Sometimes I wish there wasn't so many things that needed me or my attention!
I would like to give my baby all my attention and just play with her and hang out with friends and also give myself a little TLC...but there is always so much to be done! I've been trying to think lately what I can eliminate from my work load...nothing! Unless of course I decide to give up showering, and doing my hair and makeup, which I am just not ready to do quite yet. Maybe when I have 2 or more kids I will be forced to be a frumpy housewife (no offense to anyone).
Caroline takes the majority of my time which seems to be spent on the couch while she is attached to my boobs...or on the changing table! I feel like a cow sometimes, but I'm happy she is getting the best food. When she is sleeping or otherwise happy there is always something that needs to be cleaned up (I seem to have OCD because I just can't take it when the house is messy and things are out of place).
Then, it seems like we always need food or something from the grocery store. This sometimes takes more trips then usual because my sweet baby starts crying in the middle of the store. The other day she started crying when I was in the checkout line, and I just left. I couldn't take all the people staring at me, probably thinking "why can't she keep her baby quiet", and the old lady behind me who decided it was her business to tell me my baby was hungry...which she wasn't!
Week after week I lug 3 large baskets of laundry to the laundry mat...now with baby in tow...do you know how hard that is? Luckily today she was an angel and slept the whole time. I need a house with a washer and dryer!
On top of this there is church, which I hate to put on the back burner, but it seems like I have to. I'm in the primary presidency and I'm sure they could use my help, but I really don't know how much help I can be. Tom works on Sunday a lot (he works A LOT in general)...how am I going to help in primary with a baby? I mean, what if she needs to eat right in the middle of my lesson?
And despite there being so much to do...it's so lonely doing it alone with no adult to talk to. If I was rich I would hire a nanny to be my friend and do my shopping, cleaning, and laundry.
Next there is my brain...I seem to have lost it. I can't remember anything! If you find it, please let me know!
Maybe I will get the hang of this motherhood thing soon...let's hope. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely LOVE being a mother and being with my baby...I just wish sometimes that there wasn't so much to do!
Thanks for reading...any ideas from you mothers out there? Everyone keeps telling me when Caroline is 3 months old it will get easier...hmm...let's hope so...but if not, she is sooo cute, and that's enough to make me smile! : )
