So much has been going on in life, babies, funerals, weddings, going back to work, Cory working...its hard to keep up. Until recently I felt I was doing a decent job keeping up. I was even able to keep the house pretty clean. But yes, you read right. Until recently.
Don't get me wrong, I love my job and my family. But I am tired.My house is a disaster. And why? My beautiful, wonderful two month old little girl is still not sure if she wants to sleep for two hours at a time or one (sometimes even less) at night. I have been telling myself I will not be discouraged. She is only two months old, and was born a month early. But I keep seeing all the people I know with babies the same age or younger then little girl talking about 4-5 hours of sleep at night... Really? Please tell me your secret!
I just keep thinking I have to be like the little engine that could. But it is hard. There I said it. It is hard. I am so tired that I am scared when I drive to work. I even slept in my car for 5 minutes this morning before going into work and a coworker found me. Kind of embarrassing. But it was a wonderful 5 minutes.
Again, I absolutely love my little girl. Just when I am frustrated and fed up I look at her and my heart melts and I know I would rather not sleep then not have her. But I wouldn't be upset if she could just let me sleep for longer then 15-30 minutes at a time. Again, suggestions are welcome.