真心的定义

我不擅长花言巧语，
也不擅长指桑骂槐，
更不擅长运用唯美的字眼
来表达愤怒与不满。

我很白话，
做人也是，
没办法戴着一张笑脸面对不喜欢或厌恶的人。

我要的很简单，
一颗你的真心。

说来简单，
做起来难，
也许大家对于真心有不同的定义吧，
那…许是我的定义是要公平吧。

作为你身边的人，
朋友或情人，
我都会在你需要人时，
不顾一切的在你身边，
相信我真的做得到，
如果我在乎你的话。

不过，
我有个小小的请求，
请求在我需要你的时候，
你也可以不顾一切的在我身边。

不，
并不需到不顾一切的地步，
只要鼓励支持与扶持，
只要在某些时候，
适当的把我放进你心里，
那样就足够了。

难道我这样的要求很过分吗？
可能对你来说是过分了些，
那就算了吧……
我把自由还给你。

Today...

OMG! I really need to write something to prevent this blog from getting even more dustier >
She says, "Just write anything you want lar, your feelings, emotions, etc etc." "But i seriously don't have any idea what to write!!" I said. "Ok, then just start with 'how is your day today?', that shouldn't be hard?" "Fine~" I finally give in and THA DA here i am~ Hehe.

Let's get it started!

Hmm... today..today..
Today 20/01/2011, i am not that happy.. emo again... Y emo? Don't know why but that girl inside me just like being emo so much. Want me to tell you the truth? I think my stars are starting to change... (Haha. People who has read The Prophecy by Alice Walker will definitely know this line.)

Days in IPG are not going on too well, i have problems with my coursework, not to mention that complicated human-human relationship and desperate living conditions. I just hope that things don't get worse, that's my tiny little wish for the year 2011 rabbit year. Plz plz plz.. fulfil my wish.. I beg u... T.T

I find it hard to have high EQ and to control all my difficult emotions sometimes. Coz things can never turn out as you wish. When unexpected hurtful incidents occur, then it is time for you to make yourself strong. Especially, when there are times which you cannot tell anybody about your hidden feelings. The only thing you can do is to swallow it and find a way out. For me, listening to songs and singing it out loud will do a great part. =)

Another thing about today, it's Thursday and i kinda like it and hate it at the same time. >< (Complicated me!) Since Friday i'll not be having any classes (though i still need to attend that super boring assembly), it represents holiday. When I am in Thursday, I feel as if i'm one step nearer to weekend, though i still have a full schedule of classes on that particular day.

So and so.. but the main reason for my emo mood today is that i started doubting about friendship. (Sounds real sad..) Actually, this is not a new issue any more. Just that i never did express my true feeling anywhere else, even to so-called 'friends'.. (Hopefully nobody sees this page! If not, i better hang myself XP) I mean friends here in IPG, not friends in all those school years. (I miss you guys a whole lotss!) Haha. Maybe it's just because that i am too sentitive, but it really hurts me sometimes.... Nah, forget about those unpleasant stuff... I wanna be happy~ ^^