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easy prey under the moonlight
Like a hungry wolf, it stalks.
Licking its lips, it wants to release the pent up emotions. The anger, the tension, the insecurity. It's running away from reality. It just wants to rage against the world. Monday, May 30, 2016
Toiled 12:43 AM ~
100% Effort, 100% Luck
mini-mini-rant
It's really how irritating people only look at your results and not acknowledge the hard work behind.
I'll be really grateful for meeting someone who instead of complimenting my results, compliment my hard work. I walk on the Earth like everyone else. I just happen to walk a bit quicker, and more importantly, I put in the effort to walk further, and walk into places requiring utmost dedication. No sophistication, it's just the amount if time spent walking the lands. Wednesday, May 25, 2016
Toiled 3:31 AM ~
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cut my hair, clear my head
People are falling ill.
Like flies dropping one by one. You know what's my secret, I'm always sick ;) --- Moodswings, there's so much things to smile for. I think as I got older I learnt to control my emotions a little better, learnt not to take myself so seriously, and learnt that even if things don't work out my way this time, I still have the next time to fuck it over. Monday, May 23, 2016
Toiled 9:46 PM ~
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PR
Really glad how things are turning out.
Sleep makes all the difference. Sunday, May 22, 2016
Toiled 6:51 AM ~
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crash and burn
so let's see our Merton elect just crash and burn this year.
I have no idea what he's thinking. Run for presidency when you can't even get your priorities right? Why bother? And don't insult a senior who has set work for you and you can't complete it by the deadline due to your own incompetence. The fuck. Toiled 12:27 AM ~
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some days you just feel like sitting down to cry
... Work harder? I think compartmentalising one's emotions is no longer effective. Saturday, May 21, 2016
Toiled 6:51 PM ~
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hugs and kisses
And I sincerely wish you the best of luck.
I wish the world to the two of you. Even if it pains me dearly. --- Work's taking a toll on me. But I'm fighting back. Barely hanging on is still hanging on right? --- Prowl the streets of Oxford. Wednesday, May 18, 2016
Toiled 4:02 AM ~
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still bleeding red
I think after all this time, I've become very sentimental, very cynical, very flawed.
Very suspicious, overly-cautious, cunning if I want to, cowardly if I want to. I think the more people I meet, the more of an asshole I become. The more jaded I become. But then again I think once in a while, seeing how I've become and just laughing at how I've changed over the years gives lets me know that what I was in the past is still in me. Because I can still think back and rely on past experience to guide my actions no matter how much instinct tells me to fuckitall. Because the more people I meet, the more I become weary. But because the more people I meet, the more I care for those who are weary like me. --- I pinched myself. And I realised it wasn't a dream. Fuck. It happened again. Fuck. Tuesday, May 17, 2016
Toiled 7:30 AM ~
100% Effort, 100% Luck
on holding a conversation
Sometimes, it's not because I feel awkward, but rather it's because I have no idea what to talk about.
I think years of education has somewhat given me a one-track mind.
I can't really think out of the box anymore, I'm no longer able to make inroads during my thought process.
It's not that I have no interest in the conversation topic. Rather, it's because nothing comes to my mind. Even if it's a topic of interest, it's mentally tiring for me to come up with new things to talk about. Get my one-tracked drift?
Unless you talk about a topic which I have done a lot of thinking about or have much first hand experience in (ie nutrition and diets lol), I'm afraid I can't really provide constructive ideas to the general conversation save for a few immature interjections and jokes.
Well, to each their own I suppose.
--- Mark of a King. You learn who you are. And you stick to your principles. You change your principles when you learn the errors in them. Because come on now, some of your thinking can be improved (not necessarily flawed, but I believe there's always room for improvement). I think it doesn't have to be about speaking the loudest. It definitely doesn't have to be about who makes the fastest decision. It's about taking responsibility. It's about slowly influencing those around you. It's about letting other's know who you are through your actions, letting them know that you are actually doing what you preach. And even if you fail, they still follow you. Because they know this won't kick you down. And you'll only kick harder next time. Work hard boy. Sunday, May 15, 2016
Toiled 8:00 PM ~
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저녁 하늘
The sky's painted a nice blue today.
The clouds float by casually, uninterested and independent of the world. Nice relaxing day to spend in your room. Huh. Toiled 2:28 AM ~
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When I'm at the pearly gates
As luck would have it, I was just flipping through the list.
Found this jewel once more. This is my way of saying goodbye Because I can't do it face to face So I'm talking to you before it's too late --- Sorry Mom, but after much consideration. Now's still not the right time. Trust me, I'm equally troubled. But I just think it's not the right time. And I'm not the kind who'd be willing to take a leap of faith. Thursday, May 12, 2016
Toiled 8:31 AM ~
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get kicked off your high horse
"I'm from HP"
"HP? What's that?" "Oh it's Humanities Programme. In HC" "Oh so you're from Hwa Chong?" "Yea, but we don't identify ourselves as Hwa Chong, but as Humanities Programme" Please man, you're from Hwa Chong. Hwa Chong created the Humanities Programme. Are you gonna say you weren't educated in Singapore cos HC is an independent school? Same logic right? And you know it's wrong right. Seriously dude. What a fuckin' dickhead. Wednesday, May 11, 2016
Toiled 5:39 AM ~
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lit room in the night
2:56 wow, just wow. Tuesday, May 10, 2016
Toiled 6:10 AM ~
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do i love you, or the thought of you
... Monday, May 9, 2016
Toiled 6:55 AM ~
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silk
First time in a long while.
Party people. Or at least have some fun in your own way possible Saturday, May 7, 2016
Toiled 7:10 AM ~
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a young kid in heart
I want to
Shoot a gun again.
Squat for an entire day. High Bar, Moderate weight.
Jogging barefooted on open fields.
But till then, study.
Thursday, May 5, 2016
Toiled 7:13 AM ~
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the wicker man
Toiled 4:31 AM ~
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the lone shadow in the 10pm moonlight
You know when I first enlisted.
I thought it's be okay.
Away from family for what 3 weeks? Can't be that bad right?
But it was probably the hardest three weeks of my life.
I could cope, but I just felt really tired.
Really really tired. It was pretty bad.
The inability to do anything at one's own pace without consequences even though what you might want to do isn't going to be detrimental in the foreseeable future; the inability to do what you know is effective; the loss of freedom.
I don't feel that way now. Thank God.
But once in a while, I'll just turn up the volume. Open the windows, and just stare into the empty parking lot in front of my bedroom window.
And once in a while I'll feel better.
Sometimes, the feeling just won't go away. It's not easy to describe. The yearning for the simple things. My photos, the cards, the notes. I miss the simple things. Things which I should probably have brought here. To just look back and remember why I'm here. How I got here. What I will do from here on out. I think this is called being Homesick. Wednesday, May 4, 2016
Toiled 6:02 AM ~
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oooooo aaaaaa
I just realised, if you open your windows at 1930 hours, you can hear the College Choir practising.
So nice :) Toiled 2:40 AM ~
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clarification
clarified things.
status quo. just how I want it. just how I imagined it. just how it should be. Toiled 2:23 AM ~
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like water
I think people have me a little misunderstood.
And think I'm a pushover. Like water you know. Fluid, I like to let bygones be bygones. But like water you know. Bottle it up, heat it long enough and you'll get burnt. Like water you know. It's all calm and serene on the outside, but it can be turbulent underneath. Like water you know. I can help you, but I can also suck the air out of you. Please don't try to anger me. :) Sunday, May 1, 2016
Toiled 9:08 AM ~
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personality
Managed to clear something up today.
To a longer lasting friendship :) Why do I always get all the self-proclaimed weirdos. Maybe I'm the biggest weirdo out there and I just manage to pull all us weirdos together. ahahaha. Things are sailing rather smoothly. Time to turn up the throttle after a pretty chill first week. Trinity here I come. --- He walked, occasionally licking his lips. His head tilted down, eyes on the ground. Habit. Occasionally he would turn his head behind. Habit. He walked, ignoring the man who stopped by to yell profanities at him. He shuddered inside. But he shrugged it off. He saw his twin the distance, talking to a stranger. He walked, occasionally licking his lips. His head held high, chest puffed out like a peacock. Smug confidence, he knew he had it in him. He stopped, making small talk with the homeless man. He lied, saying that he didn't have any money in him. But instead produced some bread from his bag. Had some leftover water in his jacket. He handed them over to the homeless man. Wishing him the best of luck He knew his friend was coming. The two people met, smiled, exchanged greetings, shaking the other's hands. And together they went to meet their other friends. --- Working my ass off with the volume. I'm just glad my shoulders are recovering. Toiled 4:35 AM ~
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