Life's never a bed of roses,
I've learnt this phrase when I was in primary school, I took me just a short time to understand it but I realized that going trough it is much harder. I been on the tip top of my life lately, well, before today anyway. For the past two weeks, many things happened. I'm not going to tell all of it, it'll just bore you to death. For one thing, I've realised that I truly love this blog. I mean it, I love that I could have ever a place to pour everything out and not actually afraid to let it be spread out. And mind you, what you've read here is for you and you only!!
I wont jump till today, As today will be one of the most pathetic day of my life. I'm really depressed, and don't ask why. Just be patient to read till the end. Hmm, Where should I start, how bout starting from last two week's piano lesson?? The teacher made us sing, in front of the class. I can't sing and furthermore, I cant hit the high notes. The highest note I could possibly hit is the higher 'Do'. While this song includes the note 're'. I cant hit that note, and of course, it went totally out of tune till the whole class laughed. And when I started laughing, I couldn't stop. Well, I was awarded the court joker of the day, I've made a total fool of myself.
And since most of my results came back, I got my kedudukan as well. At first, the person behind me tought that I got 13th place in class. But when I went to check, I actually got the 8th place. I was more than thrilled. And I did kind of challenged my uncle for me getting top 10. And I wasn't as happy till I realised this news And I got 8 place in 3A6- an 'A' class. Or so many tought, but I was as happy as well. After many days of hardwork, I finally got something I really wanted!!! But then, PMR is around the corner, And thats is 3 months away, but I'm getting scared already.
Then, last week was the minggu bahasa. Monday, we had fun watching some people acting. Jiayee was in the thing too! And as in conjunction of the language week, There were some quizzes around everyday, as of course, I payed no attention to those stuff, but surprisingly, I won the english quiz. Gawd, collective nouns, I can't believe I even stood a chance. Gawd... And speaking about english, my english teacher, Miss Sharmini, kept calling me loo hui yan or something like that. Iish, it just make me angrier by the second.
Friday, past, miss Sharmini made me read my essay in front of everyone, as of course, I was way embarrased. And its really all thanks to my stupid lucky number 9. Thanks but no thanks. And friday, I got to know that I was chosen to be performing for PMO in SJKC Lickhung. And teacher conducted many new songs, which most of them are new to me. And I was unable to play, as usual. I'll try tough..
Sunday, I went to genting highlands, well as usual, we bought the all park pass. and the thing is, it started raining. The funniest thing is, when it rained, we're having a ride on the merry-go-round. We're stranded there, I can't believe it. I've rode a merry-go-round *outdoor* for half an hour. I seriously can't believe it. And don't be confused, its not the swing which is not so dull. But its the real slow and only for babies merry go round. Half an hour, was I proud..
Today, apart from it being the worst day of my life, it was also as bad for my dad. Well, my problem is, I got scolded for playing by pn foong. I wasn't the only one, but I got scolded very badly. It wasn't as bad till she wantED to see my my parents, the minute she said that, my voice broke. I've been not a bad student for my age, I study hard, get good grades, do my homework. But the only thing I can't understand is- what a teacher want apart from that??
She called my name and I went out. my legs were shaking and my fingers trembling *ok, i was being sarcastic, but still* she is the dicipline teacher. And it just makes things worse. She scolded me in front of the class, I tried to apologise but she said that I should recieve punishment. And thats where she wanted to see my parents. I cried almost instantly, I don't want this to be a record that I'll regret it soon. I stayed back after class, to apologise to her, she finally gave in. Altough I need to do some "comunity work" thursday, an hour time. *it was me helping out in the lab* but I'm grateful, but feeling hatred at the same time. I know it was my mistake and I hope it won't happen again.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Monday, July 07, 2008
hmm...
Hmm,
I've felt that the world around me is changing, slowly though, and I think that I can feel myself changing too. Instead of the bossy, cold-blooded and she-who don't care about other's feeling. I've realized that I'm slowly changing, although I might still be bad tempered in my own qualities, but I do seldom throw my temper around now. I think I really am starting to understand everyone around me *please correct me if I'm wrong*, And thats a start!!
Okay, cut the crap. I don't want to have the touchy touchy mood around here, it just makes me feel weird. Now bout the voting for PMO comitee. I'm of course not one of them, I'm happy enough to be nominated and did I tell on you that I screwed up in my interview? But, anyway, congrats for the people who made it through! I'm surprised that I don't even have a twinge *I don't really know how to spell right* of sadness and or disapointment. Well, partially I don't expect myself to get anything. Si jun is the new president and Liying is the new music master, tonnes of congrats!! Jiayee became the new "liu qing zhu zhang", which was totally expected. And she still owes me lunch, better get that from her while I can. ^.^
Hmm, nothing much happened yesterday as Its only me and my dear brother's psp *take notice, the word 'dear' is only refering to the psp* and of course I played some games using my comp, but I was real lazy yesterday to think. Some more lazy to type, haha, so ma wait till today lo. hmm, the only thingt memorable I did yesterday is I beat my dad in scrabble! I'm so happy and yet pleased. I've beaten him with a score of 122 to 116. I think, it was a close shave and trust me, I almost lost, he made a word with 46 pts, but he can't seem to get rid of his 'Z' and 'C'. So, after deducting hiw precious pts, I finally won. muahahaha
Black monday,
Well, today was the usual black monday. I was almost late to school *AGAIN*. And I didn't bring my math and moral textbook, the teacher wanted to put me in the bluecard but thank god!! He gave us a chance, If he don't give this chance, then It'll be the first box in my secondary school life of -bluecard-. But, all the same. The funniest thing that happened today is, when I collected the money for the workbook *me being chinese wakil, with my dreadful chinese*. There is actually extra money, and I really have no Idea where those money come from. Well, as a kind and nice person, and watching the money of our class fund growing lesser and lesser, I've donated all the money into the class fund. how kind am I.
Besides that, the thing on my eyelid finally "exploded" during chinese lesson. And some yellow all-so-disgusting thing came out. I was like EWW omg. Then it went all bleeding, and there's where I start to worry. thank god then was just a period before recess. I quickly ran to the toilet to check out my eye. I was really worried that I might not be able to see this beautiful world again. But when I went to toilet, the bleeding lessen and I think I wont go blind. Now the thing is not as big as before, altough it still hurts.
I borrowed a book from Shih min, And I'm kinda getting more and more addited to storybooks, especially fairytales *which means those stories are never-bound-to-happen in real life*. But, this book has something similar with the last book, where the girl gave up everything for what she desired. It made me think, and set up my goals *no matter what they are* and work hard to achieve what I really want. I've finally toroughly understand the meaning and difference between the words "dreams" and "goals". It may seem to be different but it both carries a meaning that no ordinary people can understand.
Well, besides that, I might to add on that today is a real damn freakingly bad, bad, bad day for me. I've lost confidence in some things *its too personal to tell*. I really hope time'll ease everything up., and make me re-gain my confidence.
Ps: I'm real bored so..
I've felt that the world around me is changing, slowly though, and I think that I can feel myself changing too. Instead of the bossy, cold-blooded and she-who don't care about other's feeling. I've realized that I'm slowly changing, although I might still be bad tempered in my own qualities, but I do seldom throw my temper around now. I think I really am starting to understand everyone around me *please correct me if I'm wrong*, And thats a start!!
Okay, cut the crap. I don't want to have the touchy touchy mood around here, it just makes me feel weird. Now bout the voting for PMO comitee. I'm of course not one of them, I'm happy enough to be nominated and did I tell on you that I screwed up in my interview? But, anyway, congrats for the people who made it through! I'm surprised that I don't even have a twinge *I don't really know how to spell right* of sadness and or disapointment. Well, partially I don't expect myself to get anything. Si jun is the new president and Liying is the new music master, tonnes of congrats!! Jiayee became the new "liu qing zhu zhang", which was totally expected. And she still owes me lunch, better get that from her while I can. ^.^
Hmm, nothing much happened yesterday as Its only me and my dear brother's psp *take notice, the word 'dear' is only refering to the psp* and of course I played some games using my comp, but I was real lazy yesterday to think. Some more lazy to type, haha, so ma wait till today lo. hmm, the only thingt memorable I did yesterday is I beat my dad in scrabble! I'm so happy and yet pleased. I've beaten him with a score of 122 to 116. I think, it was a close shave and trust me, I almost lost, he made a word with 46 pts, but he can't seem to get rid of his 'Z' and 'C'. So, after deducting hiw precious pts, I finally won. muahahaha
Black monday,
Well, today was the usual black monday. I was almost late to school *AGAIN*. And I didn't bring my math and moral textbook, the teacher wanted to put me in the bluecard but thank god!! He gave us a chance, If he don't give this chance, then It'll be the first box in my secondary school life of -bluecard-. But, all the same. The funniest thing that happened today is, when I collected the money for the workbook *me being chinese wakil, with my dreadful chinese*. There is actually extra money, and I really have no Idea where those money come from. Well, as a kind and nice person, and watching the money of our class fund growing lesser and lesser, I've donated all the money into the class fund. how kind am I.
Besides that, the thing on my eyelid finally "exploded" during chinese lesson. And some yellow all-so-disgusting thing came out. I was like EWW omg. Then it went all bleeding, and there's where I start to worry. thank god then was just a period before recess. I quickly ran to the toilet to check out my eye. I was really worried that I might not be able to see this beautiful world again. But when I went to toilet, the bleeding lessen and I think I wont go blind. Now the thing is not as big as before, altough it still hurts.
I borrowed a book from Shih min, And I'm kinda getting more and more addited to storybooks, especially fairytales *which means those stories are never-bound-to-happen in real life*. But, this book has something similar with the last book, where the girl gave up everything for what she desired. It made me think, and set up my goals *no matter what they are* and work hard to achieve what I really want. I've finally toroughly understand the meaning and difference between the words "dreams" and "goals". It may seem to be different but it both carries a meaning that no ordinary people can understand.
Well, besides that, I might to add on that today is a real damn freakingly bad, bad, bad day for me. I've lost confidence in some things *its too personal to tell*. I really hope time'll ease everything up., and make me re-gain my confidence.
Ps: I'm real bored so..
| What Joo Lin Means |
 You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. |
Friday, July 04, 2008
bluek!~!
What a week,
Its only been a week, but I felt that a month had just passed by, well, I miss my blog, and I love to check on it, leave some updates and have fun. But, my parents are, erm, quite strict and they don't like me to spend so much time on the internet. So, its kinda my job to please them, oh well. I need to cut down me and my internet and lay low for a while now. But, don't get me wrong, this doesn't mean that I won't make anymore updates, it's just that my blog post *from now onwards* will be shorter, and erm, no so frequent.
Hmm, let me see, what happened on Tuesday? nothing much really, except, erm oh yeah, the interview. I went to school as usual, I'm not the kind of person who would be afraid of an interview. But, perhaps I spoke too soon, when the bell rang *indicating that school's off* my heart skipped a beat. I can't believe that I'm actually getting nervous about the whole thing, its kind of embarassing tough, everyone was all same nervous. haha. But when jia hui went in and everyone left, my hands start to sweat and I can't really feel my legs.
Gawd, when jia hui came out, I felt that my heart had finally cracked it kept beating fast and slow. when I went in, as kai hui mentioned, I saw the senior's face have the look. Even seng yang and chun wai have the "look". Its just FREAKISHLY weird, I mean they look so kind in everyday practice, I can't believe that the look of someone could just change like that. They asked tonnes of question that can't be answered by human mind. *now that everyone had gone trough the interview* EG. who will be the most suitable person to be president. It was night mare in there, so damn toturing and I almost wet my pants, haha. They asked alot of weird weird questions and I think I've manage to answer all. They asked what post would I like and I absent minded-ly answered to be liu qing zhu zhang. I can't believe I said that. But I was too nervous and freaked out to say anything, I think I screwed up.
Wednesday, nothing much happened except yiwen went up to stage to collect her beloved prize. And thursday is my turn to get the prize haha. I got a stinky old cup for winning the chinese chess competition *girls indivudual*. I got the third, not bad huh?? Man, was I nervous when I was wanted to go up stage for the prize giving thing. And, I shook hands with our headmaster pn lee kim lai. And took a photo with her too. haha. But wait till u see me shaking in front of her, it was way embarrassing. Then during sivik's lesson, that abhi said my name for he I-have-no-idea what thing. When I realised everything, it was too late, and being afraid of pn joyce, so I was forced to go out... Its another debate, I don't know why the school love this kind of things.
I almost forgot about Piano, piano lesson was the weirdest. Teacher asked to listen up the thing she was playing and I didn't get a single note. I stink at hearing *but I dunno why I manage to scrape by an "A" for my hearing in my past exam, weird huh??" And the ensemble thing was the disaster, I can't play at all *the result of not practicing during the past week*. The only thing I know is about the theory part, no matter how much I detest it, its the only part that I'm sure about.
Friday, Hmm, where to begin with?? PJK!! we played basketball again *haha I love basketball* but this time, liyin played badminton. but anyway, I had fun. running up and down, here and there chasing the ball. then I went up to PMO to check on my little cute friends, and had my *standard 5 * photo stuck up on the black board. but when we finish playing, I was practically sweat bathing. but, I'm really willing to give up this bit of sweat for loads of FUN!!!
And did I mentioned that Yiwen is absent for two whole days?? She left me with her sketch book and ran away with my grammar book. I brought the scketch book *on her behalf* and pushed it to yaohong. but it was her Idea, not my fault. Then, English, I really have this urge to chop yiwen into pieces *jk*. I had to face the two boys for the essay, they keep pushing all the work to me! but after a long arguement, we finally came to a conclusion where, we pushed everything to jasmesh *how bad were we*
The story goes like this, A girl, came came to a beach, she found a token with magical power. at night, some evil spirit came to bother her, she took out the token and the evil spirit vanished. the token then became a prince with the name of "what the fish", he gave the girl a keychain and she put the keychain into her handphone holder. then, the prince vanished and a door appeared. she went into the door and found the world of narnia. when she came out, she wrote everything down on a note book which soon became the chornicles of narnia. I know its full of shit, but u can't blame me, I'm out of I deas here and this is all wai ken's idea. But, eventually, he manage to make jasmesh write the essay.
After school, when I went to pmo room, people were coming to congradulate me for winning the chinese chess thing. Then. when I went to canteen, I recieved the first comment of my photo of the day. He said that I was more matured looking back then, now I am so damn freakingly childish. And of course, I know I'm not childish. its a fact. Then, charmaine went to write a huge sexy *in chinese* word beside my photo, I acted as quick as lightning to erase the word. then instead of the words getting lesser and lesser, I'm running here and there just to get those words off.
Hmm.. did I ever mentioned that I got a hair cut, I know that was ages ago, but still.. And I've finished another book laitang lent me, And yay me! I've almost finished the narnia - the first book. But, PMR trail seems to draw nearer and I'm no where near revision. OMG
PS: tomorrow is the PMO election, I know that I don't stand a chance, but at least I'm nominated I'm happy already. ^^
Its only been a week, but I felt that a month had just passed by, well, I miss my blog, and I love to check on it, leave some updates and have fun. But, my parents are, erm, quite strict and they don't like me to spend so much time on the internet. So, its kinda my job to please them, oh well. I need to cut down me and my internet and lay low for a while now. But, don't get me wrong, this doesn't mean that I won't make anymore updates, it's just that my blog post *from now onwards* will be shorter, and erm, no so frequent.
Hmm, let me see, what happened on Tuesday? nothing much really, except, erm oh yeah, the interview. I went to school as usual, I'm not the kind of person who would be afraid of an interview. But, perhaps I spoke too soon, when the bell rang *indicating that school's off* my heart skipped a beat. I can't believe that I'm actually getting nervous about the whole thing, its kind of embarassing tough, everyone was all same nervous. haha. But when jia hui went in and everyone left, my hands start to sweat and I can't really feel my legs.
Gawd, when jia hui came out, I felt that my heart had finally cracked it kept beating fast and slow. when I went in, as kai hui mentioned, I saw the senior's face have the look. Even seng yang and chun wai have the "look". Its just FREAKISHLY weird, I mean they look so kind in everyday practice, I can't believe that the look of someone could just change like that. They asked tonnes of question that can't be answered by human mind. *now that everyone had gone trough the interview* EG. who will be the most suitable person to be president. It was night mare in there, so damn toturing and I almost wet my pants, haha. They asked alot of weird weird questions and I think I've manage to answer all. They asked what post would I like and I absent minded-ly answered to be liu qing zhu zhang. I can't believe I said that. But I was too nervous and freaked out to say anything, I think I screwed up.
Wednesday, nothing much happened except yiwen went up to stage to collect her beloved prize. And thursday is my turn to get the prize haha. I got a stinky old cup for winning the chinese chess competition *girls indivudual*. I got the third, not bad huh?? Man, was I nervous when I was wanted to go up stage for the prize giving thing. And, I shook hands with our headmaster pn lee kim lai. And took a photo with her too. haha. But wait till u see me shaking in front of her, it was way embarrassing. Then during sivik's lesson, that abhi said my name for he I-have-no-idea what thing. When I realised everything, it was too late, and being afraid of pn joyce, so I was forced to go out... Its another debate, I don't know why the school love this kind of things.
I almost forgot about Piano, piano lesson was the weirdest. Teacher asked to listen up the thing she was playing and I didn't get a single note. I stink at hearing *but I dunno why I manage to scrape by an "A" for my hearing in my past exam, weird huh??" And the ensemble thing was the disaster, I can't play at all *the result of not practicing during the past week*. The only thing I know is about the theory part, no matter how much I detest it, its the only part that I'm sure about.
Friday, Hmm, where to begin with?? PJK!! we played basketball again *haha I love basketball* but this time, liyin played badminton. but anyway, I had fun. running up and down, here and there chasing the ball. then I went up to PMO to check on my little cute friends, and had my *standard 5 * photo stuck up on the black board. but when we finish playing, I was practically sweat bathing. but, I'm really willing to give up this bit of sweat for loads of FUN!!!
And did I mentioned that Yiwen is absent for two whole days?? She left me with her sketch book and ran away with my grammar book. I brought the scketch book *on her behalf* and pushed it to yaohong. but it was her Idea, not my fault. Then, English, I really have this urge to chop yiwen into pieces *jk*. I had to face the two boys for the essay, they keep pushing all the work to me! but after a long arguement, we finally came to a conclusion where, we pushed everything to jasmesh *how bad were we*
The story goes like this, A girl, came came to a beach, she found a token with magical power. at night, some evil spirit came to bother her, she took out the token and the evil spirit vanished. the token then became a prince with the name of "what the fish", he gave the girl a keychain and she put the keychain into her handphone holder. then, the prince vanished and a door appeared. she went into the door and found the world of narnia. when she came out, she wrote everything down on a note book which soon became the chornicles of narnia. I know its full of shit, but u can't blame me, I'm out of I deas here and this is all wai ken's idea. But, eventually, he manage to make jasmesh write the essay.
After school, when I went to pmo room, people were coming to congradulate me for winning the chinese chess thing. Then. when I went to canteen, I recieved the first comment of my photo of the day. He said that I was more matured looking back then, now I am so damn freakingly childish. And of course, I know I'm not childish. its a fact. Then, charmaine went to write a huge sexy *in chinese* word beside my photo, I acted as quick as lightning to erase the word. then instead of the words getting lesser and lesser, I'm running here and there just to get those words off.
Hmm.. did I ever mentioned that I got a hair cut, I know that was ages ago, but still.. And I've finished another book laitang lent me, And yay me! I've almost finished the narnia - the first book. But, PMR trail seems to draw nearer and I'm no where near revision. OMG
PS: tomorrow is the PMO election, I know that I don't stand a chance, but at least I'm nominated I'm happy already. ^^
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