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i went back to see the doctor last friday. he said i need to undergo medication and to lose weight. and here i thought i'm gonna die soon. so anti-climatic. my family was of course relieved to know that i'm not dying at all. the medication, i got no problems dealing with that... i eargerly drink any type or kind of medication there is. sometimes, i even commit the sin of self-medication. it's losing the pounds that i'm worrying about. it's not easy to shed these fats.. argh. it requires discipline, a lot of it! i just don't think i can do it...
been in limbo for the past week-- i'm always in a bad mood and snap at people. ewan. sobrang warfreak ko. the other day, i was crying while thinking about G.. you know? life may not actually be better but it would not be worst. i know i may not be a great person.. i may be insensitive.. or sige na loser na kung loser...o selfish...i am sorry for all the bad and stupid things that i did. pero G and I lost each other because of our faults. di pedeng isa lang. mali na isa lang.
if i could turn back the time, i'd make things right..
Labels: God is good, ikaw kasi, love, relationships
posted by jaded fool @ 6:01 PM
