Buckle up

The mood to write here trickles in and trickles out... X) If I miss it, then it's not there anymore.

Life has been quite good to me

It gave me someone that I did not expect,
a job that was so coincidental it could have only been from upstairs,
and wonderful, wonderful people around me... :)

Even so, I forsee a slight rough riding ahead.

But with all the good people God have placed around me, what have I to fear? :)

I just need to buckle up and face them :)

Change

Change.

Makes one scared,

Makes one worried,

Makes one fearful.


But this time,


Change...

Is good indeed


It made me happy... ^^

Doggies sekalian! :D

I love dogs. I've always wanted to rear them, but sendiri pun tak boleh bela sendiri, mau bela anjing meh... ==" Still, I do have a couple (okie, 6, actually) of breeds which I love and would like to have them gamboling around me someday :)

1. The handsome and very yeng Alaskan Malamute (gosh, I'm so in love with this dog...)

2. My first love, le German Shepherd

3. The lovable, fluffy Samoyed

4. The cannot-go-wrong Golden Retriver

5. The solid and steady Chow Chow

6. And finally, the small adorable corgi

Imagine walking all 6 of them! XD

Thank you, for doing what you did.
Meant a lot to me.
And my family :)

It taught me something too.

It taught me that it's ok to be scared.
It's ok to be worried.
It's ok to be nervous.

The most important thing is that you know that what you're doing is right. And you did it.
For you.
For them.
For us.

All is well :)

*takut*

My penyakit malas is back. And it's worse than ever before. And it's back at such a bad time. I can't seem to kick it, I can't seem to fight it.

I am too malas to do something about the malasness.

The other victim apart from me?

My thesis :(

2:16am

It's been awhile since I've stayed up late and posted something in the lateness.

I'm really not as young as I used to be. There was once a time where I could come back from CF and yum cha at 1am/2am something, finish up assignments or tutorials, sleep at 4am/5am something, wake up at 7am for 8am class.

Not anymore.

I feel that age is catching up.

I know I know, I'm not 88 or 100, why the hell am I talking like that right?

But yes, I feel.... maybe not old, but not young anymore.

By right, I should be at the peak of my life--holding a stable job, dating a steady partner, planning for the future...

Instead, I'm as clueless as ever. I thought that I'd have life figured out by now.

I don't.

Masters is making me feel stupid, I tremble when I think about work, I'm not dating anyone, I don't have a steady income, I don't know what to do for the next 10 years...

And yet, He reminds me in this song that:

I don't know about tomorrow
I just live from day to day
I don't borrow from it's sunshine
For it's skies may turn to grey

I don't worry bout the future
For I know what Jesus said
And today I'll walk beside Him
For He knows what lies ahead

Many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand

And then I feel a bit better :)

You

Yes You.

You who made me cry with a writing on the palm of my hand.

You who made me tear up and smile with a simple sentence.

You who make me think of you before I sleep at night

You who make me scared with us, with what might happen.

You who make me feel that all this might be worth it.

You, make me happy :)

When one is home, everything seems better =')

The "what ifs"

The "might have beens"

The "could it"

The "would it have been"

The "why"

Sometimes, all it takes is a picture. A sentence. A song.

And all you thought that was okay. All you thought that was locked away. All you thought that was let go long ago. All you thought that was nothing.

It's not.

It's not what you thought.

It's been almost a year since I last came here. And as always, what brings me back here is always when the heart is tired. Is weary. Is disturbed. Is confused.

It only takes a small thing to ruin something perfect.

A chip in the glass.

A missing page of a book.

A forgotten spice in a dish.

A crinkle in a dress.

A black spot on a white sheet.

A single sentence.