The email

I got a message from a friend abroad: Did you get the email about Chris? I go check my emails and see one from an old colleague with Chris' name in the subject. It says she passed away on Friday - she was not feeling very well, got into comma and then passed away.

She was a lovely person, I met her 5 years ago when she came to work with us in London for sometime. She had something very positive. Sometimes I could hear her thinking. I think she did as well because she would often come to my office after the group meetings and comment on my thoughts (that I never express). She encouraged me to do things and express my opinion. She encouraged me to move to a job that would make me a happier person. When she went back home we would meet once or twice a year in business meetings in a different place in the world and would always talk when we will meet next.

Last time I saw her was about a month ago. Happy, smiling as always, we briefly talked about our lives and then went back to work. She looked happy, she had potential, she could be a star in her field. We said we would meet again next April. I will miss the happy familiar face in the meeting next year. I will be looking in the crowd for her face. I am sure she will be with us.

the search? the holy grail?

The search for straight men is quite similar to the search of the Holy Grail. Everybody is looking for them with no success, and some say they no longer exist.

I have nothing against gay people, on the contrary I appreciate them and can only imagine the kind of struggles (both internal and social) they are going through. What I am saying is that I am meeting more and more gay, and no straight men. Where did all the straight (single) men go?