...what do you want me to say?...

Back in October things started going south at work. My hours were cut, as assistant to the head of HR I saw some of the most underhanded and unethical hr practices (ones that would make someone in HR 101 ask "What were they thinking? That's not legal!"), and I had some really bad, gut feelings about the intentions of my boss regarding my employment. The Tuesday before Thanksgiving I lost my job. The official word was that they had automated the phone system and no longer needed a receptionist, but there were a lot of politics involved in the decision. Through some work trainings I developed very close friendships with people that my boss has very bad feelings towards...and I'm thinking that since I had been out to lunch with her when she sat and bashed them for over an hour at a time, it really unnerved her that I had suddenly become very close to these men (who could fire her if they would just grow a pair).
As a result of the stress I have subsequently developed an ulcer
There are days where I learn a lot from the predicament in which I find myself. I have had some beautiful experiences in the Temple. I have had a lot of time for self examination and made some important "discoveries". I have been able to start re-establishing some really important habits in my life. I've been able to serve and spend time with those that I love very dearly. This experience has truly not been all bad. My apartment is consistently clean--almost weird. Even just figuring out how to learn from what appears to be a bad situation has been something that I consider a blessing. I have made this work for my good...for the most part...
...but this morning I woke up feeling so discouraged and beaten...whether I've learned from this or not, the fact is that I am still unemployed. I'm the one who is supporting us right now and I don't have a job. Holy $#!+...I've sent out what seems like hundreds of resumes and coverletters in response to craigslist postings and I haven't heard back from one of them. Why not? I have a college degree, my husband helped me put together my resume and letter of intent--so they are flawless, I have experience in wide range of industries...and I can't get an interview to save my life. What do I do now?
I apologize to the three of you who read my blog on a somewhat regular basis...the only reason I feel like I can be so negative is that I know that not many people are gonna see this. I know this will all be fine, and everything will work out somehow--I would just feel so much better if I knew how. I'll be able to pull myself together in the next couple of hours...
How cool/fitting is the new background?!--I love it!