Tuesday, March 30, 2010
The Problem with Easter Egg Hunts
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Monday, March 29, 2010
8-Month Bump


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Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Wednesday Wreck
From Russia With Love
All of my journal entries for the next few months began "I really should have been writing more..." It was a busy time. And a time for the drama to really begin. Remember my missionary?
Well, he hadn't written me in months, so putting him out of my heart while Blake filled it was getting easier and easier. Then early in the month of February I got an email from his older brother telling me that Nathan wasn't writing me because he had been deported out of Russia because the government suspected him and three other American missionaries of illegal practices. That was ridiculous, of course, but I hear the Russians can be fairly suspicious. His family didn't know where he was but his mission president said he was okay.
"A week before that I had sent Nathan a Dear John. I had a hard time putting it in the mailbox but finally one day the Spirit was pretty firm in telling me that I had to put it in the mailbox that day."
I remember the pain of writing that letter and then the days of deliberating when and if I could actually send it. I was definitely in love with Blake, but I still loved Nathan and didn't want to hurt him, or distract him from his mission.
Well, the day after I finally mailed it, I got a letter from him. We had set up all these rules before he left about not being lovey or romantic in our letters to each other, so that he could remain focused on sharing the gospel of Jesus Christ
and not on me. But apparently, getting close to the ti
me he would be coming home had changed his mind about all of that and he was fairly mushy.
"All of the sudden, when I saw how much he loved me and was planning on "us", I flipped out and began doubting everything. So, I called Mom and she brought up the idea that this was probably why the Spirit had been so forceful in directing me to send that letter the day before because if I'd gotten Nathan's letter first I wouldn't have sent it for a couple weeks and then it probably wouldn't have reached him before he gets home. But I still was bothered by the feelings his letter had caused and Blake could tell something was wrong. When I finally told him, he was pretty sad because he thought I was unsure about him and everything. But by the end of our conversation I had both he and I convinced that I knew he was the right one. It's just such a big decision. It's hard to just rely on the Spirit sometimes."
I still remember that phone call with my mom. I was pretty torn up about everything and feeling quite lost. She later told me that conversation was difficult for her because she was very much a fan of Nathan and had yet to even speak with Blake, let alone meet him. But she did a great job of staying objective and helping me to follow the Spirit.
Anyway, it was shortly after this that I learned he had been deported. I emailed his brother back to see if he knew whether or not Nathan was still getting mail that had been sent to Russia. His brother emailed back with some emails forwarded from Nathan explaining the whole story, his new address in Estonia, and an email address where I could email him, but he couldn't email back. He hadn't been allowed to receive email from anyone but his family in Russia, so this was new.
Looking back, I don't know if it was the wisest decision, but at the time, the logical thing to me was to act like things were normal until he received the "Dear John". I didn't want him to have to hear that from me twice. So, I sent him a couple emails, trying to be friendly, but not like a girlfriend. And of course, he couldn't email me back, so I had no idea what was going on his side of the world, as far as we were concerned. I did continue receiving forwards of his emails to his family from his brother and it was nice to reconnect with him in this small way. And I began remembering all the things about him that made me love him.
But--I was still falling in love with Blake and wanted things to keep moving the direction they were headed. That felt like what was supposed to happen.

And since I didn't really fill Blake in on all of this until after the fact, he doesn't have anything to say for this part.
But don't worry! While searching for fun things to share in our next post, I came across a love letter Blake wrote for me about this time. He even printed it on paper with cute ClipArt. I tried to scan it in, but apparently I don't know how to use that yet.
Anyway, here is his love letter:
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Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Spring Break Madness!
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Monday, March 22, 2010
Not Necessarily Necessary
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Saturday, March 20, 2010
Request Granted
So, between the two blogs I've had requests for a few recipes lately. Here they are. But I'm warning, two of them might be frustrating because they are kind of vague in the measurement area. They were my lazy adaptations of other recipes.
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Thursday, March 18, 2010
When Birthdays and Leprechauns Collide
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Tuesday, March 16, 2010
If I Could Read The Mind of A 3-Year Old


Some days it seems like he is bound and determine to hurt and/or destroy everything and everyone he comes in contact with.
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Monday, March 15, 2010
Variety Is the Spice of Life
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