New Things Happening

Recently I had started to wonder if maybe I have had postpartum (now that Kate is almost two). Not bad enough that I have wanted to hurt myself, or Kate, and not bad enough that I couldn't function. However it is bad enough that there are days, I can't handle her, I can't. After talking to a friend of mine, I found out she had a very mild form of it. She recommended a vitamin supplement called Sam-e. I started taking it Thursday it says on the box that it can take 7 to 14 days to see a difference. After 2 days I can see a small difference. I will have to see what I feel like after 14 days.

Another thing I am going start trying to help my mood. I decided to start running. I hate running, for a slightly different reason than most would think. I hate it because my eyes bounce, which ends up making me little motion sick. After talking to someone else who recently started running, they told me that I was probably running wrong. They said I was probably landing on my feet wrong. So nice bright and early tomorrow, I am going to go to a running store, and get fitted for running shoes. I also talked to my aunt (through marriage) who has been running for as long as I have known her (for about 12 years). She suggested an article from Runners World called Running 101. The article gives a great walk/run schedule for beginners. She also suggested going with someone. I am going to try going with her this week, and get some tips and pointers on things I need to work on, than I am going to see if one of my neighbors would go with me. I want to go three times a week. What I am hoping I can do is three times a week run, and three times a week do Pilates or some type of aerobic exercises (just not Yoga at the moment, it tends to frustrate me).

There are going to be days this is going to be hard on me, and there are going to be days that I just can't do it. However I am not going to give up. I am going to take things one step at a time, and I know that for the first few weeks it will be a struggle. I will have to get schedules worked out with Kraig on my exercise days (Kate tries to sit and bounce on anyone that lays down). I can take Kate running with me, I can push her in the stroller (now I am wishing we had bought a jogging stroller, oh well I will make do).

With how stressed I have been, I know I need to do something. I have been so stressed out that it has been making me physically sick (not to mention breaking out like I am a teenager again, yuck). So I am going to run. I also started writing in a journal again (It has been since just after I got married that I quit!!!). I am so grateful that I have the freedom and the option to do so much. I know things will work out, and I know that everything happens for a reason. I just need to remember this quote:

"It isn’t as bad as you sometimes think it is. It all works out. Don’t worry. I say that to myself every morning. It will all work out. If you do your best, it will all work out. Put your trust in God, and move forward with faith and confidence in the future. The Lord will not forsake us. He will not forsake us. … If we will put our trust in Him, if we will pray to Him, if we will live worthy of His blessings, He will hear our prayers." - Gordon B. Hinckley

Gratitude

From Kate

I am feeling so much right now. A friend of mine is lending Kate all of her 2T and 3T clothes. I was so grateful when she told me that she had some Kate could use. When I picked the clothes up from her I felt so happy and relieved. However it wasn't until I got home and started going through things and putting things in Kate's closet that I just wanted to cry. There were so many clothes, and my friend was so selfless to let us borrow them. I am so grateful, and feel so much love and gratitude towards my friend. True friends are such a blessing. I am so happy to have the few I have.

My Random thoughts for this week

From Misc.

This "motivation" idea has been floating around blogs, pinterest, and Facebook. I think it is a bad idea. People get so caught up in the number, and they start thinking about just losing weight. Just because you lose weight doesn't mean you are healthy. I would rather weight more and be healthy, than to be super skinny and be very unhealthy.

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Kate has been so grumpy that it is making Kraig and I on edge. I keep hoping that it will magically get better. I know some of it is because she has been sick. I know some of it is because of stupid daylight savings. However she was grumpy before. I guess this means I am going to have to see if I can find something very structured for her to do. Like dance, gymnastics, or martial arts...
I don't think anyone takes kids younger than three though.

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I hate daylight savings time. I truly believe that we do not need it anymore. With electricity now being in homes, and the invention of the alarm clock. Daylight savings time can go bye-bye.

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The book I just started today is creepy, I am hoping it doesn't give me nightmares. However, it is going to be one of those books that are hard to put down. In someways it is annoying that I am not a speed reader. I like absorbing the whole story though.


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I am so excited, the book club that I was going to a year ago started up again!! I have missed it! It is so crazy at how something so simple, can mean so much. I love everything about it. I love hearing other peoples thoughts on a book, whether they agree with me or not. I also love having the interaction with other women. Sometimes I get so caught up with work, Kate, and Kraig that I can go months with out seeing anybody else (I am in primary, so I only have interaction with 7 to 10 year olds on Sunday).

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I thought about doing a whole bunch of cute things for St. Patrick's day. I am most likely not going to do any of it. I am part Irish though (and part Scottish).

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Kate is going to be two next month, she is so stinking tall. I am wondering where she is at percentile wise. For the last several check ups she has been at 50%. I wonder if that has changed or if she is still right in the middle.

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Time flies.
I have come to realize that I am no longer the youngest in anything. For the first few years after high school, I was the youngest in Relief Society, I was about the same age as everyone I was working with. Now I am not. One of the girls I work with made the comment that she was eight when I graduated high school, that just made me feel old.

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Some days, I feel as if there is something that I need. The problem is I have no idea what that is.

Friends

From Misc.

Have you ever had a day when you just needed a friend? I seem to have them a lot lately, probably just because of how stressed I have been. I don't have many friends, and I can count my true friends on one hand. So being able to get with even just one friend is a miracle for me.
So today after things just seemed to magically work together, I actually got to spend a couple of hours with two very wonderful, and great friends.
For me friends are often my lifesavers. Getting to spend just a little while away from reality. Talking, laughing, joking, teasing, remembering. Most of the time it seems like I have so much to say, and just a couple of hours is never quite long enough. What usually happens is someone asks me a question, and I have so much to say, but always seem to get side tracked onto a million things, and never make it back to the original question. I don't mind usually, I love the diversion. I wish the excitement of seeing friends, and the joy of talking to them lasted much longer after it is over than it does.
Once reality comes crashing in around me, I have lost the feelings of quiet comfort that talking to friends brings. I often wish I had one of my dear friends living in my ward, or at least in my neighborhood, so that I could see and talk to them much more often than I get to. Sometimes I feel a little left out, and out of the loop knowing that some of my friends get to see each other much more often. I don't resent it, I know that it isn't done on purpose, it's just life.