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Stuff to say while procrastinating :)
Okay, I just want to say that I think people should change their attitude towards music. People shouldn't go around posting or saying nasty comments like: Oh, they stink, or, Crap they can't sing. Stuff like that. First of all, they have the courage to even perform. Applaud them. Can you do the same without stage fright? Maybe you can, but I know many can't. So for that bulk of people, including me of course, I think we should just shut our mouth. Oh yea, so I'm procrastinating my mugging for Bio Olympiad. Because slacking is just so much fun. So anyway, this is going to be a very unZacharyish post. :) So many smilies :) So I'm not sure if what the group is doing is correct. I personally never had anyone I felt really close to in Primary school. My best friend wasn't exactly a close friend. So technically speaking, the only time I felt that I knew my friends was in Secondary school. I don't really support the idea of daoing people, though I was introduced to its effectiveness during the whimsical quarrels between me, Maung Thet and Qin Jiang. Then again, I still believe in the direct method of speaking your thoughts. No point concealing your feelings and being Mr Nice Guy. Take the Guan Koi approach and be direct. Being direct isn't necessarily being harsh and mean. The words you use of course play a part. The tone definitely. Also, I do not think we should fake a front for others. Of course, we do not know what is truly us. The you when you are alone isn't necessarily the real you. The us we perceive ourselves to be comes naturally when you are next to people close to you. I think I once told Maung Thet or Tiet Ho or Qin Jiang that this is so as when you are close to them, you are unafraid of showing your flaws, knowing that they won't mind them or even if they were to mind them, they would simply tell you off. And from there you work to change. Crap, I talked too much. Organisation fail. So anyway, I was kind of hoping we could have avoided this. Sometimes, being Mr Nice Guy isn't necessarily the best. I don't like people creating conflicts within themselves when from the very beginning, they never existed. Sometimes, it takes time and effort. You cannot with just the snap of your fingers make a person like you. Never will, never happens. I can find many flaws with people I consider friends. Chin Yee occasionally talks but doesn't act. I see that, yet I still think of him as a friend. Zachary and Guan Koi are very direct and might sometimes make me feel uncomfortable. I see that, I endure, and I still see them as friends. Qin Jiang and Maung Thet have random mood swings from time to time. I don't care, eventually they'll cool down. Bryan is very very very blur. I feel uncomfortable and irritated, but I laugh it off. Yong Xiang might be very demanding at times, I think many people know this, but who cares. We laugh if off. Tan Yang used to be very stubborn, but I see him in a different light now. We endured through that trait of his, and I think he has changed much. Ting Kai and Solomon like to show off their muscles in front of me, but I don't care. I can't really write anymore. All this were impromptu, I didn't really think them true. I t just goes to show that people have distinctive flaws(at least to me) and that people do not really care. However, when the same theory was applied to you, I feel that you were quite weird. That you weren't really truly expressing yourself. I can't understand you to be honest. I'm not sure if what is within you is really that complex, or you were simply trying ti get us to pity you. Because your words never matched your actions. I hope you wouldn't get angry with me and perhaps reply to me in an email if you think I'm referring to you. I don't want to lose anymore friends. Just, try to think through. Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Toiled 10:02 PM ~
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No motivation to mug
Usually you have a reason to study.
I concede defeat. First time ever, I do not want to mug... SPA Skill 3 just owned my career. :( Sunday, August 29, 2010
Toiled 8:49 PM ~
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Orz
I was distracted while mugging again, so I decided to post for the fun of it. :))
lol, without translating, Ali Project made me o.o Nothing much to be said, lest I would be ranting about events I would be missing. =.= I want to pre-order nana clips 5, but I haven't enough money yet. T.T I want to see the Orchestra... T.T I'm really looking forward to musterion full version. 深爱another edit was quite a surprise. Though I was hoping for another PV, perhaps with the new album, with something like a futuristic Astrogation PV. I'm somewhat looking forward to 悦楽カメリア. Don't think of me badly. HD is the sheez. Don't judge me!!! Trying other music now, ventured to The Agonist, All that remains, In this moment. Okay I shall be honest, I can take pseudo screams and screams. But my head implodes after 1 hour. I'm that much of a noob. Sorry Solomon and Tiet Ho, I'm a total failure :( But Melodic metalcore is quite nice. Though I would most probably be sticking with the classic symphonic metal. Sometimes, I wish bands would be more efficient. I mean, if an artist, :0, can announce the production of an album 9 months before and finish by the time of release, why can't the bands follow suit. Okay, don't flame me. I know they have a life, and some noob like me shouldn't be posting this stuff. All IMLO, "L" being lousy. T.T Inferiority complex sheesh Tuesday, August 24, 2010
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Rant - Studies?
Today I made a promise to myself, that I would state as objectively as possible, the reasons why I mug.
This post would be very critical of those around, so be warned. I have somewhat cooled down a bit, though I might just flare up midway through the post. Profanities would be interjected throughout the post, thought I would as much as possible abstain from doing so, though the restraint cannot be kept in check. This would be unedited, straight from heart. Reason for why I mug/study: The sole reason why I study is simply because I do not want to disappoint. I do not want to disappoint myself. I have come to this world. I have an occupation as a student. Henceforth, I think it is only reasonable that I put my best into this dubious job I am bestowed upon by the government. This means that I should as much as possible do my best to excel in my studies. Then again, I do believe in luck, as can be seen from all my posts. I believe a modicum of intelligence and a truckload of effort are the ingredients to scoring well, and excelling in whatever you are doing. Hence, even if the subject is supposedly "unstudiable" I would find means to do so, defying this rule other people have set. Next, I hate people who complain and do not take action. Complaining is fine. But if you do not take action, then there is seriously something wrong with you. I complain, yes I admit that trait. Perhaps it is only human, I don't know. Hence, as much as possible, whenever I complain, I take action. I have always been complaining about receiving lousy grades, hence I decided to see a change in my grades. Then again, the only possible and viable means of doing so is via studying. Through crude work and effort, I believe that eventually, I can change my grades. I don't want to be voice without any action. That is just stupid and f'ed up. Reason for why I study the languages: Whenever I hear people tell me that language cannot be studied, and laugh at me for studying it, I just receive the personal insults without retaliating. You know what, fuck that. I fucking don't want to hear that language cannot be studied. If that were to be true, how the hell were you able to talk to me. You mean you were born knowing how to talk. Can language really not be learnt. I seriously believe that language can be learnt, like all other things. Yes, I agree that my way of studying might be extreme, but I don't want to hear other people saying that language cannot be learnt. If language really can't be learnt, you should jsut keep it to yourself. Good for you, you are good in the languages. I am not. Okay, is this acceptable? Hence, i just want to study. I wish that by putting in effort, I would be able to see a jump in grades. I do not want to stagnate and vegetate while constantly complaining that I am unable to proceed and excel. Hypocrites. I don't want to fucking hear a single thing about language not being able to be learnt. I ended of becoming pissed and emotional, so this argument is definitely flawed in many ways. Then again, this were the first thoughts that came to my mind, and are probably the main reasons which drive me through the night. I don't mind people telling me that studying cannot be done in certain environments or that I am taking my studies too seriously. I apologise if I have made you angry, or have made you sad. I am in the wrong, I am too blame. Please accept the apologies. However, for those who have constantly been telling me that languages cannot be studied, and that there is no point in studying, I hope you do not take this post as a rebuttal, but take all this biased arguments with a pinch of salt. They are my perspectives, and coming from a human, they are naturally flawed. I have injected spirit back into my mutilated blog due to some folly I committed some time ago, and is still in the midst of repair. So the tagboard and some other functions are disabled. If you have any comments, feel free to talk to me about it. I would gladly hear your POV. Thanks. Sorry for the profanities. Sorry for any possible insults. Friday, August 20, 2010
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Demoralised
I feel down now.
So far, I can't exactly say that I am very happy with my present situation. If only, I could see my efforts come to fruition. Thursday, August 12, 2010
Toiled 7:05 PM ~
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Futile Resistance
It's during times like this, where I feel that I am utterly useless. Visceral, if you would like to call it. It's stupid. It's been going on for god knows how long. I can't break the unending trend.
Sometimes, I hate it when people complain to me. Of course, only certain types of complaints annoy me. I hate it when they come complaining, saying that Oh life is unfair, life stinks, the whole world is against you. With that, you carry on with life, as though you didn't say anything. I hate it when they don't implement any changes to rectify these so called problems in their life. Secondly, I hate it when people complain to you, thinking that you are always available to listen to their drones. You know what, I have my problems too. Everyone has their problems. I don't mind you telling me your problems, but don't make it sound as though you are the most pitiable character is this tragic play called life. Seriously, tell me your problems, but also tell me what you have done. Talking a bunch of crap without doing anything is really stupid you know. I like it when people show me that they have done something about their problem, even if it does not work. To those people, I would gladly give them my thought of the matter and provide some of my personal insight into the matter. I'll give them my all. Life isn't fair, but that's what makes it fair. It is fair, because everyone struggles, and through this struggling, can you truly shine. Without action, you are nothing but a loser who can only complain. Another type of person I hate are those who take a bunch of philosophical bullshit and yet go against their words sooner or later without even realising it. Even if they realise it, they make a regretful face and apologise. You know what, it's fucking not working on me. You want to apologise? Let your actions do the talking. I'll gladly accept that apology. I am really sick of this nonsense. I'm glad it's all coming to an end. Tuesday, August 10, 2010
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