i kind of wish i was cca-less. or that i joined another cca. it's a bit late now though.
it's official. will be taking the esplanade rehearsal photos on sunday- hope my photography skills won't disappoint the-royal-highnesses. if you really think i suck just send another person instead of me. don't waste my time. got a free 40dollar ticket though teehee. :D so i guess i'll be seeing the performances. :)
i'm just waiting for something to happen. or someone?
what's on my mind
if ain't coming out
we're not going anywhere
so why can't I just tell you that I care
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
hahahahaha i got locked out of my own damned house on monday. (thanks for company) what fun. :( kids, please remember to bring your keys (and wallet) before you leave the house.
i forgot what happened yesterday.
...
oh i remembered already! :D we managed to complete part2 of the jigsaw puzzle. it's a marvellous accomplishment okay.
so today my and kh came to my house to complete part1 of the jigsaw puzzle. bought macs and bubble tea and pigged out on chocolate. i'm starting to regret already. :( we managed to complete quite a lot of the puzzle though. :D
these days i realised i'm quite nonchalant about most stuff. i just found out that if i can make myself not care about anything, or rather i'm probably too lazy to give a damn- yet i'm seem to be irritated easily. i'm tired of accusations and crap when other people just won't admit that they're wrong and turn the tables on me- everything's my fault in the end. you just don't understand.
take the tears put them on ice
because i swear i'd burn down the city
to show you the lights
i forgot what happened yesterday.
...
oh i remembered already! :D we managed to complete part2 of the jigsaw puzzle. it's a marvellous accomplishment okay.
so today my and kh came to my house to complete part1 of the jigsaw puzzle. bought macs and bubble tea and pigged out on chocolate. i'm starting to regret already. :( we managed to complete quite a lot of the puzzle though. :D
these days i realised i'm quite nonchalant about most stuff. i just found out that if i can make myself not care about anything, or rather i'm probably too lazy to give a damn- yet i'm seem to be irritated easily. i'm tired of accusations and crap when other people just won't admit that they're wrong and turn the tables on me- everything's my fault in the end. you just don't understand.
take the tears put them on ice
because i swear i'd burn down the city
to show you the lights
Sunday, July 23, 2006
mom woke me up at 10 today then family and i went out to marina square for lunch. bro skipped his taekwondo because of flu, so we could make it for lunch together. anyway it was kind of an early birthday lunch for him because parents weren't sure if they could make it on his birthday (august 2) itself. so we went to Lerk Thai Restaurant (i think it's on the second floor of marina) and the food is awesome! yay i loved it. they had excellent service too, the waiters are thai if i'm not wrong? they were amazingly polite and some of them are quite goodlooking tehehe. bro and i ate a lot (i didn't eat breakfast) but the bill totalled up to only 40 bucks in the end. quite worth it really. :D
went to suntec later to shop for bro's gift. mom wanted to get him an ipod (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) and bro say he'd give me! :D pa kept saying bro's dumb and that i'd psycho-ed him to do so, but i swear i'd didn't. hahaha. he said he wouldn't mind my old player. maybe i'd buy earphones and a wallet for him, we'll see. love you bro. we're probably shopping for an ipod next week, can't wait. :)
love my sundays, especially when it's with family.
off to watch miss universe now! of course it'd be better if it's manhunt or something lolol.
went to suntec later to shop for bro's gift. mom wanted to get him an ipod (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) and bro say he'd give me! :D pa kept saying bro's dumb and that i'd psycho-ed him to do so, but i swear i'd didn't. hahaha. he said he wouldn't mind my old player. maybe i'd buy earphones and a wallet for him, we'll see. love you bro. we're probably shopping for an ipod next week, can't wait. :)
love my sundays, especially when it's with family.
off to watch miss universe now! of course it'd be better if it's manhunt or something lolol.
Saturday, July 22, 2006
i thought the founder's day celebration was crap. the speech by the guest-of-honour was redundant and i slept whenever eunice didn't blow into my ear, lol. ncc popped the poppers during the finale and i saw er zi! :D :D
hung out at bugis after school. wanted to watch pirates but didn't in the end.
i want to be somewhere i can see the roads
a place where everytime you breathe a wish comes true
i want to be where love is real
and memories of distant days come back to life again
hung out at bugis after school. wanted to watch pirates but didn't in the end.
i want to be somewhere i can see the roads
a place where everytime you breathe a wish comes true
i want to be where love is real
and memories of distant days come back to life again
Friday, July 21, 2006
went out with faus and ys after school. as usual they bullied me to go bedok's longjohnsilver and we had a really good talk. talked about everything from relationships to religion, and there's these 2 women whom i suspect are kind of eavesdropping on our conversation, lol. oh, and i think i found out something i shouldn't have. you know i absolutely hate people who lie, don't you.
got really angry with my parents regarding piano lessons (haha, previous post) but it's all settled now. anyway i'll be stopping piano after my grade 8 theory exam regardless whether i pass or fail. i'll try to work hard because of my teacher, he's being really nice and helped me to talk to my mom about my wanting to quit piano. :)
founder's day celebration tomorrow. hope the concert's interesting but i'm not looking forward to the speechs. hope i'm not on photo duty so that i can watch properly, lol. :D
got free esplanade tickets today LOL. just because tabs and i are down for photo duty. :p
got really angry with my parents regarding piano lessons (haha, previous post) but it's all settled now. anyway i'll be stopping piano after my grade 8 theory exam regardless whether i pass or fail. i'll try to work hard because of my teacher, he's being really nice and helped me to talk to my mom about my wanting to quit piano. :)
founder's day celebration tomorrow. hope the concert's interesting but i'm not looking forward to the speechs. hope i'm not on photo duty so that i can watch properly, lol. :D
got free esplanade tickets today LOL. just because tabs and i are down for photo duty. :p
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Monday, July 17, 2006
Kawaita kokoro de kakenukeru
Gomen ne nani mo dekinakute
Itami wo wakachiau koto sae
Anata wa yurushitekurenai
Muku ni ikiru tame furimukazu
Senaka mukete satteshimau
on the lonely rail
Watashi tsuiteiku yo
Donna tsurai sekai no yami no naka de sae
Kitto anata wa kagayaite
Koeru mirai no hate
Yowasa yue ni tamashii kowasarenu you ni
my way kasanaru yo
Ima futari ni God bless...
Todokete atsuku naru omoi wa
Genjitsu tokashite samayou
Aitai kimochi ni riyuu wa nai
Anata e afuredasu lovin' you
Semete utsukushii yume dake wo
Egakinagara oikakeyou
for your lonely heart
Yamete uso wa anata rashikunai yo
Me wo mite kore kara no koto wo hanasou
Watashi kakugoshiteru
Kurai mirai datte
Tsuyoku natte unemi kaerareru kamo ne
my wish kanaetai no ni
Subete wa God knows...
Anata ga ite watashi ga ite
Hoka no hito wa kieteshimatta
Awai yume no utsukushisa wo egakinagara
Kizuato nazoru
Dakara watashi tsuiteiku yo
Donna tsurai sekai no yami no naka de sae
Kitto anata wa kagayaite
Koeru mirai no hate
Yowasa yue ni tamashii kowasarenu you ni
my way kasanaru yo
Ima futari ni God bless...
I dash with a parched heart
Sorry, I couldn't do anything
You won't even let me
Share pain together with you
To live purely, I turn my back
Without looking back and leave
on the lonely rail
I'll follow
No matter how bitter, even within the darkness of the world
Surely, you're shining
The surpassing edge of the future
So that my soul won't be destroyed due to my weaknesses
my ways will overlap
Now, God bless us two...
Thoughts that grow hot when delivered
Melt into reality and wander
There's no reason to feeling like seeing you
It overflows to you, lovin' you
At the very least, while I only draw
A beautiful dream, I'll chase you
for your lonely heart
Stop it, telling lies isn't like you
Look at my eyes and let's talk about things from now on
I'm ready
Even in a dark future
I'll become strong and my destiny just might be changeable
Even though I want to fulfill my wish
God knows everything...
You exist, I exist
And other people disappeared
While I draw the beauty of a faint dream
I trace my scars
So I'll follow
No matter how bitter, even within the darkness of the world
Surely, you're shining
The surpassing edge of the future
So that my soul won't be destroyed due to my weaknesses
my ways will overlap
Now, God bless us two...
God Knows... - Aya Hirano
Gomen ne nani mo dekinakute
Itami wo wakachiau koto sae
Anata wa yurushitekurenai
Muku ni ikiru tame furimukazu
Senaka mukete satteshimau
on the lonely rail
Watashi tsuiteiku yo
Donna tsurai sekai no yami no naka de sae
Kitto anata wa kagayaite
Koeru mirai no hate
Yowasa yue ni tamashii kowasarenu you ni
my way kasanaru yo
Ima futari ni God bless...
Todokete atsuku naru omoi wa
Genjitsu tokashite samayou
Aitai kimochi ni riyuu wa nai
Anata e afuredasu lovin' you
Semete utsukushii yume dake wo
Egakinagara oikakeyou
for your lonely heart
Yamete uso wa anata rashikunai yo
Me wo mite kore kara no koto wo hanasou
Watashi kakugoshiteru
Kurai mirai datte
Tsuyoku natte unemi kaerareru kamo ne
my wish kanaetai no ni
Subete wa God knows...
Anata ga ite watashi ga ite
Hoka no hito wa kieteshimatta
Awai yume no utsukushisa wo egakinagara
Kizuato nazoru
Dakara watashi tsuiteiku yo
Donna tsurai sekai no yami no naka de sae
Kitto anata wa kagayaite
Koeru mirai no hate
Yowasa yue ni tamashii kowasarenu you ni
my way kasanaru yo
Ima futari ni God bless...
I dash with a parched heart
Sorry, I couldn't do anything
You won't even let me
Share pain together with you
To live purely, I turn my back
Without looking back and leave
on the lonely rail
I'll follow
No matter how bitter, even within the darkness of the world
Surely, you're shining
The surpassing edge of the future
So that my soul won't be destroyed due to my weaknesses
my ways will overlap
Now, God bless us two...
Thoughts that grow hot when delivered
Melt into reality and wander
There's no reason to feeling like seeing you
It overflows to you, lovin' you
At the very least, while I only draw
A beautiful dream, I'll chase you
for your lonely heart
Stop it, telling lies isn't like you
Look at my eyes and let's talk about things from now on
I'm ready
Even in a dark future
I'll become strong and my destiny just might be changeable
Even though I want to fulfill my wish
God knows everything...
You exist, I exist
And other people disappeared
While I draw the beauty of a faint dream
I trace my scars
So I'll follow
No matter how bitter, even within the darkness of the world
Surely, you're shining
The surpassing edge of the future
So that my soul won't be destroyed due to my weaknesses
my ways will overlap
Now, God bless us two...
God Knows... - Aya Hirano
Sunday, July 16, 2006
mom and pa just asked me if i'm free during september holidays. if bro and i are free, we're probably going to make a trip back to malaysia to visit grandparents. i wonder how are they, no one even bothers to update me anymore. when i ask, they'd give me answers like 'okay' and 'still the same'. if i'm not wrong, the situation there is quite complicated- there are some conflicts between my aunt and uncle besides my grandfather's condition. one of them is even moving away. think that everything would be kind of awkward if we really go back. oh well, we'll see.
hearing some japanese music these days. er zi sent me 2 songs which he deemed the best- and i like them. he even included the english translations, how thoughtful. :)
hope i won't fail my tests tomorrow. :(
i don't why but i feel so lethargic right now. everything's like a drag to me- i cringe at the thought of school, i even cancelled my second piano lesson last friday. i just want to go somewhere and not do anything that requires my brain to work.
hearing some japanese music these days. er zi sent me 2 songs which he deemed the best- and i like them. he even included the english translations, how thoughtful. :)
hope i won't fail my tests tomorrow. :(
i don't why but i feel so lethargic right now. everything's like a drag to me- i cringe at the thought of school, i even cancelled my second piano lesson last friday. i just want to go somewhere and not do anything that requires my brain to work.
i'm so disappointed.
it's like the more we talk about it, the more i ponder upon it- the more obvious it becomes. the way you behave, your attitude, your actions. why didn't i notice it before?
are you really like this in the first place, or did you surreptiously change? i can't believe i didn't see this before, or was it because i chose to overlook it?
despite all this, i still consider you as my friend.
can you be friends with people you dislike?
so many questions, no answers at all.
i don't have the guts to say this to your face. i admit i'm a hypocrite, and probably always will, but don't forget. you're probably a hypocrite too. we all are.
on the other hand, think about it. if everyone spoke their mind, everything would change. in the end, everyone and everything is just a pretense. nothing's real anymore.
or maybe i'd just have shut up in the first place.
it's like the more we talk about it, the more i ponder upon it- the more obvious it becomes. the way you behave, your attitude, your actions. why didn't i notice it before?
are you really like this in the first place, or did you surreptiously change? i can't believe i didn't see this before, or was it because i chose to overlook it?
despite all this, i still consider you as my friend.
can you be friends with people you dislike?
so many questions, no answers at all.
i don't have the guts to say this to your face. i admit i'm a hypocrite, and probably always will, but don't forget. you're probably a hypocrite too. we all are.
on the other hand, think about it. if everyone spoke their mind, everything would change. in the end, everyone and everything is just a pretense. nothing's real anymore.
or maybe i'd just have shut up in the first place.
Saturday, July 15, 2006
bobo passed this. f3 bobo!
Your 10 favourites
Favourite Colours: erm. anything that strikes my fancy
Favourite Food: ice cream
Favourite Songs: good music and lyrics
Favourite Movies: lots! can't really recall now
Favourite Sports: no chance to do much sports
Favourite Day of the Week: sunday
Favourite Ice Cream Flavour: LOTS. :D
Favourite Countries: not much chance to travel either
Favourite Things: stuff that has meaning to me
Your 9 currents
Current Mood: very tired
Current Clothes: red top blue shorts
Current Desktop: bleach
Current Toe Nail colour: blue
Current Time: 11.41pm
Current Annoyance: 4 tests next week
Current Thoughts: sleep
Current Song: li jia bu yuan
Current "Chatter": several people
Our 8 Firsts
First Best Friend: pig
First Crush: forgot lol. i think it's some good looking guy on tv
First Movie: parent trap
First Piercing: primary school
First Lie: forgot
First Music: probably nursery rhymes
First Car: toy car can?
First Cry: when i was born
Your 7 lasts
Last Cigarette: never started
Last Drink: ribena
Last Car Ride: just now when we're on the way home from phototaking
Last Crush: lampard :D
Last Movie seen: runaway vacation. i wanna watch pirates2!
Last Phone Call: just now with bro
Last CD Played: last month? lol
Your 6 Have you evers
Have you ever dated one of your bestfriends: yes :D
Have you ever broken the laws: yes
Have you ever been arrested: nope
Have you ever been on TV: yes
Have you ever kiss some one that you don't know: no lmao
5 things that you are wearing: large grey shirt, pink shorts, hair band, glasses, underwear
4 things you did today: studied physics, talked on the phone, texted, laughed
3 things you hear right now: speakers, bro, tudi
2 things you can't live without: my heart, my brain
5 peeps to do this quiz: whoever, who, wants, to, do
:D
happy birthday mx!
Your 10 favourites
Favourite Colours: erm. anything that strikes my fancy
Favourite Food: ice cream
Favourite Songs: good music and lyrics
Favourite Movies: lots! can't really recall now
Favourite Sports: no chance to do much sports
Favourite Day of the Week: sunday
Favourite Ice Cream Flavour: LOTS. :D
Favourite Countries: not much chance to travel either
Favourite Things: stuff that has meaning to me
Your 9 currents
Current Mood: very tired
Current Clothes: red top blue shorts
Current Desktop: bleach
Current Toe Nail colour: blue
Current Time: 11.41pm
Current Annoyance: 4 tests next week
Current Thoughts: sleep
Current Song: li jia bu yuan
Current "Chatter": several people
Our 8 Firsts
First Best Friend: pig
First Crush: forgot lol. i think it's some good looking guy on tv
First Movie: parent trap
First Piercing: primary school
First Lie: forgot
First Music: probably nursery rhymes
First Car: toy car can?
First Cry: when i was born
Your 7 lasts
Last Cigarette: never started
Last Drink: ribena
Last Car Ride: just now when we're on the way home from phototaking
Last Crush: lampard :D
Last Movie seen: runaway vacation. i wanna watch pirates2!
Last Phone Call: just now with bro
Last CD Played: last month? lol
Your 6 Have you evers
Have you ever dated one of your bestfriends: yes :D
Have you ever broken the laws: yes
Have you ever been arrested: nope
Have you ever been on TV: yes
Have you ever kiss some one that you don't know: no lmao
5 things that you are wearing: large grey shirt, pink shorts, hair band, glasses, underwear
4 things you did today: studied physics, talked on the phone, texted, laughed
3 things you hear right now: speakers, bro, tudi
2 things you can't live without: my heart, my brain
5 peeps to do this quiz: whoever, who, wants, to, do
:D
happy birthday mx!
Thursday, July 13, 2006
hello there. i'm lazy. i also feel like sleeping at 9 every night because, well, i'm lazy.
anyway! rejoice now, because i'm back. :D hahahahaha.
firstly, italy sucks. secondly, zidane rocks. his headbutt is so cool! hope that italian loses his stomach functions or something. mwhahhah.
hmm i kind of forgot which day i had the o level orals. oh, i remember now. it was monday. as if orals weren't bad enough, i had this ominous feeling that i'd failed literature. tudi came before orals then pig her and i went to meet SY!!!! my lovely little mei. sy brought PRESENTS!!! for pig and i. :D yay! thanks and love to sy and marcus for the presents. :D :D :D :D
i'm so tired (or is it lazy?) now. just feel like sleeping and not doing anything.
making ic tomorrow with pig. guess we get to skip cca.
anyway! rejoice now, because i'm back. :D hahahahaha.
firstly, italy sucks. secondly, zidane rocks. his headbutt is so cool! hope that italian loses his stomach functions or something. mwhahhah.
hmm i kind of forgot which day i had the o level orals. oh, i remember now. it was monday. as if orals weren't bad enough, i had this ominous feeling that i'd failed literature. tudi came before orals then pig her and i went to meet SY!!!! my lovely little mei. sy brought PRESENTS!!! for pig and i. :D yay! thanks and love to sy and marcus for the presents. :D :D :D :D
i'm so tired (or is it lazy?) now. just feel like sleeping and not doing anything.
making ic tomorrow with pig. guess we get to skip cca.
Sunday, July 09, 2006
i'm officially 15 years old now. time flies.
thanks to everyone who bothered to send a text, write a testimonial, left a tag or just wished me happy birthday on msn. some even did all 4! i love you all! :) it really means a lot to me that you'd remembered, or even bothered to.
spent my day with my family, it's just how i wanted it. crapped a lot with my parents and brother. thanks for the cash, pa. :p
happy birthday pig.
i love you all- lots of thanks for making me feel loved.
thanks to everyone who bothered to send a text, write a testimonial, left a tag or just wished me happy birthday on msn. some even did all 4! i love you all! :) it really means a lot to me that you'd remembered, or even bothered to.
spent my day with my family, it's just how i wanted it. crapped a lot with my parents and brother. thanks for the cash, pa. :p
happy birthday pig.
i love you all- lots of thanks for making me feel loved.
Thursday, July 06, 2006
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Monday, July 03, 2006
brazil is out. yay! mwhahhahah, i knew it! should have bet with everyone. actually i kind of fell asleep on the sofa, but luckily i woke up in time to see henry's goal! :D oh, and alonso didn't win the grand prix. :( tudi you lucky ass, or else you'd have to swear off f1.
i still need a haircut!
the world is so confusing. why can't everything be just black and white instead of all the greys in between?
i still need a haircut!
the world is so confusing. why can't everything be just black and white instead of all the greys in between?
Sunday, July 02, 2006
what's up with referees? horribly biased ones too. i swear the referees for the argentina and england matches are bribed! or biased! i don't care which, but they suck! :@
actually i kind of supported portugal at the starting of the match, but when the dumb referee gave rooney the red card (i suspect he has a fetish for cristiano ronaldo!)- i decided to support england, lmao. portugal can't even score against a 10men england.
ENGLAND vs PORTUGAL penalty shootout
3-1 to portugal.
yay it's july! hahaha i like july, :D because my birthday's on the 8th day.
actually i kind of supported portugal at the starting of the match, but when the dumb referee gave rooney the red card (i suspect he has a fetish for cristiano ronaldo!)- i decided to support england, lmao. portugal can't even score against a 10men england.
ENGLAND vs PORTUGAL penalty shootout
3-1 to portugal.
yay it's july! hahaha i like july, :D because my birthday's on the 8th day.
Saturday, July 01, 2006
i got tricked by cr yesterday. cannot say what the trick is or else i cannot trick other people. :D
sports day today. it was a total waste of my time, we went there just to take pictures of the event. i got to use the dslr though (it costs like US1000 and the school has 3 of those). got bullied by the seniors to take pictures under the hot sun while they play cards under the shade. another reason why i hate my cca. that's why i'm exceptionally happy with handover (as expected i didn't get any post :D) because i don't need to see them anymore. good riddance secondary 4's, it was horrible while it lasted. anyway congrats to shi ying who's the new president of photography society! :D
oh and the design for the new cca tee is so pretty! i like it a lot, if we get to have a tee with that design i'll wear it. wanted it to be purple but everyone says it's gay. guess it'd be red or orange now, lol. :X
went to kfc after that with tabs, pig, stephie, bing and gr to eat and lol, the whole kfc was full of ncc people. there were gb and band people too. chatted a lot about tnps stuffs and saw a lot of tnps people too. it's amazing how some people change so much. :X
i'm afraid to get a haircut. yes i'm not kidding.
now i'm feeling bitchy and pms-y because of that exposure under the bloody sun. my head's killing me but i'm not giving up on argentina. if it weren't for that noob goalkeeper, they would have won the match long ago. i swear, the referee is biased! :@
i think i'd be bitchier if argentina loses. off to watch extra time! :) watch the world cup everyone, if you don't have cable- go to your nearest macs.
sports day today. it was a total waste of my time, we went there just to take pictures of the event. i got to use the dslr though (it costs like US1000 and the school has 3 of those). got bullied by the seniors to take pictures under the hot sun while they play cards under the shade. another reason why i hate my cca. that's why i'm exceptionally happy with handover (as expected i didn't get any post :D) because i don't need to see them anymore. good riddance secondary 4's, it was horrible while it lasted. anyway congrats to shi ying who's the new president of photography society! :D
oh and the design for the new cca tee is so pretty! i like it a lot, if we get to have a tee with that design i'll wear it. wanted it to be purple but everyone says it's gay. guess it'd be red or orange now, lol. :X
went to kfc after that with tabs, pig, stephie, bing and gr to eat and lol, the whole kfc was full of ncc people. there were gb and band people too. chatted a lot about tnps stuffs and saw a lot of tnps people too. it's amazing how some people change so much. :X
i'm afraid to get a haircut. yes i'm not kidding.
now i'm feeling bitchy and pms-y because of that exposure under the bloody sun. my head's killing me but i'm not giving up on argentina. if it weren't for that noob goalkeeper, they would have won the match long ago. i swear, the referee is biased! :@
i think i'd be bitchier if argentina loses. off to watch extra time! :) watch the world cup everyone, if you don't have cable- go to your nearest macs.
