HOmesick!!

An unbearable feeling of homesick these few days!!!

I miss my grandma so much recently..Keeping thinking what is she doing at home?must be watching tv alone in the living room and busy on the housechores!!It was already late at night on saturday yet I still phoned my mum. 'Ask grandma to listen to the phone.."I requested!My grandma has some listening problem since last few years!!So everytime whenever wanna talk with her, she will refuse at first. Cos she know that she has difficulty in talking through phone..Yet i persisted to listen to her voice even though she cant listen to me!! My heart sank to the bottom after the conversation..I miss her a lot!!Today is the day she has to go to hospital for regular checking..Kinda worried since the spread of AH1N1 is so serious now..Even dreamt of her yesterday night... By the way, thanks to meijing for talking to me through phone for about 40 minutes just to cheer me up!!thanks my dear friend though I know ur intention was just trying to tell me about the korean guy!!haha...Its really fun...haha

I cant go back home till the end of July!!
I miss my family!!!

A Productive month

A productive month in terms of what I have done before holiday and what will I be busy on this month ahead...

well, as I had posted earlier, I had become the commitee of Fo Qing during my break.I would like to thank all those members for letting me to in although i couldn't stay overnight there.Thank for giving me all the memory that full of tears and laughter throughout the camp. Since i didnt involve myself completely in all activities, I will just record some remarkable events.

Laughter~~I guess 'human chess' was the game that I enjoyed the most. Its such a fresh new game to me. I have never thought that we humans do can act like a chess.haha...The pose that we all created was the most funniest thing.Tie the name tag around our head and keep challenging our opposing team!I guess they must be so fed up about us for keep showing off our egoism as the committee!haha..But its such a shame thing that we as the commitee group were not able to beat the participant group at the end though we keep boasting how powerful we were at the beginning of the game.haha...Lesson learnt~never look down on ur opponents as all are equal whenever in the game, nobody can be invincible!!

Also, this was the first time i was arranged to be the commitee for food(san shi zhu). Frankly speaking I was a bit down when knowing that as being the "food commitee', we wont have much chance to involve in the camp activities. We will spend most of the time in the kitchen itself. Yet i was wrong. I was actually having a great time there with all the aunties and my members.The funniest thing was i cut my finger the very first day of the camp in the morning. I guess I already broke the record by being the very first person getting hurt in the kitchen. haha...

Tears~~It was no doubt the "gan en ye" whereby all of us had to attend our own funeral.yea its really our own funeral which we never expect it at all!U wont expect that it will be so real that I was actually trembling while sitting in front facing the mirror and looked at myself.The coffin, the mattress, the food for the deceased, the music..Before entering the room, we were actually asked to refresh all our childhood memories start from the day we were born.Just after few minutes I can already sense that people around me start dropping tears! Yet i was so calm that i cant even drop a tear but keep thinking the childish and funny thing that I have done during my childhood.and the moment i stepped and entered my funeral room, I was like 'oh my god"!!i m dead!!After that my eyes were blindfolded and asked to go down the stairs by our own.It was the time I really had the feeling that i was actually on my way to the hell.The feeling of helplessness and darkness overwhelmed you.Then we were seated. My tears dropped uncontrobally.I cried not because of scared to face the death, but thinking of what I had experienced last time of losing someone in my life. Since then whenever I listen to the funeral music, I will be provoked. Its a trauma to me now seriously. At that time, my mind was just revolving around you. I cried badly!When being asked to write down the things that u regret the most in ur life, i cried even badly. While listing it out only I know I have so much thing that haven't be done with you together. Yet it was to late...But I already promised myself that whatever past just let it passed, just make sure I will never commit those mistake again the rest of my life..Right after that someone pushing a trolley inside with the cake on top.The birthday song was sang! It symbolized REBORN!!yea all of us were reborn again!!We attended our own funeral, we cried~Death, we got the birthday song n cake yet we cried~Reborn(thats what babies normally do right, crying the whole day)..Then we were given a birth certificate and asked to write down our own wish!!I love this meaningful event so much!!It will be recorded deep inside my heart forever. U guys are really great, for making this activity a success one. I m sure that there's lot of struggle and opposing view while planning for this funeral!!u guys are really great!!
Pei Wen and me~~
My 2 Jie Mui in the san shi zhu..haha
Before attending the funeral.. We never expect it

Kooiling ~a good camp organiser

my team~san shi zhu
Committee members!!yeah


After this a busy month is awaiting me. After meeting minglee n weijie for reunion , will be going to KTJ this coming friday. Then math olympiad competition on saturday in UM..yeah!! next will be the pre-departure camp.Look forward to it..and finally the tests and assignment!!GAmbahteh!!!

sick

A day of bad headache and flu..Physically and mentally sick..

Physically~~I guess must be sleeping late yesterday..thats why feeling so uncomfortable today..Although 12 am is still considered early if i were in my holiday, i cant bear the feeling of sick the next morning in class..sneezing non stop!plus the miserable headache..Song lynn even came and asked whether wanna go to see doctor tomorrow as she is not feeling well too..She suspected that is the symptoms of AH1n1..GOsh!!

Mentally~~Couldnt get to sleep yesterday..Lying on the bed for a few moment.Its disheartening to know that..The feeling of heart broken..and now i can officially say that its ended..YEa its ended..I should have stopped it for a long time ago yet i persist till now. haha..Its ironic!! Well, I believe i can go through it..

Stay strong..The best are yet to come..Never look back..

Back to hectic life soon

My two weeks holiday finally come to the end..

Will be going back tomorrow..definitely feeling sad to leave family and friends.Yet I know this is the 'opportunity cost' that I have to given up in order to pursue my dream. The path awaiting me is not smooth. Whenever thinking that I have to repeat that hectic daily routine, my heart sinks to the bottom. Waking up early at5 plus every day, facing the books all the times, catching the bus evday,waiting for mum's call evday....It is undeniable a boring yet stressful life..but life still goes on, i got no choice but enjoy it to the fullest..

I m happy that though i din touch any of the books that I brought back, i enjoyed my holidays very muc. I have made a wise choice to join Fo QIng!! A very great n sweet memory that fulls of laughter and tears..

Strive hard for the new semester!!