Monday, August 29, 2011

god wants me to know



that you can fool others, sometimes even yourself, but God always knows your truth.

Uncomfortable, painful, even scary at times, truth is always better than lies. Remember, God always knows.

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Sunday, August 28, 2011

?



hindi ko naman tinuturing na masama akong tao para makaranas ng ganitong sakit.

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Monday, August 22, 2011

SeNA



The Single Entry Approach. Hehe. There is nothing naughty about this, although i might have shaded it with color green this afternoon while talking to the G. =)Okay, enough with that...

As if I am not tired of giving off lectures, I am scheduled to do one more tomorrow. I am going to discuss SENA as part of the technical capacity building of my co-workers. So here I am cramming my ass off-- as always, trying to keep in mind that I can do this!!!

I wish I'll be able to explain it clearly and handle all the questions well. goodluck to moi!

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Saturday, August 20, 2011

doctor's appointment



since provera didn't work for me, my doctor said i need to have my ultrasound. i am always scared when i have ultrasound.. i am still polycystic but my uterus is alright (meaning my endometrial lining is thin). and i do wonder if i am capable of bearing a child. after my ultrasound, i went to see my doctor for my 2nd shot of the anti-cervical cancer vaccine. upon seeing the results of my ultrasound the doctor told me to drink 3 pills also i need to lose weight. hay naku.

i wish fats can be sold.

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Friday, August 19, 2011

mag-feeling tayo



hello blogger, i know you have missed me. it's been weeks since i last visited. i just came from the last leg of my 4-lecture series. after all the stress and hard work (weh), i feel i'm going to be sick. and because i am sick-- gusto ko mag Feeling.

the G called yesterday. well it was a missed call at first (of course i cannot assume that it was intentional) but when the second ring came-- i answered. and we talked and flirted (well you know how G is). but it was a light conversation.. at the back of my mind-- i just know after that phone call-- she would again disappear (again, you know how the G is).

the talk we had made me smile. why? cause FEELING ko somehow, in some weird way-- she wants me (HWARK!). well not actually want, want-- but i guess she missed me. there! i think that's the proper term. it's like she craved for me and she had to call me and get her fix (Hwark ulet). na pinatulan ko naman. Honestly, I do miss her but time and space changed us. the good thing is that we communicate whenever she feels like doing so. I really do not know if it is okay to send her sms or to try to communicate with her. cause i really do not know. And then something inside my head would say she waits for my text messages (whoever this is, is always wrong cause she doesn't reply).

So there, i haven't heard from her the whole day. and i do know that she would be quiet for a while. probably a week, a month until it is that time again.

So i am resting now. thanks for welcoming me again, blogger. i have missed you.

ps: my first time to go to Sonya's in Tagaytay. puro dahon. lol.

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Monday, August 08, 2011

work crazy



i need a break. a long long break from this shit called work. every monday we have to go through this hell.. ay caramba! my schedule is crazy.. i literally have to joggle my time and attention to things that some people find mundane. i just wish that i get to relax soon.. really soon, i will have better working conditions (meaning i will have a stress free, good paying and FUN job), i will have adorable and sweet beau.. and joy will just naturally flow from my heart. hehe. so until my schedule gets stable and all these shit has come to an end- i will just have cross my effing fingers and wait.


in the meantime, a date in the movies will suit me just fine.

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Thursday, August 04, 2011

senti



for the past couple of days-- i must admit that i am getting lonely. cause basically my world revolves with work and home. and i am getting tired of it. it's just like when i was in school. school-home-school. this time though-- its work-home-work-SM routine. nakakasawa na.

i went out with my friends tonight and had my two bottles. the beer never tasted so sweet. i admit that i missed drinking the light. i have been engrossed with tanduay ice that i have forgotten the taste of my favorite beer. this is why i drink-- i drink to drown all the loneliness inside me. it makes me forget what i am sad about--I can't actually feel anything-- and i just want to write. i feel sleepy too.. i think for the first time in days, i'll sleep without crying. thanks to my ever reliable SML for making it easy for me.

i guess this is a test on how patient i could be. the big guy up there is trying me and i can't blame him. i can really really be impatient! the good thing about it i guess is the fact that i know my lovelife will bounce back. i may be going through dark ages at the moment-- but i know it will resurrect and i will laugh, live and love.

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Tuesday, August 02, 2011

1,400th



for my 1,400th post. God wants me to know:

..that today you have a cause for celebration.

Today, you should celebrate what an unbelievable life you have had so far: the accomplishments, the many blessings, and, yes, even the hardships because they have served to make you stronger. Just as a gem cannot be polished without friction, nor can a life be perfected without trials. Take a time to acknowledge your life and to praise yourself.

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posted by jaded fool @ 10:35 AM