Nasty
Stay awhile and listen. - Deckard Cain
There's always people with problems and people who will never see eye to eye.
Went out with the cousins Foo on Thursday for nights out. Its no secret that the other guys and the cousins aren't on the best of terms and neither side seems to want to give in and forgive.
Why?
Stubborn? Scared of being the one who's weaker? I don't know...maybe a wizard does.
What i do know is that I stand in the middle ground. I admit I'm better friends with Gary and Desmond then the rest of them. Though I know if i'm going to survive the next what..7 months or so...I'm going to have to be friendly to everyone. Make no enemies and you'll have all the support at your behest.
So many conflicts at work...i really have no idea what to make of it. People are just so difficult.
Death solves all problems;No man, no problem - Joseph Stalin
Short of causing death to anyone but really yes. People are a difficult bunch. We have angry drivers, angry parents, angry friends or lovers. Nobody wants to say sorry or be the one in second place. Thanks to competitive world we live in anyway.
I'm good and understanding to those in my charge because someday when i have a son, i don't want him to be bullied by some other boy just slightly older or even younger than him just because that asshole held a higher position. How would my parents feel if they saw me being punished by a person no older than me? Then again...how would their parents and my parents feel about me punishing their son?
I believe that what goes around comes around. If you don't show compassion to others, one day people will not show compassion to you.
On the off note...today as i was leaving work with Alvin, Matt, Joshua and Jin Hao...some douche bag didnt want to give way to me on the expressway even though i showed my right filter light in advance. The bastard actually sped up and had the nerve to honk at me. Pissed off, i opened the window and pointed the finger at the bugger before driving off. Seriously...don't be an asshole and be courteous. Give way.
Tomorrow will be ...quiet day at duty. I have movies and food prepared to last the whole day. At least it will be a good time to catch up on my favorite shows at last.
10/21/2011 09:36:00 pm
Thursday, October 20, 2011Hello my old friend
Its been a while since I'd thought I might want to jot down my thoughts somewhere.
I've gotten my place abroad and by this time next year I won't even be in singapore. I'll be studying in the pastures of Brisbane,Queensland. Though that in note, I have some fears.
Fear of being alone. No doubt I'll be alone in a new place with no familiar faces. Dad will no doubt be with me for a few days but otherwise life abroad...far from home and any family for the tenure of study...well that's a long one..
Fear of detachment. Moving to a new place means new friends and new faces...I don't wanna lose my old friends but its a mandatory sacrifice for my betterment and for that of my family and future self.
Fear of under achieving. I've got a brother and sister who excel to great heights and making our parents proud. Can I do that? I've always been more of the under dog in the line...I aint an acer at studies, nor at my hobbies...I'm kinda just in the middle. I don't wanna be second rate.
Apart from concerns and fears of being alone abroad or studying abroad...are more personal concerns.
Its been a while but still the edge is sharp. Like that piece of broken glass after the mirror is shattered, it can still draw blood and hurt.
Then of course I know myself, there's no moving on if there's no will to move on. Well I know I'm moving on. That for any matter is enough for me. Though...the problem with finding the lock to your keys is that you need the right make, model and time to open the lock. In the word's of Micheal Buble's song..."I just haven't met you yet"
Worse still is when you think you might draw on a winning number and realize you were cheated. Then of course the worst is to be held as the backup. An old song that I woke up to this morning by Vertical Horizon. A familiar tune that I used to love. "Everything you want" .
Makes me wonder why I ever bit the hands that tried. Its not always about how you fit into others. Its about how others fit you in.
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