Vanilla Twilight
I'll watch the night turn light blue,
but its not the same without you
because it takes two to whisper quietly
The Silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
Because the spaces in between my fingers
Are where yours fit perfectly…
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This is a very nice song…that just the two verses I love the most from it.
Really cheesy but it touches a spot.
Ever feel really alone in the world?
Like although surrounded by friends and people, you just feel cut off…
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I feel as though those I trust and count on to do things are letting me down one by one.
It's a series of disappointments that just kill morale. Anger doesn't solve anything (Thanks, Grace Kelly)
Stage band is over and I finally got space to breathe…however life isn't that simple for me…
A lot of things to do…things wouldn't be so bad if I just didn't…
Sigh…
Disappointment/s – Only hurts when the people who cause it are your friends or those you trust
My Mood is really crabby now and I'm really tired..perhaps maybe this short tinge of "emoness" is really just a passing moment..
Cause I'll dose off safe and soundly....
Self fulfilling prophecies are such that if one thinks one is or will be, the result will come true.
If you believe that something isn't the problem it probably wouldn't be. Its like what Lance always says about ignorance.
To be ignorant is Blissful
To be too blissful, one has probably done a Joey.
I wish i could be ignorant. I know there are problems in my life that I want to correct and change, perhaps get a second chance to make things right or to turn back the clock.
Life just isn't for the ignorant..its a harsh reality.
Labels: Crabby, Mood, Serious, Sleepy, Stressed
10/29/2009 11:42:00 pm
Friday, October 23, 2009Grace Kelly Craze
Well Hey Hey Hey,
Now at the current moment, i'm sorta addicted to that Mika Song "Grace Kelly"
Completely arranged it in a single day it sounds good so far...the band slaughtered it on first try though...a huge screw up there...but no matter...if its selected we can do it again...
IF*
On Tuesday after choir pract, I happened to see Vanessa Ng outside church..
Its been awhile since i've met her excluding the one hello at Cathay by chance.
This time we didn't acknowledge each other...she sat at the bus stop for about half an hour...she didn't get on any bus...
And me the idiot..didn't even talk to an old friend....
I feel bad...but o well maybe next time..
First week of school down...tonight, Week Of Horrors at Night Safari...wonder if its any good...
This Morning's BIBV lesson was a great waste of time....we spent one hour listening to our lecturer talk about his blog...like wow...so interesting...then we listened to completely random stuff not even relating to the lecture in almost a thousand and one ways...awesome good use of time...
Genomics at 3pm..one hour more to go..
Lyrics - Grace Kelly
I wanna talk to you
{The last time we talked Mr. Smith you reduced me to tears
I promise you that won't happen again}
Do I attract you?
Do I repulse you with my queasy smile?
Am I too dirty? Am I too flirty?
Do I like what you like?
Yeah, I could be wholesome
I could be loathsome
I guess I'm a little bit shy
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me without making me try?
I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I tried a little Freddie
I've gone identity mad!
I could be brown, I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful, I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green, gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you walk out the door!
{Getting angry doesn't solve anything}
How can I help it? How can I help it?
How can I help what you think?
Hello my baby, hello my baby
Putting my life on the brink
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like yourself?
Should I bend over?
Should I look older just to be put on your shelf?
I try to be like Grace Kelly
But all her looks were too sad
So I tried a little Freddie
I've gone identity mad!
I could be brown, I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful, I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green, gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Walk out the door!
Say what you want to satisfy yourself, hey!
But you only want what everybody else
Says you should want, you should want
I could be brown, I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful, I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green, gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Walk out the door!
I could be brown, I could be blue
I could be violet sky
I could be hurtful, I could be purple
I could be anything you like
Gotta be green, gotta be mean
Gotta be everything more
Why don't you like me?
Why don't you like me?
Walk out the door!
{Humphry, we're leaving}
Kaching
10/23/2009 01:51:00 pm
Saturday, October 17, 2009It’s Good, It’s Bad
What can be both good and bad almost simultaneously?
Something that can bring an unequaled amount of suspense and surprise with every turn…yet make a person miserable?
Its four letters
What is it?
If I have readers, guess it.
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School starts on Monday….losing voice, runny nose, crappy cough…all the elements to make the start of term the most SHITTY start ever…
Today went out with Dad to send the keyboard and amp in to school for the perc ensemble to use for practice.
Conrad was actually behind us in his car but I didn't recognize him cause of his new haircut.
Anyway yeah didn't leave the house today…felt too crappy.
Spoke to bro on the phone for a while today. Some simple stuff, probably want to know what kind of questions he wants to hear from Jeremy Montiero.
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The band song that catches my interest…Symphonic Metamorphosis…difficult yet pleasing…I don't really understand the music but yet I like it.
Its just so interesting how Philip Sparke turned Saint Saens 3rd Symphony into such a marvel.
It turns from a simple 3/4 and 2/4 timing to complex timings of 3/1 and stuff like that. Its just so interesting, I just can't explain why.
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Anyhow, I'm gonna sleep early today..sick people need more rest…
10/17/2009 10:22:00 pm
Friday, October 16, 2009Touch Down!
New computer is excellent.
I'm sick again, how crappy is that?
Anyway, experiments going well i suppose. Just looked at Wednesday's gel result. At least some samples exhibit successful transformation sequences. Though today we're gonna have to run the plasmid DNA to double confirm.
Anyway, Stage band went Ok i guess. We're doing ok. Though still short on players...
I'm bored....sitting here in the lab waiting for the PCR to finish to do the gel later. Clarice went for lunch..I normally skip lunch at school anyway...saves the extra $$$.
Man...I hate falling sick...the whole "holiday" period i keep falling sick...sucks.
If i'm not sick, I'm injured...
Hate Coughs...
Soundtrack from Cloudy With A Chance of Meatballs is good...I like...
10/16/2009 01:21:00 pm
Tuesday, October 13, 2009It’s Coming!
Alright, today Clarice and I did the Plasmid Extraction and tomorrow is the day of truth...we have to see if the bloody bacteria even grow...hopefully they do...
Anyway the PC is coming tomorrow.
After finishing stuff in the lab, i'm heading off to Jurong to get the PC from Kor Kevin, then I'm gonna go home and set up the rig and see if my old IDE hard disk from the blown out desktop still works...
Then around 6 gotta head to school for stage band...sounds like a field day but theres gonna be alot of fun to be had in the next few days :D
GTA 4 max graphics is just a day away :P
10/13/2009 11:35:00 pm
Monday, October 12, 2009Saturday
Today's Entree is....
A bunch of photos.
So after the wedding mass on Saturday, we chilled at the Wedding Reception for quite a while. Stood there talking to John, Jess and Bren for a while.
Gabriel finished Cat class and came for a bite, Nic came and left for home to study.
So we stood there even longer...talking.
Vanessa happened to walk past the wedding reception so she hung around for the bit as well.
By the time we left it was about 4:10pm? The reception started at 3pm.
How the hell did that tree get into the void deck....
10/12/2009 09:31:00 am
Saturday, October 10, 2009The Grand Finish
My nation's only borders like around....my heart....
The grand finale of Chess. The Anthem.
OK anyway, so I'll live, this injury is just a minor setback. I look forward to the PC i'm getting from Kor Kev next week. Term starts in about two weeks. Kinda sucks to lose the freedom of just doing the project and slacking...but i suppose with every good thing comes a bad thing....
I probably slacked so much during the project period, i'll probably find it hard to readjust to studying for the term. No Matter. This is the final semester. Last and final leap. Before NS anyway.
So I'll look forward to finishing this semester. Forget past mistakes and take it all in stride of the heres and nows.
Lots of stuff to do though, Percussion concert coming up, 7th November, Rondeau on the 9th of January.
Lots of preparation to do. Not to mention the Christmas season is coming..that means carolling.
Today, i guess i got a huge update of music. Got all the new stuff i heard on 91.3.
Its gotta be the best radio station ever.
Anyway most of the tracks are ok, mum comment that modern pop music just isn't memorable.
O well...music for mum and dad just isn't the same as for us youngsters now these days.
Mika is the new craze for the moment, love grace Kelly. That's one of the nicest ones. I like "We are Golden" more though, thats my ringtone now.
I'm really bored these days. Haha...
My My its 1.44am...
10/10/2009 01:44:00 am
Thursday, October 08, 2009I busted my right foot....
Blardy hell...hurts to the highest heavens. I can barely walk. I feel like an old man hobbling around.
Anyway NAPFA today was screwed because it rained results were scrapped...I fail pull ups anyway and only bronze for standing broad jump...
So technically i got injured for nothing today....because I can now barely walk...I'M MISSING BAND PRAC BECAUSE OF THIS @!@!@
This sucks...I've got so many things to do but no today....your leg is out of commission...shit...
Anyway good luck to all those who are taking their exams this week. For those who took math today, hope you did yourself proud.
For all remaining papers just remember, do you best and let god do the rest!
Aye!
Good thing now is sorta impromptu holidays if not i don't think i can go to school...haha..
10/08/2009 06:13:00 pm
Saturday, October 03, 2009Trying out Windows Live Writer
Ok so I updated Messenger just now and decided I'd try this nifty little tool they called WIndows Live Writer.... Trying to upload some photos now..lets see what it looks like...
Behold the two boys. Max and Dragon, the Cats
Some random shots taken on wednesday before stage band prac. Qi Ping, obvious subject...but the cushion covered individual is none other than Rizuan.
Anyway this wraps up my post to test Windows Live Writer.
I actually had to use some basic html code to get the formatting done properly...kinda useful but difficult for noobs. You actually need to type <> to mean a space...how quirky...
10/03/2009 12:28:00 pm
Friday, October 02, 2009Happy Children’s Day
I guess...
Well anyway, the peeps at band were telling me i'm too old to celebrate children's day but I beg to differ...
No matter how old we are, even when we're 90 and faggoty we are still someone's child (even though our parents would have long since passed on by then)
So well today was alright I guess...nothing special happened today.
Our Rondeau Repetoire looks seriously boring...i think the audience will be sleeping.
I'm not worried about the difficulty of the music but whether it will be enjoyed...say also if Insomnia won't be used..I'm cool with that...but seriously...the music looks dead pan....DUH for most average people...even if we do do you raise me up...i seriously doubt...as a beautiful a song it is...its slow....and sleepy..
Sigh...I don't want to think that Insomnia won't be performed but never mind if it isn't...I'll just keep for some other time...this is my last year in NP so I wanna make sure i leave a mark...but if not I guess i can always bring it to somewhere else where people want to do it.
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Today, on the radio..I heard an interesting quote from one of the new paper new face contestants.
Life is 10% of what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it.
I guess its true...things are only shitty because of the way we react...or feel about the issue.
Chose modules this morning...Understanding the Media for IS....
That sounds interesting to me i guess...
Sometimes the things we want to do in life depend on how lucky we are or if we choose to take the opportune moment when it arises.
Things in this world all happened because someone was there at the right place with the right stuff AND at the right time to make it happen.
Though God can make anything happen, anytime and anywhere.
Well I'm done here for now...
Time to get some decent sleep...