even the wrong words seem to rhyme

people always leave.




even if they promised they wouldn't.





****EDIT: 6 hours later****

So, I just watched "The Back-Up Plan" with mum, and what a coincidence that there's a line in the show where the grandma tells JLo "Stop pushing people away, you need to learn to trust again." And another part of the movie, JLo's love interest says "Believe me when I say I'm not leaving!"



What a joke. They're not in real life.

all that I can hear every time you lie

*bang head against wall repeatedly* - until you start bleeding



*open door and then slam it really hard it feels like the house is about to break down* - do this repeatedly



*get in a car turn up the music real loud and just drive (within the speed limit)* - do this for however long you want




*hold a pillow to your face and just scream until your voice is 2 octaves lower than Justin Bieber's* - you probably won't have the energy to do this repeatedly




*pull out a cork board and hold a sharp pin/knife in your hand then stab it several times* - or until all the cork is out of the board




*rage quit and disappear*




*stay up late at night, by yourself and just emo* - until you're too tired you fall asleep anyway




*talk about it* - but not with people who haven't learned the meaning of discretion or confidentiality





- > ways to release rage because there are some seriously stupid people who are still alive in this world



GOD, PLEASE GIVE ME GRACE!


and strength.....lots of it. Thanks.



p/s: don't cry because it's no use over spilled milk.

things that keep us apart keep me alive

Look at us now.


How we let Time rob us. How we let Time change us.



Look at us then.



How our ignorance was really our source of bliss.



Look at us.



Pretty sure I ruined things. I'm the one who pushed you away. I'm too defensive. Never allowing anyone get too close.



So I'm sorry.



I cared too much about you and then felt the need to push you away. Afraid I was gonna get hurt first.




But look at us now.



I never learn. I'm still pushing the people I love away...hurting myself in the process.
What in the world is wrong with me!? I don't even know how not to do that.
How can I be too scared to do what's supposed to be most natural for me??

stronger than you'll ever know

hahhaha... something like 5 hours sleep after a pretty depressing day which didn't end so depressingly after all seems to have carried on to a pretty interestingly, beautiful morning.


I'm smiling. XD



So, right after my last blog...I went to DFO South Wharf. And regretted going in there as I was walking out.



I walked into ALDO T_T....and I'M GUILTY!!!!>.<...



Bought a pair of boots which were discounted already...and then had a further $10 off because it's the last pair. From Aldo. I'm guilty okay! Stop looking at me that way.... but I paid $70 for it. Black, simple, nice synthetic material which isn't floppy..and low heeled. In short, it was WATERPROOF! Which, really...if you think about it, was really my main aim of shopping for shoes anyway right? But I was so guilty I didnt dare change into it..and just stayed in my drenched Billies for the rest of the night...with my feet numb.


And thennn... I bought a bag...ok this.. I REALLY AM GUILTY! But it was 50% off... it was pretty...and it was 50% off from Aldo!

Still doesn't make sense to me to be spending to save...but you know...I'M GUILTY! Ok, like REALLY...I'm so guilty because I was meant to shop for Josh's present..and I was PLANNING on spending $5 on a crappy waterproof pair of shoes that's supposed to last me a week.



Anyway, I had fun at dinner with Cherly and Mien... and Step Up 3D was so worth watching again.. hahah..So, seriously..go watch it if you appreciate creativity and art...or just the REAL effects of 3D!


Got home, and Cherly, Mien and I continued our "night" on MSN haha...and I ended up going to bed at 2am. Which explains the 5 hour sleep cos I had to wake up at 7am for work today...worth it though ahha



I'm glad to have friends who'd surprisingly brighten up my day without intending to anyway.



Gab's video on Facebook..in which he tagged me in for a song called "I Don't Care" by Jesse Barrera and Melissa Polinar. Gab's plug on the song was to cheer up my day. It did. And I'm listening to it on repeat.. and my favourite line so far goes like this: "When I'm stuck on the ground you take my mind somewhere far from here..."

Also, been sms-ing Hannah all morning. And she makes me LOL. Too much. I don't smile.. I just LOL whenever I talk to her...


So to all you Gifts from Heaven out there who read this, thanks for loving me. I love you too.

open up and be your parachute

Ok, here's my rant FOR THE MONTH!


I'm at uni, with frozen numb feet.

It's pouring outside..>.<..depressingly...

And I've decided to go buy myself new shoes (right after this blog)



This time last week, technically Tuesday last week, it was raining like today, and by the time I got home...my white-ish Billies were soaked, with mud gathering at the tip.


I bought myself these white-ish Billies, convincing myself I can wash them if they get dirty! But I didn't think I'd have to do them twice in one week! =.="

So why did I wear my white shoes out on a day like this, I hear you ask?

Well....I wanted to do some shopping since I finish uni early today, so I decided against wearing any of my waterproof boots because they've all got heels and I didn't feel like heeled boots today. So, I decided to stick with my comfy, cute Billies.


BUT NOW THEY'RE SOAKED WITH MUD GATEHRING AT THE TIP AGAIN!

How crap is this weather!??!!? I'm soooo depressed!

1) Because it was only a week ago that I washed my Billies and made them white again
2) Because I can't feel my feet (I know from experience, that they should be feeling wet and cold)
3) This weather makes me depressed!
4) Next week is week 4 = quarter of my last semester GONE! T.T


On the upside, I'm gonna go shopping now..for a pair of low-heeled waterproof shoes/boots/footwear.

And tonight, dinner with Cherly and Mien and then Step Up 3 in 3D..AGAIN! hehhee...

So, I hope my rant brought you some kind of sunshine on this super depressing day.

how could the silence be so loud

So I've been driving around a bit.



And I like it.



I'm trying to find every opportunity possible to drive. It's fun.



The most fun I've had driving...and I like driving alone..or with Jasmine..and then getting lost and figuring my way out etcetc... I like non-stressful driving. hehhe..but that's a bit biased since I haven't driven a lot of people besides my family, Mien and Jasmine.


Still...I like driving. And listening to my choice of music. Mine.. hee XD


Week 3 uni... OH MY GOODNESS!!! So quick! T.T


Time, I hate how you pass so fast. You scare me. Therefore, I hate you.



Oohh..watched Step Up 3-D yesterday with Jasmine...SO EPIC! Worth watching twice, in 3D in the cinemas!