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Still in the dark
Was it really unwise to say it in front of the opposite sex?
I personally do not think so. It's part of the human body, regardless of sex, I really don't see what's so "disgusting" or "filthy" about the topic. It was all in the name of science, and I do not believe the context the wrong. I need to be enlightened, though this request would probably be another shout in the dark. I need to grow, and my judgments are still poor and lacking. So please, if you have something against it, raise it up. You won't harm anyone, especially me. I've been stabbed too many a time. Stabbing me won't kill me no more. For my pride has already died. Fulfillment has become the main source of survival. My personal policy is that if you truly care and feel, you would voice it out. Regardless of the response, you did your best. And this would happen even if you lose a friend. Just goes to show that some people stubbornly believe they are right, similar to how I feel that my opinions are right. But rather I am inclined to feel that they are right. For they are ultimately opinionated, no matter how much I try to counter-balance them. I'm confused, and I'm desperately groping the dark. Saturday, October 29, 2011
Toiled 9:33 PM ~
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Mourn
Because it's time to Sing for the Moment.
I'm thankful, that they are so accepting. I'm a defiant asshole, I'm sorry, and I won't come up with any stupid excuse. I'm still immature, and I'm not ready to live alone. Mentally unsound, I'm a ticking bomb. I might seem calm and composed on the outside, but what's inside is the opposite of nirvana. It's a fucking tornado, ripping every heartbeat that I'm taking. It's tiring to force each pulse, each action potential, but I don't want them to worry for me. The best I can do is to postpone the satisfaction and love, I can wait. I'm used to it. But, I still yearn for it, and I'm glad you still shower me with emotion. It's an earthquake, but you help me fly. Thanks mom, I really owe you one. No make it infinite, I can't express how thankful I am. Sorry that you probably would not read it, I felt that I needed to express it, lest I forget the feeling. I am loved. I'm thankful. Thursday, October 27, 2011
Toiled 11:44 PM ~
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I stretch my hand out
I believe that I finally calmed down, and that I am starting to perceive you as a friend.
I hope everything goes well. I do not want to see two friends fall into despair. Moving forward is the best way, just do it. Sunday, October 23, 2011
Toiled 11:45 PM ~
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少年
An everyday life in itself isn't bad But when you realise you've been suppressing your own desires and people tell you've become more subdued these days it's dangerous Don't you have any aspirations? I'm sorry to my teachers. I'm sorry to my parents. I'm sorry to myself. And even though I know I have done my best in the circumstances, it is still unacceptable. Call me a perfectionist, but I didn't see the results I anticipated. It was ultimately a culmination. But I don't regret the process. While the results weren't satisfactory, I will continue moving on. I might not reach my goals. But if I don't move, I won't even stand a chance. So I shall keep moving forward. Surely everyone is dyed with brilliant colours I want you to smile at me sometimes to show that you have never forgotten Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Toiled 2:32 AM ~
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(UU
I guess sometimes, the cracks surface quite readily.
I understand that everyone is different, and you have changed a lot. A lot for the better too. However, sometimes it would be prudent to take a step back and look at the larger picture. It's kind of scary, if you just brush it off. It is a long and arduous journey, let's patch up the cracks now. Emerge stronger. Saturday, October 15, 2011
Toiled 12:06 PM ~
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Post-Promo Premonition
I demand you to watch, whoever you are. Promos are over, and this is an obligatory post. Cough. Sneeze. Fart. Sorry, I just don't know what to write, because I haven't really received any of my subject papers yet. I have a bad good feeling about my papers. Many haploids are turning Diploids, and many triploids are remaining so. Quite funny, considering that I'm a mere organelle, observing the spindle fibres unfold the stupid future. I've been using the word stupid a lot recently. I guess it's PW's fault. !@#$%^&*() Nah, PW is fun. lol Well, the current economic climate is rather grey. I really hope we won't fall into another global recession. With the US down, I personally feel that China is still not experienced enough to succeed, and that the USA just cannot relinquish its position while leaving such a big mess. Step your game up son. Arh, sorry. Moving on, I guess Music really depends on the mood. Also, I really want to believe that no one flavour can satisfy one's taste buds. If you think that listening to one genre all day long is enough, I would like to think that you're wrong. >( I'm talking about my sister lol. Nonetheless, she's still young, and her ears would lead the way. I think I'm becoming like my mom, just that instead of worrying about her results, I worry too much about her social life. Not saying that my brother wasn't a good example to us, but I just feel that he only let himself be himself after he got into army. My family really molded me into a person which I didn't feel comfortable being. It just wasn't me. And while I suffer from certain consequences of such an upbringing, I don't want my sister to experience the same. Also for that matter, I guess that's why I am so "loyal" (I'm no lapdog) to NCC; the retarded people within my retarded part has truly broken that thick carapace. D'10 less than 3 :) Japanese vids are awesome. Go watch the video if you haven't. If you don't laugh, then it means you're doing PW! Everything. Yesterday, I woke up sucking a lemon. I just hope Everything. Would be In its right Place. In its Right Place. Wednesday, October 12, 2011
Toiled 11:20 PM ~
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