Ground Zero
Well basically I missed my stop and now i'm at Bishan...i just got on the bus...it's been a long day, with one failed test and one good practical. Basically, i'm standing on the bus now typing this entry, well now sitting..I had dinner with Joshua. We were discussing the good and bad players in our band...not a pleasant topic. Not sure about my own section but i'm worried for at least 3 of ours. Hopefully they catch on fast or rebuild their confidence. My stops comin up...going to step out in a bit...darn traffic light. Well guess now i'll get off...
Â
Well i got home and had my shower and now i'm sitting down to continue this entry....well if theres anything to continue with really. I'm all out of things to say....well back to reading..
7/30/2007 09:31:00 pm
Sunday, July 29, 2007Smoke on the water..
Well I didn't sleep all Saturday night to pay back the lost hours of the day. I did all my filing and my tutorials and got it binded after mass. Mass was good today. Good intonation, good balance. It was good everyone!
I feel slightly more moralised but i think tomorrow will be a drop again because of the two tests, of which math i'm sure i'm doomed.
Â
Smoke on the water........fire in the sky...smoke on the water...*electric guitar melody*
Â
Well I've studied math and MBIO practical today. I hope I do ok tomorrow. If i can pass math tomorrow, it'll be a plus though.
Â
Off now
7/29/2007 10:49:00 pm
Saturday, July 28, 2007What’s left of today...
I spent almost the whole day sleeping...played a couple of games and I tried to make my day useful with no use....Anyway...Yesterday's concert was appealing and motivational..and I really enjoyed it. After the concert went out with the gang again. This time with the addition of Mitchel and Janet. Once again we were at Macdonalds crapping till really late. Got home around 12 ++ and fell straight to sleep. Felt like i was holding an anvil on my head. Really heavy headed and it was like .....boom ..asleep. I hope to make the best of tomorrow. I think i'll jump after mass or practice to finish off all my studying. Mbio pract test on Monday together with a CC test for math which once again i'm likely to fail. Now i'm watching Ghost rider with Mum and bro. The last time i watched this...was with Joven on his birthday in the company of Brennan. The company of brothers...
That old familiar feeling is back to haunt me , as i predicted it would. What wouldn't i pay for that old familiar feeling to be permanent. Its been less than a year and I'm already feeling the effects of it...
Although i doubt i have much chances left this time since my company is not exactly the most probable group to find one...Bleagh....
7/28/2007 11:21:00 pm
Thursday, July 26, 2007A long day
Quite a long day today, basically class as usual, stoning during math, as i stare at Mrs Kwoh as she rattles on about math and i don't understand. Not pleasurable...
Went to see Dr Eddie to get my essay vetoed before tomorrow. It was ok according to him. Well after that Norain called me to tell me she needed someone to take care of her instrument. I picked it up and went on to the band room. Slacked in the band room and had chicky rice for lunch. Went up to the band room again and played NFS : carbon, A few people asked me to teach them to play flute or at least give an introduction. We have... Pei Jun, Ling li and Han Yong lol...so far none were that promising except Han Yong who could at least reach the notes.
Â
Well band was as usual, strangely i thought my intonation was good today at least...after band and i left and took 74 with Ling Li and Katherine...Kat realized at the stop at KAP...she lefgt her phone at the band room.....we got off the bus and went back to KAP to get the key from Christine and then later DTed it back to NP and up to the band room. We found her phone...in her saxophone case......
Â
We DTed it back to KAP where I am sitting as i type this with a nice hot chocolate sundae in front of me.
7/26/2007 11:16:00 pm
Wednesday, July 25, 2007Late nights, early mornings
I'm still awake yall, I was up doing my log book but otherwise useless stuff were before that haha. I haven't blogged in a while but heres the updates. My group scored the jackpot for MBIO presentation. Congrats guys!
Pretty much nothing more other then that I failed my math test and would probably just pass my chemistry prac. O well.. no point dawdling now haha. Sleep time.
7/25/2007 02:24:00 am
Sunday, July 22, 2007National Treasure
Today I feel really shitty. I didn't sound good at mass and neither did I sound good at practice. I feel so crappy....sigh...   Â
Apparently my happiness doesn't last. I came back and did math online questions and now I'm watching national treasure on TV. Sigh...If only life could be that exciting. Too bad we live in a world with no excitement.
7/22/2007 08:43:00 pm
Bored
I don't know how many times the title bored has appeared on this blog haha.
Well todays events were not exactly fun but interesting at the bare minimum. Woke up to BF2 fun...went to school for breakfast with Kexin,Min Si, Ling Li and Eileen, Mitch was late so she came later. Kexin wanted to buy harry potter so i told her that SIM had a popular and she walked over to it and came back with the book without needing to queue at all. Suprising. Through out the time her eyes were on the book from then on i guess haha. *hope you're enjoying the book, but don't spoil it for me*
Went out with the trumpeters for the rest of the day after band. Band was quite fruitful at the least. Liked the songs being played to some extent. We were supposed to celebrate Greggory's birthday. We wanted to eat Kebabs but ended up at Banquet where Greg's face was smashed with cake haha. Saw John Teo there too haha. Hope i'm not late for Mass later. I hope i don't screw up today.
I feel so at home whenever i'm with the band. Although i'm not very close with anyone, except maybe Hali, I feel that everytime i go for band I feel happy. Its like being part of a family again. No longer the soloist but part of something bigger. Its just a feeling I guess. Well best to get to sleep.
I pray for the fellow that was hospitalised as we were in the cab home. The poor chap got into a motorcycle accident off AMK central. I pray you recover well. I pray for Squirrel. I don't want her to die! Like i said earlier although she's just a cat, its like losing a family member. She's getting thinner and thinner and more sickly everyday. God spare her....
Sigh...I hate pressure.
7/22/2007 01:21:00 am
Saturday, July 21, 2007No title
http://kevan.org/johari?name=BenCT
As usual still wanting to here stuff from friends out there if any of them still read this space. Thanks Kexin and Alfred! For replying haha. Anyway I'm just so bored these days. No game satisfies...no amount of laughter satisfies....I need to go out and have a life maybe. Do something interesting. Play paintball...or go mountain climbing..something other then sit down to study or play games or music. Stiff bored thats what i am. Thank god i'm still not at the possibility of "This user is not responding due to complete and total boredom" that should be the ultimate stoning level.
7/21/2007 07:36:00 am
Friday, July 20, 2007Early mornings, Late nights
Band was FUN today. I enjoyed myself. Sight reading was actually fun i don't believe it. Well anyway i finished the MBIO presentation slides and finished the cats proposal. Just gotta worry about that physio essay. Damn i can't believe i lost it all.
7/20/2007 01:19:00 am
Wednesday, July 18, 2007Moodless
Well I did Alfred's test , so heres one for him and for any readers that do pass by.
http://kevan.org/johari?name=BenCT
I'm quite interested into what other people think of me. Well anyway, I major bummer today. Laptop crash and lost alot of data like my presentations and essay..i gotta do some major fast work. If not i'm in a tight spot of trouble. Tommorow is THURSDAY YAY!
7/18/2007 10:33:00 pm
Tuesday, July 17, 2007Stone heavy hearts
You know I can't bare to look at squirrel these days. Knowing that in about 2 months time she'll probably be dead. Mum say's she's contracted bone cancer. I wish that it wasn't so. For if there is one I thing I hate the most is the death of a friend and family member. Although squirrel is just a cat she's like family and a friend. Like all the other pets in this house, every one of them are close to our hearts. I can't bear to see her die. God spare her life….
Â
I can barely keep my mind off things but because it's raining tonight..
Well, I love a rainy night
I love a rainy night
I love to hear the thunder
Watch the lightning
When it lights up the sky
You know it makes me feel good
Â
Well, I love a rainy night
It's such a beautiful sight
I love to feel the rain
On my face
Taste the rain on my lips
In the moonlight shadow
Â
Showers washed
All my cares away
I wake up to a sunny day
'Cos I love a rainy night
Yeah, I love a rainy night
Well, I love a rainy night
Well, I love a rainy night
Â
Ooh-ooh
Â
I love a rainy night
I love a rainy night
I love to hear the thunder
Watch the lightning
When it lights up the sky
You know it makes me feel good
Â
Well, I love a rainy night
It's such a beautiful sight
I love to feel the rain
On my face
To taste the rain on my lips
In the moonlight shadows
Â
Puts a song
In this heart of mine
Puts a smile on my face every time
Â
'Cos I love a rainy night
Yeah, I love a rainy night
Ooh, I love a rainy night
Yeah, I love a rainy night
Â
Showers washed
All my cares away
I wake up to a sunny day
'Cos I love a rainy night
Yeah, I love a rainy night
Well, I love a rainy night
I love a rainy night
Well, I love a rainy night
You can see it in my eyes
Yeah, I love a rainy night
Well, it makes me high
Ooh, I love a rainy night
You know I do, yeah, yeah
I love a rainy night
Â
I love a rainy night
You can see it in my eyes..
Â
I love this song. At least for now. Man still feel sad…Dr Feelgood I need you!
7/17/2007 11:29:00 pm
Monday, July 16, 2007Bad days and long nights
k. 7/16/2007 04:43:00 am
Friday, July 13, 2007Sickness
For once in a VERY long while..I'm officially sick. Bad sorethroat. I seriously screwed up Taize today like hell.. I woke up late with damn joint pains. I rushed down to church and spent $6 on a taxi fare. I screwed up my playing and I didn't sound good at all. Humiliation!
Tommorow, Wedding and Band practice. Look forward to breakfast with the section BUT like all times when you are sick you lose ONE important thing…The right to eat good tasting food which is other oily, heaty or any sort way you want to describe. That means no fried foods for breakfast …bah….I hate being sick.
I feel bored…bah…
7/13/2007 10:53:00 pm
Wednesday, July 11, 2007Titleless
My mind juices are barely flowing…I'm just too bored with life now. Here I am sitting in the NP convention centre basement waiting for math class. On my side of the corridor are us guys and opposite us are a group of girls from MO 1 or 2. Nah none I like there though. Anyway its quite boring now. Nothing exciting. Bored of the same old games and I'm still stuck with the same old life. A change in life would be really handy.
Â
Well I've got a long week ahead. Friday Sax lesson and Taize, Saturday wedding and band pract, Sunday, Mass and Father Fossion's mass practice. Quite alotta things to handle. Apart from the slide compilations I have to do. Bah bored…feel sleepy now.
7/11/2007 02:46:00 pm
Tuesday, July 10, 2007Days past
7/10/2007 06:44:00 pm
Monday, July 09, 2007Yet another late night at NP
Today Chem ended 1 hour early. Joe , Tim and I played Winter Mile war for 1hr 20 mins and then I went to the band club house where I still am now. I've added another 300 words to my 1100 word essay. I'll be hitting that 2k word count soon. Haha…
Band will start this Friday. Quite looking forward to meeting up with my section after what seems like 2 weeks of not meeting them. Haha.
I'm quite hungry..the last thing I ate was at 12.30pm…a plate of nice hot cheesy, spicy carbonara. Mmm…
7/09/2007 08:03:00 pm
Saturday, July 07, 2007Late nights
I might be getting my old job at Aviva back due to lack of hands back there. This means I'll be less free and more busy if all goes as described. I hope I can manage the hectic schedule. Life just isn't tip top. Ever since the day I gave up…..on that yeah…
When I think whether I've got over it maybe I have but some part of me just wants to relive the moments of happiness or to at least have it. The feeling is euphoric and indescribable even if falsely believed in. It's a feeling unique to the person who feels it. Sigh..I need to make an appointment with a Dr Feelgood or I'll be joining Mr Feelbad soon.
It's not that I'm feeling sad. In fact I should be at a high but I ain't because it just isn't there….
This cough isn't making things any more comfortable. Bugger off….
Well if I make enough money I just might upgrade my instrument without dad's help. What matters more to me..the XG station or…a better flute?
Choices like these are hard to make….but the better side of me knows I want a better instrument. I crave to be able to play well..I won't be obsessed but I will always want to be a good player. To be looked upon with awe and people to tell me I've done great and I myself KNOW I've done great. It's just not the same when people tell you you've done great even if you know you didn't…..bleagh…..
Â
Sleep now….wow two posts in a day…and its only 10.56pm.
7/07/2007 10:56:00 pm
How it goes now
Well, nothing new going on around here, I just finished the Chemistry tutorial…the wedding this morning was not exactly exciting neither was lunch..I wish I could skip Sunday cuz I'm just too damn bored but I know I shouldn't sometimes I wonder why I enjoy the company of a certain group of friends in relative to time. It's a wonder yes?
I'm feeling a bit off color today….where's Doctor Feelgood when you need him/her? I just don't feel motivated more of all. Bored…
7/07/2007 04:24:00 pm
Friday, July 06, 2007The day end
Well not really the most exciting birthday I've had..In fact rather the most boring birthday I've had in 17 years of life (yes 17 already ahaha). While yes I still have the friends who wish me a happy birthday, thanks everyone! I have had a good day, although the fact I got a presentation or two to worry about next week with a test on differentiation on Monday…which is more or less so…crappy.
I'm not particularly excited about tomorrow's belated celebration but…I'm more excited about the resume of band NEXT week. I miss playing music with my fellows and interacting with the people I love most.( apart from family ). I'm also eager to learn more and to set things straight when it starts again. A new age for new responsibilities. Good bye 16 hello 17…or more like 17 +1 day in about 10 mins time haha. Time to sleep…
7/06/2007 11:50:00 pm
Welcome to age 17
I'm 17 today.Wee…Just had a super long chat with Kexin,Jeremy,Karmen and Mitchell. Ahaha it was very fun. I'm tired time to sleep now.
7/06/2007 12:46:00 am
Tuesday, July 03, 2007Pressure
I'm so frickin stressed out here. I've got 3 projects due soon. Mbio on Monday, Chem (maybe) on Tuesday and Physio on that day too. A 2k word essay on GM foods safety. Then co-ordinating my own birthday on Saturday. God help me out here. Why am I under so much pressure? What did I do to deserve this!
Â
Tests, Projects, Engagements in church, choir practice. God help me!
I so want band to start but with this staggering work load how am I going to get everything done with CCA included?
This better not be this bad when band resumes or I'm going to frickin die…
7/03/2007 11:42:00 pm
Sunday, July 01, 2007The day it ended
