Take it away Sara!
Sara Bareilles really can fit my life now.
I became the king of anything then i went into uncharted and now i'm in gonna get over you.
So lets take a look at Sara's song lyrics
Gonna get over you – Sara Bareilles
Goodbye
Should be sayin' that to you by now, shouldn't I?
Layin' down the law that I live by,
Though maybe next time
I've got a thick tongue,
Brimming with the words that go unsung
Simmer then the burn for a someone,
A wrong one
And I tell myself to let the story end,
My heart will rest in someone else's hand
My 'why not me?' philosophy began,
And I say
Ooh, how'm I gonna get over you?
I'll be alright, just not tonight
Someday, oh I wish you'd want me to stay
I'll be alright, just not tonight,
Someday
Maybe is a vicious little word that can slay me
Keep me when I'm hurting and make me,
Hang from your hands
Well, no more,
I won't beg to buy a shot at your back door
If I make it at the thought of you, what for?
It's not me anymore
And I'm not the guy that I intend to be,
I dare you darling, just you wait and see
But this time not for you but just for me,
And I say
Ooh, how'm I gonna get over you?
I'll be alright, just not tonight
Someday, oh I wish you'd want me to stay
I'll be alright, just not tonight,
Someday
I stand corrected,
I know too well
And now it's much too late for you for me as far as I can tell,
Oh I say, oh yeah, yeah, yeah
Ooh, how'm I gonna get over you?
I'll be alright, just not tonight
Someday, oh I wish you'd want me to stay
I'll be alright, just not tonight,
Someday
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So why do I like this song?
It used to feel really awkward to like a song about "The Day After" and it felt very anti climatical but no bars held here.
I love the feel and grove of this song, it's really boogie as far as i can interpret, something that perhaps someone with a good jive'n'groove could take a spin on.
Love the way she walks the bass in the song. Uber cool really.
So thank you Miss Baraeilles for the song, I WILL be alright. Just not tonight. Someday.
Though i think i want to change one line.
Ooh, how'm I gonna get over you?
I'll be alright, just not tonight..
Someday, oh I don't even want to stay
I'll be alright, just not tonight
Someday.
I think I've planned out my block leave. This is the last time I'll wear my heart on my sleeve. My future is set. I will spend the block leave to myself. I need to get back my vibes. After NS ends, I'm leaving this land to search for a better life out there.
Then it'll be Uncharted, all over again.
Its now 6.16am. Time for church.
9/26/2010 06:16:00 am
Put a lighter to it all
I need to buy a spare lighter in the morning.
It's time to start a fire!
Cue – Ryan Star's START A FIRE!
9/26/2010 12:25:00 am
Saturday, September 25, 2010Cello
Ok so bro's coming back today at 1.30pm. Gotta be at the airport...
I really want to scream at a Singtel person right about now but its 1.34am in the morning.
So this weekend I've to settle whatever i need to settle before the next book in.
Sunday is late at 8.27pm (What a weird time O_O) as it said in the RO.
Then again the other guys are going in at 6.18pm (Whats with the weird timings this week??)
Repair woodies
Pick up bro
Find Singtel shop and try to keep relatively sane about the lack of my receipt being sent to me for the whole work week.
It's late and Lance and I are going to run at 5am again tomorrow. So i best not be late.
I owe Daryl, Kachang and my team something, I need to find something to get them.
9/25/2010 01:39:00 am
Friday, September 24, 2010What’s the difference?
Life is like...an endless road.
Imagine yourself a driver on the road with nothing but your bare essentials. Clothes on your back, money to last you for as long as you need and no one to worry about yourself.
So you drive along this long endless road. You meet people and they jump on for the ride and eventually go back to the roadside while you drive on without them.
Sounds like a pretty lonely journey doesn't it?
Now imagine that of all the people that you meet on the journey to nowhere, you meet someone who'd you want them to stay on till the end. Someone who'd always be there and be understanding to listen, to hear, to hold and to cherish.
Who would you pick?
That's scenario 1.
Lets try scenario 2.
If life was an endless battle, whereby you meet new people with every step taken and you lose people in blood, sweat and tears with every step as well. If there was one person you'd keep fighting for now, who would it be? Know that if you give up, you'll lose the war. (Rather you die more or so if life WAS an endless war)
I really don't know how you feel right now. I really don't know whether its something I've done, failed to do or whether its just my fault.
Its painful to come back and realize that you're not happy about something and its probably me. I don't want to negate your feelings if you do have any negatives there but I want you to know two things.
I don't ever want to have to lose you, as a friend or otherwise.
I won't give up until the last drop of sweat, blood and tear has fallen from my eyes.
I don't know whether you feel the same way now or not but I only ask one thing.
Don't stop fighting.
I've no expectations to give because I have none.
I don't know if you still read my dust infested space because I'm almost yay certain that no one ever reads these words.
Endure the pain, endure the heartaches and endure the hardships because one day it'll all be worthwhile.
As John Mayer's song goes. Say What You Need To Say....
9/24/2010 11:20:00 pm
Sunday, September 19, 2010And The Best Thing!
Today was that I got to see you one last time before book in J !
Love you lots dear! This week in Tekong just started off better!
9/19/2010 06:14:00 pm
To The Sky
I woke up for my usual run at 5 today. Met up with Lance and we talked about our lives. Lance seems to be having serious problems at home. Especially his mother. Poor dude.
Rushed home to bathe after the run as after the run Lance and I talked till 6am. Then I updated my ipod with the new maroon 5 songs from the brand spankin new album "Hands All Over" (Somebody's gonna get these when she comes home...:) )
Today mass was the same I guess nothing new but I think I sounded awesome today, I really have no idea why. Jo was pretty detached today its like he was emoing...somethings wrong with him and he won't talk about it. Bren has no idea what is bothering him either...regardless I'll talk to him when I next get the chance to brighten him up abit.
After Choir I went to see the doc...damn the doc's bill is ex...$88 but luckily dad covered it and gave me $100 but he gave me the $12 balance. THANKS DAD!!
Dad just had a gig last night at Marina playing for the christening of a new ship. He played songs that I never imagined him playing. She will be loved by Maroon 5!
Wow? I never knew that dad did new music too. He was gonna do Jason Mraz's I'm Yours too but didn't have time to do it yesterday tho. The next time theres another performance like that down town I'll probably go see how it sounds.
After the Doc's office I met up with Lance again to go down to 313, although sadly I couldn't find what I was there to get I left my number there in case it comes in next week or something.
So Lance and I essentially just had Lunch down at 313's Superdog. It's not really half bad...the soft serve ice cream beats Macdonald's HANDS DOWN!! Eat that mac!
Went home and I've been sitting here ever since. I web cammed Brennan just now and had a nice long chat with him. Haven't talked in voice for a darn long time, its good to know my "brother" is doing fine abroad haha
On that note my REAL bro is coming back next Saturday. I hope I don't get RTed so i can go pick him up from the airport. Its been a really long time since I heard from him too. Can't wait to meet him again.
Now its 4.43pm and that same sianzation feeling is coming over me again..that book in feeling. Now the feeling sucks cuz I won't be able to access the net this week from camp unless Saiful lends me his Itouch and phone to use FB and Safari...I'll try my luck anyway.. J
Dear....This time last week we were out together...getting your shampoo and my biscuits at Thomson...gosh I really wish you were here in Singapore..
The feeling of booking in without seeing your face or hearing your voice one last time is just .... argh...then the fact I won't be out till next week Friday or Saturday to hear from you again.
Somehow perhaps you were right when you said, absence makes the heart fonder...I agree wholly on that now cuz even though we get the chance to talk and see each other online, it never beats having you physically here...
Oh just listen to me get all mushy and what nit... but I just can't help it...
Yesterday I listened to the song Vanilla Twilight before falling asleep, in short, the lyrics to the song at certain spaces somehow almost say exactly how I feel at this moment...
Vanilla Twilight – Owl City
The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you dear
'Cause I wish you were here
I'll watch the night turn light blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly
The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly
Hopefully you'll be back soon and I'll get a chance to talk to you once more before I go back in to Tekong for the week...
But in case that doesn't happen, I'll just say "Hope you stay safe in China and enjoy yourself, its 30 days to go now and I'll be looking forward to the weekend when I can next see you online and talk to you again. Love you lots dear...I'll be missing you terribly :( "
9/19/2010 05:06:00 pm
The Heartfelt Confessions Of A Citizen Soldier
Well lets just go thru what I did on Saturday first. I missed my run with Lance cuz I woke up late oops sorry man!!!
Then went to pick up Jonathan for the recording...PERRY AND KOON KIT WERE LATE!!!
Then after recording rushed down to Vivo to get my HTC serviced. I'm so damn pissed they can't even replace my set for me on the spot. That's just screwed up cuz the phone is only 1 week old -_-...
I then drove down ECP thinking I was late for the section outing but no...I was the earliest....Then came Elisse, Nicolette, Isabel, Mel, Si Hui and Belinda. Bryan came only much later tho, I can't skate for shit tho, I tried to learn but to no avail this time...I shall get it next time but thanks Elisse for helping me out while I looked like a dumb fool trying to skate though...(I kinda wished...someone else was there to coach me instead?)
Went to the Blue Lagoon for Dinner with the rest of the section before sending Elisse and Bryan home.
I must say I felt abit like a pimp or a sugar daddy before Bryan came cuz its like...a whole bunch of girls are with me and I'm alone with them..(though I wished you were there with me L)
The day was on a whole quite fun I guess, the flute bandits really made my day and the best thing to come home to?
Is to log on to MSN and talk to the girl I long to see and hold again in 31 days J
You really make my day even more special.
So ok it's the end of the post but yeah, I'm gonna make myself look like a big sentimental fool but i don't care what people say now...
- I think of you more often than I probably should because I just miss you that much.
- I feel the world is at peace just hearing your voice or reading your words. Seeing you is a whole new level..
- I feel really happy/proud/elated when people ask me if you were my girlfriend :)
- I look at the photographs we've taken together in my ipod at least twice a day.
- I look at the king card you made for me at least once a day.
- I think you look beautiful no matter what you wear, or in what state your hair looks. Cuz I love you just the way you are :)
- I can't wait till you return and I checked my phone daily to see if you were on msn or facebook. Though now my phone is spoit... :(
9/19/2010 02:38:00 am
Sunday, September 05, 2010Butterflies
You keep giving me butterflies – When I think about you, I'm really happy where we stand now and if anyone were looking at me now, they'd be thinking I'm crazy to be smiling at my computer screen typing words..
God bless the broken road that led me straight to you – I would never force you to adopt my religion ever unless you wanted to but there isn't one day I don't thank god for you.
There are things that happen in life that just make you just want to tell the whole world how lucky or happy you are.
It's ok for you to feel the way you did and I don't blame you. We all had our insecurities and the one thing I'm really glad for is that we know how we feel about each other now.
To hear your voice, read text from you or seeing you is like the one thing that makes the day seem much better.
Last night i must have smiled myself to sleep because I don't remember falling asleep but just smiling to myself like some mad git.
It really sucked that I didn't get to see you this week but that's why all the more I'm looking forward to seeing you real soon :)
Sigh, its really sad that you're going to be away during my graduation parade and that after next week I won't be able to see you till after block leave.. :(
This week is going to be a really tough week because NE rehearsals start this week, we're going to be up really late rehearsing most likely and there's 2 SOCs this week with 600 metre run downs.
But hey its not so bad since by the end of the week it won't be so bad anymore :)
9/05/2010 05:47:00 pm
Saturday, September 04, 2010Just The Way You Are
My legs and arms are killing me, all that OTOT last night really must have taken its toll cuz i'm aching to hell.
Today I didn't really leave the house at all. Here I am sitting at home at 8.12pm at night doing NOTHING on a book out day..awesome way to spend a weekend? No perhaps not.
Everyone's having exams oh well.
Anyway next Tuesday is IPPT so I hope I'm ready for it this time. I'm actually confident of it and I think I can do it this time.
Perhaps maybe I'll put this here as my memo to all to read (assuming anyone does read this dust infested space now) but here goes.
- I will never cheat or play with your feelings or heart.
- I will never enter a relationship just for the fun of it or for the sake of being in one.
- I would change my course set for myself in the future for you.
- You are special to me, you are the only person and I won't have eyes for another.