relaxed

I think today's paper must have been the easiest one so far. Pity that I probably wouldn't get an A anyway. Screwed up the MCQ test a couple of weeks back. Ah well. No matter. One more paper to go!

I've spent the whole afternoon WOWing. Heh. I'll spend tmr and monday studying for Tues last paper. Fortunately it's another open book exam. *smirks*

It's been a rather peaceful week actually, not counting exam stress of course. It's like... well, I'm contented with how things are. Having lunch with some of my friends today after the paper suddenly struck me as blissful somehow.

Contentment. Peaceful. Blessed.

5 days left

5 days left to freedom. Yesterday's paper was quite a killer for a lot of my friends. One spotted the wrong question, another didn't really do any particular answer scheme. Well, I can only thank God that my spotted questions were pretty close to the mark, though I had to do a lot of flipping through my 15 pages of answers. Only the second question was good for me, though my friends feel otehrwise. It was on a topic she didn't really cover, so a lot of people didn't focused much on it I suppose. I just did last year's exam questions, which quite surprisingly (or perhaps not so) repeated one of its questions this year. Fortunate for me. :)

Enough of exams. I've been having really weird dreams lately. Yesterday's afternoon nap was regarding WOW. I was kinda like a player INSIDE. Lol. And I was a rogue. Heh. Last night I had a dream which consisted of me always running away from someone. It's a bit like those action movies you see on TV, where someone wants to come after you to get something from you. In this dream there are parts of it where I've some sort of power I think. Can't really recall now. Come to think of it, the lady chasing after me reminded me of the one in Terminator 3. LOL.

I'm at home now. Going back to Gu Ma's later. Time for some serious mugging for my morning paper tomorrow :)

one more week

Exam weeks sure seem to move really slowly. It's pure agony trying to do up a decent answer scheme for my open book exam. I only pray that it's enough. Will just do the best I can, and pray for guidance and strength in mind. :)

Studied with Alvin, Boon and Justin yesterday. Can't honestly say it was very productive but I suppose I did do up a few more pages of answers. Will try to finish by today so I can start studying for my next paper. Fortunately for me that module is pretty easy to understand; I will just be jotting the key terms down. Now that always seems to kill me, considering I have pathetic memory for important terms. I get the gist, but it's not enough, is it? Lol. Of coz not.

May resume learning French next year. Will wait for Big Alvin to learn french e1 first. If he doesn't, well, I suppose I could continue with Weiping and Justin if they decide to continue as well.

I received some delightful news yesterday. It made me a little more motivated to study harder but well, I sense a tinge of fear as well. Maybe more of a pressure to perform. Danny's right. Exams always ruin the fun of learning, and I believe they rely more on one's memory as well. But I suppose open-book examinations counter that. Still... placing so much emphasis on a single paper is never a good idea. Sometimes it boils down to an issue of luck as well.

Ok back to work. I have to 'tahan' just 6 days more!

i'm not a guy!

Haha that angsty title is becoz I've been wondering why my male friends seem to think I'm a guy. Well most of them anyway. Lol. Especially my WOW friends. Hahaha. Even my shakineh friends actually. Tsk tsk I'm too tomboyish.

Yesterday there was a little incident. Flattering but undoubtedly weird. Ah well.

just one of those days

1 down, 3 to go. Guess it went pretty ok, but 'assurances' from the prof didn't help in the least. Ah well, best that I just forget about it.

Service today kinda resembled a lecture given by a prof, given that the speaker today was the director of Trinity college. Hmm. But it was all good, there's always something to learn. One point that stood out was about faith. I guess it's a reminder that regardless of anything else, my faith in God is the one thing that should never weaver.

I forget that sometimes. Many times. :S


Going for book shopping later. I love books. Lets me live out my dreams in a way that I can't see happening in reality. The thing is... you always know the ending in the end. Sometimes even guess it before the end.

a weird dream

Actually I've got a lot to blog regarding xintian's bday... but since I don't have the pictures on my laptop, I'll save it for when I get back home. (Yes, I'm at Varsity studying again. Heh.)

Anyway I'm blogging about this totally weird dream I had again last night. I can't recall all of it but I remember there's one part where this guy wanted to shoot me. I was with JJ at that time. Apparently he wanted something from JJ and when JJ didn't want to give it up or didn't have it (I can't remember), that guy pointed a gun at me. Damn scary la. It's one of those dreams when you forget you are in a dream.

Kinda forgot how it happened but basically we talked to the guy till he put the gun down. He was actually having some issues or something, and he looked mightily distressed. My heart went out to him and I pulled him in for a hug! Oh my GOSH. I think I've a sadistic streak or something. I hugged the guy who wanted to kill me moments before. Probably there was something about his pained expression. It seemed obvious to me he could use a hug, and he did return it. So yea, I've a thing for guys with issues. LOL.

Psychoanalysing myself. I have issues I think.

Wind and Window Flower

Lovers, forget your love,
And list to the love of these
She a window flower,
And he a winter breeze.

When the frosty window veil
Was melted down at noon,
And the caged yellow bird
Hung over her in tune

He marked her through the pane
He could not help but mark,
And only passed her by,
To come again at dark

He was a winter wind,
concerned with ice and snow
Dead weeks and unmated birds,
And little of love could know.

But he signed upon the sill,
He gave the sash a shake
As witness all within,
Who lay that night awake.

Perchance her half prevailed
To win her for the flight
From the firelit looking-glass
And warm stove-window light.

But the flower leaned aside
And thought of naught to say
And morning found the breeze
A hundred miles away...



A very sad poem. But I suppose it is rather apt in many of our would-be relationships.

simple pleasures

I was late for work today. Oops. Kinda forgot about it. Not really actually. It's just that I was a little irritated at the noise my bro was making while preparing to go to camp, so I just covered my head with my blanket and continued sleeping. Then my alarm rang at 7... and I happily shut it up. Oops. I woke up at 9am when I received a message from little Alvin. LOL. Ah well. 5 bucks less pay?

Met up with Big Alvin for lunch. Turned out to be an impromtu trip to borders, complete with some marks & spencers, coffee, a long walk and dinner. I bought 4 books today! Thanks to Alvin's 40% discount, I had them at 40 bucks instead of 65. Heh. I miss buying books. Though I guess I need to clear up for shelf space for them. Too much redundant things lying around. Will get around to it after exams. :)



Alvin's a better photographer than I am. Lol. Or maybe it's the camera :x

I'm kinda torn between wowing and reading for leisure now. Those books I got are quite tempting. In any case, I'll be staying at my aunt's a lot these couple of weeks. I suppose I'll bring those books along. Haha cut down on wow!

I've to be up at 8am and I'm still blogging. Lol. Time to slp.

just to update

I haven't blogged in almost a week! Guessed I've been too lazy to do anything much? I did do some studying here and there but that's about it.

Stayed in my aunt's place from monday night to wed night. I really love the place. It gives me such a quiet sense of tranquility somehow, though I guess I also wanna be there to accompany my aunt and Gina. Gotta really keep praying for my aunt. Sigh.

I've been sleeping really early every night. Relatively anyway. At my aunt's, I'll slp by around 11 to 1130 max, sometimes even 10 plus. Now that I'm back home, if not for the fact that I'm wowing, I'll probably sleep at 10 plus too. I was already quite grouchy wowing plus 11pm as it is. LOL.

I watched the new James Bond movie with my dad last night, coz NATAS gave him tickets. Apparently he could have gotten more, but I didn't know that till it was too late so too bad for the rest of you :P I think Daniel Craig is really good looking. I never liked the previous one - Pierce Brosnan (if that's how you spell his name)... I thought he was too pretty. Daniel Craig exudes more of the suave demeanour. *swoons* I liked him since he acted in The Golden Compass actually :) There was one scene in the new movie that I especially liked. Maybe you can guess after watching it, if you know me well enough.

Back to the books.

3rd bday surprise from bestie?

Haha! That sneaky Xintian...I thought it was just a dinner thing to get to know Donald better and stuff. But nooooooo, it was bday surprise no. 3! Lol. Bestie all right. We had dinner at Buckeroo... awesome place.. ambience was fantastic. Those cowboy sort, though it was a little bit pricey. But I gotta admit it would be all worthed it. Donald gave a treat today. I feel sooo blessed :D

Eh xintian... I give my approval stamp liao. Hope things work out for the best >.<

Here are the pics we took at the place. Look at how RAW my steak is. AWESOME. Oh, and if some of my pics look at though I got swollen lips... well let's just say the bufflo wings were a little excited. LOL.

The place is freaking ulu... but ah well, good things are worth going the distance for ;)