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"You probably didn't know this but..."
And I'd like to give you the world.
But I know you'd like to obtain the world with your own two hands.
Because that's what it means to live.
And live we will.
... Just that, won't it be more exciting to go on this journey together?
Saturday, October 29, 2016
Toiled 7:29 AM ~
100% Effort, 100% Luck
And I slog day in day out, because of my past, because I'm in the present, and because I'm searching for the future
Some reflections for the past 2 weeks:
So my daily schedule has become something like this. Monday-Tuesday Lecture - 0900-1200 Lunch/Walk to gym - 1200-1245 Iffly - 1300-1600 Walk back/Shower-1600-1630 Workworkworkworkwork - 1630-1800 Dinner+Catchup with them friends - 1800-1900 Work - 1900-2300 TescoRun - 2300-2345 Work - 2345-0230 Sleep - 0230-0830 Wednesday Lecture - 0900-1200 QM Tutorial-1200-1300 Lunch-1300-1330 Prep for next tutorial-1330-1415 Tutorial-1415-1630 Workworkworkworkwork - 1630-1800 Dinner+Catchup with them friends - 1800-1900 Work - 1900-2300 TescoRun - 2300-2345 Work - 2345-0230 Sleep - 0230-0830 Thursday/Friday Lecture + Labs- 0900-1700 Lunch/Walk to gym - 1700-1745 Iffly - 1745-2000 Walk back/Shower-2000-2030 Dinner - 2030-2100 Work - 2100-0330 Sleep I think I'm insane. But I know I'm not a genius. If anything, I was gifted with the ability to struggle tirelessly, and struggle hard I do. Life ain't easy I tell myself, but I try to be happy. Lovelifelivelife, however you want it :) --- Good luck has never been my friend, I've always been the fool. Friday, October 28, 2016
Toiled 3:32 AM ~
100% Effort, 100% Luck
Because I want to be the one who keeps you smiling
And that, was probably the latest night time talk.
How I managed to wake up is beyond me! Toiled 12:21 AM ~
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It's late
Sigh.
Why can't profs write in a simpler, more dumbed-down way wherein they explain EVERYTHING and not have us derive things and search for it. I mean, it's called a textbook for a reason :(( Thursday, October 27, 2016
Toiled 10:11 AM ~
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Melancholic Afternoon
I wish.
Toiled 12:06 AM ~
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Steady the mind
So I've been having a lot of long walks to and fro from the gym.
And I've been thinking about nothing. Guys give me something to think about! --- On a separate note, my adductors are getting better and my changing to flats I'm able to significantly cut unnecessary depth and actually actively feel my glutes. Bench is going well. But sumos are getting really really weak. I'm hoping it's just because I've been abstaining from heavy weights and my practising of form will actually translate over on days when gravity is strong. I think I'm finally embracing the fact that times I'll fail, and it's okay because it's what happens the next day which will determine your long term progress. I mean, it's easy to say that and duh, I know that myself. But to actually internalise it, I think I'm making some headway. But today, the session was awesome. --- Oh and this popped up on my playlist. And I realised that this song just reminds me of the days in Singapore when I'm chilling in my room... Well, reading up on Chemistry haha. Those days were gold. I hope my interest doesn't die even if it wavers from time to time. ^^ --- 3 hour tute DONE :3 Wednesday, October 26, 2016
Toiled 3:15 AM ~
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Lack of sleep?
Mm, Third Week. Much things to do. Little time. Time Ceremony. Ceremonial preparations for inorganic. Inorganic = readings and readings and readings. Readings means late nights. Late nights mean bad sessions. Bad sessions means vicious cycle. Because I'm too much of a meathead to care. --- "You don't like ginger?" ..."Yes." --- Recommendations? The month of October is pretty whack. Pretty crazy. Pretty awesome. Pretty happy. Tuesday, October 25, 2016
Toiled 2:12 AM ~
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mood
Mmm, time to get work done~ Monday, October 24, 2016
Toiled 7:34 AM ~
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ESCHWEILER CLARKE
Sometimes, it takes time to get used to something.
Is this fear I feel? Or is this jealousy? Saturday, October 22, 2016
Toiled 5:38 AM ~
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It's about the priorities
"It's about working now, so that you can spend time later"
"Well I think that the idea of work now play later is no longer applicable" "It's about priorities then, what do you think is important" Priorities. Time. Like there's some uncertainty principle, the two can't commute, can never get along hand in hand. I wish I had more than 24 hours, so I could spend more time awake. Friday, October 21, 2016
Toiled 7:57 AM ~
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And I try to do my best, try to do my all, try to give more than what I can give, try to care more than I can love
Methinks the perfectionist in me is creeping up and screaming why I can't get things done the way I want them. Time is not on my side. Thursday, October 20, 2016
Toiled 7:45 AM ~
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moodswings
Wednesday, October 19, 2016
Toiled 7:33 AM ~
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ups and downs in life
Sometimes when it rains, don't you ever feel like taking of your cap, and just feel the rain.
Because it makes you feel alive. Makes you appreciate touch, sight, sound.
... And it also made me sick :(
Well I'm functioning again.
Because that's my body's way of saying "fuck you" to the tremendous amount of work.
Michaelmas Week 2~
Thank you for being a friend. Tuesday, October 18, 2016
Toiled 2:48 AM ~
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Privilege
I think, that as long as you're in demand, you can get away with anything.
As sad as it seems, I think that people with warped characters can get away with it as long as they make up for it in another field. But I think character is what defines a person's worth. Because in today's world, only the humble accept their fallings and learn from others. Your potential, no matter how high can only lead you so much, you need other people to expand it. And with a fault in character, people will only naturally gravitate to someone else. The sea is big, you're but a tiny speck in it. --- Had a long talk. "What has Hwach done for you?" "I hated the school, the school's system, and the school's policies. The thins I've learnt through the school are the things which they have wronged me for. I would say though, I'm thankful for the friends I've met in school, the teachers I've met and the lessons and values they imparted to me. I'm thankful for the school for providing me the opportunity to meet such fantastic people. And I'm thankful for the school for putting me down so much, because I've learnt to thrive in adversity. And I've been thought to accept failure, not in the academic sense, but in more important aspects of life. I've become jaded from the school, but my friends keep me optimistic and bright eyed." Sunday, October 16, 2016
Toiled 10:46 PM ~
100% Effort, 100% Luck
Had a rather long talk at 1am
"I've always felt like when you're in Oxford, you feel extremely lonely."
"Lonely? Talk more to your boyfriend! He's there" "Yea but you can't talk everyday. I'm living in a house and it get's really quiet..." "Give yourself time, it's only been week 1, everyone's getting back into the swing of things" "Yea I know... How 'bout you, didn't you mention you liked someone during the trip last time?" "What, did I say that..?" I think we all want to be independent at times, and we want to be self-sufficient. But I guess sometimes, people'll feel lonely no matter how much love they receive. Well, I'm just glad to be where I am now. Good vibes. Saturday, October 15, 2016
Toiled 10:12 PM ~
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12/10/16
And I hope to let today burn into forever.
--- Little changes. Significant changes. Thursday, October 13, 2016
Toiled 8:13 PM ~
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"I'm sorry"// Sorry for lack of update guys! I'll try harder, but school work was like Woah.
Quantum Mechanics was awesome! I think sometimes it's good to go beyond what you thought you could do, because it's a chance to evolve, a chance to prove to yourself your worth (important imo), and because even if you fail, you tried. And no regrets. -- No fear, no distractions. The ability to let that which does not truly matter slide. Toiled 5:25 AM ~
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Will miss you all
And at the end of the day, I'll return. Tuesday, October 4, 2016
Toiled 7:48 PM ~
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But sometimes
Leaving Singapore for perhaps a year unless I decide to travel back.
It's really difficult to explain, the feeling of anxiety, the feeling of unpreparedness, the feeling of living alone once more. But at the same time, the feeling of excitement, the feeling of independence, the feeling of exploration. Ambivalence I suppose. And I'll miss home. And the more people who tell me that they'll miss me and my perpetual retarded-ness, the more it hits deep within. But sometimes, you need to put on a brave face. To let them know you're okay, to let them know that you'll be fine, to give them a little more peace of mind. Toiled 12:31 PM ~
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