Had a fantabulous week despite the amount of work we had to finish. But by God's grace, we're on track and doing well pacing ourselves for the presentation this Wednesday! Alot of my nights and days were burnt serving in church, SP empowerment and all that. But i also know that God never shortchanges us, and 'seek ye first His righteousness, and all of these will be added onto you'. AMEN :D My God is a great great awesome power-packed God, oh may i add that He loves me very very much too? (:

Wednesday was a good day spent with Ting doing IMC stuff, just the two of us in class working our butts off and having good talks in between (:

Thursday had a ton of fun with delia, followed with the boys nat and ken. Gave school a skip, and went shopping for CNY clothes. It was nice to take my mind off all the crazy work that gave me really bad bad muscle aches that also led to a wehweh bad headache. We HTHT-ed, caught up alot, laughed and sang alot and did our shopping while at it (: I was happy getting many many, p.s i love my little black dress :D We met the guys aft that and she left me to have dinner with the 2 boys. Star & moon gazed. It felt, nice (:


Friday couldn't take the pain that went all the way up to the neck, but thank God for K who bought me Salompas-es that worked like a miracle! Sat through SP empowerment as usual and headed for dinner with the group though was already literally dying from being way way tired. Got home at 12.00am (felt like cinderella) and went to bed smiling myself silly.

My weekends were the best (: Churched, happy chel & fabian came back to cell. Headed for dinner & ice cream at Upper Bukit Timah & Udders, just had a great awesome splendid time of fellowship.
Worked with Xian today, ended work rather early cos there didn't seem to be much of a crowd. Whisked over to meet the boys AGAIN at lot 1 where we had pasta mania AGAIN, but this time with much many alot of screams from the SHINee fan meeting held this afternoon at choachukang(of all places). We camped at the library and did our work, and nua-ed and talked and chilled until we got BORED. They boys came over to help esther with her guitar and we went for dinner as a family with mummy daddy brother and all. Too cute too cute! Totally loved having the best of both worlds at one table altogether (: Yay, made me really really really REALLY happy. I love my family and the people in my photo many many.


P.S love the way you assure me.

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Fendy's ONE KIND. He bluff us today full dress, get us to memorize script (we dont actually act in our course) and bring costumes, end up playing with us only ): We did a tour in TRCC instead on all the technicals and stuff. It was so cool, plus really fun getting to climb up at least 5 stories high and look down from the ceiling of the theatre and go into the pork floss heaven *inside joke*. Got so high we felt giddy :X
Ended class at 12pm (record breaking) thanks to fendy. Had lunch with the girls before going up to class to continue working on our IMC project (stressed much). We listened to old school A1 & Backstreet Boys songs while doing work till 430pm when i left to meet VALERINA, my highlight of the day.
Trained to JP to meet the lover girl and walked around abit before settling down at some japanese restaurant for dinner. Dinner was super disappointing, didnt meet my expectations but the company was FANTABULOS! We sat there for a good 2 hours unknowingly and just spent the time HTHT-ing and laughing till we were totally embarrassed! But it was just the biggest comfort knowing someone understood all the words that were coming outta my mouth and identified with all the feelings i was feeling, assuring that it's not just me being insecure and overthinking - like it was creepy till the point we felt like long lost cousins or something. I left JP with a smile hung on my face and it just made all the pain from the massive headache seem like nothing(:


Sometimes I run, to see if you'll give chase. Sometimes i keep silent, to see if you'll notice. Sometimes I test, just to see of you're proud of me. I promised time. I shldn't be feeling disappointed and upset, but why do i still feel so. Time hannah, time. Wait.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANGIE PUAN & RAGU :D

I am VERY stressed. Period. I want IMC to be over and done quicky. I want birthday & CNY to faster come, and i wanna go bangkok for study trip now ): I'm going to pull all my hair out now. God grant me strength and wisdom please!




“Wait for the person who pursues you, the one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical, the kind of person who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better person; wait for the person who will be your best friend, the only person who will drop everything to be with you at any time no matter what the circumstances, for the person who makes you smile like no one else and when they smile you know they need you. Wait for the person who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats and a tee shirt, but appreciates it when you get dressed up for them. You know he needs you, the guy who thinks your beautiful even when your hairs a mess and you have no make-up on, the guy who will stay awake just 2 watch you sleep, the one who will call you just to hear your voice, And most of all, wait for the person who will put you up at the center of their universe, because that’s where you belong."


- via eletheowl & kreatekreationswithkassy

Don't disappoint me.

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.. We have mood-swings (period or no period)
.. We over-react to everything
.. We over-analyze everything
.. We will always have our insecurities no matter what.
.. We never forget things. Ever.

So guys – GET OVER IT! Because it’s just a girl’s thing. No matter how much we explain it, the guys won’t get it. They’ll never understand why we over-react or over-analyze everything. And all I can say is – It’s just us girls, like it or not.
(via wishuponabutterfly)

I want to be the girl that changed everything, the girl that made a difference, the girl that gave you a story to tell.


And i think every girl deserves a man to put up a fight for them, to make them feel..worth it perhaps.

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8:11 PM

I really cannot do this. It's like i meant nothing.

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I had a great friday (:
Couldn't wait for class to be over and done with so i could meet the girls for dinner :D Met mei and trained down to meet with riel and jelly, followed my janet and alison later. It was a full fledged HTHT girls catch up, and it made me really, really really beam from ear to ear. The dinner was a great time just catching up, talking about our little secrets and with our little pinkie hooks, laughing too much that we used the happy birthday song to cover up our noise, have the whole swensens stare at us 6 girls (: But i wldnt mind being embarrassed, esp if i were with them hehehehe.
After what seemed like a great catch up, we headed up to the empty space to start our camwhore routine. How often do you get all 6 of us down together? It was just a must. I had a ton of fun today, and they totally made my day all of them. Missed them a ton and it was just comforting that we're still going goood.




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10:06 PM

LAZY THURSDAY FTW! :D
(P.S Did i mention that i had itchy hands after meeting chel and cut my fringe myself, and now it looks super tut tut like bangs that are not properly cut. Grow hair! GROW)

Spent SuLi's lessons doing her homework, managed to finish up alot of it and SUBMITTED IT thank goodness. So besides that i'm happy the got to camwhore together on this very boring nua thursday. Everyone's so konked out from doing their assignments, loooking forward to friday to be the end of the super crazy week so we just took a break, took our time for lunch, took photos, sang songs and finished our presentations! :D Another day's going to be over soon, yipeeeee (;

So these are my arts management girls (: I am starting to enjoy my STA facis, fun-loving, sarcastic, work & play and just having fun in class. RP is awesome! BUT WHY ARE FENDY AND SULI LEAVING D: Gosh, no more mass party and doing nothing smoking our way through presentations, gah. Year 3's going to slightly mad. Full 5 days of school, electives and FYPs. For now, MY HAIR'S REALLY UGLY! AHHHHHH, NO.






— Grey’s Anatomy

P.S I feel like i dont know you anymore, and you dont know how much that breaks my heart. But if that's the way you want things to be, i can't do a thing about it. You got us here.

On a happier note, i'm going to meet riel and jelly for dinner tml along with the unconfirmed sister. Yipeeyay!

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I wasted my day in Fendy's lesson today (though i love fendy alot), but i just sat there worrying about Management assignments. 10more reports to go, and they're all due thursday ):
Anyway chel came over to talk and dinner with my family (: We talked, watched videos, laugh, dance, joke, i made her eat and eat and eat and sent her home. Gosh it was a great feeling, helped me pass another day (:



Is it just me and my period, or have i really been thinking abit too much?
I think i'm complex, complicated and truly one of a kind taylor made. It feels like its almost impossible to comprehend me.
If that is how God created me, would you still love me? Make me love me.



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So we're back in school today starting off with T227 Marketing with Zul. It turned out to be better than expected! I'm actually very pleased with how much our team has accomplished, feels like quite a good deal of work has been done though i feel i cld use a little more hardworking team :/ But thank God for seeing me through today! (: I had a good H2H with angie & naomi over lunch, super sweet nice one (:

Chel called to talk during lunch, and we just randomly suggested to meet after school to just talk somemore. We caught up, talked (alot) and laughed more. It's been awhile since we've done this but i was left Yew Tee feeling really uplifted and thankful to God for girlfriends like her. She assured me that girlfriends call themselves girlfriends for a reason, and it doesnt matter how much we've missed out on one anothers lives, because when we actually do meet up, we connect - almost immediately (: Yay, im happy we shared about our own struggles, our own thoughts and just having fun being ourselves. I love chelsea cheong! And i totally love spending time and talking with people i love anytime anywhere.
HAHA finally some photos to upload? (: 1-10 shot :D


Love you dearest! Had a great day with you today (:


Can't wait for the week to be done soon ): And it's only monday!

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{WARNING: WORD INTENSIVE POST}

P.S I really want to do a good nice photo update but unfortunately we havent been taking alot of photos this week especially, so bear with my whole lot of words! (:

The weekend has really really literally flashed right before my eyes. The long weekend (fri to sun) didn't seem as long afterall ):

FRIDAY
Friday i took a well deserved break from school to work on the IMC project, get some rest and did a whole lot of other things which made my fridays one of the best days throughout the week, in fact the best i think! I tried highlighting my hair with the red dye i took from ken, spent an hour plus doing it and leaving it on for another hour, turned out nothing went on, and it was just a dark shade of brown, almost close to my natural colour. So i tried doing it again with help from meimei, and okay at least more colour got onto it, but still people tell me it's brown ): No, its supposed to be red, RED! ):

So anyways we spent some time doing the hair, and i did my work showered and headed out for dental. I was telling someone about how Doctor yong likes to come up with a few 'stunts and patterns' once in awhile. He hasn't really done anything major for the past 2 months, and friday just had to be the day he used the power chain bands (ouch), another spring to drag my teeth(ouch x2), and i think he forgot to cut the wires at the end (ouch combo). Dinner after that was still alright because the bands havent started to work their magic.
Headed for dinner with kennie wah and meimei at JP, our round of Ajisen was the bombbbbb :D We nua-ed, nua-ed and nua-ed somemore before going for a good walk around JP before settling down at Swensens to share a banana split :D Naise. I was happily stuffed and headed home (: Oh btw, this is ken. Mei spammed a good 35 photos of him, and i've got no other pictures to post. HAHA.


SATURDAY
Woke up an earlyyyyyyyy 5.30am to get ready for filming/shoot at PL for the March production. Gosh it was hectic and tiring! There were alot of bumps along the way, but like bro kaf said it was a really good learning experience. God reminded me about the heart of a servant, and how we should always be humble in serving God's people and honoring Him in all that we do. By the time we finished, we had to rush down to church for a quick lunch before cell. Cell was greatttt (: I really really love lighthouse, manytime fold.
Service, overwhelmed me. Worshipping God in spirit and in truth, basking in His love and faithfulness was all i needed and it never felt better (: The message from sister gwen was just so timely. Problems. I saw a tweet that went "When you see fear, you cannot find faith" - Pastor Wilson. And that was the perfect summary of her message. Sometimes we are so overwhelmed with situations in our lives that we actually forget God loves us. We forget to look back and see how far God has carried us and how He has ALWAYS delivered us from every problem we faced. And i cried, even as i looked back over the many years, how i always felt that i cldnt pull through or couldnt make it, but God ALWAYS made a way and gave me the best. It was also downright silly to start crying the moment i saw nat crying. It got even more embarrassing when i wanted to check up on Val, and i saw her and asked if she was okay. And she started tearing a little, so i hugged her and ended up crying worst than her. It escalated and everyone came ard to hug me and we all just laughed and cried at the same time.
Vally if you're reading this, you're really one special girl. I havent felt like that in a long time and it broke my heart to feel that your heart was in someway broken too. I pray you'll be fine, stronger and be a fighter. The fighter God has created you to be. Love you sweetheart, didnt know how much you meant (:


SUNDAY
My teeth didnt hurt as badly as it did on saturday so i'm happy. I catched a good sleep and got up early to go to work today. The crowd was relatively crazy today but i found a new joy serving the Lord in His house, serving His people with a bigbig smileeee. Paul has an infectious spirit and it's always fun having him around(: Work was great till i headed off to Xin Wang for lunch with the 3 and ariel (: We prayed for a cab that would agree to ferry 5 of us and it DID COME. We got to LCE on time, early in fact! :D -I shall not elaborate on LCE-

School's tml ): Gosh. I miss doing paper costumes and doing make up and going crazy before tests with ting and nao. Now it's crunch time and everyone's all work and no play. But lets go lets go. GOD IS WITH ME, AMEN!



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TODAY, i feel terrible incredibly, sian (for lack of better word).
Plans to Sakura were cancelled because Nat & Delia couldn't make it. Now i'm second guessing myself whether i made the right decision to skip schoool and all that. Like another wasted day added to my list. Can't wait for school to be over and done in 1 month, and then hopefully the 3 of us get to be able to go for the study trip in Bangkok.

AHHHHH, so whiny so whiny. I don't like but seriously feels..SIAN. Headed over to the Esplanade today for some tour, which was quite fresh for a change being in school and all. Lunched @ Marina Bay with Nao & Ting before settling around the Bay to have a good HTHT (: It's one of those very few and rare occasions we get to sit and talk about all that we're doing through, very sweet of them to understand me and encourage me with certain things like school and stuff. Ah, so whiny!

UT's in a coupla minutes and here i am ranting and whining. ARH, i don't like whining but today i can't help it ): I WANNA EAT, I WANNA HIGHLIGHT MY HAIR RED, AND I WANT THINGS TO WORK OUT with you. Sometimes i don't know what you're thinking. You might be growing up and all that, but i feel like i've been missing out on your life. I try to talk to you, get to know what's doing on, but i don't seem to get a tinge of reaction or appreciation. I'm starting to feel like you just don't care as much as you used to. Like i'm overlooked and once again being one-sided, trying to care but getting almost nil reaction. I just hope this is a phase, and not something we're going to be faced with permanently. I love you, mei.


明天会更好！Amen.

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Okay i'm really going to start blogging back here, i'll try!

HELLO JANUARY, 13th to be exact!
It's kinda of exactly a month away from my 19th :/ Gosh i feel old. Anyways let's do a quick flashback update.From 30th Dec (my last post) till now, nothing much happened. I still don't get tired of saying that God has been faithful throughout 2009, as well as into 2010 too. At least up till now, He's NEVER failed me (:

There've been ups and there've been downs. School's kinda bittersweet. Like it's awesomeone day, but the next day it just doesn't go well with work piling up. Did i mention about an IMC project that we have to pitch to the National Arts Council? That in itself is scary. A whole gush of inability and uncertainty overwhelmed me just yesterday. It felt like i didn't know where everything's headed, like there were too many things to think about and so little time. Unknowingly i swept everything under the rug, kept it locked up somewhere in the corners of my heart and carried on with life, encouraging the rest to 'press on', 'hang in there' and 'we'll make it throughs' . Until it got exposed last night. Got a little angry with everything, and kinda hated the bus rides for the first time. I got home and spoke to a couple of people, everything poured out and i felt better after surrendering it all back unto God and laying all my worries at the foot of the cross. How contradicting we can be as human sometimes huh? Knowing that God has never failed us since Day1, yet there are times we still choose to doubt Him and His plans. But God brought me back to a very known verse. Knowing is one thing, believing is another (:

Jer 29:11 "For i know the plans i have for you", declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm. Plans to bring you a hope and a future."


In 2009 i think i've grown alot, especially from the whole episode. Made me realize how important God's call is, and how God will always fight and want the best for me.
And i don't know if you're still reading or will ever read this, but i just want you to know that i am well over you. I blamed myself and struck myself with guilt because of what happened, for giving us away - but realized it was all unneccessary. I didn't and never wanted/needed an apology or any form of explanation, always had your back and did all that i could. I'm sorry if my heart wasn't already good enough, but you know how much i gave. Throughout all that happened, all that was already smacked straight in my face, there was that part of me that still wanted to believe in you. In the short 2 weeks that past, it's like you reopened that wound that i took years and years to close. Quote Val, God doesn't create playthings and products in His image. I got to know about things i never thought i would know, everything's exposed now, EVERYTHING. It made me feel upset, angry and very disappointed. All over again, i'm learning how to forgive big time. I never thought i'd say this, but i take all i said back. I actually think i do deserve some form of apology. No need for explanations, because i don't believe anything could explain all that. I'm praying God will allow a full restoration to take place, and for you to break out of that cycle. I'm sorry it had to happen. It was nice and one of the best times of my life while it lasted. Goodbye, and perhaps few years down the road, i'll get to know you all over again. Jiayou.


Can't wait for tommorow to be over ASAP, get my hair coloured somehow and go for buffet with deedee, ken-ie and mei (: I thank God for people He's placed in my life, alot.

— Daniel Stern, The Wonder Years



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