used to. like we used to share those memories.

and then. it's time to move on with our lives. i was thinking wat went wrong. the other time. would we still be happy tgt if i didnt know anything? or maybe i had been braver and more understanding. he was responsible for so many things.

alrights jus some random thoughts.

ever since i met mrxu, he took me out of the trapped circle. he's the one who is able to do tat. aft soooo many years he's the 1st one. none is able to do tat. so i will cherish him even more.

no regrets this time round.

i miss him loads. jia you for outfield and your drills competition.

i hope i can catch up with all the lessons i missed.

LOOKING FORWARD TO HOLIDAYS =)) LOOKING FORWARD TO THE NEW RINGS~~~ ^ ^(I WANT THEM) LOOKING FORWARD TO REST, PLAY AND RELAXATION.

i seriously need them. i get tired easily.

hello liver recover soon =D






now now..... no more random thoughts..... =)) i should be a happy girl no matter what happens. mrxu will be sad if im unhappy =(( so alrights i'm outta there.

I guess some of my frends already knew about my condition. To those who dun, a synopsis for you guys =))

Ok I was hospitalized at ttsh for 3 fucking days which almost cost me my life. Reason was, 1stly I was allergic to some drug called the penicillin. An antibiotic, that my body was not able to appreciate the good essence of it. HAHA so I started to developed rash all over my body. Daddy drove me to the hos early tues morning and I was at A&E. the doc immediately gave me 4 jabs and took 2 big tubes of blood!!!!! 4 freaking strong jabs tat make me giddy immediately. I tot I was gg to die. After tat I was transferred to the ward. And my specialized doc came over to look at me. he was quite cute though AHHAHAHAHAH. Anyways he was asking sooo many qns to a point tat I was blurred by the amt of qns he asked. So they started so find out wat was going on wif me. in the afternoon, they came over again and told me I was most probably down with viral infection too. Alrights, viral infection also causes rashes on human bodies. So now the doctors are confused. They do not noe whether it was due to the drug allergy or the viral infection that causes the bad rash on my body. But in the end, they concluded tat it was both. But they gg to do a drug challenge on me when I recover.

Alright, luckily I’m fine now. I dun nid to change my blood, the drug did not travel to my heart causing fatal injuries to my poor little heart. If not I can say bye bye to the world le. HAHAs. Anyways my liver was swollen due to the infection. So now the worrying part is my liver. Hi liver, pls recover quickly ok. If not I everyday kip slping and slping like dun noe wat jus to make u recover leh. I nid to study one. My exams coming soon le. Nvm now I’m back at home, my immune system is down, feeling giddy everytime. And my blood pressure is sooooooo tmd low. It can go as low as 50 leh. Ok so on nxt tues I nid to take a new medicine called iron. LOL!!!!

Hopefully I’m recovering well. Nv would wan to go back to the hospital where every1 ard me is old woman crying out loud every night. It’s so irritating tat I wan to scream at them and strangle them to death. Even the nurses are soooo irritated with some of them.

I’m glad tat now I guess everything is over. Thanks for all care and concern from every1!!!! =)) sorry tat I wasn’t able to reply all cos I was basically resting and trying to slp every single moment. But I’m all well now except the rashes on my body tat make me a very ugly woman.

And thanks baby for rushing over to see me =)) and bringing me out to eat things tat I like. Ur honey is very sweet I dun like. Too sweet tat it makes me cough. Bird nest will be better =DD HAHAHAs.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ALL I EVER WANTED WAS TO RECOVER!!!!!

im sooooo sick of being sick.

wtf.

i wan to recover i wan to recover i wan to recover
i wan to recover i wan to recover i wan to recover
i wan to recover i wan to recover i wan to recover
i wan to recover i wan to recover i wan to recover
i wan to recover i wan to recover i wan to recover
i wan to recover i wan to recover i wan to recover
i wan to recover i wan to recover i wan to recover
i wan to recover i wan to recover i wan to recover
i wan to recover i wan to recover i wan to recover

i wan to eat thai food, i wan to eat KFC, i wan to eat fried stuff. im sick of porridge, bread, noodles, soup $#*%#&)^_#!^+#%&#

i wan to speak properly, think properly, sleep properly and EAT PROPERLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


i cried when baby went field camp... he said so much yet so little... friday here i come =)))

Finally baby called me and we had our last chat before he goes for field camp tmr. I guess I will miss him big big time. I cant wait to see him. I guessed I’m too dependent on him. Looking forward to sat =)) hope by then I can finish all my proj and then have free time.

Hope I recover soon. So I can do all my work properly. I need my brains to start working!!!!!

p.s. my poor man doesn’t have a letter. =(( cos of me….. Hope we both will go through this together and everything will be fine. I will wait for you ^ ^ no more quarrels no more nothing. cos everything will be fine now.

finally i'm almost done wif my imit........


major things happen today.... actually things are going on for a long time... i dun noe how to solve them...

but nvm we survived it...

i love cheese wedges =))))

i miss coffee club's mudpie........................







i miss my boy..... perhaps perhaps......

after a chat wif baby i realised i missed him so much. perhaps i was sick for the past one week tat i didnt have much energy to tink abt him. but since i'm recovering now, i sort of miss him. and when he called me jus now i feel like hugging him. den mayb i will recover instantly LOL!!!

it's hard to have a bf when i'm stil a student. it's even harder when tat particular bf is in ns.

T____T......

i wonder when i will get to see him again. he better pamper me well =)) cos i guess by the time he book out nxt week i will be alive and kicking HEH HEH

my poor heng heng he vomited =((( i hope he's ok. pls dun die on me now i will cry very badly and cannot do my work =((( my poor cutie.



i hope my boy is doing fine in there..........