Last working day of november
It's November 29. Last work day for November. Keep the moolah coming.
Labels: God is good, winner
posted by jaded fool @ 8:02 PM
Friday, November 29, 2013
Thursday, November 21, 2013
PMS
Wikipedia defined PMS as collection of emotional symptoms, with or without physical symptoms related to the menstrual cycle. Several factors are identified with PMS such as irritability, tension and unhappiness.
I think I am having this syndrome now. Although I may not feel the tenderness or bloating as some experience, i am certainly irritable, tensed and unhappy. My emotional state is chaotic. I am not depressed but I am not also shouting for joy. I can sense the irritation in my words and actions.. I am quarrelsome when I'm having this. It feels like I should be the axis of the universe, but deep inside I know it is wrong to feel that way. I want Baba to come home, although I know she is scheduled in the first quarter pa. I want everybody to take care of me. I want a hug. I want to feel special. I just want a lot of things.
I wish this will get over soon. I don't want get into a fight or anything and I want to do my job, finish my deadlines as fast as I can and enjoy my weekend. I hope people will get to understand if i am masungit and needy.
Parang KSP (Kulang sa Pansin) lang.
Labels: my thoughts exactly, relationships, wala lang
posted by jaded fool @ 2:34 PM
Monday, November 18, 2013
Life changing
Change is the only permanent thing in the world.
As i sit on my bed, my mind wandering in the past. I have come to understand that experiences will change you. Heartbreaks, failures... They will mold you to become the person you are destined to be. You will meet people who will help you or mold you to become your present you. They may stay or they might leave.., but one thing is for sure, you will never be the same again.
I would like to believe that i haven't changed. That I am still the old connie.. But who am i kidding.. I have grown up. I have become resilient to the things around me. And no matter how hard i fought, i know my perspective on things have changed. But there are just things tht you don't outgrew. I still hate being left behind though.. I hate the feeling it brings. Deep inside i am still the girl who is idealistic and a sucker for happy endings. I am still afraid of rejection and things that are unknown.
I seldom take the risk cause i hate to lose/fail. And there is this one risk that i am about to take. And it means leaving my comfort zone. Leaving my family and be somewhere else. I am frightened to be in a foregin land. I know i would be taken cared of, i would be provided for.. Ewan.. There are so many things in my head.. What if it didnt work out? What if i belong here...? I still have time to decide.. Hopefully when the time comes for that change, i have made up my mind and i am a 100% sure of my decision. Sabi nga nila, ito yung desisyon na dapat kaya mong ipaglaban ng patayan.
Lord, ikaw lang nakakaalam kung saan ako nararapat at kung sino ang tao na para sa akin. I know you will guide me in this decision with your grace and light. Amen.
Labels: family, God is good, moments, relatuonships
posted by jaded fool @ 7:12 PM
Saturday, November 16, 2013
....
I hated her for breaking my heart. I hate her more for breaking yours. -me
Labels: moments
posted by jaded fool @ 6:43 PM
All is not lost
A great tragedy has happened to my country. A super typhoon destroyed eastern visayas, killed thousands and separated families. The magnitude of loss is heartbreaking. And i hate that feeling. Loss. Death. It is something that would forever make you incomplete.
I have loss loved ones in the pass.. Some of them temporary and some are permanent. It is heartbreaking to be left behind. I remember crying.. Emotional distress and yes, even depression although i was not aware i was depressed that time. But friends would lend a hand and even starngers would waste time listening to me whine. That is the sense of humanity i guess. To give others when they have none. To listen. To speak. To share.
With the outpour of assistance, i am sure my fellowmen will overcome this. They will restore and rebuild the life that they almost lost. It will take time to heal but do know that you have already overcome half the battle. Bangon. Tandog. I have faith in you.
Labels: God is good, my thoughts exactly
posted by jaded fool @ 6:42 PM
